Jesus Christ loves you so much that he died on the cross for you

shoutout @04p @1diot @prodsoma

i don't wanna look at it
i've been spiraling
everyone they treat me wrong but im fine how it is
(it is what it is)
im looking for peace
i can't find the piece
it's u that i miss
i can't do it like this

i've been spiraling
hate me? that's ok
blame me, so much shame
lately i can't change

i can't change at all
gotta laugh it off
and u can tell i've had enough
gotta laugh it off

i've had enough
these last 2 nights have been so tough
i can't decide if giving up
would be the best, it'd be the best

i'll wait for u on the other side
it's clear that im just about what u like
u can say anything i don't mind
you're the one i can't get out of my mind

u just play with my heart all the time
and it hurts but i guess that's what i like
i'll be the same u know i won't change my mind
i'll be waiting for u on the other side

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spiraling (yumei x idiot x soma)

available on all platforms <3

p @negative_creeper ++ @prodsecretsss

@heath3n @spaadexd @evilcellar

face down in the club, off tha benzos
she said my lifestyle isnt healthy, baby i kno
wish tht i could rewind, wish tht i could let go
im feeling blank faced, looking like a psycho 

i feel like i should say something
wish that you would say something
maybe you're not staying somewhere near
thats why i stay under
i need u close 2 me now
ur like a ghost 2 me now
swear ur gone not a sound
but i still turn around

need 2 hide, i dont want no one 2 see my face,
baby ive been down, dont think that im in a better place
feel like imma drown
il be gone without a trace
say youll miss me thats just fake
dont you lie ik im easy 2 replace
now im off a pill again i cant stop it
ik im an asshole i had no other option
tryin to move on but i just cannot stop fallin
dont tell me bout ur problems
i dont think ill solve em

i just need u by my side
can u tell me im alright
guess its been a long night
got me sipping dirty sprite
was it something i did
??
?? ahead of u
i wish i could be everything that u said
i wish u could be with me
ur everything that i want

vice versa +spaade+evilcellar

w/ @t1gerstar

prod. anthraxwarhead + kenzo

agoraphobic

agoraphobic w/ tigerstar (anthraxwarhead + kenzo)

feat @benjithemachine ꒰ა ✿* ໒꒱
prod @icetrouble *.✧✧
lyrics (cloud): 
let’s get to the basics 
yea i be faded 
been this way for a minute 
u can not change this 
i been feeling too much pain and i can’t take it 
didn’t wanna wake up but we made ittt

if its not about cash Don’t Wanna Talkk
i was feeling down for way too longg!
i jus poured imported in my cup 
and now i feel important going up

GT3 RS im going fast 
gotta spend a check to make it back 
u be posting pics all on the gram 
ima jus stay focused on the bag 

too much talking 
please just pour the wocky :(
u cant stop me 
i’ve been off an oxy 

know you want it 
i got strips like the doctor 
i’m in tom ford 
feeling kinda nauseous

(benjithemachine): 
Zipped up, hundred bennys in my pocket
I keep lil shawty and a molly in my locket <3
I start the whip and im on go so baby hop in
I feel like fridvy how i sleepwalk to my coffin
And we were under a bridge while the cars all passed by
running from cops on our heels we were all right
dont wanna talk if you’re not talking real life
I know you’re the one, but i don't think you realize
(yea synthetic 4evr...)╰(*´︶`*)╯

Nauseous

#Nauseous w/ Benjithemachine [+icetrouble]

@zixdown @1akura @yashio20k @shatter3d

mastered by @zixdown

*pleading emoji moans*

i dont think ill go on
i will nvr girl stopppp

ima let em go decayy
i been up for days
becareful wht u sayyy
its the price u pay (uh huh)
ill nvr change
dnt h8 the player hate the gamee
im the one to blame
dnt wnna talk if u ain decayed

@1akura
ima let em go decay
stuck up in my mental stuck in my brain
i wont be suprised if i dont see another day
cant change my ways
take my pain away from me
##decayed
cant fuck wit gang
dont know why they hate
i stay in my lane
turn my life around yea i need to do better
ive been feeling stuck yea im under the weather

@zixdown
yeaaaa i could nvr go
at least not alone :,(
i through u were my bro
u left me on my own
don’t kno where to call home
don’t leave pls just don’t :(
stop spamming on my phone
i’ll decay on my own 🤕

zixdown + akura - let me go [yashio + shatter3d]

what if, what if, what if i told you ab how i feel
what if, what if, what if..

