something different <3 

Lyrics:
locked in my room its been so long
waiting for you i cant hold on
keep pushing me down but ill stay strong
youre something that i shouldnt wait on

i remember when you told me that
that you could help me with this loneliness
as of lately ive been so damn stressed
but you cant help cause im a hopeless mess
i cant remember loving at all
ive been waiting for you to call

stop take a second to listen
theres pieces of me that are missing
im broken but that just seems fitting
dont deserve love who am i kidding
please tell me theres another option
youve been absent so damn often
behind my back you always talk shit
i lie to myself and i cant stop it

i dont think i can feel anymore
break me to pieces dont tell me what for
turned your back and you walked out the door
pain struck me deep right on down to my core
i tried annihilating every trace of our background
dying lately shit been forcing me to back down
im done crying baby put that shit all in the past now
ive been crazy 6 feet underneath the grass now
fire it surrounds but i feel cold
remember when you said that wed grow old

hellissodamncold (prod.siemspark X Itschrismarek)

Lyrics:
im feeling out of it
im all fucked up
not fucking proud of it
fuck the universe
cause its humor hurts
dont beat down the kid
demon towering
overpowering
dont know how to win
mental bought to spin
bad luck showering 
fucking clouds again

beat me down body found
right before sunrise
underground safe and sound
sheltered from sunlight
heare the hounds there on the prowl
theres nothing you can hide
trace the smell drag you to hell
take you to the dark side

do i have to i keep holding on
do i have to i keep holding on
but do i have to i keep holding on
do i have to
do i have to

lifes not fair but i dont care i wanna fucking break
yeah im in despair my body wears just put me in my grave
when you see me there pale and cold just laugh right in my face
cause im too weak to care my stomach tears im just a small mistake

yeah my vessels overrun 
nothing i can do something ill never overcome
please just make my body numb
i dont wanna feel take me way up beyond the sun

do i have to i keep holding on
do i have to i keep holding on
but do i have to i keep holding on
do i have to
do i have to

Overrun (prod.sorrowbringer)

Lyrics:
going back to back 
yeah conversations with a ghost
a broken heart of glass
these barren walls dont feel like home
these whispers from the past
there creeping up inside this room
i knew it wouldnt last
slowly approaching my own doom

swear that destinys testing my
i dont get no rest
this fucking entity heavenly
fucking with my head

just fucking set me free let me be
lets set war at peace you and me

you just want attention
merging with my soul
bitch wtf is this possession
phantom going ghost like danny
i dont learn no lessons
when they coming from a hoe
i swear to god you always testing
i done failed that class i know

going back to back 
yeah conversations with a ghost
a broken heart of glass
these barren walls dont feel like home
these whispers from the past
there creeping up inside this room
i knew it wouldnt last
slowly approaching my own doom

XELFIY:
I was wrong, my bad 
I should never even asked
I always longed for that 
I should never held the mask 

I was wrong, I’m sad 
I should never even smashed 
I fucking tarnished that 
I grab my mic n fucking harness 

miss the days out side the laundry mat
All the pain inside my nerves I have but
grab my drink my keys an swerve yeah 

I was wrong, my bad 
I should never even asked
I always longed for that 
I should never held the mask 

Fucking haunted
Not comfortable in this skin it feel hot

I was wrong, my bad 
I should never even asked
I always longed for that 
I should never held the mask 

I was wrong, I’m sad 
I should never even smashed 
I fucking tarnished that 
I grab my mic n fucking harness 

miss the days out side the laundry mat
All the pain inside my nerves I have but
grab my drink my keys an swerve yeah 

I was wrong, my bad 
I should never even asked
I always longed for that 
I should never held the mask

Haunted Ft XELFIY (prod. Scottysplash)

Lyrics:
no she wont wake till the sun rise
but i wont live through the night time
swear to god she was on my side
but now i guess that its my time

sleep walk
sleep taking to youre dreams
try to keep up
its not as crazy as it seems
scream and bleed cut
fucking dangerous when you sleep
shes some type of creature swear she loves it when i scream
sleep walk
sleep taking to youre dreams
try to keep up
its not as crazy as it seems
scream and bleed cut
fucking dangerous when you sleep
shes some type of creature swear she loves it when i scream

notcursed:
i can't fall asleep without a nightmare
call me crazy but it helps me when ur right there
cannot scream through all the noise
of those who don't care
crying out your name
tell me that you're still here

freeze up
freezing air pulls through your teeth
i need to wake up
somebody wake me from this sleep
oh but the sleep bugs
feasting over me
i'm so rotted by defeat

