Overthinking to much a playlist

Nothing seem matter anymore
Why am i here, i feel so alone
It’s like i got a dagger in my chest
All i wanna do is stay in bed
Think i got lost in the darkness
Trying to find my way back home
Why am i here, i feel so alone
I don’t wanna die, but i think i’m gone

Nothing seem matter anymore
Why am i here, i feel so alone
It’s like i got a dagger in my chest
All i wanna do is stay in bed
Think i got lost in the darkness
Trying to find my way back home
Why am i here, i feel so alone
I don’t wanna die, but i think i’m gone

Losing track of who i’m supposed to be
It’s hard to feel free
When you’re stuck in the in between
And all you want is someone to take you far
Away from where you are
A place to find your heart, again

Oh i’m not ready to give you up just yet
But right now it’s tough cause you can’t see the end

Nothing seem matter anymore
Why am i here, i feel so alone
It’s like i got a dagger in my chest
All i wanna do is stay in bed
Think i got lost in the darkness
Trying to find my way back home
Why am i here, i feel so alone
I don’t wanna die, but i think i’m gone

why am i here, i feel so alone

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produced by emptychest

lyrics

proceed with caution that's heavy
the waves will smack at the levee
I know u'll buy what I'm selling
their legs are turning to jelly
they watch as I crash the chevy
I'd tone it down if they'd let me
the loss of innocence sent me
I'll turn this up if ur ready

my loss of fortune seems petty
lined up to die like I'm kenny
with bits of wire reconnect me
ignite my fire its electric
if I'm a fox it's a fennec
I feel distress like this denim
we need to talk like I'm Kevin
this just the world that we live in
I sing a song and relive it
u a song n u cheese it
n I can hardly believe it
it's like practically breathe it
just feel the flow of the beat
n turn into a repeater 
I'll be ur coffee and creamer 
don't need no fuckin opinions

these aren't warm nights they feel like mid July
Southern hemisphere n all but still the time flies
Tryna move on, just now I feel alright
it's almost 5am and I'm still getting high
I got white ash blocking out the sky
I got double vision but I'm walking fine
this a straight shot, make a deadline 
Tryna make this bus before the before I freeze tonight

so break my heart on the seventh
and drink his spit by eleven 
she finds some peace tho in heaven
so she goes cutting the tether
just stuff my head full of feathers 
block out my will to remember
my brain will rot thru December
these drugs will turn me to Kevlar 
so watch my line for some new shit
I'm always dropping new music
it's like u need me to prove it
so pack my bowl with a two hit
just take the shot like u blew it
I like the odds when I'm losing
rammed down ur ear like a q tip
u best get used to this blue shit

u should worry bout ur damn self
it's not ur job to fix my damn health
words r nice but they all can't help
so go and waste ur time on somebody else
u just worry bout ur damn self
why u speaking on my bad health
just keep ur words all to ur damn self
go and waste ur time on anybody else

these aren't warm nights they feel like mid July
Southern hemisphere n all but still the time flies
Tryna move on, just now I feel alright
it's almost 5am and I'm still getting high
I got white ash blocking out the sky
I got double vision but I'm walking fine
this a straight shot, its a deadline 
Tryna make this bus before the before I freeze tonight

my loss of fortune seems petty
lined up to die like I'm kenny
with bits of wire reconnect me
ignite my fire its electric
if I'm a fox it's a fennec
I feel distress like this denim
we need to talk like I'm Kevin
this just the world that we live in
I sing a song and relive it
u a song n u cheese it
n I can hardly believe it
it's like practically breathe it
just feel the flow of the beat
n turn into a repeater 
I'll be ur coffee and creamer 
don't need no fuckin opinions

05:00am departure (emptychest)

out everywhere. thank u 4 the support. lyrics below<3

Yeah
It's a new me but i'm still the same without you
Yeah yeah
Can you hold me
Oo whoa
It don't even matter what I do
I try and try and try and try

