in state of decay

prod @lucilfaux my fav beats ever
lyrics:
got me slow im feeling laced
yea
how many chances will u take
always stuck in the unknown
yea
dont wanna be alone

put u in the morgue
finna b ignored
now u dead
but its all in ur head
rippin vocal chord
bitch u aint part of the lore
always askin for more
rip my heart it tore

always stayin fake, u be on lying
forever with my luv, they call her violence
blood spilling out, bitch u dyin
yea, gimme more, more, more

grasp at ur neck, bitch its hard to talk
choose this path, do u really wanna walk
oh, oh
take it all away from me

violence (heartluci) #lore *2K13 HOOD EDM*

the one n only crisp dubs beat by @xaviersobased

oh oh oh oh
oh oh
oh oh
ugh crisp dubs
yea ehh no
ur taking too much 
without ur love
take ur heart, and stab it right out
rip ur guts, and put it in ur mouth

oh, oh, oh, oh  
u dont even care
u hurt me like ow
pullin at my hair
holding like so much
never enough 
stay true to urself
dont even want help

ugh crisp dubs
yea ehh no
ur taking too much 
without ur love
take ur heart, (hahahaha) and stab it right out
(u disgust me) 
rip ur guts, and put it in ur mouth

crisp dubs XDXD I HATE U (xaviersobased)

the spider bite hurt a lot
lyrics:
Baby you know that im suicidal 
Give me all your love ill be your idol
Take everything you want from mee-
Take my vitals
Take it all from me
Take it all from meee-
Lose it alll~ Lose it alll~
Yeah made my worst decision
Guess i shouldve listened (should’ve listened) 
To those around me (to those around me) 
Feeling sick to my stomach
Knowing you, youd love it
But now im full of regret-gret-gret-

~ ~

Overdosing on my medication 
Losing my dignity over these hallucinations

All cause of youu babyyyy~
Cause of you baby, you babyyy~

Thinking it would make me feel better
After writing your “love letter” 
Now it doesnt matter 
Know youd pick the latter
Feeling better yet??
Wish we never met
 
Regretting those decisions
Wish I could’ve listened (to those around me)

Baby you know that im suicidal 
Give me all your love ill be your idol
Take everything you want from mee-
Take my vitals
Take it all from me
Take it all from meee-
Lose it alll~ Lose it alll~

Remembering piercing that needle
Knowing that it was illegal (it was illegal)

But baby you said it'd help me
Help me
And you.

help u to help me #ivedecayed

prod me

bae ur such a cheata
knew u are a leava
cut u down like cleaver 
do everything to see her
chea ch ch cheata
fee fee feed on
break my bone make it bleed
what do u wanna see?
ur name written on my body
what will it take? will u say sorry?
get 2 on
didnt love me long
stay smokin strong 
dont want (to) sing stupid stuff
ah ahah 
what did i do wrong

i been feelin too much
baby i want ur love
why u lookin so rough
i know, never enough
im tryna heal from ur cuts
why did u lose my trust?
u wanted me, u wanted me
its not me u call but decisions were made
told me u would stop but its already too late
no, she said go oh
all i want is u
why cant u please come thru

bae ur such a cheata
knew u are a leava
cut u down like cleaver 
do everything to see her
chea ch ch cheata
fee fee feed on
break my bone make it bleed
what do u wanna see?
ur name written on my body
what will it take? will u say sorry?
get 2 on
didnt love me long
stay smokin strong 
dont want (to) sing stupid stuff
ah ahah 
what did i do wrong

too much

prod kei lu :) @user-26054959

uh uh uh uh uh uh nooo noooo uhhhh

want me for the night
u and me right, where u wanna go?
leave ur marks on my face
wanna go back to my place
to love u
tell me what u like
get what, all u need
get on, turn the light off
on me like wow
u and me right now
all these things u tellin
leave me in ur mentions yeaaa

he left u broken
but let me fix u babe
my heart u stolen
ill get u right away 
call me dont be a fool
bring me back to life

want me for the night
u and me right, where u wanna go?
leave ur marks on my face
wanna go back to my place
to love u
tell me what u like
get what, all u need
get on, turn the light off
on me like wow
u and me right now
all these things u tellin
leave me in ur mentions yeaaa

fixation (kei lu)