20ofive:
sleep walk
sleep taking to youre dreams
try to keep up
its not as crazy as it seems
scream and bleed cut
fucking dangerous when you sleep
shes some type of creature swear she loves it when i scream
sleep walk
sleep taking to youre dreams
try to keep up
its not as crazy as it seems
scream and bleed cut
fucking dangerous when you sleep
shes some type of creature swear she loves it when i scream

Sleep Walk Ft notcursed (prod.5head)

go follow https://soundcloud.com/safeatlast/tracks

Lyrics:
red painted walls
from pain you caused
swear up and down
it aint your fault
blood drained assault
lost train of thought
i lost my mind
from traits you taught
conflicted addicted to thoughts of you
i miss it the sick shit you put me through

every time reminded
just history reminded
memories always find it
just fucking sit in silence
multiplied it by ten
the pain that still resides in
my cold and empty corpse
i just gave up and resigned it

i cant take the blame anymore
no i dont want to
desperate mistakes i will own
thats what ive gone through
i cant feel my face im so numb
got to attached to
this entity i blame 
for all scars that i have bled through

guess youve mistaken me 
for a stupid fucking kid
yeah youve forsaken me
shouldnt ever trust a bitch
i showed love faithfully
but you wont ever give a shit
bleed the hate out of my wrist
all that i have left to give

safeatlast:
i dont have much left to give
the reaper took away my soul and now i couldnt give a shit
ive tried 100 times to recompile the losses from my sins
and if i had a chance to stop i wouldnt know how to begin

you cant believe the things
i hear in whispers from the entity
the prophecy
has proven greater than the enemy
surrounding me
tormented minds to do the beckoning
of higher powers putting on a show as if they're threatening

breakups to make ups
they change us 
i swear love
is dangerous
the blade cuts
serrated 
this games fucked
all of my intentions yeah i swear that they were justified
id even swear it on my life
but ill stay here and choose to die

bloodied both my eyelids
ive been fucking crying
pools of my existence
slowly fucking dying

struggle is surviving
my happiness residing
safely in its shelter
away stuck in its hiding

blood red
its such a mess
i must confess
its just all too much
for my head
im such a wreck
i tried my best
but im giving up

The Entity Ft Safeatlast (prod.5head)

Lyrics:

stone cold stare
baby please lets not go there
anyything you want i dont care
ik that life just isnt fair
dont let me down gentley
my heart is fucking empty
i swear my soul had fucking left me
dont you go and fucking test me

im sick of fucking hating myself
decay of my health
im talking bout my mental as well
life pushed and i fell
if i get back up
i might fall again
bad luck struck
i got no defence
im sick of fucking hating myself
decay of my health
im talking bout my mental as well
life pushed and i fell
if i get back up
i might fall again
bad luck struck
i got no defense

hatred 
im sick of fucking waiting
think im bout to dip
im might hop up in the spaceship
sacred
xelly did the same shit
we flying fucking faded
aint goin nowhere
but id swear we fuckin made it
hating me isnt no make believe 
speak out your mind
baby please dont you play with me
go back in time
i had loved you so faithfully
fucked in the mind
i swear that shit is plain to see

state of decay
im rotting away
the flesh off my bones
is not here to stay
im pale in the face
my body will waste
inside my room
theres no light of day

im sick of fucking hating myself
decay of my health
im talking bout my mental as well
life pushed and i fell
if i get back up
i might fall again
bad luck struck
i got no defence
im sick of fucking hating myself
decay of my health
im talking bout my mental as well
life pushed and i fell
if i get back up
i might fall again
bad luck struck
i got no defense

No Defense (prod. Nevrfall)

Lyrics:

ill give all that it takes 
for us to make it out
we slowly start are breaking down again
its all in our heads
well fake it yeah well just at least for now
motivation underground
from all of this stress
its not not making sense 
at all
losing our friends
but in our defense 
were lost

all i can do
is hold on to you
as long as stay here by my side
i couldnt lose 
the thing 1 to my 2
youre my stars and im your night

a promise ill keep it
stop me from breathing
if i dont
my nights have been sleepless
mentaly beaten
when im alone
so stay close by
comfort is your presence
no one eles would get it
but you

all i can do
is hold on to you
as long as stay here by my side
i couldnt lose 
the thing 1 to my 2
youre my stars and im your night

your saving me making me 
all that i am
songs like these i hated please
stay till the end
i know were forever
were stronger than friends
i promise my love 
ill do all that can
for us

