Original Producer: https://soundcloud.com/natsu-the-producer

Shiki (Ft. Cloud-9) - Sky High Senpai (Prod by Natsu Fuji)

Someone asked me to upload the off vocal of this over on the Youtube vid ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_55480HYSM ), so here it is.
EDIT:
Re-uploaded to get rid of that minute of silence near the end. Not sure what happened originally, but it's gone now.

Can't I Even Dream (Desperation Mix Off Vocal)

Lyrics posted here: https://cnine.bandcamp.com/track/reset-yin
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lol the lyrics won't fit within the 4000 character description limit SoundCloud has oops
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Technically speaking there were no samples used here, 
but the piano part is the intro to "Blue Sea of 53 Minutes" from Zun's "Retrospective 53 Minutes" and the horns you hear midway and near the end are a take on "G-Free",  from Zun's "Magical Astronomy"

SPOTIFY

ReSet YiN

It's 4:40 AM and I'm up doing this

07/16/18
Updated to Spotify Mix
Picture by: Harada Miyuki
twitter.com/haradamiyuki1
pixiv.net/member.php?id=3219949
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Lyrics:
- Verse I
I hear a faint voice calling my name
from a girl much younger than the me of today
asking me to stay. If I could show her the way
to escape the pain to escape this place
Just run back to where you know your heart is
In my case I gotta remember where I lost it
and what caused this me to be a heartless
nobody searching for answers like Roxas
Da-Da-Da-Da! Heart Piece Found!
Strangely enough I feel weaker now
Life's a crappy game we're all forced to play
been buggy since day 1 but the patch will never come
How fun. I'm trapped in a vortex of memories
probably 'cause the level I'm on is still incomplete
But the exp I gain will help me on my way
so until I level up I guess I'm grinding everyday
- Pre-Chorus
That dark night that I embraced faded away
and it's high time that I let go of yesterday
- Chorus I
If you could grant just one wish for me
please let me forget all the memories
Make me believe in hopeless fantasy
Take me away to a world where we'll never meet
(Let me return to those days!)
- Bridge I
There's nothing to gain, but nothing to lose
(That's just how it goes)
Give me something to do or something to prove
(Would you let it go?)
Maybe one day again I could fall for you
(That's doubtful)  
- Verse II
Although we travel different paths
these twists and turns will lead us back
to one another, for better or worse,
but enough is enough there is just no more love!

I'd be lying if I said that I didn't think about you
Dying if I held my breath hoping that I could reach you
or maybe just believe you. I just need to leave you
see you, feel you from the inside, hear you
scream my name. Let me return this pain
Let's banish these demons all over the place

Aw damn, I'm thinking with the wrong head
Caught up in my feelings, waking up in the wrong bed
with the right girl at the wrong time, wait
she's the wrong girl and there's no time to waste  
My heart is racing, but my head won't face it
I'm being torn apart and I just can't take it anymore
So I grab a piece of me and make my exit
I'm walking out the front door
- Chorus II
If you could grant just one wish for me
would you just forget about me, please?
Let us return to those days
We could try to live, forget all our mistakes
(Let me return to those days!)
- Bridge II
And I'll apologize
for the fact that we'll never be perfect strangers again
For the fact that this game's over and how we reached the end
but we just didn't win. But we just didn't win.
- Outro
And while we did all we could do
I did not mean to fall in love with you.
And though there's nothing left to say
it hurts knowing I can never return to those days.

Return to Those Days

I make poor decisions sometimes.

I'll be back next weekend to upload an actual song

Lyrics:
Banished from my home at birth
Forced to become a resident of Earth
'cause it seems like all the humans here just want to see me in the dirt
Dealing with all this pain it hurts, but it could always be much worse
so I play the cards I'm dealt with and I will be finishing first
I don't care when I finish nor does it matter what I place
Life ain't a race, in fact, it's a chase. Happiness that's what I want to obtain
It's in my sights. It's in my reach at least so it seems
and with every little step I make I'm a little closer to my dreams
Now lets stay on track. Move forward and don't look back
Reflecting on the past is sure to blow away the path that we're treading on. These stepping stones were set in place to guide us home
with every step we take we demonstrate how much we've gone
how far we've gone. How much we've done and there's more to overcome
I will beat the odds no matter what it takes I will become
a success story. I'm gonna drown in glory
while the rest of you humans try to bring me down. Quit hating on me
I could go on and on about the shit that I've been put through
each and every individual that hurt me, but they're not (non?)-essential
That means my exes, fake friends, and all of my enemies 
are nothing to me, worthless to me, and everything in between
I no longer give a damn about the feelings that I'm hurting
with these words I'm spewing as I go with the melody
No harmonies to back me up, but I don't need them it's enough
that I am here by myself -
And now this song will fall apart like it was meant to from the start
'cause I can't keep forcing my brain to timing words like this
But I'll keep going til the end, which is coming soon
like Half-Life 3-
That didn't make any sense

