everybody hates me

https://soundcloud.com/kurowashere
ayo its rot and ramen and we back at it again

P1CKUP4ME ft. r6m3n(Prod. dercept x jissa)

toxic (w/ jrmyrr)

LYRICS:


[intro]
oh (x16)

[verse]

i dont really want when i woke up
wouldnt really send another til im out of happiness
wouldnt really want would i show up 
tied you like a knot and then you wore it like a cardigan

i dont really want when i woke up
wouldnt really send another til im out of happiness
wouldnt really want would i show up 
tied you like a knot and then you wore it like a cardigan

[hook]

one more day until i pass
i got my fucking hopes up
two more days until i slash
i wanna fucking throw up

one more day until i pass
i got my fucking hopes up
two more days until i slash
i wanna fucking throw up


(break)




i know im a nuisance and i know that im a bother
i am filled with hate i am filled with fucking water
all of my own dreams are live and none have gotten slaughtered
rotting in the pit and soon im dead and im a goner

[verse]

i dont really want when i woke up
wouldnt really send another til im out of happiness
wouldnt really want would i show up 
tied you like a knot and then you wore it like a cardigan

i dont really want when i woke up
wouldnt really send another til im out of happiness
wouldnt really want would i show up 
tied you like a knot and then you wore it like a cardigan

[hook]

one more day until i pass
i got my fucking hopes up
two more days until i slash
i wanna fucking throw up

one more day until i pass
i got my fucking hopes up
two more days until i slash
i wanna fucking throw up

cardigan( Prod. moe191)

soft skin (ft. jrmyrr)

Fall (ft. Jrmyrr)

catch my fucking breath
i know that your upset 
found my fucking wrench
hit you upside the head

its not what you said
how you pierced through the thread
its the fucking end 
didnt mean to offend 

i wanna shiver
oxy all up in your liver
im on saturn pull the trigger
im all up inside your space

stacking bread and butter
in my head i cut her
i couldnt fuxking stutter
god i hate your fucking face

kys (prod. singleway!)

(prod. ablivion)

so
ive been conditioned to love everybody i hate it 
yeah god i hate it 
god man i hate it 

fuck up 
thats what i am 

do i shut up 
im out of pocket 

im drugged up 
high as a rocket

im fucked up 
i cannot stop it yeah

so
ive been conditioned to love everybody i hate it 
yeah god i hate it 
god man i hate it 

fuck up 
thats what i am 

do i shut up 
im out of pocket 

im drugged up 
high as a rocket

im fucked up 
i cannot stop it im

fucked up 
thats what i am 

do i shut up 
im out of pocket 

im drugged up 
high as a rocket

im fucked up 
i couldn't stop it yeah

hate

life

12 am and im feeling cold 
aint got no damage control 
ive been disproportional
at this point ive been guessing 

act of hand no more i can hold
got no absolute threshold
i feel useless uncontrolled
oh how fucking depressing 

i dont even know where to start 
where to go how afar 
i know that its fucking dark
cmon im just suggesting

i cant even tell them apart
they think its too fucking hard
i wonder if ill bombard
its not fucking connecting

damage ctrl (ako)

i dont remember 
everything it hurts 
everything is constant 
agony reverse 

dont make it subtle
attack no rebuttle 
fuck it break my knuckles
i think i might be cursed

cursed (ausuro)

its been a minute 
cause i dont care 
give me a minute
im not aware

im at my limit 
i wonder where
give me a digit
ive been impaired

oh fuck 

ive been at the edge of the world 
all because you are just a girl 
everything in my mind is swirled
starve myself i think ima hurl
x2

starve myself i think ima hurl 
cause i 
cause i 
i
ion know 
ion know 
ion know yeah

ion know yeah 
ion know
ion know yeah

ion know 
ion know yeah

its been a minute 
cause i dont care 
give me a minute
im not aware

im at my limit 
i wonder where
give me a digit
ive been impaired

oh fuck 

ive been at the edge of the world 
all because you are just a girl 
everything in my mind is swirled
starve myself i think ima hurl
x2

at the edge of the wrld

because ive been filled to the brim with anxiety 
corner my brain into hell in my diary 
dont find my body dont expect sobriety
ill pick and choose baby its my variety

ill pick and choose what goes on up inside of me 
fucking my head up happens undeniably 
hello my gorgeous personal psychiatry
dont call me in i wont enter so quietly 

ill pick and choose baby its my variety
dont find my body dont expect sobriety
corner my brain into hell in my diary 
cause ive been filled to the brim with anxiety 