Thing 1 To My 2 (king Theta)

Lyrics:

pushing past my breaking point
even if my last this is my choice
run in fields of grass in summer noise
were just living fast fulfilled with joy

all the stars that shine from up above
could not compare to you my love
and i know this now
that im not giving up
and if youre feeling down just know that youre enough

if i swear well be alright 
would u stay here by my side
keep our trust and never lie
i love u till the day i die

ill keep you close inside my heart
to get to you tear me apart
and if i die ill just restart
by finding you to play my part

The Day I Die Intro(kingtheta)

Lyrics:
whachu want
baby girl i swear that i have it
im not 
lying or being dramatic
im on 
your love got me so so sporadic
some fun 
come on lets go go and have it


patiently
ill wait to see
baby its you and me
thats all i know
its plain to see
our fate to me
moving so hastily
baby lets go

im not good at conversations
but baby i can try
yeah i think that we can make it
wasted on your love
yeah i can taste it
buzzed its like a drug
up in my system you can trace it

yeah youre all that i know
steady vibing with my thoughts 
youre the star of the show
come on baby lets go
have the time of lives
aint no taking it slow

whachu want
baby girl i swear that i have it
im not 
lying or being dramatic
im on 
your love got me so so sporadic
some fun 
come on lets go go and have it

babe youre the first
love that i had
cant explain it with words
all that i ask
is you stay if it turns 
dark or youre sad
ill stay by youre side
till i die 
till the end

all i know (prod. Robin cause)

out on Spotify 
Lyrics:
show love 
i need to blow up
yall need to grow up
say it again
i got a motive
put on a show and
take a deep breath
imma do it again
step the fuck back
no i dont need a freind
just need a fan
provide for my fam
grind till im dead
ima grind till the end
ill never stop so you better attend

imma dead mothafucka
yeah my heads been busted
but i keep that shit held high
bones been rusted
not the life i wanted
oh no oh me oh my
like xel yeah im that guy
spark it up and then we fly
make a hit dont have to try
sad boy shit ill make you cry

show love 
i need to blow up
yall need to grow up
say it again
i got a motive
put on a show and
take a deep breath
imma do it again
step the fuck back
no i dont need a freind
just need a fan
provide for my fam
grind till im dead
ima grind till the end
ill never stop so you better attend

too late i make more than im needing
you hate i adore that youre feining
snooze late im up early this evening
new face you annoyed that im cheeseing
too easy
knowing you need me
so cold 
yeah i bet that youre freezing
so hot yeah ik that you heated
hot shot no im never defeated

up left then i hit bitch with a right hook
sundown underground tell me how the night look
red eyes got dead eyes they frightful
spread lies in the dead night got a rifle
im a phyco
got a blindfold
got youre eyes closed
better do what i told
while i hold
youre life sold
you might fold
listen on a side note

show love 
i need to blow up
yall need to grow up
say it again
i got a motive
put on a show and
take a deep breath
imma do it again
step the fuck back
no i dont need a freind
just need a fan
provide for my fam
grind till im dead
ima grind till the end
ill never stop so you better attend

Dead Mothafucka (prod. hazzy)

Secrets Ft Notcursed (prod. Flower)

Lyrics:
what's it represent
the dreams that i have been
seeing you in bed
you're wrapped around my head
never could forget
swear you're heaven sent
sent from up ahead
I'm happy to have met

she got black hair and green eyes
it seems i
lost her
the dreams i had last night
suffer without her
obsessed mind
dreams had about her
the best kind
black hair and green eyes
it seems i
lost her
the dreams i had last night
suffer without her
obsessed mind
dreams had about her
the best kind

what's it represent
the dreams that i have been
seeing you in bed
you're wrapped around my head
never could forget
swear you're heaven sent
sent from up ahead
I'm happy to have met

and the dreams
they really do seam so real
what's it mean
can you tell me why i feel
can you tell me why i feel
can you tell me why i feel

meditation 
the medication
don't fuckin help
my soul is vacant
went on vacation
body is a shell
there's no replacing
what has been taken
never fuckin felt
never felt okay

she got black hair and green eyes
it seems i
lost her
the dreams i had last night
suffer without her
obsessed mind
dreams had about her
the best kind
black hair and green eyes
it seems i
lost her
the dreams i had last night
suffer without her
obsessed mind
dreams had about her
the best kind