I Tried to Freestyle

Follow my homie Shiki https://soundcloud.com/thetmns

Lyrics:
- Verse I
Racism is still alive and they will never let it die
No respect for human life these humans laugh as humans cry.
And as hard as we try not to feed on all the lies
the truth is hard to find and yet we're feasting all the time.
Now there are blue lights flashing in the rearview
Should you let them catch you?
White hoods turned to gold badges in hot pursuit
Will I be the next hashtag? 
A thought that occurs while I'm hoping that they won't shoot

Nobody is promised tomorrow today
God told me that applies only to the human race
The humans of this race are quick to take your breath away 
over something trivial such as drugs or money

Where are the people who supposed to be protecting me?
And why do I feel like they're the main ones oppressing me?
Rejecting me, subjecting me to conditions where I just cannot breathe?
Arresting me for no reason other than to fill their cemeteries?!


Nobody is promised tomorrow today
God told me that applies only to the human race
They'll kill you where you stand over where you're from
How you wear your hair or your complexion
Someday I hope to find myself in a better place
Thinking to myself "man, there's gotta be another way
a better way. Surely, there will be brighter days?"
We're waiting on the sun to shine

-Chorus 
So rain, rain go away
Come again another day
Don't you mess up our parade
March on til we're finally saved
from rain, rain that you spray
from the pistols on your waist
Baptize us in our blood
How much 'til you've had enough!?

- Verse II
Sorry that I shouted, but surely that's not a death sentence?
Oops, guess I was mistaken then. What in the fuck is happening
with this world that we're living in granted violence has always been
around, but for stupid reasons that serve to confound me
bullets from your guns, found their way into my back
desperately I tried to run, yet you claimed that I attacked
I was just a citizen, but you saw that I was black
but you saw that I was black. 
All you thought was that he's bad to the core
You refused to see me for what I was or could be
And the woman that I love and now my family
the only thing they have of me are memories
They're left incomplete as I'm dead in the street
Gunned down with no time to mourn
because by the next time another child is born, another soul is gone
How do we carry on? How do we remain strong?
We can't just sing this song, no

- Bridge
I won't let you fall apart
as hatred grows in your hearts
I'll be the light in the dark
and shine my love upon you.
And I will shine bright
just for you each night
and when we unite
the sun will finally rise!

-Chorus 


- Verse III (Shiki)
Ain't tryna be another statistic going ballistic 
I'll teach my son that it's most important to be authentic 
I'll tell him that he's not "being white" if he's a chemist
And watch your back because some people are opportunists 

My views are not the newest , passed on by my forefathers 
Had to watch their fam and friends slaughtered then became martyrs
With every verse I author I'm making a new charter
Burning my impression in the world yeah I gotta solder

Crushing these boulders news shocking like it's Emolga
Another brother pulled over 
Shots fired they leave him smoldered
Another file in the folder care less bout his diploma
These officers drunk off that Jim Crow aroma

The only thing that matters religion and skin color  
But personally I have much diversity in my brothers
And honestly I think if we really just loved each other
Instead of persecution there'd civil revolution

Let's put end to destitution, and this wicked institution 
Politicians preaching their pollution
Let's work to end it right now
I will proclamate loud
My quest for equal treatment of every person around

- Bridge

- Chorus

This World We Live In (Feat. Shiki)

Picture Link: http://reykun132.deviantart.com/art/Sonic-Advance-3-Photo-Remake-470107958

Tautology

(2016) GOOD END

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Lyrics/Original Arrangement: https://soundcloud.com/circusp
Production: Cloud-9
Vocals: Cloud-9 / Luka Megurine
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- Intro
I don't want you 
"It doesn't matter"

I don't need you
"It doesn't matter"

I'll forget you
"It doesn't matter"

"I'll play along. I love you"

-Verse I
Why can't it be perfect?
This love's not even real
Why don't I cry for you?
Love was dead from the start

-PreChorus
I don't want you
I don't need you
I'll forget you
It doesn't matter

I'll play along 
writing our song
we are perfect
"I love you"

-Chorus
No! This is all wrong!
Why aren't you gone?
I know you're not that strong
Don't listen to me
we'll always be
so perfectly happy

-Refrain
"I don't want you"
It doesn't matter

"I don't need you"
It doesn't matter

"I'll forget you"
It doesn't matter

"It doesn't matter"

-Verse II
The lies you succumb to
Blissfully unaware
I don't know how you can't
see through my facade

-PreChorus

-Chorus

-Bridge
And maybe, one day I'll
get to see your smile
In the arms of someone
who loves you, like I do
 
-Chorus

bandcamp

Lie (Ambivalent Mix)