ohhhh
ohh
ohh
ohhh

something has happened i know 
you have been failing to stay composed
check in with me when you go 
just because something has happened i know 

because ive been filled to the brim with anxiety 
corner my brain into hell in my diary 
dont find my body dont expect sobriety
ill pick and choose baby its my variety

ill pick and choose what goes on up inside of me 
fucking my head up happens undeniably 
hello my gorgeous personal psychiatry
dont call me in i wont enter so quietly 

ill pick and choose baby its my variety
dont find my body dont expect sobriety
corner my brain into hell in my diary 
cause ive been filled to the brim with anxiety

anxiety

toxic 2 (w/ jrmyrr)

(prod. glorygasp)

(rot)

dont wake me up 
am i going mad
im not ready still 
ive been fucking bad 

ive been on the edge
of my own fucking bed 
im still fucking pressed 
about what i had 

lets go (go)

im on my own 
holding me back from 
everything that i know 

colder than coraline 
that is a quote of mine 
i am not horrified
pick up your phone (phone)
but i dont know 

ive been fuckin up my body 
all up on my own
im a mess
oh well 
what could you do 
no threat im dead like
oh my god

maybe i been meant to be a mothafuckin 
enemy 
a friend of me 
ur dead to me 
ill fill you with serenity

ill put you on a pedestal 
and give you my identity

yeah i dont know 
but i think im crazy 


(jrmyrr)

alright, okay 
alright, wassup
alright, okay 
alright, okay 

they think im locked up in my head
ive been movin fast but movin slow i cant get ahead
ive been movin like a

ive been movin like a fuckin nascar 
ive been rockin OD like a scholiard
got these bitches on me cause i go hard
in a left lane swervin like a go kart

and i know that you be on the internet 
surfin on the web bitch
gotta pay the rent 
but you know i never got my paycheck
never got my paycheck 

why'd you have to lie to my face 
could've told everything you did 
was such a disgrace
but you left me on the delivered 
up until the next day 

they seeing someone else 
and you know that thats okay
(thats alright, thats okay)

thats fine i guess

shoutout SEBii
shoutout SEBii
my butthole itches

mad ft. jrmyrr

my awful mind

daisies

daisies ft. jrmyrr

i feel ignored
i feel like a dick 
i feel like im shit
i feel like im a bore

i dont have a friend
everything feels worse
push it down my skin 
i dont care if it hurts

save me 
blame me
often 
daily

hate you 
hate me
fake fuck
lately

but im trying my best 
i guess its not enough
ive made a fucking mess
and now im screaming fuck 

but you dont give a fuck 
x?

blame

im so dissapointed
horrified of me to dissapear
did you wanna figure out a plan
and be my volunteer
im corroded 
not devoted
locked and loaded 
with a fear
im not ready 
steady with confetti
no motion in gear 
i got nothing 
no one 
coming
often think why am i bugging
im a fuck up 
deconstructing 
terrified of me becoming 
damage

damage

yeah

i hate me too 
im full of shit 
im the color blue 
im the color blue 
ill never change my hue 

fuck
yeah

im a waste of space
whats it gonna take 
its living in my brain 
i will remain the same 

up until that day 
you left 
i died, i think 
i tried 
and then denied 
lied to my face 
lied to my face

i hate my life 
you'd hate it too
theres nothing left
for me to do  

its full of garbage everywhere
im not fucking stupid im aware


ill cry all over my apartment
no dilemma for my garden 
burn my fingers just like arson 

i think that i had a falling out with somebody 
that turned into a nobody 
a bloody mess 

its prolly over 
maybe i need closure
put me in a body bag for seven days for closure


i hate my life 
you'd hate it too
theres nothing left
for me to do  

i dont advise
you see it through 
you'll wanna die 
by twenty-two

i hate my life 
you'd hate it too
theres nothing left
for me to do  

i dont advise
you see it through 
you'll wanna die 
by twenty-two

ihm2

im half awake 
and im not next to you 
im not next to you 

no anesthetic 
im afraid to shoot
myself

im happy 
or am i sad 
im acting 
do you understand

irritate

produced by rot


im sick 
im tired
afflict
desire

ill change 
for you 
the same 
to me



ive waited way too fucking long 
for everything to collide
im back and forth between my brain 
i dont know how to decide
im picking up what i dont want 
i might as well coincide
your nothing new, what do i do, 
i could assess suicide

