beautiful track. i feel like an endermite

you gotta yell sum shit over these PLEASE#

If this released in 2009 it wouldve been crazy

@xainjaya
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atlas & xainjaya - pastel figments

4 years since i last had medicine
aside from acetaminophen
new day, same question, "what hell is this?"
half-inch-cracked door, let the devil in often
cracked lid, bottle full of options
i fucking hate feeling nauseous
even pre-quarantine, i was inside all the time
need to exchange my jealousy for pride
 
need change
but don't want to
work on
what i need to
change, it's
hopeless
never honest
 
6 years of an uphill battle
same climb, same drudge, same judgment always
new vices, the cup left hollow
wall stained, same spot, puked blood in the hallway
last night, bed is a mess
last night's drink still fresh on my breath
past lives fills my shoes in my stead
i could swear that's not what i said

need change
but don't want to
work on
what i need to
change, it's
hopeless
never honest

mellow/dramatic

crying in this crowded hallway
silence, drowned out by an ekg
you cruel machine
i can’t help but blame this on you

under the guise of faith, i beg
oh, mother, i hope you’ve gone someplace nice
‘cause right now, this life
feels quite a lot like static

and one floor up from your life leaving
my father continues breathing

i find myself worried i didn’t know you at all
i find myself worried you didn’t know me at alll

produced by @xainjaya
https://streamerlinks.com/xainjaya

lyrics:

my eyes can't water but i look like i'm ballin
sum hot offa nail got me coughin
tryna b neutral but i got it my pocket
cameras on me like the mf office

high strung i cant stand bein passive
light up in my hand like a matchstick
im so sicc of the cappin
its a mutiny take it or mute me

tab on my tongue like im drinking from a can
we so connected at the crib u would think it was a LAN
gotta teach u not to bite when u feedin out my hand
U comment hella for someone who's not a fan,,, lol

like hahahahaha
i cant help but laugh
my fav punchline ya its trueee
u gettin stabbed right in the back

stabstabstab
love if u went out like that :3
itd Make my year to make u sad
And Id just like laugh Like hahahahahahaha

u know what i prophecized
it's not what my bottom line is
we'll meet on the other side
this home or in one just like it

u know where my problem lies
inside of my awful mind it's
like i've been lobotomized
can't think and there's no use tryin'

atlas - can't help but laugh

produced by @xainjaya
https://streamerlinks.com/xainjaya

lyrics:

temple of null on my speakers
i wanna leave the air for the ether
everything i do's either
blowing up in my face like a creeper

or it's perfect, it's flawless
separated in two columns  
i TOLD u, i called it
kissing heaven or i'm touching rock bottom

so which half of the dichotomy
do u wanna lie on to sleep?
get a taste and bite off a piece
you still leave the light on for me

the type of thing i might not have seen
eyes wide alive in a dream
we look down and can't see our feet
it's all just sky underneath

atlas - two columns

produced by @xainjaya
streamerlinks.com/xainjaya

"pastel figments" out now: https://open.spotify.com/album/32Degmbqyk8DIj0k3VgL7s

lyrics:

every crease, line, fold, mark, flaw
underneath my old parlance
it was easy holding on
WHEN the dream was just to change at all

ballroom mask, i'll wear that
it'll make my vision clearer
when i dance before my mirror

ballroom mask, pink and black
all my feelings just venetian
eschew the paramour beneath it

don't do that, don't do that
don't do that, don't do that
don't do that, it goes too fast
it goes too fast, it you pulls you back

into that habit
into that habit
into that habit
INTO that harsh dull sky

and you can't have it
and you can't grasp it
it's not intuitive enough
to pull the blue from all the fluff

AND seperate the clouds from what
you thought was keeping you so stuck
that wasn't what

atlas - ballroom mask

produced by @xainjaya
streamerlinks.com/xainjaya

"pastel figments" out now: https://open.spotify.com/album/32Degmbqyk8DIj0k3VgL7s

lyrics:

still got a ipod classic
it can only hold five songs--that's it

but what they pump into the airwaves is toxic
there's no future, why not sleep in ?

like a viper or a python wrapping
around your body 'til the mindrot seeps in

they caught me digging through the scrap heap again
one last piece all i need is a lens

one last piece all i need is a lens
one last piece all i need is a lens
i could see through it all, i could reach through it then
one last piece all i need is a lens

i spent a tense amount of time on
crimping down the nylon
wire draped along the pylons
dangling in the pond

behind our house
to keep the lights on
the generator's humming keeps me company
indicators buzzing but i'm stumbling

the sun would be nice
100 new lives all lived at once

you're gonna be fine
or somebody might who wakes up

atlas - ipod classic

produced by @xainjaya
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"pastel figments" out now: https://open.spotify.com/album/32Degmbqyk8DIj0k3VgL7s

lyrics:

took down a spoonful of sentiment
not trying to hear the end of it now

choked on your words
spit it all out

yea i spit spit spit spit it all out
opps mid mid mid it's a callout
top 10, locked in whatcha scared of? 
interests fringe fringe fringe like a haircut

rare blood, i'm a type AB
air bud, i bite if u try and play me :3
baby, j biebs w the cherubs
arrow through the heart then it's RIP

arrow through the heart then it's RIP
bad luck from the start yea u know me :/

walking under ladders
i don't listen
superstition
i'm not scared

superposition
i'm not there
but i am
idc

make shards of all my mirrors
black cats gather
'round my path

atlas - sentiment

produced by me + @xainjaya
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"pastel figments" out now: https://open.spotify.com/album/32Degmbqyk8DIj0k3VgL7s

lyrics:

this, my favorite potion
transmutation, open wide

stretch my wings, i'm floating
sickle teeth and golden eyes

dim water where i lost my light
in the grotto after dark last night
look around and the stars unwind
it's just void and a sea of eyes

atlas - transmuting myself into a bat

produced by @xainjaya
streamerlinks.com/xainjaya

"pastel figments" out now: https://open.spotify.com/album/32Degmbqyk8DIj0k3VgL7s

lyrics:

sunshine
sometimes rain

unkind
so cruel, your games

one time
learned to play

unwind
change my fate

sometimes
sunshine takes a little longer to come out

i don't mind as much this time around
it's a tranquil and forgiving comedown

sunshine
sometimes rain

unkind
numb my pain

sublime days dissolve to nights before you know
it happens slow

come time
things will change

tongue tied
damaged tape

atlas - damaged tape

Top bound .metlast

hi sorry this is really sad

get drunk to forget that i could jump
sober up and wanna do it twice as much
drink more, but it’s never quite enough
think morbid thoughts to feel more stuck

pass out in the morning when the light
floods over the empty void of night
and this sickness i can't fight
will constantly ruin my life

'til i pass out
on the floor again
and feel the air under my feet
i’m always falling in my dreams
but they aren’t nightmares
i think they’re omens
of what’s coming for me
i see demons in my sleep
then i wake up

get high to forget how much it hurts
come down, just to end up feeling worse
six years of therapy reversed
by every line in every verse

used to write poems just to cope
so ironic, now the rope
around my neck’s entwined
with every letter, every line

my writing
is getting better
but i’m certainly not
put me in the ground to rot
and don’t remember
please forget me
‘cause every memory you keep
will be more pain on you from me
than i can take

atlas - ipod classic

atlas

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