i wanna sleep again 
so we can meet again
and fuck just being friends
don't want this dream to end
i wanna feel again
got wounds that you can mend
yeah
yeah 
yeah
yeah 

my heart beats faster
until it shatters
my bones
my conscience scattered
just wanna find my way home
but nothing matters
this shit don't matter i know
i hope you're flattered
you left me lost and alone

she got black hair and green eyes
it seems i
lost her
the dreams i had last night
suffer without her
obsessed mind
dreams had about her
the best kind
black hair and green eyes
it seems i
lost her
the dreams i had last night
suffer without her
obsessed mind
dreams had about her
the best kind

i wanna sleep again 
so we can meet again
and fuck just being friends
don't want this dream to end
i wanna feel again
got wounds that you can mend
yeah 
yeah
yeah
yeah

I Wanna Go Back To Sleep (prod. flower)

I Can Hardly Breath feat. XELFIY + Travis Baby (prod. sogimura)

I Wish You Knew (prod.autrioly)

Pale Lit Garden ft XELFIY (prod flower x 5head)

Lyrics:
unexpected
from my perspective

in the parking lot
wed go
but then she said the words i love you not
i know
her friends fucking up all of her thoughts
i wont 
quit until my fucking body rots
wind blows
im weighed down by fucking cinderblocks
echoes
memories that i couldve swore i lost
left those
in a place that i forever locked
left broke
like shattered pieces of a flower pot
love me 
love me not

left to roam this plane
flesh off my bone
its left rotting in the grave
dont walk this way
got a thirst from blood
to prevent me from decay

let me in
you need protection from a ghost 
dust is settling
in this wreckage of a home 
you haven't said a thing
in about a month or so
 just let me in
you gotta let me in

yeah i lost her
imma monster
yeah i lost her 
in the

in the parking lot
wed go
but then she said the words i love you not
i know
her friends fucking up all of her thoughts
i wont 
quit until my fucking body rots
wind blows
im weighed down by fucking cinderblocks
echoes
memories that i couldve swore i lost
left those
in a place that i forever locked
left broke
like shattered pieces of a flower pot
love me 
love me not

etchmygrave:
love me love me not
breakdown in the parking lot i need you
baby im holdin out for somethin youll never see to
pooling in crimson from the cardigan that i bleed thru
stabbed in the back but this whole damn time youve been so see through

ill bleed out
red stains on ur carpet
hunger pains
im so good at self starvin
depreciate
ill decay in my apartment
nothin to say to you baby
no  its not important
 
i told myself id be careful
fallin apart agains nothin more than fuckin painful
thought that id give you another chance itd be so beautiful
but you done threw it right away i see u never cared at all

love me love me not ft etchmygrave (prod. flower)

broken and brusied

WHATS THE DEAL

Lyrics:
the coffee table coffee stains
a blank expresion on youre face
i swear my love its all okay
you dont need to feel this way
i know the days are feeling grey
nights alone youre wide awake
i know im gome but im not away
home with you im here to stay

and when youre heart is feeling blue
just know my love that im here with you
there nothing that you couldnt do
youre the strongest one i ever knew
bumps along weve had a few
start a family didnt have a clue
sleep in late if we wanted to
a moment more that i shared with you

with you id follow
down the road back home to tomorrow
ending youre sorrow

cant ever get back what we had
we can always lookback when we laughed
i know that you tried so hard to relax
but you went and held it in till you crashed

i hope you know youre safe here
i will always wait dear

the coffee table coffee stains
a blank expresion on youre face
i swear my love its all okay
you dont need to feel this way
i know the days are feeling grey
nights alone youre wide awake
i know im gome but im not away
home with you im here to stay

and when youre heart is feeling blue
just know my love that im here with you
there nothing that you couldnt do
youre the strongest one i ever knew
bumps along weve had a few
start a family didnt have a clue
sleep in late if we wanted to
a moment more that i shared with you

with you id follow
down the road back home to tomorrow
ending youre sorrow
with you id follow
down the road back home to tomorrow
ending youre sorrow

you're safe here (prod. Jacob Vallen)

POISON

left to waste (prod.hollowprpl)