@ily9lives

wherd you go 
u dont even know
can u tell me
why u wanna play
affected by ur name

kill ur pain
u dont ever change
stay the same
way

ah ah ah ah 
oh 
no 

call my number late
build on ur bad traits 
she said hold up hold up
never wanted ur love 
shut up shut up
u be talking too much

why u so manipulative
sorry but ur better faceless
toxic personality 
what more do u want from me

wherd you go 
u dont even know
can u tell me
why u wanna play
affected by ur name

kill ur pain
u dont ever change
stay the same
way

ah ah ah ah 
oh 
no

torment (9lives)

mv 
https://youtu.be/-kgHxFQEYCE

produced by me

ur feeding on my skin
will u atone for ur sins
but will u make a big difference 

this rapid beating in my chest
i tried to give my heart a rest
but u cant seem to grant it to me

tell me what did i do wrong x4
why do i have to make this song x4

u dont have to hear from me ever again
ur just an act dont want to be ur friend
my life u put an end as soon as u hit send 
go away ur like trend

tell me what did i do wrong x4
why do i have to make this song x4
tell me what did i do wrong x4
why do i have to make this song x4

tell me what did i do wrong

@vampiremutual

ok, ur winning
its so hard when u dont listen
give it all ur blood is raining 
u only care about urself
u always lie abt ur health
and i tried to keep in touch
only put pain upon myself 
no 
dont carry on 
wanna end it all for me 
hang me watch me fall
my life is ur monopoly
so sad how it can all end in one word
(u)feel attacked when i tried to make it work
tell me 
am i wrong
enduring
i dont have long
i want 
all that u need

pain upon myself w ch2rms (sydney)

@vampiremutual @prodelxnce

ch2rms remix

ur program it fails me
ur love not truly 
u know
how hard it is for me
take this
how u want this to end
make this 
how ur life u will spend
ugh go way
no dont want u to stay
no i am not okay
why u always have to play
dont want to hear ur name
it hurts to bad
my lungs burn heart attack
u know
lie ur vow
take me now
baby ur such a failure
i cant take nothing major
did so much to replace her
can u be my savior 
its in ur evil nature
my death wont even phase her
oh oh oh
oh oh no i
rather live and watch me die
will i cry another night
now ur fading away
wish u were here today
now ur leave in dismay 
dont even know what to say

program failure (elxnce sydney)

eternal eclipse 
take it all away
no one, u make me sick 
u will have to pay 
tell me if u want it
(ah, ah ah)
ur always fronting
ur in state of dismay
take my skin 
rip it off rip it off
now ur within 
its a memoir of a loss
sacrifice 
me 
will u make it right 
maybe 

had to let u go 
dont wanna do it again 
acting like u didnt know 
had to put it to an end 
do you want to die 
stay with me the night 
(its not over yet)
u gon get mad jus out of spite 
wondering everyday if u gon treat me right
at the sight of me you cant even begin to speak
lobotomy,, my pain is there why cant u see

eternal eclipse 
take it all away
no one, u make me sick 
u will have to pay 
tell me if u want it
(ah, ah ah)
ur always fronting
ur in state of dismay
take my skin 
rip it off rip it off
now ur within 
its a memoir of a loss
sacrifice 
me 
will u make it right 
maybe

envys eclipse

@danikiyoko
right thing in the wrong hands it will all collapse 
right person at the wrong time u never wanted me back
wanna stay or leave me pick and choose
either way u want gonna make me lose
why u always make it this way 
look at u now i dont even know what to say
i wanna feel u making love all day
never act real and now ur just a fake

all im asking for 
close the door
give me closure 
u dont know her like i do 
no

give effort or nah
live by doing what u want
collecting all ur jar of hearts
with u i dont even know where to start
in ur life i dont want no part 
expecting its easy u make it hard
oh, oh
no, no

right thing in the wrong hands it will all collapse 
right person at the wrong time u never wanted me back
wanna stay or leave me pick and choose
either way u want gonna make me lose
why u always make it this way 
look at u now i dont even know what to say
i wanna feel u making love all day
never act real and now ur just a fake

collapse (dani kiyoko)

cover by @posixspwn

@krxxk
why, why do u feel me
me, i
i want u to treat me like 
oh, oh no, oh, oh
i want u to feel me, me
i want u to treat me, me right
will i make it through this life 
maybe, dont know 
eh oh eh eh 
eh eh eh eh
desparity 
sanctify me 
im discontented with you 
my minds a mess and i dont know what to do 
sheeps in wolfs skin wish i could take it off
leach my humanity will u let me rot
medicine for ur aching temperment, no
hands held tight for the sins were not (for)given
said his competence messing with his common sense 
ur feelings of limerance, mistaken for ignorance
im too tired to put on this mask
ur false intention of wanting me back
ur own perception is turning black
ur selflessness is what u lack 
i want u to feel me, me
i want u to treat me, me right
will i make it through this life 
maybe, dont know 
eh eh need saving
eh eh eh eh
desparity 
sanctify me

