homebush

I take it day by day 
Been behind the scenes y’all want the play by play 
At this point I just say what I say 
Life is too short for me to piss it away 
I just wish I could get it together 
Was never too clever 
How are you? Never been better 
Wish that my birds of a feathers 
Wings Were not severed 
Misery brings us together  
Wish that my brain was a palace 
Instead of so calloused 
From a world that’s so filled with malice 
I wish I had somewhere to hide 
Or a body that flies 
Instead of being eaten by flies 
I wish I had someone to hold 
But my names Midas 
The things I touch never turn gold 
I really thought we would grow old 
But now you’re not here 
n I still have some things left untold 
I dont wanna harbor this pain 
Wanna armor my brain
But I know that the scars will remain 
And I really just wish I would die 
Tell you the truth 
I dont give a god damn bout this life 
Cus this world never wanted me in it 
Im dyin by the minute 
So fuck it ima see it to the finish
Ima live my life to the fullest 
Fuck ur influence 
When it come to talking money im fluent
N I been thru it 
I done seen it all 
Seen the trees for the branches and the leaves and all

David - Big Boy Shit

TOMBSTONES PT. 3713

tryna call my future i been sittin at th dial tone 
cant recall the numbers terrified that i might die alone 
sippin out th styrofoam nothin really speaks 2 me so why did i go buy a phone
everyone always leavin me in hell am i at home

XANNY PHANTOM - CELLPHONES

Original Sample - Nicole Dollanganger : Mean

☣☥♂♵♹♳♵♂☥☣ - cccxxiii

why do i wait for things to be okay   \\  because you're scared to escape
instead of trying to make a change  //  the things u used to do and say

y am i so ashamed of the information \\ cause you're afraid of the pain 
that my brain is manipulatin      // and you cant look mistakes in the face

how do i move \\ be still 
how do i feel // whats real 

how do i answer these questions \\ ask yourself
how do i learn these lessons        // teach yourself 

i thought i was seperated aggrivated 
aggitated manipulated
i sat and waited and nothing changes 
just the sun and the moon and how strong the pain is 
ive contemplated giving in too many times to count 
ive congregated with my demons and i cant feed that many mouths 
burn the sage and clean out my house
my body is my temple and my bible is my brain and my mouth

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - //\\

i undermined whats undetermined 
whats on your mind i dont mind silence 
i prefer it i know i deserve it
i feel so imperfect
i work so hard for myself
and it never comes out worth it 
but we can work it out 
we can work this out 
i know my demons hurt you 
i hope you're not afraid 
i know i dont deserve you 
i think its all the same 
i dont think its gonna change
all the things ive seen inside my fucking brain
tell me the same
people live and 
love then 
they leave
what can i give when you already have every fucking thing
you're so pristine worth more than diamonds 
but im stuck in things ive seen 
people live 
and love then they leave
and i just wish 
i could give you every thing
i dont have shit 
im so dirty you're so clean 
and innocent
sometimes i feel like im mean 
what does it mean 
why have we seen the things we've seen 
its part of we 
its part of you and part of me 
the worlds a screen
i think we're stuck inside tv
our lifes a show 
a comedy and tragedy 
cus people live and 
love then 
they leave
what can i give when you already have every fucking thing
you're so pristine worth more than diamonds 
but im stuck in things ive seen 
people live 
and love then they leave
and i just wish 
i could give you every thing
i dont have shit 
im so dirty you're so clean

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Live, Love, Leave  (prod ʎpoqou x ÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ )

MUSIC VIDEO HERE : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2dpiP7EyGcs


I DONT THINK A ROPE WAS EVER MADE TO BE A NOOSE
IT JUST GOT TIED THAT WAY
SOMEONE FOUND THE KNOTS AND WOVE A PATTERN
JUST TO FLY AWAY 
WORDS WERE NEVER MEANT TO BE SO EMPTY 
THEY JUST DRAINED ONE DAY
THE COLORS TURNED TO BLACK AND WHITE
AND MIXED TO MAKE THIS UGLY GRAY
TIGHT ROPE, WALKIN ON A RAZOR 
UNDER LIGHT POLES 
LIT UP FOR THE WORLD TO LAUGH AND GIGGLE
AT YOUR TYPOS
LIGHT BULBS FLICKER AS YOU FOCUS WITH YOUR EYEHOLES
SLIGHT COLD SHIVER AS YOU GAMBLE WITH THE DICE ROLLS 
TAKE A CHANCE, KNOW THE UNKNOWN
HOLD THE DEVILS HAND WHILE YOU DANCE
AND THEN LET HIM TAKE YOU HOME