Fun Fact:
My microphone stand actually broke while I was recording this

Lyrics:
- Intro
For now and forever (x3)
Now and forever

-Verse I
Time is at a standstill, so we can't feel
anything at all. Everything that you were taught
question if it was real and if time heals all
wounds you'd assume that we'd all be gods
Aw damn there's another faux pas
"How could this happen in a world that's on pause?"
you ask yourself, you call for help
but you're yelling in a mirror
regardless of what you thought

Just let it go. Wave it off. Tell it bye bye
Grounded to reality, you need to learn to fly high
Take the shackles off, you're a slave to your own mind
but I don't mind if you're late or you're on time
as long as you find what you are searching for
but don't you show up empty handed knocking on my door
If you find the key then you can let yourself in
but I imagine that'll never ever happen

You know, it's kinda strange
I can see myself in your eyes, as you're gazing deep into mine
There's nothing to find. I'm soulless in your sight
Or is it my sight? Fuck it, let's say hindsight
is 20/20, 40 love is more than plenty
but I want to keep on winning
game, set, match
my way, how about that
Now it's time to pour this Henny
I live fast, do you think that you can keep up with me?

And I know what you're thinking
but girl it's the weekend
and I cannot resist
Giving into temptation
if you think you can take it
just answer one question

-Refrain
Can you read between these lines
the ones you've crossed time after time?
Nobody's perfect, but I don't deserve this
if I'm being honest then you're just not worth it
but
 
-Chorus I
Now and forever, I'll always treasure
the time we spent together
and although you're not here for reasons unclear
I hope you'll remember
now and forever. The ties we must sever
remain in my broken heart
but now my mind's strong so I'll carry on
I won't fall apart

-Verse II
I said "Who the hell do you think I am?"
He said a piece of shit
I wrote a 'the' in front of it then thanked him for the compliment
'cause that's a new accomplishment considering your girls time is spent
disregarding the consequence of sucking on my confidence

Oops, did I just say that out loud?

Yo, I did you a favor, now you both have something to talk about
Call me what you want, but there was no I could figure out
the words she said to you weren't the sweetest things to escape her mouth

Oh man. Man, oh man. 
Deja Vu all over again
But now I'm on the other side of the mirror and things are clearer
Picking what I choose to remember. Heart's colder than December
No, wait. This doesn't feel right
Somehow, I failed to realize
that time is still frozen deep down in my heart
so that wound will never heal as long as time plays a part

I had the chance to break the cycle; love and hate, a violent spiral
out of control. Now where do I go from here now? I'm out my mental
acting superficial, careful there's no Mercy there to rez you
all I hear is bass and treble as I'm dancing with the devil
Welcome to the final level. Demons? There are kinda several
Shadows wishing to be free? Just tell them you are not me!
(error)(x8)
'Cause I'll have to face myself just to escape from this hell
I'm having a Golden Time, 'cause I'm haunted by my former self

Tell me, can you hear this sound?
I was lost but now I'm found
What goes up will come down (x2)

-Bridge
Goodbye my friend and thank you again
Though we don't talk I'm glad that we met
And while I'm not qualified just yet
still in the end I love you but

-Refrain

-Chorus II
Now and forever I'll always treasure
the time we spent together
and although it's unfair that I am not there
I hope you'll remember
now and forever. The ties we must sever
remain in my broken heart
I've picked up the pieces. I've picked up the pieces!
It's time for me to move on

-Outro
from now and forever (x3)
Now and forever.

Now & Forever

It's 6:20 AM
I should be asleep, but music

[1 Hour Instrumental] No Such Thing

Chill vibes
Late night driving / study music

Phantasmagoria EX

[Off Vocal] Now & Forever

iSiNG4U

Lyrics:
- Intro
Wave your hands from side to side (x8)
 
- Verse 1
Silence your applause and look past the flaws you'll see
everything you are and all that you could be
I know it's hard not to focus on these negatives
while we're in this dark place, but see, we're still developing
We're not quite happy, but yet, not sad
Feel a bit empty, but still I'm not mad
I'm not mad. Watch as I lie through my teeth
and fake a smile, I don't want you to worry about me

So I say
"and in due time, I just know I'll be fine"
I'll recite
from the script of life. I memorized all my lines
And I know
I'm a great actor do the scene in one take
One day, I say I will not fake
I will not hide behind my pride
I will not lie just so you won't cry
If I just take my time
I will find the happiness in my mind

*Piano Solo*

- Backing Vocals
I sing 
for you my love (x8)
I sing for you (x8)

- Pre-Chorus
I think I'd like to know you better
You are my hope, my light, my shelter
If only this could last forever
these little moments that I treasure
You are my

- Chorus
Reason to sing (x3)
Just find your 
reason to sing (x3)
Find your reason

- Verse 2
Have you ever felt the glow of the moonlight?
Danced the night away and gazed at the sunrise?
How do you know if you are truly alive?
Yes, your heart is beating but there's no reason why