2x
you could b my everything 
and id never let u go
your all that i ever wanted bby

tell me what u see in me 
whatever u want me 2 be bby i can b that 4u
whatever u need is all i wanna be

i just got it i cant lose it
i dont ever wanna lose you
tell me what it means to you because for me its everything
its everything, its everything
tell me if you feel the same 
youre in my head youre in my head 
and i cant get u out of there

everything「shinju + odece」

@prodbynox
@0k1ro
@prod_death

i guess im forced to rack up bands by my lonely
cuz everytime i look around up there its just me
nothing ever feels new
idk what to do
i been running to u im running right back to u
i just dk why i feel this way
i guess nothing ever rlly can change
we used to sit up on the field in rain
now im slumped up all i feel is pain

know that u rocking wit me cuz u know i stay there by you
i got this blicky on me u alrdy know what it do
i i got this paint all on me, i put this pain onto you
and yea these feelings they grew, why u act brand new?
i pick the scars off my face
dont care if my pills are laced
at least they numbing the pain
dont think ill wake up again

o man i cant do this again
im sorry baby i dont mean to offend
a a all i wanted for u is to be content
and i cant make ammends no i cant do this again
yea i cant do this everything i was before yea i outgrew it
dont misconstrue this
like macaroni i got cheese on my mind
u cant have any of it, ur request was declined

rain w/ nox (prod. 0k1ro x death)

prod. kidu (@awwy2k) 
featuring coldspades (@coldspades)

lyrics:
i get exhausted
need a day off this
shits not quite as fun as it used to be
but im not tryna be who i used to be

i say its nothing ever really going on
but if thats up to me, well ive really been gone...
u say u trusted me
well look what ive become

on some other shit im keeping secrets
if we make a promise can you keep it?
i used to think that everybody was stabbin on my back
but now i trust
and im not goin back to that ^^^^^

shit just keeps happening back to back
but i just take a walk and write a rap
havent even made that much cash
i spend way too much time just tryna relax

pain in my thorax
went to the hospital for that
that bill was too many racks!
told em i couldnt afford that

i been on my ass for good reasons
but i been in this chair for four seasons

(coldspades)
wish i could go back to what it used to be
but now its just a memory
tell me what am i meant to be
my visions blurry and i feel so weak

i can’t hold on any longer
i know i promised i’d be stronger
i’m sorry if i’m just a bother
for all the problems i cant conquer

i’ll watch it crumble away from me
i’m almost drowning and its up to my knees
look in the mirror and i dont see me
i’m always thinking bout my problems i can’t sleep

i know someday i’ll feel okay i wish that was today
i want to run away from every thing that causes pain

i wish i had more to give
but i’m still looking for a reason to live
i would take back every thing that i did
if i could truly feel a moment of bliss

am i even gonna make it to spring?
feel like i’m only holding on by a string
sometimes it feels like i don’t have anything
so maybe thats the only reason i sing


this track stole coldspade's voice.... forever....

back2that ft. coldspades  <<kidu>>

w/ @emorave
prod me @stellathepixie

(pixie)
she’s a sea storm
battered in love 
she is something
2 be afraid of
swallow oceans
feel the soft pain
salt in my throat 
gasping her name 

i’ve done what i had
let go of my hand
sheath the blade
walk the other way
watching my skin tear up in the storm
from this lethal war
orchid eyes and rope across your wrist
selling false existence 
to pale and painful puppy eyes
innocent demise
call my bluff and stab me where it stings
you are everything
everyone lucky enough to touch
you can feel the rush
feel adrenaline the fear of care 
this body’s unfair 
im afraid there’s nothing left to want

leave a light on
i feel hints of trust but im not faithful
nightmare love maybe its just exhaustion 
when i get home i’ll feel dark and haunted 
i hate my head

her love’s grizzly
lurking in the gore of every heartbeat
speaking backwards grotesque hospital highs 
lurk with me and and maybe we’ll be alright 
ill bide my time

(emo)
i made this mess
its all my fault i know
can’t deal w the stress
i feel time moving slowly

dont know whats best
my selfish thoughts control me
fever in my chest
wish i could kill the old me

what u doing now
(i don’t know anymore
lying down on the floor
let the pain run it’s course)
look it’s snowing out
(outside it’s freezing cold
feel like a ghost
wish i could float away)

when i get home w/ emorave (pixie)

@metisxx
@1wasterr

@1oneshot
@mdmuk

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tongue tied

tongue tied [metis, wasterr]

@lil_l1ght

prod me.

ur handz r shaking cold
these handz r meant 2 hold
speak 2 me

when all u gotta keep is strong
move along, move along
like ik youll do
and even when ur hope is gone
move along move along
just to make it thru

when evrything is wrongg
we movee
alongggg

i remember back then when it wasnt too much
we was in the trees i was looking 4 something
u cant cut me off now
im in da scene
nd im gonna w8 4 u
ill w8 4 uuUuuuuUu

Lil Light:

君の言葉を聞く前に
乗り過ごすと思わずにタクシー
探している今までの白紙
君は全て俺の前で隠し
I drgf
この問いに意味はない
不確かな日常に
囚われてるon my mind
もういいだろtell me now
君はとても絵になる
その冷たい手には
数えてきた21
君の言葉を聞く前に

translated:

Before I hear you say it.
Don't think you'll miss your ride, cab
I'm looking for a blank piece of paper
you've been hiding in front of me
I drgf
This question has no meaning
I'm trapped in an uncertain routine
Stuck in an uncertain routine on my mind
tell me now
You're so picturesque
In your cold hands
I've counted to 21
before I heard a word you said

☆move along☆ {+Lil Light}

4evr axo <3
2008 ballads

@bleedteam
@dialt0ne

agoraphobic w/ tigerstar (anthraxwarhead + kenzo)

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