its 5 am im having issues breathing, 
falling behind 
i prayed to god, know what i saw, 
no i do not wanna die 
its been a year, i still got problems, 
but i came out alive
i need to focus on my health, 
yeah if i wanna survive


if i fell inside of your garden
im calling no one to guard it
ill go straight into a box

i'm looking into your soul 
there's nothing there but a ghoul
im looking straight at a fool 
and theres no one to stop me 

from trying again
i cant decide who 
what why where when 
i think that i got a little problem

ive waited way too fucking long 
for everything to collide
im back and forth between my brain 
i dont know how to decide
im picking up what i dont want 
i might as well coincide
your nothing new, what do i do, 
i could assess suicide

its 5 am im having issues breathing, 
falling behind 
i prayed to god, know what i saw, 
no i do not wanna die 
its been a year, i still got problems, 
but i came out alive
i need to focus on my health, 
yeah if i wanna survive

problem

prod me

lyrics

I, know
im not the one 
im not the one you want me here

oh
im not the one 
im not the one that you want here


not a savior 
not in my own favor 
couldnt comprehend 
a fuckin artificial hater

put me in a coffin 
i dont want it, i dont wanna die 
i just wanna kick it back 
remove the thought of suicide 

im not here so, 
knockin at my door 
i told you 
keep it on the, D low

maybe im aesthetic, 
but i got no fuckin ego 
ima shoot my shot, fuck it 
i dont need a free throw  

got no affinity
sympathy
not for myself your no good to me 

im innocent with infinite anxiety
die for me, cry for me, why would you lie to me

i am no hero 
your probably bugging 
your fucking with him 
now i feel like im nothing

i'm stuttering suffering 
i'm not recovering 
know i'm a fuck up 
but that im discovering

im sorry 
what did i do 
im so confused 
where do i go 

im so sorry
what do i do
where do i go 
what do i do

not a savior 
not in my own favor 
couldnt comprehend 
a fuckin artificial hater

put me in a coffin 
i dont want it, i dont wanna die 
i just wanna kick it back 
remove the thought of suicide 

im not here so, 
knockin at my door 
i told you 
keep it on the, D low

maybe im aesthetic, 
but i got no fuckin ego 
ima shoot my shot, fuck it 
i dont need a free throw  

got no affinity
sympathy
not for myself your no good to me 

im innocent with infinite anxiety
die for me
cry for me
why would you lie to me

i am no hero 
your probably bugging 
your fucking with him 
now i feel like im nothing

i'm stuttering suffering 
i'm not recovering 
know i'm a fuck up 
but that im discovering

I, know
im not the one 
im not the one you want me here

oh
im not the one 
im not the one that you want here

hero

prod. rot

lyrics:

i'm jaded, cant wake up 
sedated, like straight up
im naked, no makeup
abraded, no break up

sick of myself 
i dont need any help 
i can self diagnose 
until i lose my health with you

health with you
health with you
health with you

your sober by fall 
october i cough
honestly probably 
its all my fault

stuck in a loop and i think im on repeat
i dont believe that you would have decieved me
im dead
fuck everybody else
i dont know where i fell

where i fell
where i fell

weak

hospital

prod. rot

with you i wasn't afraid 
of the way that you'd talk to me 
almost like everyday

i know i'm the issue 
but how do i fix 
changing the way that 
im way too psychotic

message on the down 
way 
low low low 

keep it kinda quiet 
like 
i dont know 

if you gotta run 
fast 
go go go 

watching you imperish
screaming 
no no no

yeah
i'm screaming no no no 
i'm screaming no no no 
i'm screaming no no no 

i'm screaming no no no 

oh
oh, oh

[We're Sorry, You have been Disconnected]

i dont know anyone 
no one's talking to me 
feels like it's been a year
or a week maybe three

apology for my eyes 
lately i'm breaking down
it's getting harder to cry 
why are you being loud

i've been down on the pavement 
looking down at my health
i dont need any help 
another note to myself 

i'm sorry for all the lies 
sick of the pain that i've dealt
maybe it was divine 
put me inside a cell, ohh

divine

prod. fxckyeahako + kerel


got much anxiety 
i dont know who you are 
mentally better 
by being inside of my room 

sorry for being a knockoff 
sedated unaided 
i hate it 
its all of my fault 

dont text nobody 
afraid what they say 
what will they say 
it's all my fault 

talking to OLED 
im all by myself 
hear all the bells
i wanna yell

isolate

prod. rot

i think that some derranged part of me likes thinking im the
only one with real problems 
like that makes me special
hey
i would get this feeling like
i know this isnt any easier for you i know that 
i just wanted to say that 
i'm sorry

i'm mortified 
im stuck up inside of this room and 
im too fortified

i'm fucked up inside of my room 
and im too horrified 

i've always been trying to cope without anyone 
i'm sorry i left you on read just like everyone

i'm sorry i left you on read just like everyone
i'm sorry i left you on read just like everyone

