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Butterfly Effect

Been had to carry this weight for a while
I’m getting tired of that
Don’t know how much I can take but I’m trying
I hate all the ways I react
I’m knowing she tired of me, won’t admit it
Feel like I’m dying inside, need a minute
See me outside then I’m standing on business
Not going out sad but I know I been tripping

I mix up the potion, I could be a chemist
Don’t fuck up my motion, I might catch a sentence
I feel like I’m floating within your vicinity
But when I’m alone I just feel like I’m damned

Maybe I’m a bad friend, but fuck it if they don’t hit me up
Life changing up too fast, I don’t know what’s going on
Fuck it—hit me in a couple of months
Because I never been the one switching up

Old hoes praying on my downfall
But I’m never giving up
Oh Lord, I’m feeling like my mind’s gone
’Cause everything been going rough

I dare you to judge me, I don’t give a fuck
I dare you to judge me, I don’t give a fuck

Been had to carry this weight for a while
I’m getting tired of that
Don’t know how much I can take but I’m trying
I hate all the ways I react
I’m knowing she tired of me, won’t admit it
Feel like I’m dying inside, need a minute
See me outside then I’m standing on business
Not going out sad but I know I been tripping

All them racks ain’t finna come without sacrifice
She like, “Why the fuck yo ass ain’t been acting right?”
Sometimes I hate the fact that I’m alive
There ain’t no going back, I’m gonna ride

Oh, you been fighting your demons?
I can take on a whole legion of demons
Including my own for no reason
I keep it pushing and I won’t be defeated

Father been getting on my case
I know that I’ll miss your ass one day
And memories from the past cause pain
And they don’t disappear like stains
I had to learn a lot the hard way, yeah

One day they love you, the next day they hate you
I wanna get away, wanna escape it
I run away in the foreign, I’m racing

I’m the way that I am ’cause I been so forsaken
Dress how I dress to flex on a hater
That designer got ’em thinking they famous

Sit the fuck down, you ignoramus
Put a mask on, I’m feeling like Rey Mysterio
I been in pain but I’m making you feel it though

I need my payments in blues and I need some more
Wondering if I’ma live til I’m getting old

Been had to carry this weight for a while
I’m getting tired of that
Don’t know how much I can take but I’m trying
I hate all the ways I react
I’m knowing she tired of me, won’t admit it
Feel like I’m dying inside, need a minute
See me outside then I’m standing on business
Not going out sad but I know I been tripping yeah

Weight (eightysix)

Blood rushing to my head
Now I’m really seeing red
You won’t find me ’cause I left
Ain’t over yet

They wanna discredit the method I use
Maybe the reason for that is because it requires
Not inviting you

Don’t need your assistance
I’d rather get lost in the sticks
There was a beast trying to kill me
But I escaped

My aura keep morphing like it’s iridescent
While I’m in a maze
Imma get higher than a kite
Now I’m spreading my wings

You had all the time to catch me
When I was isolated
Ain’t accepting that I might never make it

There’s a passage I’m walking through
To escape it
What I was in the past
Disintegrated

Eclosion (lavanguard, silas roe, martinleib)

If he aggressing, he biting the dust
Don’t give me no reason to crash out
’Cause the feelings been bottling up

She know if I’m in it that she finna pass out
But she knowing I don’t give a fuck
It is what it is and it was what it was
I’m in this shit for the rush

I stare out my window and look your direction
You’re miles and miles and miles away
I meant every message I sent to you
Trying and trying and trying and trying for days

Over 300 days have gone by
I’m tired of all the thoughts that replay
Can’t help but to feel misaligned
Don’t know if I’m wasting time
Or I’m doing it right

I get so vexed tryna wrap my head
Around complexities within my mind
I can stop on a dime if you tripping
I’m really focused on business

My father taught me to go get it
I really miss when I was just a kid with a pencil
’Cause life really pushing my limits
I’d rather be jaded so nothing effects

I say what it is, I don’t need to pretend
The sun going up when I’m going to bed
’Cause I speak to the mic when I’m tryna vent

I throw on the Kapital skeleton shirt—I'm dead fresh
I’d rather be quiet than try to get through to her
And waste breath

Your Direction (cutspace, margo, logan23)

Sit down and listen for once
Don’t you go switching the subject
It’s shit that I need to discuss

I been amongst negative circumstances
So I’m sorry if I’m moving wrong

She want me hitting it raw
She want me falling in love
I’m focusing on the funds

My mom don’t want me with a gun
She said be careful in the street
’Cause my temper is short

I’m tryna change for the better
Sometimes I go MIA searching for more
Then I come back better than ever
No doubt about it, yeah for sure

Yeah, no
I don’t really know why
I’m so hard to understand
By the people that I’m keeping close by

Maybe I just need to go—bye

Listen for Once (lavanguard, silas roe)