Lyrics:
ive been suffocating deep down
i can hardly fucking sleep now
longing for you
i can show you

how to be so hopeless
how to be so broken
proud of me
dont notice
ive been open
with every word ive spoken
how to be so hatful
after everything ungrateful
ive gave everything to pay for
its panful
dont know what i stayed for

evil fucking entity
you were sent for me
every lie you said to me
oh god i believed
so stupid
so useless
im so fucking clueless
whyd you do this

what you want from me
im 100 feet under
comfortably
dont disturb me from my slumber
ive found peace inside this home
i just wanna be alone

i working up
the courage to
face the fact
ive disappointed you
shades of black
and my body blue
i cant take it back
if i wanted to

i tried to get off chest
but no
i swear i did my fucking best for you
i think you know the fucking rest i dont
wanna leave my new appointed home

how to be so hopeless
how to be so broken
proud of me
dont notice
ive been open
with every word ive spoken
how to be so hateful
after everything ungrateful
ive gave everything to pay for
its panful
dont know what i stayed for

how 2 b (prod. neverfall)

at a red light
i know im late but comin home
in the dead night 3 percent inside my phone
i know i said id be on time but no i wont
know i said id
know i said id

going 80 in 35 
keep it up ill make it by
3 or 4 or maybe 5
im passing every fucking sign
keep dozing off im sleep deprived
try everything to keep my eyes
open seeing yellow lines
i tried i swear i fucking tried

and i drift off slowly
god this belt wont hold me oh
oh this light has chose me
oh it feels so cozy

stay alive
dont wanna stay alive
im fucking drifting off to space
see the satellites

tears are flowing down your face
and you seem paralyzed
i swear ill meet you at the gates
id never tell a lie

at a red light
i know im late but comin home
in the dead night 3 percent inside my phone
i know i said id be on time but no i wont
know i said id
know i said id

red light (prod. babieyummo x sorrow bringer)

we can die

Out on all platforms <3

Lyrics:
its clear youre infatuation to broken hearts
my mortal flesh has perished it has formed to scars
i cant alleviate the pain when ive been torn apart
and my bones oh so brittle riddled with fucking shards

for once could you listen
but you never no
i tried keeping my distance
claim were never close
and to you im addicted
and fucking shows
and i want to admit it
but im scared youll go 

go and leave me ghosted 
in the fucking open
hang on dirty clothespins
guess that im a joke then
and that were opponents
thought id never notice
how youre fucking hopeless
and that i dont need

its clear youre infatuation to broken hearts
my mortal flesh has perished it has formed to scars
i cant alleviate the pain when ive been torn apart
and my bones oh so brittle riddled with fucking shards

ive come with open arms
willing to play my part
let you sink youre teeth in 
there fucking razor sharp
i tried so fucking hard
i prayed up to the stars
release me from this demon
let me hit restart

back to this basics
all on my own
free of my hatred
deep in my bones
i can not face it
nor can my soul
that feeling is sacred
pure and its whole

its clear youre infatuation to broken hearts
my mortal flesh has perished it has formed to scars
i cant alleviate the pain when ive been torn apart
and my bones oh so brittle riddled with fucking shards

brittle (prod. luffysome x sorrow bringer)

Lyrics:
trapped again with bleeding thoughts
in the end we see no cost
mortal men will take no fault
at all
trapped again with bleeding thoughts
in the end we see no cost
mortal men will take no fault
at all

figure it out oh
let me go
i dont want this
choosing the wrong road
cant get home
ill just forfeit
out in the ice cold
world of hope
i cant forget
how this life is morbid
filled with fear and torment
figure it out oh
let me go
i dont want this
choosing the wrong road
cant get home
ill just forfeit
out in the ice cold
world of hope
i cant forget
how this life is morbid
filled with fear and torment

trapped again with bleeding thoughts
in the end we see no cost
mortal men will take no fault
at all
trapped again with bleeding thoughts
in the end we see no cost
mortal men will take no fault
at all

what am i doing with my life  (prod. all we left unsaid)

this song is about feeling stuck in the every day loop of the same shit, wanting something new and wanting to not feel suffocated in my everyday life.

i dont hurt anymore but im still broken
feel like ive been here before like time stood frozen

any way that i feel
a strain of faithfuless (ik its not a word) chills
oh for a break i would kill
a fist of painkillers till
my mind has stayed steady still
im not one found of the thrill
im stuck here pondering will
i

wondering will i go
to a place i can call my home
can i be fine alone
making it on my own

i dont hurt anymore but im still broken
feel like ive been here before like time stood frozen

i dont hurt anymore but im still broken
feel like ive been here before like time stood frozen

any way that i feel
a strain of faithfulless chills
oh for a break i would kill

deja vu (prod.michael harrison)

throw up (prod.SHADE08)

want me (prod.SHADE08)

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