Every chance that I had to make amends thrown away in a second of clarity.
All we are is rehearsed lines on this page; play it out, it's an over done cliche.
The touch of your hand was never so cold.
Let it slip through your grasp, it's not worth it to hold.
It's a story, a poem; it's something so tragic.
It'll never work out how you expect.
I'll never be who you thought I was.

It's not morals; it's cowardance.

novella - morals vs. cowardance p. vinogradov

hold my hand like a loaded gun
you said baby im thebomb.com
we wrote this script together
tangled in tether 
your the imagination ender
you said w would last forever and ever
you were gone so quick i should of known
so toast to a happy ever after

thebomb.com

i know it's hard to stay alive
but i see the truth inside ur eyes
all we do is lay awake at night
i lost ur face in fading lights
the glass still cracks beneath my feet
and each day, it gets harder to breathe
so take apart whats left of me
and leave a beautiful tradegy
a shattered vow, ur broken
and the veil is torn right open
our veins are black and blue
like the neon lights
and the corpse of jesus christ
oh, i hope that it's not hopeless
but our wrists are red and open
ive wasted all my life
trying to make it right
but i never put up a fight

yeiko // death_pact</3__prod._yeiko_kumori

song from early 2022 recorded together at my house with my dear friend during a time that was simpler and happier 

ya i dont know you 
you dont know me
watchu tryna be
its up to me
im with the team
weve been counting green

i dont wanna talk
faded steady off these pills
dont know how to walk
got my head over my heels
ghosting like im hi five
taking my life i might try
posted in the night time
i see through your white lies

thru&thru +smlx (lovbug)

https://instagram.com/vee4r_xoxo
https://instagram.com/isthatwasty

cover: https://instagram.com/sacralsovereign/

lyrics: (https://genius.com/Vee4r-shine-n-glisten-lyrics)

i got way too many Problems
but dont think im gonna fix them
if u hatin on me 
why u on my dick then?

i-i-im addicted
pour another Cup in my throat
it feels like drowning
tho im sittiny safely in my boat

blood dripping down my chain
watch me Shine n glisten
my thigh is full of scars
better take the wrist then

take the wrist then
slit my wrist then
everybodys worried 
but nobody listens

i just wanna look into the Mirror
and smile at my face
i dont want to talk to them cause
they dont know what to say

all they is "get some Friends" 
bitch i dont want to have them
everybodys such a snake
cuz they know they cant have it

Money made it happen
i got so much Money in my Closet
u can not have it, savage
u cant steal my swag 
cant not have it
everything is mine
and u still cannot get it, fact check

i cant even lie now
i just wanna die now
everybodys perfect 
while im figuring my life out

pourin everytime when im thinkin bout this shit
not healthy for me?
bro i just fucked ur mom, that bitch

thank god
thanks i got the bank now
everybodys great now
everybody hates now
i got all the bank that i wanted
fucked up every morning
everybodys on my dick
but i dont even want that

i got way too many Problems
but dont think im gonna fix them
if u hatin on me 
why u on my dick then?

i-i-im addicted
pour another Cup in my throat
it feels like drowning
tho im sittiny safely in my boat

blood dripping down my chain
watch me Shine n glisten
my thigh is full of scars
better take the wrist then

take the wrist then
slit my wrist then
everybodys worried 
but nobody listens

nobody listens
nobody listens

shine n glistn (sped up)

moving through the motions way too fast
think i need to take a trip to the past
please dont break my heart its made of glass
smoking on a pound im smoking grass
i cant keep this up it wont last
im a drop out failed my classes
in my mouth theres a tab in
i cant see wheres my glasses

motions

https://open.spotify.com/album/6iUkvTIufp5Chxq98X99Rb

2024

Run the chapter over, we could do it all again.
At the of it all, would i still live in your head?
Patch up every little wound, forget all the blood i bled.
Cross out every line of prose, everything i left unsaid.
Shed the skin, but it’s still not enough to make amends.
I can’t clean the blood off sheets stained forever red.
Who knew losing heart would leave such a pretty mess?
Did the meaning get through?
Well?
Did you get it yet?

Oh girl, i’ll write you a poem,
And we’ll fall in and out of love.

every little wound

https://open.spotify.com/album/6iUkvTIufp5Chxq98X99Rb

2023

Guess that’s not how the story goes.
Let me bleed out, all alone in the snow.
I’m so sorry that it came off cold.
I don’t mean to hurt, but the feelings don’t show.
Looking back now, i should have kept you close.
I guess that’s my bad, now can’t forget your face.
Now it’s over, i guess thats the way it goes.
Words get caught, i can’t help but choke.

In due time, girl, i know that i won’t need this as much as i do right now.
You still linger…
In due time, girl, i know that you’ll move past this and all that we had.
You still linger…

walk away with your laughter

2FAAR