production by me (+64)
art by me

lyrics:
ive lost my train of thought
ive lost my brain in an instant
if i talked it out
would even try to listen

hold on again
just wait til may
youll feel again
just one more day
x2

hold on

produced by me
supporting guitar by soju
mastered and additional production by @notlieu

lyrics

walk in and walk out
and get in and get out
youre what i want to be around
push in and push out
and get big and be loud
youre what i want to cry about

youll never be like me
cause youre crying in my arms
and everythings so hard
i said its right on
everythings my fault
cause im falling i cant stop
youre everything i wanted

ive been so bad at pushing for no push back
youre slipping through my fingers
and i know everything goes so fast
it makes me shiver
can you reconsider (it)

no youll never be like me
cause youre crying in my arms
and everythings so hard
i said its right on
everythings my fault
cause im falling i cant stop
youre everything i wanted

be loud

solo <3 @sensuku
botanica pad by @navinor

u were always near

look at me
n stay right here
ur right here		
i cant stop thinking
hide my heart, lest i feel
its not me what i fear

do you truly feel inside?
cos it hurts when you bleed our time
i dont know- im cruel and blind
hand on heart do you hear me cry?

why should i feel at fault
am i wrong just to feel at all
am i wrong just to feel your pulse

save me, i fear my own life

lest i feel

lest i feel (me, navi)

prod. (pipe bomb)

thought abt it idrk 
never gave a single fuck abt it and i dont 
i'm a butterfly but i dont wanna be alone 
little interaction got me feelin like a ghost 
i dont really wanna know
i dont need an antidote

lately i've been lookin but i feel like i've been fallin
getting hard to stop it 
but i dont knw 

dodgin everybody and i dont know how to drop it 
my phone wont unlock it 
fuck i dont know

ghost

produced by me
drawing by me 

dont be so brave, ive tried it all its the same
am i so stupid, determined
you try to pick at my brain, cant let you know me the same
the scratch on my arms start hurting

it all feels the same, the years the seasons all fade
the weathers never been tame, ill keep going
my minds never blank, my past my problems all stay
if i can push it away, am i growing?

dont be so dumb, its only real if you make it
i havent cried in so long, am i real or am i faking?
playing stupid for everyone, this manipulation
so if i take off my skin, would it be me who you're facing?

dont be so stubborn its just not what u want
and dont try to make it work
you should know that its not worth

don't be so dumb

prod @1sickboi (on ig)
happy halloween, on all plats <3
xx

evanescent
while you live in my head

n youre out for blood
but im kissing your neck

i think i need to work on myself
been trying to fix this puzzle instead

n you know i just wish i were dead
the pieces dont fit right in my head

evanescent
i forget the rest

but why ur always aimed at my head?
its getting hard to understand
so pull the trigger get me dead

n i fucked up
im sorry, i cant help, it's my fucked up mind of mine

so tell me
evanescence
dont remember?
wouldnt you like to try?

sick and twisted
u love it
i dont get.. why i even try

u sigh, look away
its okay
but i cant see your face

you wanna move into a new place
and im just standing in the way

bittersweet
my defeat

is there any way to cope with the taste?

evanescent Prod sickboi

lyrics:

Draped in this porch light
Is a broken man 
Stained with his guilt wine red thru his hands
These Words that we know
Halt the truth relayed to him
When everything is lost he picks up to start again

Based on his blood sports
I cannot defend
He just picks the brick back up as he stands
Ive been getting out more
Hell be sure to state
But Fuck if I could tell his rage paved thru his wake
When Every single second counts double on this day
Plan ahead for proper use to minimize ur waste
I cant even feel the copper splatter on my face
Id be none the wiser without profile of this taste
In his bruised hand he holds my back teeth
before the dirts layed he stashes more flesh
On this Wednesday im pushing daises
But On this Thursday im pushing roses 

Draped in this porch light
Is a broken man 
Stained with his guilt wine red thru his hands
These Words that we know
Halt the truth relayed to him
When everything is lost he picks up and goes again

Wait and Watch as his mask drops and his face shows
Its just like a mirror of looking at my own
I swear to god its like the last night I was out alone
Just Listen to my insight and stay the fuck at home
Its Big guns on the green line and a tired soul
U could get marked just like anyone u know
Leave his face on him side ways with a black hole
He just blew his brains out the back his fucking skull
Flayed on the stop sign sits his beating heart
Its like the human body get help break and fall apart
So Back into his hiding hole inside the long dark
He Rests until the year is done and halloween starts

Hlwn25 (eric godlow)

https://soundcloud.com/1rot


[jrmyrr]

what did you say?
"i never knew that you hated me so much"
oh well, oh well
"why do you even hate me"
"why did it have to become the state of us?
idk 
"oh well"

you started dating within 2 weeks (and you're moving him in)
"thats good for you im glad"
and i dont know how to do things, when im meeting my end (im meeting my end)
but lately ive been thinking of you, and how you do things without me 

you should really listen closely 
(u should rlly listen closely)
i dont treat anybody nicely
(i dont treat anybody nicely)
and then u wonder why they ghost me?
im just caught in a hole and i dont know how to get out

you started dating within 2 weeks (and you're moving him in)
"thats cool i guess"
and i dont know how to do things, when im meeting my end (im meeting my end)
but lately ive been thinking of you, and how you do things without me, i.

[rot]

i've been trying my best
but apparantly im not no good for you
and i know im a mess 
i've been stationary up inside my room

do you think i'd forget 
what i had done for me to make things wrong
and i know i'm a mess 
but i can talk 
no i'm good on my own 

im supervised but i am nowhere near a puppet
i'm fucking done with everybody kick the bucket alone

and i dont wanna talk anymoree
push me away cause you thought i was boring (as fuck)

no one ever goes back to me
i think i'm a washout that you interrupt
probably a bother i know
sorry im disappointed in myself who i hate

two weeks w/rot

[lyrics]

Im tryna find me in my head? 
i know
i never been so lost in my life
i never been so scared of my life
what if i just end up alone????
wake up without you
thats my biggest fear

and ill end up without you here
but its cold and i doubt ur near
im by the campfire singing a love song

Im tryna find me in my head?
i know
i never been so lost in my life
i never been so scared of my life
what if i just end up alone????
wake up without you
thats my biggest fear

you not around has shown me, that i can be someone different 
so tried of all this bologna, the lies are so inconsistent 

Im tryna find me in my head?
i know
i never been so lost in my life
i never been so scared of my life
what if i just end up alone????
wake up without you
thats my biggest fear

AND ILL END UP WITHOUT YOU HERE
BUT ITS COLD AND I DOUBT YOU'RE HERE
IM BY THE CAMPFIRE SINGING A LOVESONG

braindead love song

Baldi's second track after his debut single, two: seven

seven

prod winter
https://open.spotify.com/track/3OTc9C4dWymqezh4WB8vny?si=87db61500a674d13