I messed up i know that, just tell me only one on one
la da da da da da 
da da da 

i'm mortified 
im stuck up inside of this room and 
im too fortified

i'm fucked up inside of my room 
and im too horrified 

i've always been trying to cope without anyone 
i'm sorry i left you on read just like everyone

i'm sorry i left you on read just like everyone
i'm sorry i left you on read just like everyone

horrify

prod. rot


how do i breathe
how did i suffer not doing a thing
how'd i recover from blood in the sink

doesn't it get any better 
i'm trying or am i 
i'm cornered by you in defeat

i should've died while holding your hair 
would it be right i think that might be fair
sick of myself and like everyone 
sorry, i hate myself everyday i couldnt stop 


i dont know why 
wake up again i dont know what its like 
send you a message yeah via my mind 
and i apologize for when i wasn't fine

i dont feel so alive
i dont feel so alive 
i dont feel so 
i feel so alive

suffer

prod. rot

i dont 
i dont 
my bad 
cause i know

my bed 
and i'm cold 
right then 
now i wont

i know 
i know 
your dead 
no i know 

full sweat from 
my bones
upset 
on my phone 

my boat 
my dome 
im stressed 
in my clothes

i wrote 
that nice note 
i hold that 
tightrope

i'm not 
okay 
unfair
but okay 

my sight is 
gone gray
no way 
no way

wait up 
with you 
feels like 
i left you 

listless 
aint true 
text me
it aint blue

uncomfortable

prod. rot 

i'm sorry for you

never thought i'd be so 
indifferent i'm 
caught in the storm 
the tide
dont think i'll be alright

i'm not doing well so 
give me a sign 
even hello, goodbye
or am i not your type 

i'm scared that i was like nothing to you 
feeling invalid and need to avoid
your necessary for me just to think 
sorry if i bother much or annoy


sorry if i bother much or annoy
feeling invalid as such and i need to avoid

avoid

prod. rot

i dont know if i 
ignored all your nonsense
i'm sorry for this time 
think of the concept

i really wish i 
wasn't too honest
i've been a dick fine 
i'm sorry for all this 

i never left i 
i am still right here
feeling the light die 
think ima die here

caught up on you for quite a while 
while am i still in my denial 


i dont know if i 
couldn't be bothered
hate on my life time 
nothing to offer 

i really wish i 
wasn't improper
sick to my gut die
no getting calmer 

i dont know if you 
thought of me right here
maybe the wrong time 
everything i feared

your gonna be fine 
making a promise 
i'm on a thin line 
that's pretty common

nonsense

prod. me

i dont wanna 
fuck 
im talking 
pharmaceuticals narcotic 
what the fuck is even going on inside of my own noggin

talking bad about what i dont like 
and i wont fucking stutter 
why the fuck did i even bother about it 
do i suffer

couldnt complicate another 
fuck up that i call my life
do i wanna go again or 
fucking commit suicide

thought i had a choice of even 
working up a fucking thought 
shut it down and let it die alone
with what you fucking brought

Stop them 
Lately 
Fuck you 
Hate me 

Stop them 
Lately 
Fuck you 
Hate me 

Find dead
me sorry i
could not believe 
what you said to me 

i cant breathe 
slow head 
skull waist 
lower than me

skull

ignore

prod. neverforever

lyrics

fucking addicted to who i dont like 
how i dont fuck up inside of my life 
im so afraid of what ive been due time 
how do i lie 
how do i 

lets go away 
hide in the forest until i decay 
for a while (for a while)
how do i fuck up again til i bleed 
how do i care 

why (why)
why (why)
you 
you 
you (you)
why
oh why 
oh my oh why 
oh

prod me

i just wanna vomit 
im dying in my own bed 
considered getting healthy 
my body doesn't want that

everything is painful 
am i overreacting
am i going unstable
i'm way too good at acting

i feel so fucking awful 
im hiding in my closet 
my emotions i've bottled 
forever wanna block it 

i don't know how to help me 
i'm sorry if i bug you 
i feel so fucking crazy 
i don't know how to save me
im sorry i

rot

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