It’s a lot to process
I denied the access
Cut ’em out the picture, they was excess

Always hit a hundred—how the fuck I ain’t crash yet?
Ain’t it such a shame that this how it’s gotta be
Just wanted to hear you say that you proud of me

I been up, I been down
One thing you should know is I never drown
I thought you should know the way that I felt

I ain’t really tryna hear you tell me
Why you did what you did
After all that time passed
I hate thinking ’bout how quick the time passed

I don’t wanna discuss it
I thought it would help, but it didn’t do nothing
Like fuck it—if it’s up, it’s up
That’s how it’ll stay

I’m stubborn, I can’t afford to be stuck
As far as the money’s concerned, that shit going up
All my possessions, I earned ’em—that shit wasn’t luck

I don’t know why I’m still hurting
From shit I was done with
I wonder if one day
I won’t have any day ones left

I hate when they stalking me
But I want ’em to see
So this shit ain’t for nothing
Been a never-ending game of playing hide and seek
But I think that I’m so done with it

I ain’t tolerating no disrespect at all
Imma violate—don't come correct at all

Sometimes I just need to hop on the jet alone
Wonder how it could’ve been, but I’ll never know

Bitch, this ain’t no Y-3, it’s Yamamoto
I don’t feel like smiling, I don’t want photos
You don’t want no fucking problems—that’s a no-no

Put him in the dirt, send him through a portal
Had to do what I had to do
Even if that shit made me sad

Let’s be honest—if it’s me and you
Then this shit would probably never last
To be honest, I just wanna numb it
So I’ll probably pour another glass

Glass (eightysix)

Maybe I should admit
When I’m at a distance, I feel safe
The mechanisms I created to get away
You probably hate
But aye, can you blame me with the way this shit going?

I cut the ties with a hoe if she going
I put the fire on that boy if he showing out
That’s how I’m going about it

The intimacy is a struggle for me
I lowkey miss the times when I was naive
I’m taking my time, I’m trying new things

They talking crazy, I’ll tell you the difference
I’ll really see you about it, ain’t no SMS
I spent some bands on a fit
And you couldn’t tell unless I say what it is

Life changing and shit
But I don’t think that I’ve adjusted to this
Funny how one single thought can change it all
Like a butterfly effect

Sometimes I need to get away
I don’t like when I’m feeling intense
The only regret I’d have is not putting my heart into this
It’s all that I have
It’s all that makes sense
When I’m in the midst of confliction

Maybe I should admit
When I’m at a distance, I feel safe
The mechanisms I created to get away
You probably hate
But can you blame me with the way this shit going?

I cut the ties with a hoe if she going
I put the fire on that boy if he showing out
That’s how I’m going about it

[Pt. 2]
Searching for a reason I should care about this shit
Don’t remember every season in the past that got me here
I had to forget to get through the pain
So that’s what I did

I don’t think I’ll ever change
Until the day I’m laid to rest
And it’s so dumb
I can’t move on
From a past life that’s so gone

I’m the moon setting in and you’re dawn
You don’t really need to know what I’m on
So I’ll pick up all the pieces and I’ll get lost
Even though I’d rather get lost into your thoughts

Life’s hard, but I’m trying to be headstrong
I ain’t stuck on shit that’s dead
And yet it still haunts

And it’s so dumb
I can’t move on
Yes, it’s so dumb
I can’t move on

Butterfly Effect (lavanguard, silas roe, shin)

Why the fuck would you let me come around
If you wasn’t about it?
I had to accept that you wasn’t the one
There ain’t no way around it

All that disrupted my peace
Now I’m fighting the demons surrounding me

La da da da, la da da da
La da da da, la da da da

I’m leaving this city, I’m gone
I ain’t finna stay not a minute more
Might crash in this bitch, it ain’t rented, nah
Don’t know what to do with the feelings I hold

Yeah, I keep on pushing and pushing and pushing
I don’t got a choice but to move on
I really don’t know what you want
I really don’t know what you on

I know your heart isn’t here
But mine is broken, and you ain’t finna sew it up
That was the problem I feared
But fuck it, we here, so I’m finna pour up

Bitch, you made me wanna die
Why the fuck would you let me come around
If you wasn’t about it?
I had to accept that you wasn’t the one
There ain’t no way around it

All that disrupted my peace
Now I’m fighting the demons surrounding me
But when you see me going up
I hope that you proud of me

I’m walking around in the cold
With leather boots on my toes
There’s people that I used to know
That I don’t even know

Ain’t tryna be overdramatic
But that shit can mess with my thoughts
Gotta keep pushing and pushing and pushing
And move on

I don’t know why
I don’t know why
I don’t know why
I don’t know why
I don’t know why
I don’t know why
I don’t know

Butterfly Effect

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