Yeah and I know you better than that
You're hiding your phone from me now
Girl tell me who's that on your snap whoa
I guess i'm the bad guy
Can you stop the game I need a halftime
I can't feel a thing i'm boutta flatline
She keep running round inside of my mind
Yeah whoa
In a room full of friends I still feel alone
Don't know who I am don't know where to go
And when I build you up you break me down
It's hard as fuck to keep you round
Don't know who I am anymore I don't know where to go
She tell me i'm changing
Baby I feel like i'm falling apart
Bitch I keep on breaking
You can't fix this with conversation no
Wake up it's the same shit oh
Go to bed and then i'm pissed off
I don't wanna be the bitter one but it's hard around everyone

Yeah ooo
Yeah ooo
Oh no no no
No no no no no whoa

Girl I still feel the tension
Stop saying shit you never meant then
Going one way down the wrong way
This time I think I learned my lesson oh whoa
And no I won't deny the way you looking in my eyes
You got me going crazy all night I won't lie
Oh no no no no no
No no no no no no
No no no no no no

<3

The Bitter One

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the bitter one [p. king theta]

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz

lyrics:
(latency's far)
(i'm picking at scars, again..)

'cause i've been losing strength in my arms
and the warmth in my heart
pick it up, toss it out
feelings shank, feel it sharp

(i've been losing strength in my arms again)

if they complain i'm the worst, then i'll let it hurt
'cause i'm apathetic at best
i'll let it get on my nerves, like i live in reverse
while you b*tch in' and nag, i destress
chardonne in my chest
i'd check my phone but that ego's myself
'till i'm pressed
fluid cardiac arrest
outta my dome, 'till i'm ghost
matter of fact i'm repressed

when i step outside i just fall through the flooring
and you step aside when i'm entering pouring my state of array
every sec of the day, so i turn to the blade but if it goes in deeper
then i may as well make a date with the reaper
and lower concern for myself as a seeker
cause i wasn't fit to bestow what they wanted
trickling stones like an amateur novice

with no sense of balance nor care where they landed
if you would've just realized why this happens
then i wouldn't cry or feel so f*cking captive
and hurt, and alone as i lie on my mattress
and shout to the ma**es, 'bout all of my feelings
fixated on rippin' this notion of healing
apart in the dark, it ain't smart, but they'll hear me
at least to the point where the hurt is appealing

"if you care, why don't you show it?"
"is it because you're a poet?"
b*tch , i'm eternally broken
quit treating me like a hoax
'cause they all disappear when i'm at my lowest
i've been holding up this lantern to glow on it's own
and i feel like spyro, flames in a spiral
back like it's spinal, i've been on my own sh*t
but every little thought that tortures me
are the only ones that help when i lack empathy
confine the lies and shallow tears
oh you're ignorance is something i don't wanna hear

a pa**erby lulling lowered eyes
hope you feel alright for the new year
'cause i stand at the front lines,
it's hypocritical and nuclear
decapitated from my patience
had to wait and let it grow
morals shrink the moment we quit nurturing our weary bones

autumndropsdead - spyro (nate2timez x pekarot x autumndropsdead)

Overthinking pt 4

Apple Music - music.apple.com/us/artist/ollie/1325387508

Produced by RRAREBEAR
Additional Guitar by Chris Godfrey
Violin by Nelson Moneo
Mix & Master by Jay Kurzweil

- Ollie -
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Blue Nights

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Ollie - Blue Nights

i shouldn't be alive in the first place

(prod. Chill Sebs)

now you see I have a problem
but my mind tells me lies its so hard now, hate me
used to bake in the night, don't forget me
its so sad, but i cry and it breaks me

why is everything so blacked out
I cant even feel my heart, when you're gone now
soul partner, in the night, how did I allow
you to leave me all alone in my sorrows
I'm blinded baby

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

I'm drowning in our memories
echoes of your touch
sleeping here at night
while you're out having fun
connected like the stars and moon in the night
you're the only one who I love, that's right

baby you're my soul partner, everything
I see when I dream
phone calls, and videos, sent from you to me
every little text I get from you makes me think 
of the little things, you do and how much they mean to me

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

soul partner

Lyrics:

I could make room in the front seat
If you really want me
they ask me if i’m crazy
I don’t really know i might be
i think that she likes me
i don't even like me
i don't know no nothing
just a boy who chased a pipe dream

i'm never dipping
no i'm never leaving 
i got a feeling in my chest
i made a vow to all my friends
just like the last couple days im sleeping in again
i write a song for a mic test
i eat my feelings to crawl back
i'm always sleeping
and i'm never eating
xcept maccas and tacos in my bed

guess we're reverting the progress again
in some ways i think i could still call you a friend 
but you're still the same reason i wanna be dead
and you're still the same reason i'm fucked in the head
i'm angry the thought of you coming right back
might blow out my brains on the ceiling instead
after they're done on her new lovers bed
she'll swear me an oath with her palm on my chest

you're fucking me up been a year with you gone
are you proud of me now with the drugs that i'm off
do you act like a kid
do you act like my mom
i'm dying to know if you've grown and moved on

i cash me a check and i'm feeling my best
and i blow it on sweaters and things for my cats
might fuck around think i'll get me a tatt
got no more to say there's my thoughts in a wrap

wrap (whyke)

body going missing

prod: https://soundcloud.com/block-tane https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz
 
i can hear my own heartbeat
pound in this quiet
hands bound back
with this rope
he'll tie me up
(i can hear my own heartbeat pounding
i can hear my own heartbeat pounding)
i can feel the cold concrete
laying down, crying
itching through scabs
to be whole is all i want
(i can hear my own heartbeat pounding
i can hear my own heartbeat pounding)
open me up
god willing i'll make it
your shirt soaking with blood
oh, my body keep shaking
place my flesh upon a sigil
brand with my initials
this night will make me whole again
the embers start to whistle
nothing left, no one to hold me
bloody ceremony
i will lose control again,
the heavens will disown me

please, please
it's all that i have
(like magician, body going)

like magician,
body going missing
bloodied up my palms
baby i feel like a christian
just how i envisioned
prep for the incision
pierce right through my heart
until my fingers finish twitching
oh yeah,
i think i like it, i don't wanna pretend
i'm fucking begging for it
cut me again
and again, and again, and again
and again

(let us pray, let us wish
to partake in communion,
let us partake in communion,
and feast upon the old blood)

where i'm going
i won't make it back
hope he's waiting for me
vision going black
nothing i have left will make it past
open me up
god willing i'll make it
your shirt soaking with blood
oh my body keeps shaking
keeps shaking


paleblood

all black w/ kennedyxoxo & sadboyprolific [+love matt]

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

it keeps me holding on
take the photo to remember you my memory ain’t great
all the time you wasted cuz i always show up late
police right behind me every time i switch the lane
i know you doubt me you think everything is fake
said im in love but you can’t see it on my face

fire in my lungs
the ladder on my tounge
its the only thing that keeps me holding on
when pushing leads to shove
theres something bout your love
it’s the only thing that keeps me holding on
do anything to make us numb 
you’re smart enough to know that’s dumb
my head spinning round like what is going on?
you hate when i make those songs
but it’s just me moving on
take the time heal but healing takes so long

fire in my lungs // holding on (mew2)

lyrics<3

girl you tore up that apartment
when we started growing cold

someones daughter, needs a father
but he left her all alone

left the bar when i was carded
wasent 21 years old

took my heart, now its discarded
whyd you use it as your own?

last ditch, i rest my eyes in a parked car
so sick i left my wine on ur bar cart
time ticks and love will leave u with a dark scar
words slip and i think you just took it too far

where do we go?
im stuck on the outside
been losing control
been losing my damn mind
but you’ll never kmow
our loves on a faultline
turn me to stone
when im gazing at ur green eyes

baby i think thats toxic
maybe you think im all wrong
one word and im changing the topic
suprised myself that im moving on

yet u coiodnt care less
7 days same clothes got a loose neck
i was down on my own like a reject
pardon my problems i feel like a nuisance

last month i saw your mom in that walmart
on lunch i shed some tears on my carhartt
as kids we measured heights and left a door mark
we grew quick it’s such a shane we didn’t go far

fault line [jacob vallen]

If I Had An Airplane (Ft. Emily James)

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus- Your Guardian Angel

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i shouldn't be alive in the first place

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