Just throw it all away
Make up your mind today
Nothing will ever change
if you let it stay the same
That's just common sense 
To Hell with all of your arguments
I've been Hellbound, but you're Heaven sent
you helped me find my way

So allow me to return the favor. Don't thank me later
I'm your personal navigator flying over the haters
When you're used to looking down it's kinda hard to look up and see
Exactly where you want to go. Exactly where you want to be
Just close your eyes and listen to my voice, 'cause that will lead the way
whenever you are lost or whenever you need to take a break
Need a vacay? Grab your suitcase
You can leave it all behind and crash at my place

- Pre-Chorus
I think I'd like to know you better
You are my hope, my light, my shelter
If only this could last forever
these little moments that I treasure
You are my

- Chorus
Reason to sing (x3)
Just find your 
reason to sing (x3)
Find your reason

Reason 2 Sing

Tautology: Track 02

Keep 
it
Simple
Stupid

Lyrics
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Here's an open letter to whoever it may concern
I wrote this in the dark so it may be hard to decipher at first
Plus well, I’m kinda drunk so my handwriting won't be the best
Nor will my mindset but by the time you find this I'll have gotten rest
It was finally getting colder so I grabbed my favorite jacket
I was basically dancing as I made my way across the campus
And tho I don't smoke, I bummed a lucy off the roomie
So I lit it up and took a puff, hated the taste, but here's to us
This love is killing me! It's kinda like this nicotine
Addictive to a fault, but in the end I'm better off 
Without it
It's toxic and that will never change at least
I doubt it
Regardless it still brings me relief
‘Cause all the pain inside deep in my mind
It seems to fade whenever you're in sight 
And I feel uneasy as I realize what you mean to me
So I'm breaking this habit so the ends will justify the means
Hello? Girl, this better be an emergency
Well, since it's not you've got some nerve to end up calling me
Just lose my number. I'm tired of being burned asunder
By the fires that make me wonder. Those words I think that they stunned her
But I'm past the point of giving a damn. No more sitting around, I'm making a stand
Like a Jojo, not Mojo, so you know no monkey business. You let go
Of everything that you had and everything when you chose
To grab a hold of the past the door to the future has closed

And like lambs to the slaughter I'm led down the altar
But I will never call her my wife
"Don't you cry since you're not hurt"
The words that I told her as she showed her true colors

Back in present day I'm here living my life
I've moved on from those times and now I'm chilling like ice
My heart is torn between these choices and I just can't decide
Between the money and these honeys how should I spend my time?
They say they love me but it's funny I see right through the lies
But with the Henny that's up in me and these wonderful thighs
Oh I don't give a damn. Call me uncle Sam
'Cause I want you. Yes you.  Do you know what we could do?

"Nothing is like before!" and it's better that way
I'm no longer trudging through every day with you on my brain
I erased that pain or so I thought yet it persists the same

Ok now pause for a minute. Gotta make sure I took care of all my business
One bad decision is all it takes for us not to be forgiven
Can you live with it? All the pain that you caused right before the biggest
Decision of your life. Wasting all of our time
Just give me a minute. Gotta make sure the stage is set for the finale
You didn't actually think I was clueless you were just hoping I'd be
So naive and not think. I believe your story

Like a lamb to the slaughter she's led down the altar
With the thought that I'll call her my wife
But nevermore, you're not who you pretend to be
The girl I loved was nothing but an act to deceive me
So I’m leaving. You didn't think I'd ever know

And like lambs to the slaughter I'm led down the altar
But I will never call her my wife
"Don't you cry since you're not hurt"
The words that I told her as she showed her true colors
Like a hit dog that hollered you're left at the altar
A sad bitch that wandered astray 
All your sins crawl on your back as we’ve reached the last act
This play's almost over
It’s almost over

KiSS

The actual work time this 30 second track took was a bit closer to 40 minutes actually. I gave up with time left
I may or may not finish this

Sample used is 'Small & Significant' by Nano

[1 Hour Instrumental] This Road

[Off Vocal] 9 Desires

Happy Halloween
Watch out for yanderes and never stick your dick in crazy

Lyrics:
-Detective:
I know you've been through a lot in the past few days son, but I still need your help with something. In order to make sense of all of this, we need to know what happened during the time that you were alone with her. Are you up for this right now?

"Yeah, that's fine...I can...I should be fine, yeah. What do you need to know?

-Detective:
Everything son. Everything that took place within those 40 minutes.

“Alright. I went to her house and-”

-Verse I 
Talk to me
Tell me everything that you might like from me
I'm listening
I assure you your words won't be lost on me
"Just follow me"
She spoke with such a smooth demeanor
as if the words were just so beneath her
She seems so close yet I just can't reach her
In a secret torture room she hid the bodies of her victims
tossed them down a well to dispose of them just to keep em hidden
She's unhinged, mind broken, and she's out for revenge
Oh what happened to you
my Sonozaki?

