stuff ii

im scared of dying, i dont wanna die. 
why am i so open to the idea of it sometimes

lyrics:
i just wish that i could fade away
are we here just to fucking decay
spent all this time just to waste away

05 Ideation (w/ Kinoteki)

just had to get this off my chest

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lyrics:

playing god in my life just so that you feel proud of me
but i don't wanna waste my time living someone else's fantasy
the air is getting heavy and i feel like i cannot breathe
you push me down to the ground and i'm running out of energy

Spotify

fantasy

it molds where it doesn't dry correctly

just venting in my music again

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live instruments recorded by me yayaa

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lyrics:

one day i won't come around anymore
i won't let you push me around anymore
and now that you don't control me it seems you don't care the same
you'll never see this face again and you'll have just yourself to blame
one day i won't come around anymore
i won't come around
i won't come around
i won't come around
you'll never see this face again

orangecore

wont come around

another feeling dump song

prod. me and ft. @f43isd34d
nd yea i recorded all the live instruments :)

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lyrics:

(chriad)
you said it twice you can't take it back
and tomorrow i'm gone i'm already packed
an apology was too much to ask
and honestly i'm getting tired of all of that

(chriad & f43)
there's nothing you can say to make things better
there's nothing you can do to make things better

(chriad)
i'm two feet out the door and there's nothing you can do about it
(f43)
think i just needed more didn't wanna fuckin' sleep on your carpet
(chriad)
i feel at peace now that you can't see me
(f43)
your eyes can't pressure me no more 
your eyes can't pressure me no more

nothing

nothing (ft. f43)

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feat https://soundcloud.com/6kx

tele:
Unfold
Show your thoughts to me
Tell me what you really think
Would I be responsible
If you melted me like gold
In a puddle on the floor
Reflecting on all the signs ignored

And it's been so long
Since I've known someone
I can't feel you there
Cause you make me numb
In the best way you
Make it hurt so good
You know love is pain
It can't stay this way forever

kxly:
Forever lost
Deconstructing all my thoughts
Recently been wishing
Me and you your lips on mine
What should I say
I think we think the same
You are the best of me
You are what keeps me sane

tele & kxly:
And it's been so long
Since I've known someone
I can't feel you there
Cause you make me numb
In the best way it
Always hurts so good
I know love is pain
Please don't make me wait forever

tele:
Would I be responsible
If you melted me like gold
In a puddle on the floor
Reflecting on all the signs ignored

cover art by me

longing (feat kxly)

guitar by @vai22

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I'm sure I could walk today
I'm feeling great, and my lungs just won't give out

I wish my friends knew my mind the way you do
I think everything would just work out

I know you're sick and tired
I think I could just sit behind, let you calm down

But I'm just way too happy
Thinking about chances I could fulfill if I spoke out

I know my love for everyone could just be great
If only I had a mouth
I know my love for everyone could work out
just let me scream, let me shout

Sorry I lashed out today
I didn't mean it, please just hear my words
I know you hate me, it hurts
But please just keep it inside, I don't want to hear the worst

stuff ii

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