produced by xona

@caspywaspy

-lyrics-

I hate when you crash, I’m sorry you have felt like that
you idolize everything I am 
but you don’t care where I’ve been -at-
I hate who I am
you don’t seem to understand 
do you see me just like that?
but do you know that I just can’t..?

fighting against myself until the party ends
it’s not good for my health but it makes me understand 
tell me am I dying? cause I don’t feel alive 
baby I’ve been gone and I’ve been working 9-5
crying in my bedroom I don’t wanna lose my life but I keep wasting it away and it’s going by so fast

I hate when you crash, I’m sorry you have felt like that
you idolize everything I am 
but you don’t care where I’ve been -at-
I hate who I am
you don’t seem to understand 
do you see me just like that?
but do you know that I just can’t..?

take any more of this 
a new season and a new best friend 
I feel so bad, I don’t want to lose this
cause I’m in love with who she is
I’ll push everything that grew
on my chest and let you through 
and no i don’t feel deja vu
when I know I love you

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forever w/ casperrr

produced by sleepwater leftquiet and melonmusik

lyrics:

leave it down in my heart now
seeing stars in your eyes now
im alive but i cant tell
my life is fading out
stay here in my arms fly away
i look at you in my head to keep away
tomorrow dont come so i say today
i need you and i love you
ima relive it again
again again again
again again again

i slammed their door im scared of it all
ran past a brick wall and threw my phone
it felt alien that place you call home
i was never welcome there
inside the ufo
feels like you had afair
places i wouldent not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this
and says im not having this
and says im not having this

suck me up in the ufo and tell me you wanna go with me
you can feel my cuticles ur face has took a hold of me
pressure on my arm babe you damaged my artery
i might be unusual atleast i got everypart of me

feels like you had afair
places i wouldn't not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this
feels like you had afair
places i wouldent not dare
take me away from earth
life was never fair
questioning my worth
as i run down the stairs
her mother walks past me
and says im not having this

am i the anomly
or am i common
im not an enemy
im too broken
im too broken
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here
why cant you just come here

come here, i love you

produced by mix
enjoy <3

lyrics - 
my girl like a model anywhere ill follow
girl take the floor be the semi to my auto
yea, girl the world is yours, buy you some gelato
its all me im her favorite melatto
my girl like a model freckles out the wazzo
pretty on her girl shit, shit i hit the lotto
and haters wanna talk shit but now they're dropping follows
try me wanna risk it? come and catch this combo

like pronto tmr bitch ill see ya all tmr
wearin polo, solo boy still play wit yoyos
taking photos, yolo pretty girl got glow tho
haha pretty girl got glow tho
boys rocked and dropped cause the talking neva stopped
nah shit nah shit nah shit nah shit
went blond and fond cuz my girl 
likes it likes it likes it likes it likes it

like bitch where ya tryna go with this?
im fit your sit no shit no shit
strike missed your movin hella slow wit it
wiped him and him your bros aint shit
like bitch where ya tryna go with this?
im fit your sit no shit no shit
strike missed your movin hella slow wit it
wiped him and him your bros aint shit

my girl like a model yea lead me and ill follow
girl its just you and me youll neva feel hollow
my girl like model like damn i hit the lotto
ill bring you to the end with me youll neva feel sorrow

haha girl youre so fine puttin stars in my eyes
ill do what you want dont gotta ask twice, like
ill move when you want it, just tell me and im on it
girl youre so fine puttin stars in my eyes
ill do what you want dont gotta ask twice, like
dont lie to me now, im all you need now

pull up to the spot like u wanna feel some pain
got ya bros on me like yall playin my game
and im making money daily and thats just something tame
like bitch we aint in the same league im going for the fame
we gon make it out, cause it was going rough
and i was doubting betchu cant call my bluff
boy sit down and quit actin tough
you are not it, betchu still play my stuff

my girl like a model and shes just so hot
girl youre freein and your all mine, oh woah
my girl like a model it was love from the start
we can make it what we want with time

like bitch where ya tryna go with this?
im fit your sit no shit no shit
strike missed your movin hella slow wit it
wiped him and him your bros aint shit
like bitch where ya tryna go with this?
im fit your sit no shit no shit
strike missed your movin hella slow wit it
wiped him and him your bros aint shit

my girl like a model yea lead me and ill follow
girl its just you and me youll neva feel hollow
my girl like model like damn i hit the lotto
ill bring you to the end with me youll neva feel sorrow

my girl like a model and shes just so hot
girl youre freein and your all mine, oh woah
my girl like a model it was love from the start
we can make it what we want with time

my girl like a model and shes just so hot
girl youre freein and your all mine
my girl like a model it was love from the start
we can make it what we want with time

model

I been away dipping in and out of reality for the past few months isolating, so I hope you enjoy some of this :) 
Produced by my bro @Sinxi 

Lyrics

Never took too long
To figure out if this is right here from the start
I know feelings, different paces, different hearts
They all forget me in the end, it's only dark
And I know my only way out
Is to find someone else to hate now
You turned the lights off, let my guard down
How can you say you want to stay now?

