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Dame un grr - HEXO DEEP HOUSE REWORK (remix)

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Stella Achterlichtje opvoeren

no ties.

the other cheek.

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Nathan Rux - Lose Control

I keep finding myself
in the things I am not.

I am not the person I tried to become.
I am not who you thought I was.
I am not the silence that filled the room.
I am not the apology you needed.
I am not my last mistake,
nor the one before it.
I am not what I lose
when I try to stay the same.

I am everything I am not.
Every shadow, every echo,
every trace I left behind.

I am not my body on bad days.
I am not the voice that says stop.
I am not your unfinished sentence.
I am not the calm I learned too well.
I am not my fear of being seen.
I am not the noise I make
to hide what I feel.

I am not your reason.
I am not my parents’ hope.
I am not the memory of who I was at sixteen.
I am not the version of love
that asked me to disappear.
I am not the mirror I still check for permission.
I am not the story I tell to sound okay.
I am not the quiet that hurts to keep.
I am not what I chase when I feel empty.
I am not what I run from when I am held.
I am not the stillness I pretend is peace.
I am not my guilt for feeling too much.
I am not my need to explain it.

I am everything I am not.
Every silence that shaped me.
Every thought I could not say.

I am not the time I wasted.
I am not the words I never sent.
I am not the version of myself
that always tries to please.
I am not my fear of wanting.
I am not the ache that never ends.
I am not finished,
but I am here.

I am everything I am not.
And that is still me.

everything I'm not.

Himmy Turner

saai

saai

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