leech my humanity (krxxk)

im just a man made of skin
the only source of my sin 
i know its temporary 
but cant keep separating
ur love for me
end of story 
give me ur life
mandatory 
my temptation 
keep it in 
in in
im one with it and it is mine
let me, divide

i struggle to do so much
bleeding out from my eyes 
my head is rushed
uh uh
me o my 
do i still try
why 
do i have to stay in this body
im fighting with myself i cant stop falling
always doing something wrong
dont think i got long
is it my fault because i am

im just a man made of skin
the only source of my sin 
i know its temporary 
but cant keep separating
ur love for me
end of story 
give me ur life
mandatory 
my temptation 
keep it in 
in in
im one with it and it is mine
let me, divide

man made of skin

@winonaridxr

memoir of jealousy

want the old me but that shit is dead 
cant fucking stand it when left on read
rather be w him instead
playing w my fucking head
rather follow him but u dont wanna follow me
cutting at my wrist blood im bleeding on my tee
yea, yea he caused me so much pain
i woulld never do the same
tried to take u once from me 
let it happen again
same scene as before 
told me u were more than friends 
jealousy 
insecurity 
see u walking w him
what more do u want from me

(why can’t you ever be by yourself, you always need me, i can’t do this shit anymore)

cause my pain, you caused my suicide 
carve ur name into my arm to stay by ur side
write your name inside my letter, tired of ur lies
lied to me said i’d get better you left me to die
bae :(
i know i can get better
mental hospital 
they put me in my sweater
why try to leave, know they can’t make you wetter
scars on my sleeve are healing guess i’m getting better
been so sick and infected with u
guess i’m too crazy to ever love you
stab me in the back and drink my blood
is it hard?
to take my love
i feel so sick and infected with u
i’m infected with you

im not crazy x deadaux

cru - it could get ugly

i cant continue x 2014follows

prod by me n @winonaridxr
u said u loved me but u never show it
my hearts feeling broken 
i cant stay unspoken 
im already dead and u dont even notice
im stuck to recover this blood that u stolen x2
never again and again 
im stuck and waiting again
maybe im better off dead
im stressed out and locked in my head

(deadaux)
youU say U love me
well i don’t believe it
cuts on my skin
Don’t want you to see it
left me for dead bae 
how could you let me die?
I start the ritual u can sacrifice 
your sacrifice won’t be the end
have to ** someone to dream again
im just a doll bae
will you be my friend?
cutting my skin off
My heart starts to 
Bend

u said u loved me but u never show it
my hearts feeling broken 
i cant stay unspoken 
im already dead and u dont even notice
im stuck to recover this blood that u stolen 
never again and again 
im stuck and waiting again
maybe im better off dead
im stressed out and locked in my head

unknowing to show x deadaux

dont tell me ive been tryna stay strong
cant even move a muscle chronic pain is lasting long
u tell me am i even in the wrong 
muscle strain 
has it been this way all along 2x

tensing up 
frozen stiff im locked in place
am in a dream 
i cant even feel my face 
ur touch is soothing put ur muscle on me
is it how, live life on a remedy

fix my physical condition
release my tension
ill never learn my lesson
i cant keep movin without feeling uncomfortable
whats wrong with my physical 
im feeling unstable
let my body never lie
all this pain will i make another night 

dont tell me ive been tryna stay strong
cant even move a muscle chronic pain is lasting long
u tell me am i even in the wrong 
muscle strain 
has it been this way all along 
tensing up 
frozen stiff im locked in place
am in a dream 
i cant even feel my face 
ur touch is soothing put ur muscle on me
is it how, live life on a remedy

muscle system

constantly i cant get out of bed
feel so sick will i rest
i cant take it do u know it? is it here to stay
i dont know if i can last another day 
(day)

will this sickness become my demise 
my sorrow shows in reprise
i feel so weak underneath my touch
sick to my stomach to u im such and such
feeling unwell will i get better
or will i die

medicine cant help this 
incurable
is there saving? 
my condition, condition 

sickness become my demise 
my sorrow shows in reprise
i feel so weak underneath my touch
sick to my stomach

immune system

prod. krxxk 

im so scared whats this feeling 
afraid of what to say
dont want u to treat me wrong
this new found anxiety
cant live day by day
and i dont know if i have long 
all the  things u said u must of thought that i forgot
ima get to u
tie ur neck up in a knot
and i cant see what disturbs me it
but its me whos at fault 