-Detective:
An underground torture chamber, huh?
That does line up with what we know so far. If you’re feeling uncomfortable you can stop

“No. No. I’m...fine”

-Detective:
I see. So, what happened after that?

-Verse II
From the shadows of this doom I hear a voice call out to me
I turn my head to view a room and it's her sister that I see
Locked away. It's been days but still she's alive
but in a state of decay. I'll make sure she survives
She breaks down into tears tells me that it's felt like years
I tell her have no fear for as long as I am here
by your side I won't let you die
but from the corner of my eye I see her
my Sonozaki

-Detective
So, she hit you over the head with a blunt object while you had your back turned and when you woke up you were strapped to that table we found you on?

"Yeah"

-Detective
Hmmm... That should be enough, but just to be safe, tell us anything else you can remember

-Verse III
Face to face with an absolute wreck, my
words are meaningless. She's lost her mind
She tells me not to fret as I won't die
Not just yet the timings just not right
(And then she said)
There's only one way out of this dungeon
The time limit’s long gone. We're surrounded
She picked a hammer up and she swung it
“If you didn't already know I'm not your Sonozaki”

-Detective
And then that’s when we found you, when you woke up, correct?

“That’s right”

-Detective
Did she say anything after that? Anything at all?

“Yeah, she did.
She told me if I ever see her again, don’t come near her
She’s not my Sonozaki”

Sonozaki (園崎)

oh hey
have some feel good music

- Lyrics
I'll never share my heart with you again
I'll be the last one laughing in the end

The time it keeps on flowing
showing no signs of slowing
down, not now
and there's something after you

Moments pass, we're waiting
Darkness falls, we're praying
for the light
I'm hoping that it shines on you

Cyber City

The last song of 2017. I'll catch you guys in the new year

Lyrics: Nano
Production: Cloud-9
Vocals: Cloud-9

I had to sing this 2 octaves lower than I had originally planned because I couldn't quite hit the higher notes. 
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- Lyrics

-Verse I
All of these cuts and bruises that will fade away
I act as if they've made me that much wiser
Another night I sink into my lonely bed
to shut out every sound as I scream inside my head
And like a turning wheel the time keeps moving on
The pain from yesterday is now just so long gone
And as I fall into another aching sleep
the crying voice I keep on hearing echoes deep

-Chorus I
It's every shameful fall every mistake that I've made
These are the scars that have brought me where I am today
Another false conception that I fed myself to escape reality
The only lie I see is now inside of my head
The only truth slips through my fingertips in the end
Let me keep on dreaming as I watch the days just pass me on by

-Verse II
I turn another page of my biography
and all the mysteries begin to fall in place
I wonder why I wasted so much precious time
I'd never find my life inside this cluttered room
I'm letting go today

-Chorus II
They try to measure the depths of all the scars that we have
and try to prove to us that life could be so much more
but if you'd only stop and take a look around you'd know we're all the same
And as I keep repeating all the days in my head
It's like an endless movie that has no happy end
but the scene goes on without an answer and I will cry

-Chorus I
It's every shameful fall every mistake that I've made
These are the scars that have brought me where I am today
Another false conception that I fed myself to escape reality
The only lie I see is now inside of my head
The only truth slips through my fingertips in the end
Let me keep on dreaming as I watch the days just pass me on by

Reminiscence EP

Hysteria

Happy New Year!
And just to make sure we start off on the right foot here's a new song
This is the intro track to my next project which will be coming out sometime this year
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Shout outs to Shiki for making me be productive so I could continue to slack off and to
LizzRobinett for the cute countoff: https://twitter.com/LizzRobinett

Feel free to follow me on Twitter: https://twitter.com/CVCloud9

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Lyrics

-Verse I
It's a party! It's a party so get grooving 
The new year's started and it's time for revolution
so Dance Dance when you feel the music
pierce right through your heart like it's Cupid
I think I feel a spark baby. Could you set me off maybe
like a firework? Take me higher til I burst
and when I come crashing down
we'll pop some bottles, they won't drink themselves, so help me out

This music has the best of me
got the speakers booming like Megumin (EXPLOSION)
but um- you can still have the rest of me 
so don't take my heart like a Phantom Thief (Ravage them!)
and uh- here's a toast to the memories
pour one out for the fam resting peacefully 
There's no need to think. Just feel the energy
Don't kill the vibe and keep the hope alive

-Chorus
'cause I had a dream last night
where I found the way to mend the broken hearts
around the world tonight
so for now I'll keep on dreaming

-Verse II
I'll be here all night long rockin' the microphone
so let's keep going strong til the break of dawn
so c'mon and get your body moving
Senpai will show you how to do it
Save me a spot on the dance floor baby
I got some moves that'll drive you crazy
You gotta put your hips into it
This that ahegao music

Ay! We ain't done so can I get a hip-hip
hooray from the front. To the back and from center
stage I dominate games like I'm LeBron James
a goat by any other name would read the same
Pour some more champagne in my glass
I know I live fast but I'm taking my time with this
I'm cheap so the time I spend, I'm making the most of it
and if you wonder how then allow me to respond like this

-Chorus
With this heart of mine
can I find the reason hidden in the rhyme
that was taken from my life
by a thief called time?
I saw it as I closed my eyes
'cause I had a dream last night
where I found the way to mend the broken hearts
around the world tonight
so for now
I'll keep on dreaming...

