vibeszzzzz

performed, written, & produced by me @mental
featuring @blxty

[mental]
i could never hate u
doesnt matter what u do
i know that u hate me
usually i hate me too
tired of complaining
but idk what else to do
tired of explaining
every wrong move i choose

feels like ive lost every reason
nobody else to believe in
think ive got too many secrets
so i keep sleeping and dreaming
that once for a change i could feel something else
and it pains me to stay with the cards ive been dealt
i could keep moving forwards and look for some help
but id rather exist with just u and myself <3

[blxty]
so bby tell me what hits harder den my words
i'm sick n tired of explaining so u first
i still cant find it so i cant tell u my worth
so bby would tell me would u feel the same..
if u were hurt
Like wud it work?
wud u find me useful?
or wud i b like dirt?
and maybe it's just a process
One that i can not process
bang my head n the wall
and u wont tell me i lost it
pls jus tell me i lost it

https://open.spotify.com/album/5dkyRFb1yJPEI0MDEtQi8v?si=7obS22PkQE-X6LH4oxsTHA

after you feat blxty

Stay (with Justin Bieber)

prod. ZB, @verbaa

txt:
detest me (x6)
Красота так сияет
этот дым опять меня так манит
ты не дружишь со мной, хоть мы и друзья
теперь вся любовь, только для меня
stop what you said?
я скоро умру раскопай мою graive
что бы понять, что меня нет там
я не могу умереть

я не знаю стоит ли сожалеть
от ее любви я мог бы сгореть
еще есть немного времени, я могу успеть
сказать ей

что я сделал, что наделал
мои руки в крови, я их предал
я так устал терпеть эту боль
оставь меня я побуду alone

я знаю ты меня ненавидишь
хватит врать, слышу как ты дышишь
если сможешь, сердце отыщешь
знаю что, ей наплевать

мои глаза сияют
опять я таблы глотаю
сам от себя убегаю
я больше сам себя не понимаю

я совершаю ошибки ведь я человек (сколько лет?)
я до сих пор не могу, понять что нужно ей
и снова она заберет мою боль
и снова она играет со мной
мои демоны на плечах
они душат меня

vertigo

dammitdammitdammit

thinking about you

light

late but happy pride? :) produced by me

lyrics-
i want a normal highschool love but i'm only allowed a crush
i've hidden myself for five years and now i'm just lost
everyone's at the end i'm at the start and i know i can't catch up
i'm not the only one i shouldn't feel sorry for myself
in the night my head starts to drown

start to drown, start to drown
(oh no, oh no, oh no)
i stood and screamed for years but nobody heard a sound
(a sound, a sound, a sound)
i let them get to me and they watch me all bleed out
(bleed out, bleed out, bleed out)
so i'll just run away pretend i'm okay in my own house
(my house, my house, house)

i'm just stuck in circles nothing ever change
i self deprecate and hope it goes away
i do this all the damn time
and in the morning try forget what i was feeling last night
i need to get away don't wanna live my whole life on my own
then i start to think so far i've been alright all alone
this world's so fuckin stupid and i swear to god that i'm done
i let my head start to drown

start to drown, start to drown
i can't make it stop when my head gets loud
i stood and screamed for years but nobody heard a sound
even if they did they'd pretend they didn't hear me at all
i let them get to me and they watch me all bleed out
stand over my dead body i'm just gonna lay on the ground
so i'll just run away pretend i'm okay in my own house
but i'm not it's not as easy as i thought it was

start to drown, start to drown
(oh no, oh no, oh no)
i stood and screamed for years but nobody heard a sound
(a sound, a sound, a sound)
i let them get to me and they watch me all bleed out
(bleed out, bleed out, bleed out)
so i'll just run away pretend i'm okay in my own house
(my house, my house, house)

spotify

Only Allowed a Crush

@1hallow
on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5lWotd0NtRkHnjuMIfA8Ip?si=7fa21e8f52004e58
[lyrics]
(hook)
and i tell them to listen 
but they never do
and i dont wanna sound like you
 im doing something new
she say im just like the rest
i said she way too obsessed
im thinking one more day and then ill be gone
and she like juno why you like that at all
and is it bad that i cant fight back at all
you cant get to the top if you aint ready to fall
you got my name in your phone, but you aint ready to call

(verse)
and im 10,000 miles away 
from the rest of the world its a shame now
and she told me that i was to blame
for the way of the world, how it is now
sick of the background, i lost it for a sec
but im back now
i told myself that id never back down
i went and got it for myself fuck a hand out
i grab the wheel it looks like im in command now

vibeszzzzz

1ayrie