am i my own my enemy
connection to thought 
is it better severing? 
i rather hide than feeling like ima die
do i stay i dont know why
unknowing fear
repent its near 
send you sealed enclosure 
no solace exposure
i cannot help and in the way its turning 
i cut myself off from never ending burning

im so scared whats this feeling 
afraid of what to say
dont want u to treat me wrong
this new found anxiety
cant live day by day
and i dont know if i have long 
all the  things u said u must of thought that i forgot
ima get to u
tie ur neck up in a knot
and i cant see what disturbs me it
but its me whos at fault

nervous system

am i what u like? 
why are u the same?
heart vessel to the vein
i dont know how to feel
pain drawn from my lung 
as my tears are welding up
this love i cannot breathe
my heart cant seem to beat

as im bleeding out
u sing ur lullaby 
push words from ur lungs ur mouth 
use ur words to make me cry
give my heart will i pay
will i see another day
watching my blood spray 
heartbeat rest so u can lay

am i what u like? 
why are u the same?
heart vessel to the vein
i dont know how to feel
pain drawn from my lung 
as my tears are welding up
this love i cannot breathe
my heart cant seem to beat

my heart is shutting down
are u happy now
no i, no i 
i dont wanna die
will u hold my hand tonight
slow my blood flow
where will i go 
and will u love me or will i have to fade 
when will u love me or will i have to wait 
to be urs 

am i what u like? 
why are u the same?
heart vessel to the vein
i dont know how to feel
pain drawn from my lung 
as my tears are welding up
this love i cannot breathe
my heart cant seem to beat

cardiovascular system

will i be enough 
its so rough im feeling stuck 
why cant i love my own appearance 
self degradation it begins 
do i love me more than u 
rip off out layer lose
do i love u more than i
skins not mine its fitting loose
why is it so hard to feel comfortable in skin
tie up in a shell broken sealing

why do i feel out of place 
this isnt my skin nor my face 
dont know what i have become
pins and needles i almost give up
peel it off 
not enough
feel this pain
feel this pain
ur branding touch infernal embrace 
what more can i say

will i be enough 
its so rough im feeling stuck 
why cant i love my own appearance 
self degradation it begins 
do i love me more than u 
rip off out layer lose
do i love u more than i
skins not mine its fitting loose
why is it so hard to feel comfortable in skin
tie up in a shell broken sealing

integumentary system

illustration of feelings felt within different categories of body and mind.

the body and mind in state of decay within me.

the beginning

inspired by the living tombstone 
all by me

why is it so hard to open up
no matter how strong i am 
im not enough 
struggle with nourishment 
ill be ur pleasure 
i cant get it out 
i cant get it out

no matter how hard i try 
i always fall short
weakness in my touch
im not sure
ur not strong enough
its impossible 
cold metal on my finger tips
leave u in the cold ima shut the door 
nothing else to do, i cant think theres nothing more
stuck, u dont wanna budge
ill find some way to get u in my grasp

need to consume u for benefit
do whatever i can for nourishment
youll be mine by all means necessary
and ya im failing its so degrading 
i mean ur shutted so tight
just hoping youll be nice
trying so hard for u
touch, i just wanna taste
i want u already u cant keep me waiting

no matter how hard i try 
i always fall short
weakness in my touch
im not sure
ur not strong enough
its impossible 
cold metal on my finger tips
leave u in the cold ima shut the door 
nothing else to do, i cant think theres nothing more
stuck, u dont wanna budge
ill find some way to get u in my grasp

weakness in touch

feat @cyn2k !!

sedate:
no i x6 
eye, eye
the moment i wake up 
i cannot take
these feelings in my cuts
will i make it
infecting me 
i want u to know
put me to sleep
i want u mm no
do u care if i laid down
do u care if i leave now
u will kill u, u dont mean nothing
cut urself off
always running

cyn:
Falling asleep in my makeup 
I don’t wanna wake up 
Every day so wasted
Every day I’m faded
Every day I’m faded 
Every day I’m faded
Xan make me feel painless
Shades on like I’m famous 
Imma pop a kpin just to be sedated
Im so tired of waiting
I just wanna disappear
Yea the promise that u made me was it sincere

sedate:
the moment i wake up 
i cannot take
these feelings in my cuts
will i make it
infecting me 
i want u to know
put me to sleep
i want u mm no
do u care if i laid down
do u care if i leave now
u will kill u, u dont mean nothing
cut urself off
always running

