It was Summer 2014 - I was 24 turning 25 YO. My grandmother went blind from aggressive cataracts , my aunt was diagnosed with Stage 4 Breast Cancer, My mother was diagnosed with Bi-Polar, ADHD, & Diabetes. I quit smoking weed cold turkey & began to suffer from extremely crippling anxiety, fear, & depression. PLUS MORE.. I began to feel hopeless, suicidal, & like my life was complete shit, so I SPIT IT OUT!!! ---- I PLANNED SUICIDE BUT CHOSE THE SONG INSTEAD.

SECOND JOB / ANXIETY FREESTYLE By. DEADCLUTCHNY

It was Summer 2015 - Queens, New York. I was 25 -26 & I met this sexy, all natural, BLACK QUEEN. I was depressed, anxious, & still suffering daily with motivating myself in order to find a life path to at-least not hate myself every day.  She was from Rochdale Village --- CHECK OUT HOW SHE HELPED ME CARE ABOUT MYSELF.

Best Pussy In The World / WILD WEEKEND. By. DEADCLUTCHNY

It was the Winter - Spring - March - May 2013 -2014. I have always felt different than everybody else ; usually the one who minds is business is the targeted party around insecure individuals. I have always been targeted & attacked emotionally & mentally for just being myself & this song was me trying to understand why.... DID I MAKE SENSE!?

Why You Hate Me / BIG FACTS FT. SPADESNY By. DEADCLUTCHNY

I have been through so much that I suffer partly with PTSD. The gunshots, the stickups, the jooks, the fights, the gangs, the HOOD completely swallowed my childhood & as a 25 year old with no idea how to love, speak my mind, or communicate genuinely (Without Fear), I decided to open my heart on this song and WHATEVER came out is what I RECORDED. ---- ffff

ROAD TRIP / Pain Therapy / Vocal Stress. By. DEADCLUTHNY

SOMETIMES I JUST LIKE TO REMIND YOU PEOPLE THAT NOT EVERYBODYS BRAIN TICKS THE SAME BRO. SOME PEOPLE WILL SERIOSULY SNAP & TRY TO MURDER YOU. SANITY IS A GIFT BRO.

I'LL FUCK YOU UP / Violent Self Therapy / BY. DEADCLUTCHNY

This was September 2013 -- I was 23 --24 & I had just got my first line cook job at HOOTERS in FRESH MEADOWS. I have always been cool on the outside despite how anxious I am at any given time of day, so the last thing I EVER want to IMAGINE is if my job LOST my very first paycheck @ my very first cooking job! --- I THINK I HANDLED IT WELL.

DEADCLUTCHNY

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