I'm still chasing after you
Won't you let me save you?

Champagne & Sweet Dreams

The original song this is based on (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OgxqNWoGmY) is vital to who I am as a person, so I hope you all enjoy this token of my love for it

Reminiscence

[Off Vocal] Hysteria

Reminiscence EX

[Off Vocal] Champagne & Sweet Dreams

You have more power than you think
- - - - - - -
Lyrics:
-Chorus
If you're lost on your own and can't find your way home
I can help show you the way
There's no shame in those tears as we all have our fears
so don't throw your heart away

-Verse I
Remember. Every single word. Every single fight
The way that it felt when they looked you right in your eyes
and if nothing else then get mad at the time lost
wasted for no reason so these bastards could get their rocks off
Just let it fuel you. Let that anger be your muse
but if it consumes you there's a chance that you could lose
sight of what you're working so hard to acheive 
As it's harder to breathe and your heart is just beating
and bleeding right out of your chest
and by then I'm just thinking that there's nothing left
If I just pulled the trigger and shot myself dead
how many people would act like they cared for me?
How many people will wish they were there for me
on social media; fronting for all to see
when in reality you were the cause of the pain
so when I pass away don't you DARE speak my name

-Chorus
  
-Verse II
Remember me. Don't let me fade away and become a memory
I'm a human centipede of shame for all that shit you fed to me
but now I've downloaded your game and ain't no way you can challenge me
now that I know your tactics and habits this matchups hella free
I remember a time where I thought I might be damaged
'cause these feelings inside were plaguing my mind, but I managed
to fully come to terms with who I am and who I was
while y'all were sleeping on me, but I think it's time to wake you up
And against all odds I will continue to be
better than y'all frauds, so place your bets and we'll see
but here's a spoiler. You're losing money if you're not betting on me
'cause I'm running this board. Give a fuck what you heard 'cause I started with nothing then built myself up
from the ground. It was then I found that this voice inside could scream so loud
without making a sound. That silence speaks volumes, but what is it talking about?
I just didn't seem to get it, but I came to understand
If you're feeling like I felt back then, well here's a helping hand

-Chorus

-Verse III
Remember every single face that doubted you when all your dreams come true
'cause there's a certain satisfaction you'll get
when you won't have to say a word to tell a hater get bent
but still the point is nice and clear and while we're on the subject
let the haters motivate you. That's the best revenge yet

God damn I love this music! Why else would I do it?  
Expressing the feelings I have. Oh baby can you take me
away to a world where we all sing together?
I remember loving, but I now have nothing
to show for the hole in my chest
There's not much of a heart left
but I live without regret
"Eternally God Bless"

-Chorus

-Outro
"I guess only god knows"
Abandon that old prose
We all need to travel
Find out where that path goes

Memoirs of a God

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- Lyrics 

- Verse I (Cloud-9)
Now if I had a dollar for every time I  felt worthless maybe I could finally afford time
but then I'd waste all those hours trying to be perfect only to be reminded by my pride
that "I'll never beat the rest" "I'm just okay at best" and "maybe I will never get better in time"
but I find these sobering thoughts give me hope I thought I'd lost 

'cause I'm a floating paradox. I was flying through the sky when I kicked some rocks
Evidently my heads stuck in the clouds. No wonder I can't see you now
"You're beneath me" That's what I thunk, well, thought 
'til you stepped on my feet, made me stop and drop
in for a visit to the real world that you live in all while I'm trapped in illusion
Genjutsu is self inflicted. These bitches want my attention
They're speaking but I don't listen until they decide to give it up
Like I failed a mission. Yup! Like a bad addiction
I.E. your opinion I guess it's time that I finally ditch it 

'cause I had a dream to follow, but put it off 'til tomorrow
but tomorrow never came!(x2)
So I tried to chase that dream just like I tried to chase that whiskey
Just to take away the pain! (x2)

You're a daft punk if for a second you'd thought you'd get lucky
Like a bad plot I'll put these holes in you and you won't stop me
Not a member of the mile high club cuz I never gave a flying fuck
but throw ya middle fingers to the ceiling, NiNE and Shiki bout to fuck it up

How can one man be so conceited, yet still believe
that his self esteem ain't his greatest achievement, I mean I just don't see it
Maybe he's faking or maybe he's dreaming 
either way, these thoughts are his biggest demons
that he won't escape from. What a stupid reason

Come and peek inside the mind
of a man who loathes his own design
losing both hope and all focus
he's now one of the crimson roses

- Verse II (Shiki)
No such thing as Kami or the Devil
That's what she told me as we sat back and listened to the treble
Thought my heart was only metal
Love I always seemed to settle
But I looked into her eyes feelings heated like a kettle, Food Wars!

