We Exist (NEW!)

The Final Fifth (NEW!)

Overwhelmed and understanding
This last rush of feeling new
They can't and won't try to grasp what I know
I dream of her falling
I live her absence
I own no memories
Opaque, I walk into every tomorrow
Knowing that I am entitled to nothing
But my perception of my grace
Everything happens for a reason

Falling faster, the winds rush upon me
Honoring the last choice I'll ever make

This bridge holds my reason
Aiming skyward to the river
Sweet Delaware
The changing of seasons
I'll be home soon
To the river
Sweet Delaware

The mountains behind me
A deafening wind spawned by the gap
From a flood prone town
With a name smaller than mine
I'm stepping up to what I'm known for one last time
One of a scarce few

See you soon

I'm inducting myself into statistics
Thinking back to all I was told
Dusk till dawn was empty
Night was and has always been the brightest 
My family and I turn to water
Underneath our bridge we flow
I'll meet you there

Falling faster, the winds rush upon me
Honoring the last choice I'll ever make

Brodt

Waves crash on the shore
Night falls and the tide rises
Hazy Skies among us
Glowing in the distance
A landmark towers and a light shines in the distance
Guiding those who've lost their way
By land or sea, we follow thee
I come up the coast 
And know I'm home
Guide me back
I'll travel hours and hours
Anything to smell the ocean air
My humble gateway to a better place
I know that I'm close
A breeze catches my back
Wherever I look you're there watching

Winding paths lead me nowhere
Out of sight, out of mind
Narrow roads going somewhere
Following my lighthouse guide
A better time, I have arrived

City streets to narrow roads
Cement to sand
You see the sun before all else
Keep us safe!
We breathe the sound
We hear the swells
New horizons
City streets to narrow roads
Cement to sand
A light as far as the eye can see
We beg you
Keep us safe!
We breathe the sound
We hear the swells
Light, guide me
A special place to call my own 
Life in my hands
No place from which I'd rather be

Winding paths lead me nowhere
Out of sight, out of mind
Narrow roads going somewhere
Following my lighthouse guide
A better time, I have arrived

Narrow Roads

I'll die a happy man knowing
I made the choice to never let her go
A thought finishes in a mind beside mine
Her eyes, a mirror. I see everything I am.
Everything I can be for her.
Composed and pure
She believes in me
All I am
I only want to be
Anything she wants to see
I'll always give my all
I'm alive in her mind
I could only ever be thankful
For the wait she endured

The pain and anxiety 
Were all my fault
Now linked in multiple worlds 
Language waved but still understood
United now, we're set in stone

Despite a gloomy sky
A Never ending gleam; a never ending dream
Should there ever be a pitch black night
She's the only light I could ever need

Stars are ever glowing
There's no audience showing 
Rivers forever flowing
No apprehension growing
With respect, pride, and courage
All I am is yours


All I Am

They say "It's the journey, not the destination"
As long as great company rides, I'll be fine
Where do you see yourself in 5 years from now?
Worlds away from here
Worlds away from a tradition
I won't let my dreams subside when I'm awake
I may need change, but I won't evolve to something beyond my means
This immaculate world with so many opportunities
Is something I can't let go unexplored 

The funny thing is that I don't have a place to call home
A place I grew up, a place I was raised
A place I grew stronger, and a place I aged
I'm proud to be the man I am today
I learned to behave, I learned my place
I learned to love, I learned my fate

Begin again each morning and take nothing for granted
Nothing is as drastic as it's made to be
Open roads with open skies as ceilings
Mountain walls hold more than cliche meanings
Forest doors open, glance out of alpine windows
Home is where you make it
I'll make it on my own

The funny thing is that I don't have a place to call home
A place I grew up, a place I was raised
A place I grew stronger, and a place I aged
I'm proud to be the man I am today
I learned to behave, I learned my place
I learned to love, I learned my fate

Home

I may not know where I am or why I'm here
But I've grown to understand who I am
If I'm the best person possible
I know I'll brighten those who surround me
So many times I wish I adapted sooner

If I breathe in deep
I can truly feel the world around me
Time is repeating
But there's more to life than a bull shit meaning

It kills me to know I wasn't always there for you
but I'm happy to be here now, I hope you are too
Should you need a hand
I'll be there, anything I can do
I'm so proud to have you as a member of my crew

SWAG

Should I fall
I know you'll be there to pick me up
We're nothing without each other
To the ends of the earth I'll have your back
Where ever we are, nothing will change
When I write home, the love is overwhelming
We've created so much to be proud of
We've created so much to look back on

It's an honor to call you my brother
My faith lies in you

If I breathe in deep
I can truly feel the world around me
Time is repeating
But there's more to life than a bull shit meaning

(I cherish all the things we've done together
And can't wait for the rest of our lives)

Brothers In Arms

It hurts. 
Fine for days at a time but still come back to this place.
Major aspects are perfect. You'd think that would be enough.
To fight the pain.
I'm not searching for change. It's an overwhelming and compulsive feeling.
I wish it settled in vain. I can't see color or light the same.
I wish that things weren't the same. You can tell me to wait.

Tell yourself "no news is good news",
But live the disappointment day to day.
Tell yourself "walk a mile in their shoes",
But the sinking feeling never goes away.

I could attempt to use metaphors
To explain what's going on inside.
A feeling dry and cold to the core.
I can't convey what I can't describe.
Waves of anger I can't push away.
Clouds of angst hover over me.
Winds of change carry my time.
The sun rises and she clears my eyes.
Now awake I'm open and I'm fine.
Anxiously await consumption of my mind.

Tell yourself "no news is good news",
But live the disappointment day to day.
Tell yourself "walk a mile in their shoes",
But the sinking feeling never goes away.

I could never make the leap
But should it end, I'd be okay.
But for now, I'll try not to be resented.

Another Me

I want to know what happened
It's years later and from what I can see, you're great
But it's still a weight on my shoulders
I was left abandoned
Left with people I knew but not like you
I'm not upset anymore
I just want to know what I could have done

I don't know if it was my fault
I can't help but assume it was
So many incredible things have happened since then
But i still wish that you were apart of them

(Was it my fault? Was it me?)

I understand people change
I know friends grow apart
But was it me?
Was it me?
I want to know if i still exist
Do you ever think of those memories?
Memories

My time was never wasted
I'm grateful for everything we shared
I'm good at letting the past be the past

Except for this

It still makes me sick to my stomach
I don't want things to go back to the way they were
I'm so happy with how things turned out, considering

I guess it was inevitable

I understand people change
I know friends grow apart
But was it me?
Was it me?
I want to know if i still exist
Do you ever think of those memories?
Memories

I hope you're doing wonderful
I wish nothing but the best for you
And I'm still here should you ever need anything

Considering

Deep in thought above my body I shiver
Is it cold or is anxiety under my skin?
Why can't I grasp a single feeling?
I'm constantly arguing with my reflection
I tell myself I'm fine cause I'm fine each time
I know i have support and willing help
But I swear I'm fine.
I'm fine

I'm realizing i have a problem in my head
I'm lying
No i can't
Understand
I'm realizing I'm preventing help
I know i should
Wish I could
Help myself

Fight myself everyday
I refuse to let this control me
But I'm so tired and alone in my mind
I just wish i could let someone in
But pride weighs heavier than I ever thought


I'm realizing i have a problem in my head
I'm lying
No i can't
Understand
I'm realizing I'm preventing help
I know i should
Wish I could
Help myself

Please send help

Please Send Help

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