Please, tell me
What I need
To get out this hell
'Cause I love what you bring
But it's death, and I hope that I stay

You blame the timing
But when it's night, it's day
I hate the fighting
Crying, lying through your teeth
And I know my sins
They may lay two times deep
But I'm still trying, trying
Mix myself with hate

'Cause I know, it's hard to love you anymore
I barely recognize the door
Inside this room I spend my nights
Sitting on the floor
Can barely move, I smell perfume you can't afford

You know what I've been seeing
Heart has been breathing
I don't believe in these thoughts that I said
I scale the evens, you're still deceiving
Something I can't be keeping for no man
I'll wear your time, allow my heart to breathe your scars
And lose your skin
And I know I try
Lord knows I'll die
At one last try
It has to end

Please, tell me
What I need
To get out this hell
'Cause I love what you bring
But it's death, and I hope that I stay

You blame the timing
But when it's night, it's day
I hate the fighting
Crying, lying through your teeth
And I know my sins
They may lay two times deep
But I'm still trying, trying
Mix myself with hate

'Cause I know

Beauty for Ashes

produced by: ilyl1ght 
lyrics:
why do i do this to myself?
i swear that  im building a hell for us 
just you don’t want anyone else 
i try but it feels like im not enough 
and oh it eats slowly at me oh
if only you saw what i see oh 

𝙞𝙩𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞 𝙙𝙤𝙣'𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙤𝙧 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙢𝙚 
𝙞𝙩𝙨 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩, 𝙞 𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙨𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙚𝙙 
𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 
𝙞 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪

i feels like i’ve nowhere to go
your not here and im trying to cope 
that look in your eyes feels like home 
home, home 
ohh 
with you it feels like i belong 
with you i don’t feel im alone 
ohhh

why do i do this to myself?
i swear that  im building a hell for us 
just you don’t want anyone else 
i try but it feels like im not enough 
and oh it eats slowly at me oh
if only you saw what i see ohh

you, i wont cope in a world without you
i wont live in a world without you 

<3

comfort

produced by @prod-dash 🖤
mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEgzoEH60Cg

harmonies construct of her in vain,
when i had felt the same, i wonder what you let slip loose
idolized in holistic refrain from scaring you away,
but it was you who had left so soon
redundancy falls on the floors of insult,
diffusion of awe is now subtle appall
when the fracturing stops, he returns to his lot
and continues to watch the forgotten responses

how long has it really been?
on everything i could've been your confidence;
wounded deep, but regardless you were gorgeous
external forces couldn't conquer this fortress,
girl i was all in,
now i'm more of like a martian,
a foreign entity ignored and made of sport in pure extortion
the score depends on those who force it,
but on my life i'll never pry into this systematic fortune

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

he's licking tears and steeling bones
from baring sights of burning homes
and of the counterparts still present, most have nearly decomposed
the oxygen persists, but the fluids marching in
wreak havoc on the aspens, now his blood is wearing thin
the centuries forgot receive his aching and distraught,
converting portions of distortion into frequencies bewrought
the ice goes in by division of his temperance
sickly to this weather, but she ain't even my medicine

it's two-forty-two as the film rolls into view
i beg your pardon, i'm enshrouded by the memories construed
just anyone won't do,
the comfort causes calluses he's unable to move
they stare at him in twos

the burial becomes attraction, and of the visitors, it's nothing but distraction
come one and all, before root is sawed, the chainsaw, it stops,
he of wooden rot, with that pandora's box, reverse the plot
the acid sat within his stomach summits to his top
begone of influence it's over 'fore it had begun
i'll never feel that same alikeness, they just read me wrong,
just to do me wrong

bare trees conceive cold leaves,
you showed me what we couldn't be
washing over me, frostridden stings
that sole breeze had spoke "don't leave"

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

the paneling glows a familiar sequence,
but it's passage won't open to those who would seek it
through timing and tamper he had managed to enter
unaware of it's contents, he treads a bit deeper
in awe of the contrast from seeker to aether
he's welcomed to stay, but he's covered in shivers
for those it abducts are reduced down to neither
so backwards he goes, where his soul doesn't meet her's

come the night i'm allotted what's divine
i got bugs up in my head,
they always scratching, leaving bites
ain't no energy to waste on those unkind
only time you talkin shit is when you're doing it online

november (dash)

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @noahmadethiss & @horoshavibes
Mixing, additional vocals & guitars by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks
Art by @melmige

LYRICS
(sewerperson)
All alone on this Summer night
Look for me in these velvet skies
Pray for me while I walk this fire
Anything just to see you smile
November came and our Summer had died
Leaving us with nowhere to hide
When everyone dropped dead like flies
I had no choice but to make you mine

When we fade away where do the feelings get dropped
'Cause I got boxes of these things like home videos
I'm away like half the year
She doesn't miss me though
All while I'm thinking about her touch
It makes me miserable

(Carlby)
Somehow I'll find a way to reach you
Drag you through the screen
This time I'll tell you everything
How much you really mean to me
And all I am today
Because the bleakest weather is better in your company
Although you're long gone now
I hold tight to your memories
Like home videos
Just know I'll never forget these

I still stare at old photos
Wonder where does the time go
How can I get it back

(Horosha & Carlby)
The past is dead and yet I still I feel it
A shadow sliding over concealing
Anything in the present that would bring me joy
And still I miss the pain

I knew our time was short
But your summer eyes
They captured me by force
A willing prisoner
Even with a painful ending you made every moment shine like gold

Listen on Spotify!