Shokugeki No Souma, I'm not smoking on Doja
But I'm high when she around, it must be her aroma
Lady Ixe she hold me down
In depression I might drown
Little solace I have found
Found my focus in the sound

that I generate. Fuck the petty hate
Let me demonstrate why I am a god. Y'all not welcomed in my heaven's gate
Always come off odd, hikkikimori laid in the cut
Feel like any moment I might give in and just erupt

Evil has a grip like a pimp on my consciousness
Feel I took a sip from a chalice filled with wickedness
You can't save me miss. Girl just blame it on my cowardice
Feelings I transmit for the last time via kiss

Been lost my soul. Lilith petite body stole that many years ago
Still think Ecila she knows
Secret lover and my foe
Always keep me on my toes
And no matter how I fight it the corruption in me grows

Push me to edge, all my kouhais dead
everything you said echoing inside my mind I shred
every inch of gratitude. I don't need your attitude 
But you could kill me and I still wouldn't get mad at you 

Need to find my latitude
Fallin' in the dark, you can my blame my heart
That's where it start, wanna make my mark before I embark to the afterlife, reach for that knife
Wanna cut out all the pain, tell my wife she not blame
I'm just not meant to be sane. Alice be my novacane

Feel my brain it has a stain,
Baphomet he knows my name,
Kami pull me from these flames
Lost myself myself inside this game
My ledgers red, like a crimson rose
My heart like Todoroki right side on froze

- Outro
We're immune to all your poison
Our own fumes are far too potent
Like Dark Phoenix we can't control it
We won't stop and you all know that
we're immune to all your poison
Our own fumes are far too potent
Like Dark Phoenix we can't control it
Burn bright red like crimson roses

Crimson Roses (Ft. Shiki)

♫god dammit oh why do I always fuck my lyrics up♫

2018 Blooper Reel

Decisions were made
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - 
Lyrics:
-Chorus
Just let it fade away. Wipe your tears away
Now did you really think it'd change?
No, the reality's the same
Just watch it drift away. Lost beneath the waves
You know you're not the same
So don't go searching for remains

-Verse I
Together in the middle of the pouring rain, side by side, we bide our time once again
The sound it brings tries to dull the pain, but it's all the same and that's never gonna change
But never before has silence grown so loud that words weren't needed, it is quite profound
But even so it's killing me. I just need you to say something to deafen the sound of my thinking as it eats away at me
Thunder Roars! The silence is broken. You look my way and I feel like I'm choking
On words that I'm just too weak to say. These emotions I can't properly convey
So breathlessly, I carefully take a few steps forward so you're next to me
I tried to keep you dry 'til we're safe and sound, but when we made it home the roof came crashing down
Halt!
Take a look in the mirror. Your visions getting clearer as you grasp the bigger picture
We just really need to Stop. Drop. Fall to the ground. 
You were sitting pretty, but you're down here now
Pause. Time's up. How? Guess you lost count
Couldn't win the game, you were figured out
You didn't play to win and that's what it's all about

In my mind (and in my mind)
I find (oh I find)
I might (oh I might)
Fall apart. Fall apart

Never before have I felt this way and I hope you suffer
The tears I shed they were masked by the rain and the sounds of thunder
But as the moonsong plays on I find that you're gone
And you stole a piece of me, but not the piece I need
So I'll 

-Chorus

-Verse II
And I have the faintest feeling that we've been here before
You and I my friend I feel like there was more
There's something I'm forgetting
There's something you're not telling me
It's as if your mere presence is taunting me
Time has passed, but still the future is daunting
I won't forsake my feelings
I can't forget those memori-
Halt!
Take a look in the mirror. Your visions getting clearer as you grasp the bigger picture
You just really need to stop, drop, and think about it now
The pieces to the puzzle, they were scattered all around
these grounds that you walk, those words when she talked
when you think back, did she mean that? You believed that?
Time won't heal these wounds. You should've known that
It's time to hit resume and never look back
Now you devoted so much time, a decent portion of your life
To what was a great cause, so don't pretend you didn't find
That truth hidden in the lies. As if this ending's real
You know that's not the end, but you don't know how you should feel
Good endings don't come so easily. Bad ends happen oh so frequently
Did you really believe that we were living life in a fantasy?