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - FAILURE

TIME IS JUST A STR8 LINE U DONT GET SECOND CHANCES
IVE BEEN WORKIN SO HARD TRYNA GAIN AN ADVANTAGE
CHERISH EVERY BREATH I TAKE DONT TAKE EXISTENCE FOR GRANTED
LIFE IS JUST A GAME OF CARDS U PLAY THE DECK THAT UR HANDED
SO PLEASE DONT GAMBLE WITH YOUR LIFE CUS U COULD LOSE IT 
U GOT A BRAIN INSIDE UR SKULL THEN FUCKING USE IT
FACE THE FACTS U GOTTA LISTEN TO THE MUSIC 
I FEEL WORTHLESS I DONT KNOW WHY I DO THIS 
I AM JUST MY BREATH, I AM JUST THE BLOOD THAT IVE BLED
AINT NO TELLING HOW MUCH FUCKING TIME THAT I HAVE LEFT 
BUT IMA MAKE IT THE BEST, I WANNA SPREAD HAPPINESS 
EVEN THO IVE BEEN DEPRESSED I KNOW LIFES BETTER THAN THIS 
SHIT IVE BEEN GOIN THRU IT SOMETIMES U GOTTA DO IT 
U GOTTA TAKE A RISK, TAKE A HIT OR MAYBE TAKE A LOSS
TAKE THAT SHIT ON THE CHIN, PAIN AINT NOTHIN TO A BOSS 
BLOOD LOSS DONT SCARE ME I DONT WANNA FEEL EMPTY ANYMORE

LiL 137 - 6. Angel Tears (PROD. ÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷)

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - >>>>

i used to be blind now my sights crystal clear 
But I still can’t see myself in the mirror 
I see my soul inside the eyes of a deer
I exist to spread love in a world run by fear 
Love makes the sun shine down on the plants
Love turns music into motion when you dance 
Love turns girls into women turns boys into men 
It turns animals to pets and turns strangers into friends
If you act out of love then you can live without regrets
love heals all wounds time has made your brain forget 
The truth is god and god is love theres no religion to accept 
but if it breathes or grows or feels then love and treat it with respect 
Love is infinite love is pure like a Childs innocence 
Its intricate interwoven we are just its instruments
Significant if you are alive its no coincidence 
Its intimate love everybody equal we’re no different 
selfless unconditional 
inexplicable how its all invisible 
and something so pure can be expressed thru the digital
to live and experience is nothing but a miracle 
We were meant to love as a species indivisible 
A universal consciousness convinced we’re individuals
United in the light we’re divided in the dark 
but we can be Enlightened by the love inside our hearts

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Musubi

Spend so much time in my head 
Don’t wanna spend time with my friends 
Rather lay in my bed 
and relive all my regrets 
ive got no pulse I might be dead
Theres just a emptiness in my chest
That I keep trying to forget 
And pretend I’m not depressed 
Im not happy I’m not sad 
Im not angry I’m not mad 
I just am
and what I am 
Is all Alone
I don’t want to be 
But you don’t wanna be 
In love with me 
and I don’t want you to let me let you down
Im so afraid to lose you that Im scared to stay around

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - empty

Didn’t mean to ever break your heart 
but at least the pain keeps you makin art,
Aint shit cool about takin bars 
But u got sum problems that facings hard
We could take this place and then make it ours 
Just a couple of dogs out chasing cars 
Or a few kids out playing in the yard 
who realize recreations a work of art 
And boredoms a lack of imagination 
thats why theres shapes in the constellations
Practice actualizing your aspirations 
Work hard maintain that concentration 
dont get sidetracked by your aggravation
know that joy is stronger than agitation 
I know you’ll reach your destination 
Inhale exhale feel the circulation
Just breathe

