as if I ever want you to know how I feel

safety

aephyn:
https://soundcloud.com/heyaephyn
https://open.spotify.com/artist/6wBZgfO8VgAQoLgaVs347e
https://twitter.com/heyaephyn

disphing:
https://soundcloud.com/disphing
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1N1AFyIEAhTIpyY2Qb8l9J
https://twitter.com/disphing
https://instagram.com/dsphng

SILKENWOOD:
Soundcloud: @wearesilkenwood
Twitter: twitter.com/WEARESILKENWOOD
Instagram: www.instagram.com/wearesilkenwood
Web: www.silkenwood.us

Lyrics:

I’ve gotten used to it
I don’t need anything in return
Never stopped to ask “what’s in it for me?”

Although they needed it
Am I losing value in the process?
I guess the question is if they needed me

I want to block out what I’ve been telling myself
But it’s a cop-out if I don’t do anything for me
‘Cause right now, I’m only shifting the focus
To someone other than me

But it’s a lie to say that I won’t regret it
I gave up time that could have been better spent
On holding my end, or dialling it back
Because I can’t help but feel like I can’t help myself at all


Why do you want to be the hero?
You keep acting like you’ll be better off
It’s not like everybody needs you
So stop pretending you’re above yourself

Why do you want to be the hero?
You keep thinking they don’t know who you are
But it’s not like everybody needs you
Avoiding it can only go so far


I never wanted to make amends
Because I never had thought that I could be your friend
I promised that I wouldn’t hurt myself again
But you know that I’m the one to play pretend
The one to bend the logic

But please tell me you saw it
If it was right in front of you, I’d hope you’d have the moment
The part where I’m the savior
The part where I can’t control behaviors
I know I can’t control behaviors

I want to block out what I’ve been telling myself
But it’s a shock how I’ll never do anything for me
‘Cause right now, I’ve been moulding myself
Into someone who I’ll never be

But if I run time back I’ll see a part of the past
Where I had something to last me every step of the way
Something to fix the cracks I’ve grown from everyone else
That show me I’m only valued if I have something new to say


Why do you want to be the hero?
You keep thinking they don’t know who you are
But it’s not like everybody needs you
Avoiding it can only go so far

aephyn & disphing - savior

recently 2 (closer)

First official release of the year!

~ a little back story if you are interested ~

This song was first started in mid 2022, however after that, I couldn't seem to ever get it finished no matter how much I tried, so I thought it was a dead id.

 Then I got to know Yenzzi, And I really liked their music and thought we can collab on something, we sent some ids to eachother and "Frost" was one of them, He made some incredibly cool ideas for the song, And did the awesome outro piano you hear at the end,
But they also seemed to not be able to conceptualize a structure that fits the song, So at the end, We moved onto something else, which resulted in "Unbound"
so frost was put in a grave again, and I thought that was the end of it.

Fast forward 2 years later, I posted all my dead/never going to be finished ids to an alt account, and that's when Seth contacted me saying he will make it his personal duty for frost to be finished, 
He made ideas for the second drop and gave me a clue about the structure of the song, 
and yeah, that was it, Inspiration hit again, and I managed to actually finish the song after 3 years!

So massive thanks to both of them, Seth and Yenzzi. Without them, this song would never have seen the light !
~~
Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/track/5ksa7C36E8jHHEz9kEogez?si=d48c29b0cd544c24

Additional Production credit :
@adxymusic
https://open.spotify.com/artist/4ZIzHTFDGCTwIM7eNmnYBq?si=i722HdQvQZ-B10ANOiKpkw

@user-175409741 (Yenzzi)


Massive thanks to anyone who still listens and enjoys what I make, hopefully more new exciting stuff upcoming this year!

Frost

lost file 1

Our attempt for All Nighter, Vol. 10!

Check out bluntdamage!
https://soundcloud.com/bluntdamage

lost file 1

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