-Bridge
Halt! 
Take a look in the mirror. Your visions finally cleared up as you grasp the bigger picture
We just really need to stop, drop, fall to the ground
You were flying high, but where are your wings now?
A fallen angel. Who can save you? Demons chase you through this Hell like place where they
Wound up unable to hate you. Give up now or else I'll make you
Fall in line like everyone else. Don't take your time that's all you got left
This is your life min-max your regret. I'll take what's yours. Call me the suspect

But which one of us is innocent?
Oh which one of us is innocent? (x2)

-Chorus

-Outro
Just let it fade away! Did you really think the rain 
Would hide the tears; heal the scars that still remain?
Just let it go, my friend! You know it'll never change
You cannot return to those days!
Let it fade away! Wipe those tears away!
You know it’ll never change!
So don't go searching for remains!

True End (Moonsong)

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Lyrics:
Do or die. These are the options that you’re left with but
Who am I to enforce the choices that you’re making as you
Try to hide from the world around you 
You’ll never find a reason to believe in if your hearts deleted
So just uninstall. Uninstall this game!
Uninstall. Uninstall that pain!
Yeah, I'll uninstall. Uninstall this game!
So just uninstall. Uninstall your name...

Hold up. Are you really about to do this?
You're so caught up in your feelings, don't you see you're acting foolish?
"What a nuisance." That's what you're thinking right?
Can't dream when you're awake at night. Well I'll never know if I never try
But I won't lose sleep when I close my eyes and that cut may bleed but I will not cry
'Cause that pain ain't deep, nigga that's just life. You can't win every single fight
Gotta take some L's with the victories. Just think of them as seasonings
That make that W so sweet (They make that W so sweet)
Look at me! Look at me! Through my eyes, see it vividly
This imagery surrounding me follows me, it's so hauntingly
Taunting me! What do you want from me? Honestly,
Just respond to me!
Talk to me! I'm so sick of the arguing. Just let me fall asleep
Here in bed. Let me rest my head. Maybe catch my breath. Maybe drown instead.
When I don't text back baby don't you fret. I'm in a better place and I burned my dread.
Put that evoker to my brain. Pulled the trigger. Shot the pain and still the world's turning all the same
People leave everyday never to be seen again
I’ve lost some friends along my path so I’m prepared to deal with this
Slipping in and out of consciousness just tryin’ to breathe again
*gasp* was that my dying breath or was that my second wind?
Drink it in. Your rationale does not exist. You wonder how
This came to be. You built a house of straw and sticks. I blew it down
You play pretend. I play for keeps. You play for them. I play for me
You’re a hypocrite. A selfish bitch. Don’t act surprised when I tell you it’s

Do or die. These are the options that you’re left with but
Who am I to enforce the choices that you’re making as you
Try to hide from the world around you
You’ll never find a reason to believe in if your hearts deleted
So just uninstall. Uninstall this game!
Uninstall. Uninstall that pain!
Yeah, I'll uninstall. Uninstall this game!
So just uninstall. Uninstall your name...

So just let it go. Let it go
Just let it go. Just let it go...

UNiNSTALL (HEARTS DELETED)

Although we travel different paths, these twists and turns will lead us back to one another, for better or worse
but enough is enough. There is just no more love

[Off Vocal] Return to those Days

This is a finished instrumental of a song from an EP (Five Nights with C-loud) that was cancelled from 2014. 
The album and the song were both based on the fangames "Five Nights at Fuckboys".

Feel free to use however you see fit

[Canceled Traxx] Terminal Debauchery (2014)

-Intro
An error has occurred
Rebooting system…
Reboot complete!

-Verse 1
This dark night captivates and fades away
As moonlight stains my clothes, my hair, my face
The warmth I feel gently passing through my hands
A summer breeze. Melodies I no longer sing

And I once thought that I was the star of this movie
But there were so many scenes I'd never seen

-Chorus A
If you could grant just one wish for me
Please let me forget all the memories
Make me believe in hopeless fantasy
Take me away to a world where we'll never meet

Refrain A
And I apologize for it seems that I 
Cannot play your songs until the end of time

-Verse 2
The reality in which I exist it surely keeps
Disappearing flawlessly with all of me
The only thing keeping me anchored down
Is now the sound of that long gone melody

The same movie in which I held so little scenes
Is now fading to black right as I sing
(And I wish that I had more screen time) 

-Chorus B
If you could grant just one wish for me
Would you just forget those memories
And let us return to those days
As perfect strangers going their separate ways?

-Refrain B
And I apologize for it seems that I
Cannot stay by your side until the end of time.

-Outro
An error has occurred
Rebooting system...
Reboot failed!

Load Game?

try not to let your emotions get the better of you

[Off Vocal] Tautology

i'm tired, but making this was therapeutic
may come back to this concept another day

[1 Hour Instrumental] Weary

Lie (Anime Expo 2019 Edit)

[A CAPPELLA] Uninstall

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