this is the saddest indie movie i’ve ever listened to

in high school, i was depressed
because of the society around me
how people were choosing to live
i wanted to be an activist
i wanted to fight against this
but as time went on you only begin to see
that its all a reflection of you

and i wont forget you
no matter my choice
leave me behind you
ill keep down the noise

i thought i could live
the way that i want
something must go wrong

swallow
my self-righteous thinking
i know that you want this to end

your sick sense of humor
(makes me feel cold)
and you're twisting my future
(don't get too bold)
should have spoke to you sooner
(let me rephrase)
shutting down like a loser
(i'm all alone)

you text me back
you tell me that
don't wait for me
just hurry please
don't wanna be
a part of this
can hardly see
the things i missed 

(i want my home)
you text me back
you tell me that
don't wait for me
(makes me feel cold)
just hurry please
(i want my home)
don't wanna be
a part of this
can hardly see
(don't get too bold)
the things i missed

(i was in love for you)
(i want my home)
you text me back
you tell me that
(i was in love for you)
don't wait for me
(let me rephrase)
just hurry please
(i was in love for you)
(i want my home)
don't wanna be
a part of this
(i was in love for you)
can hardly see
(i'm all alone)
the things i missed

(i was in love for you)
(i want my home)
text me back
(tell me you care, more than you show)
you tell me that
(i was in love for you)
don't wait for me
(let me rephrase)
just hurry please
(i was in love for you)
(i want my home)
don't wanna be
a part of this
(i was in love for you)
can hardly see
(don't get too bold)
(i'm all alone)
the things i missed

your sick sense of humor
makes me feel cold
and you're twisting my future
don't get too bold
should have spoke to you sooner
let me rephrase
shutting down like a loser
i'm all alone

so many things don't mean anything
and im struggling to find hope in anything lately
i don't know what to live for anymore
i feel like i don't really have a purpose
other than to observe
just observe everything going around
and my own emotions
and honestly im sick of it
there's probably not a day that goes by
where i don't think about dying
or don't think about how doomed i feel
and the funny part is
like a lot of people they get depressed
because of politics or relationships
none of that even matters to me
it doesn't i feel like it doesn't really affect me
im just so down all the time 

(i get too high to function
you get so drunk you love him
we melted in eachother
you left and held another

dont tell me how youre feeling
dont tell me that youre healing
i think i might throw up
i think i might throw up

i get too high to function
you get so drunk you love him
we melted in eachother
you left and held another

dont tell me how youre feeling
dont tell me that youre healing
i think i might throw up
i think i might throw up)

because i know that the reality i've created
is merely an illusion
and it always will be
and i am everything
and i'm god
and that's supposed to be beautiful
and enlightening
but for some odd reason
for me it's just really heavy
all i keep thinking well if i'm god
and i create then i also am the opposite of that
i destroy i have the power to break things down
and recreate them
and for some odd reason this whole illusion
or i don't even know if it's an illusion
but this whole process of
well then the answer must be to die
to kill yourself because that is creation
and if you do it consciously
and you know that you are it
then what difference does it make from living?

um i changed my mind
i'm not sleepy anymore
and i don't wanna go to sleep
uh i don't know if you're ignoring me
or something
i i feel like you kinda like were dry
all day and i guess we didn't talk a bunch
so i'm sorry if i did anything wrong
um just just get back to me when when you can

black widow

we listened to flatsound together and i read you the handwritten letter that mitch sent me

you taught me how to be alive

it's just sex don't worry!

good boy

take (liminaldream)

cry again (prod. dan darmawan)

hope (pro. c world)

i dont wanna live in this fast life
i dont wanna keep being cold
i dont wanna worry my children
i dont wanna keep getting old
i dont wanna tell you my problems
i dont wanna keep feeling sore
i dont wanna write all my issues
i dont wanna i dont wanna
i dont wanna talk anymore

i heard your changing im not
since when i offered a lot
love you took all that you want
and didnt know when to stop
so now im left in the dark
forced to rebuild what ive lost

my heart is in my stomach
beating harder than with you
surrounding me so gently

so gently

oh god hear me out
use your fists to fuck my mouth
youre sleeping sound inside his house
i smell cologne when we go out
tell me that im different
then strip me from my innocence
i know that i have been a mess
remember that im still a kid
silence can speak louder than
all of the things that you said
girl you lost my tolerance
guess ill just take all of it
im so cold got bloody ribs
call my phone know who it is
visualize your hand in his
oh my dear i deserve this

i just flicked up with your bitch okay
and you working all night while we fuckin all day
when you come around crying what the fuck can i say
when you come around lying tryna fuck up my day
and the pussy so good sit it right on my face
ima butcher your limbs fit em right in my case
bitch im bustin your lip talking shit that i hate
ima put a brother down if the homie turn fake

shit get hot pull my mask off
fucking white women till they raw like a mad dog
ima pop another get me fucked up like im mad, dawg
if i pop another only time will see me pass on
nah pass on bitch to the next one
ima take you out like a new gun
ima cut my name shedding new blood
so you wont forget like a first love

do you like what you feel?

can’t see the girl i am (pro.velvet)

IMA HIT THE E WOOD TIL I PASS OUT! #FUCKGOOFIES

black widow

ander

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