Home Videos w/ sewerperson (Prod. noah thomas)

lyr


im in the bunker
u shuld come too
theres tornadoes spinning by u
let the tears drip out my eyes soon
do u believe me when i love u
after all that how can i trust u
running out of time
might be done soon
i got half a mind just to bust thru
every night it gets uncomfortable 

i dug a hole for the two of us
i got some time 
would u shut me up
clouds looking angry 
we’re out of luck
you couldve saved me 
but u backed off
ur in the way can u please back up
id love to stay but i gotta run
inside my brain theres a flock of doves
dripped out my face is a bit of blood

my brain liquifies and it pours out my mouth
i asked for some time but u shut me down
ive grown impatient paced round my house
please take a breath and calm urself down

shifting of tides pushed me out to the side 
gave it a week and im out of your sight
im in the back while i try not to die
im in ur arms while i try not to cry

im in the bunker
u shuld come too
theres tornadoes spinning by u
let the tears drip out my eyes soon
do u believe me when i love u
after all that how can i trust u
running out of time
might be done soon
i got half a mind just to bust thru
every night it gets uncomfortable

storm_chaser (hollowprpl)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
i'm a mess
i barely know me
and my head
is so unholy
but i'm good
somethin pulled me
i don't know
she kiss me slowly

i gotchu figured out
you did me wrong and u wonder why i'm distant now
i stepped away cus i got sick of the room being loud
staring at a screen for hours designing sounds
and bringing in a crowd
how did i make it work
and i never thought i'd be saying "i did it first"
projects so big to where i couldn't even finish dirt
got my speakers shaking like this shit could blow a surge
i think my neighbors heard

open my window
breathe in air
sun sets at 8
wrap my arms around her body
while she kiss my face

whatever they said, don't believe em
don't let your own friends deceive you
whatever she said, don't believe that
i'll always look out for your back
don't believe a single word that she said
everything you heard is far from the truth
don't believe a single thing that she says
she says
she

don't be nervous
take a deep breath in
who you know doing it like this
face first going straight in the pavement
might as well just embrace it
weekend night
everybody goin out
except for me
it's the gym or my house
saw you just got back from the bar
that's cool
i'm just locked in makin art
prolly knocked out
2am i'm working
making my sound
i'm my own person
couldn't really tell you where i'm at for genre
i do everything and i'll do what i wanna
put your phone down, i don't want a photo
put a song out and don't even promo
post it on the gram, lotta people on it
post it on my story and your sister saw it
gotcha 
knew you wouldn't like that
flip flop
watching this moron crash
can't blame no one except for yourself
that's gotta be a record for switching that fast
how you gonna call me ugly
but stick around still obsessive w me
like i ain't dumb enough to put you under my sleeve
knock out, ya shoulda thought before u said anything

obsessed

video out now: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fnzyutj7XJ4

back like i never left x

__

set your mind right
i dont really care but
i just wanna know when the times right
and i know you got no friends but
i just wanna know where ur minds at
took a prozac
faded
left my third eye on a mindmap
fuck unconscious hating
you dont wanna know where my minds at

and i know you hate the sight but
i dont wanna leave when youre blinded
shed some tears in amsterdam cause
i dont wanna hear when we're fighting

wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses
/i dont wanna hear when we're fighting/
wont cut away, cut away with your losses

i dont wanna hear when we're--
/wont cut away, cut away with your losses/
i dont wanna hear when we're fighting
/wont cut away, cut away with your losses/
i dont wanna hear when we're

-

produced by neverforever

tears

produced by me (dawsin)
written by me (dawsin)
everything by me (dawsin) :o

lyrics:
just a figment
of my
imagination
of me

RID OF ME
RID OF ME
MY OTHER PERSONALITY
HE'S NOT A FRIEND TO ME
HATE MYSELF
FAMILY STILL SCARED OF ME
.45 TO MY TEMPLE
I'M READY TO GET
RID OF ME

don't want no one
but I left these flowers 
here for you
baebaebaebae
babe it's true
baebaebaebae
that I wanna blow my head out
so I feel like a drop out
(in life)
so you'll walk in my room and ask me why I did this
ain't been the same, since I regained my pulse

let me leave
let me leave
let me leave 
this horrible dream

I might've said that "I was fine"
but-
ahaa
it's quite the opposite
i-
I don't even know how to feel anymore

remember the first time I said "hey"?
well this the last time I say "bye"
you're so fake
anxiety got me covering my arms in stripes
(our journey together, ends here.)

I'm disappointed in my self
cause 
I still have the ring on
I still haven't taken it off
AND I BET YOU THINK THATS IT'S PITIFUL
BUT I MISS YOUR EARFULS
I MISS WHEN WE TALKED ALOT
AND NOW ITS ALL GONE-

model

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