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷  - Breathe

Sticks and stones may break my bones 
But words can kill my soul 
I could sleep outside don’t need a home 
Just need to fill this hole 
instruct myself to self destruct 
So I feel in control 
Its been so long since things went wrong 
When can I feel whole 
Its beautiful 
The way it falls apart 
ive never seen pain be that intoxicating.
its horrible 
The way it comes together 
When you know it won’t work out forever.  
Step by step we move along 
To the beat of our own song
Everyone hears different music 
Nothings right or wrong 
So keep it moving keep it goin
Dont slow ur down pace 
i try to hurry up but just end up 
Running in place
motivated by the pain I feel 
When I see ur face
I still think ur beautiful 
It just isnt the same

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Oh.

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - </3

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Purgatory

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Garden Of Eden // Innocence Lost

i don’t expect you to be submissive 
If I’m transgressive or aggressive 
I don’t intend to be dismissive 
Non attentive or oppressive 
I dont pretend to be cohesive 
Or impressive or permissive
i jus try to be expressive 
And progressive not regressive 
I’ve accepted that my memory’s repressive 
And selective 
Im still working on my self 
Im still crossing off my check list 
I know that you try to help 
And feel helpless when I’m depressive
And I’m sorry
That I’m broken 
And it breaks you too 
And I’m sorry 
Im not more open 
I hope you know I hate It too 
But I’m growing
And I’m learning 
And I’m sorry its so slow 
stoked the flames 
For so long 
But the fire would never grow
Now its burning
As I attempt to maintain control 
And I’m learning
That a fire is hard to hold 
But I’m okay
And I think its cause I’m cold 
And that numbs me 
Or at least thats what I’m told
Puzzle pieces fit together til we see th bigger picture 
Smaller patterns create larger patterns with their Lil mixtures
But as I solve the puzzle I see I'm not in the picture 
So I'm staring at u standing there with someone else's figure
Well go figure I'm not perfect I just create the perfect mixture 
Of aggression and depression in my body like some elixir 
And I don't need the scripture like my father or the liquor 
I self medicate in other ways I guess you get th picture 
So I solve these little puzzles getting more frantic by the second 
And as the picture becomes clearer I always start to second guess it 
It's like the puzzles just a mirror and I'm scared of my reflection 
So I hid behind my fear and I suppress my own depression 
So I'm sorry 
that I'm broken 
and it breaks you too 
And I’m sorry 
Im not more open 
I hope you know I hate It too 
But I’m growing
And I’m learning 
And I’m sorry its so slow 
stoked the flames 
For so long 
But the fire would never grow
Now its burning

÷☥X♵♹♳♵X☥÷ - Puzzles

Dumb Luck (Snippet)

3 7 13 - TELL ME WHAT YOU KNOW

Jovan Pittman on violin

On some real shit this is more than music 
Whatever this is I was born to do it
I didn’t chase greatness I was born into it 
I didn’t wanna work hard but I was forced to do it 
Didn’t wanna be hurt but I had to do it 
You weren’t by my side when I was going thru it
Ima take this pain and Ima learn to use it 
Always tried to blow up but had to burn to do it 
Took the blow on my chin as u curved into it 
And you had the balls to say it hurt to do it 
It was you and I we were a perfect unit 
I guess love and hatred are just all consuming
you can keep the drama Ima keep it moving 
Keep making money keep moving units
Keep moving forward no to be continued 
I guess I just thought you didn’t have it in you
when I look in your eyes I see a madness in you 
Like you’re trying to hide the sadness in you 
And I get it 
I want you to know that I get it

3 7 13 - I GET IT

3 7 13 - sometimes things change

I found myself when I wasn’t looking 
I fell in love with simply being
Being alive and being present 
I found god I felt heaven 
It was a beautiful accident
The way I came alive 
It was beautiful accident 
How I left my past behind 
It was a beautiful accident 
I was so lost and now I’m found 
Plant my feet on the ground 
I move forward I don’t look back 
Theres nothing for me in my past 
It was a beautiful accident
The way I came alive 
It was beautiful accident 
How I left my past behind 
It was a beautiful accident

David

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