prod @ddertbag

lyrics

i lost again ig u just live and learn
i'll play pretend while everything will just burn
but everytime i try it doesn't go so well
so i just gotta hide (it's hard to reach for some help)

do i really have to know wanna stay where im at
can't reach where i wanna go ig im always last
nothing else to do so im wasting all my time 
i can't let it go cannot get it off my mind

scared of what's to come so i just sit back in the background 
scared of messing up so it just almost never works out
does it really matter, nothing feels the same
still i can't remember, can't recall my name

i've been stuck don't feel like going outside my comfort
i have no one else there is no help yea to be offered
slowly losing to myself im having these delusions
it just felt so real yea i fell for the illusion

#LiveAndLearn (ddertbag)

all flowers will decay (≖ ︿ ≖ ✿)

https://open.spotify.com/track/7C1ABwH4LkdUr0WPDeYEy5?si=39a47d5a79214d15

@fabs4k
@prodarisu

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@remiliaxd :

all flowers will decay
you shot at my heart, blew my brains out
idk what to say
you're all up in my brain
lay waste another day
broken hearts never change, i tried

make it out alive
find the different pieces
there's nowhere left to hide
but u waste my time
you take it all away
but i know i'll be fine
and i don't think that i can love you again

all in, i think i lost it
lost it, to think i'd lose myself
fall in, i'm done with falling down
don't wanna lose myself
but i can't go back now

@fabs4k : 

i can’t even face it
we having arguments but you cannot even base it
on all the things you said
giving me thoughts all up in my head
giving me nightmares while I’m going to bed

so I run from the fear
ain’t no apologies, ain’t nothing sincere
yeah he used to be a friend, now he’s only a peer
i’m driving down the road, yeah the end’s almost near

decay +fabs (arisu)

Hello April! We're still alive!

@remiliaxd
@fabs4k
@prodarisu
@jichuuu

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@remiliaxd :

now i gotta go again
i don't need no problems
save it for the end
and i hope that we can solve 'em

run away again
meet up at the garden where we'll lockdown
it's so quiet, hear my heartbeat, feel my heart pound

okay baby take my hand, don't let it go
you're the only one i trust, when i'm walking through the snow
oh, let it go, i promise i'll let you know
let you in on my reality where we can take it slow

oh oh oh
love you for who you are
slowly dancing under stars
i feel so safe now that i know that's who you are
baby take me in your arms
baby never let us part, oh

it's for you, it's for you, it's for you
yeah all you, all you, all you
show my love and prove it's true
baby show me something new
i would give my all for you
it's for you, it's for you


@fabs4k :

yea i wake up feelin lovely
yea i'm with the bros we sit down, we feelin comfy (@1aprilshowers)
it's our happy day, yea i'm posted with my buddies
she callin me a klutz, i jus end up feelin clumsy, yea yea

gonna strike a pose like we're gonna take a flick, yea
capturin the moment yea it only takes a click, yea
she said that she love me, now my heart be racing quick, yea
she said she been hinting, now it hit me like a brick, yea

i don't wanna hurt u
ur so sweet like honey, i cannot desert u
yea u know i can't desert u
desert u, yea yea yea

the garden +remilia, fabs (arisu x jichu)

2024-5-27
"I'll keep on pushing forward until I find the answer."

https://open.spotify.com/album/2yd9CL8xj25CCtJRkClo8j?si=ihZaJ2KFRamUles_ZFilZw

tysm to @loveismisery for the crazy beat!

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losing my patience
take a step back, heart racing
hold me in your arms, i can't face it
oh oh
running out of time, i can make it
pushing it aside, then we'll take it back

how'd i get this far out of track
hold me close, don't hold me back
and i don't really like that
but i can't change my heart again

i was scared to lose a friend
holding my heart in your hands
and i don't wanna fight back
oh, so just do it all again

(i do it all again)
(turn our hearts to make amends)
(i'm so scared to let this end)
(so i'll do it all again)

so i'll do it all again
(so i do it all again)
i don't wanna fall again
(hold me in your arms, please don't let me go)

hold me down, it's swarming in my head
argue all you want, curse the words i never said, "i love you"
hold on to the tears i couldn't shed
tell them that i'm fine, but it's all up in my head

(lost touch, turned my heart into stone)
(hold me close, don't let me go)
(lately i've felt so alone)
(watching time fly, eyes closed, i've been on my own)

but i can't change my heart again
i was scared to lose a friend
holding my heart in your hands
and i don't wanna fight back
oh, so just do it all again

curse the words i never said
paint a picture on my head
still, i don't want to fight back
oh, so we'll do it all again

again, again, again, again

patience (kyoa)

@wintfye

is it that wrong to feel this way
and i've been trying to convey
as long as my heart decays
be with you till my heart decays
x2

what would it take to be any closer
and not to be a burden on your shoulders
taking four leaves from a clover 
it's one step back till it's over-

you decide how i lie how we go on
i mean it's not like i'm everything you don't want
but does it matter to me its still my fault
but does it matter you're everything i want

heart decays (wintfye)

produced by @hartfxlt + @1akura
‎ 

new issey miyake on me
im flying with my homies
in japan we making bag yeah yea
why you steady keep calling
i told you i dont want you
so stop wasting my time yeah yea x2

i cant find the meaning for the things that are happening
i been spending all my life tryna feel a thing
but its worthless, i am feeling so hopeless
everything's boring i need some emotions
im still not enough, been trying so hard
was it all a lie, could you tell me why
feel like everyday been the same now 
close my heart let it rest yeah

new issey miyake on me
im flying with my homies
in japan we making bag yeah yea
why you steady keep calling
i told you i dont want you
so stop wasting my time yeah yea x2

‎ 
art by https://www.pixiv.net/en/users/429077

meaning

Spotify!~

meaning (hartfxlt + akura)

feels good to be back, i got a new microphone
hope yall like the new sound, this is a lot more accurate to what my voice actually sounds like :)
prod @angelonmyshoulder @yashio20k @liamtakeover

lyrics:

i just wanted
a second to reach out
but you dont want that
and i can see that now
falling to the old ways again
i know this was all going to end

i can never tell
whats in your head
do you wish us well
or do you wish us dead
all the words that we left in that room
its all just a memory now...

in your house
thought we could figure it out
all we did was scream and shout
oh, i thought you were the one
oh, but now we're done

i had every reason
but i could never break it off
i couldnt handle loss
every feeling every thought
makes me just want to stop
never could figure it out
i know that now we cant be the same
that was never allowed
even if im still staring at the ground
i can still see your face around
around the corner

i just wanted
a second to reach out
but you dont want that
and i can see that now
falling to the old ways again
i know this was all going to end

i can never tell
whats in your head
do you wish us well
or do you wish us dead
all the words that we left in that room
its all just a memory now...

in your house
thought we could figure it out
all we did was scream and shout
oh, i thought you were the one
oh, but now we're done

in your house

in ur house (attachxd + yashio + liamtakeover)

solo :3

nobody else to cry for
you dont know that i wanted you before
let it go n im so lost now
was i 2 slow
turn off 
forget it noww ur not who i know of
fall off, say what, now i have nobody else to cry for

never feel again
once i fell into your arms
ive never felt the same

you wont follow through again
i guess now its the end
i guess now this is the end
	
wym we’re days apart
rest on me, ur flawless heart
breathe and heal my coldest scars
wished i told you from the start
its like time went way too fast
hold my breath till its my last
hate me? you dont make me laugh
baby you cut me in half

2slow (me)

lostmytool

At Night

always falling, floating away

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the garden +remilia, fabs (arisu x jichu)

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