putmetosleep x cyn

with @winonaridxr

cant run, i cant escape it
i cannot understand will i make it
ur doomed to die
no im not
ur sacrifice will not be lost

i fight ur battles
u cant replace me
im the one at night making u sleep safely 
when u lay ur head to rest
dont gotta wonder if u are next
crying doesnt mean ur weak
it doesnt matter if u dont believe in me
try and look at what i see
ur not even right for this mercy

if you die I’ll die
and if you don’t I’ll die
carve your name on my side
they’ll never take you away from me
your my scarlet hide your diary 
cut in me in the arm 
stab me in the eyes
hide in my closet like a surprise 
leave me in the night like it’s coraline

i fight ur battles
u cant replace me
im the one at night making u sleep safely 
when u lay ur head to rest
dont gotta wonder if u are next
crying doesnt mean ur weak
it doesnt matter if u dont believe in me
try and look at what i see
ur not even right for this mercy

sore x deadaux

@winonaridxr
anothaa bday song

wear my skin but dont wanna be apart of me 
u do me wrong, u aint human even barely
put me in dire distress
treat me like im nothing less
why, why stealing monetary 
cry, cry never treated fairly 
give me now
no, end this suffering
give me right amount
heavy doubt im stuttering 
i dont trust u to treat
baby let me die slow hang me from the tree
into a case u cant beat
krya poison me watch me die watch us bleed

you left me to die
made me a psychO_0
tell me all your lies
bae where my tongue go
they put me in my jacket
left to bleed now
left to panic
proud or satisfied?
they wanNa take me in
this wouldn’t have happened if it wasn’t for your fucking sins
onlY curse for this is a bullet
looKin down your barrel baby do it 

why, why stealing monetary 
cry, cry never treated fairly 
give me now
no, end this suffering
give me right amount
heavy doubt im stuttering 
i dont trust u to treat
baby let me die slow hang me from the tree
into a case u cant beat
krya poison me watch me die watch us bleed

fruadulate x deadaux

@coreylingo remix :) more music soon

og song 

https://soundcloud.com/coreylingo/what-we-had-prod-skyther?in=coreylingo/sets/forwhatitsworth&si=534f182714b444c296b04bb6264e1532&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

what we had (corey lingo rmix)

crawl in take me paraxyte 
will i live or perish, u decide
will i live or perish, u decide
will i live or perish please dont decide
all u do is take take take
no love in ur heart only hate
dead by my paraxyte
control my whole life

steal my clothing tell me that u love me
losing blood started convulsing
leave me notes want me to save u
im like how u never stay true
why must i gotta feel u out of my life
ur playing human now just a paraxyte
and bury me with ur other failures
i dont wanna see it
i dont wanna see it

crawl in take me paraxyte 
will i live or perish, u decide
will i live or perish, u decide
will i live or perish please dont decide
all u do is take take take
no love in ur heart only hate
dead by my paraxyte
control my whole life

paraxyte

ill drop something normal soon im sorry

Os iusti meditabitur sapientiam
Et lingua eius loquetur indicium

Beatus vir qui suffert tentationem
Quoniam cum probates fuerit accipiet coronam vitae

Kyrie, fons bonitatis
Kyrie, ignis divine, eleison

O quam sancta, quam serena
Quam benigma, quam amoena esse Virgo creditur
O quam sancta, quam serena, quam benigma, quam amoena
O castitatis lilium

Kyrie, fons bonitatis
Kyrie, ignis divine, eleison

O quam sancta, quam serena
Quam benigma, quam amoena esse Virgo creditur
O quam sancta, quam serena, quam benigma, quam amoena
O castitatis lilium

lilium

wake up in bed and im choking on my blood
dont what went wrong dont know whats the cause
so much, a toll, for why
u keep urself closed 
leave me out the know
do all i can (all i can)
i cant see u, i wanna feel u
in my life
skin is cold my bodies fake
dreading another day
dont wanna feel this way
wanna be with u

what do u want
is this the end of my story?
choke on ur blood
its like theres nothing left for me 
losing my life at ur expense
my blood on ur hands 
but ur pleading innocence 
u lie 
u must feel so guilty
wont miss none wont miss none
no
fight, on

wake up in bed and im choking on my blood (my blood)
dont what went wrong dont know whats the cause
so much, a toll, for why
u keep urself closed 
leave me out the know
do all i can (do all i can)
i cant see u, i wanna feel u
in my life
skin is cold my bodies fake
dreading another day
dont wanna feel this way
wanna be with u

sedate

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