I hope you all enjoy this one, this is one is nearly a year old now and I remixed the whole track, big thanks to zaideck for the feature and I wish everybody who's reading this a wonderful day, I love you all! 🤍

cover by @br444ins 🖤
prod. melik
featuring @zaideck
mix master by me
spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/4W8iXkxqT6qtd4pcQSEAqJ?si=7a7f16fc65b244a0

lyrics:
// chorus
i been feeling rubbish
havent ate in 3 days
life is such a bitch
and what u up to now
can i tell you how much
i love you from the bottom of my heart
or is that not okay
oh i miss ur touch
now my world is grey
and i only wanted u 2 stay
laying on the floor
leave my feelings out the door
and you were the only one
that i ever adored

// verse: zaideck
I couldn't fathom the future
All of a sudden Ima loser
Put my hope in one basket
Saw her wasted
And she used me like a pawn
Now I'm forsaken, I'm shaking
Any love that I had is mistaken
I'll take it
Damn
I wouldn't ask for her, bro
I wouldn't talk to her, bro
She got no self control, bro
She is not like before, bro
My head on a swivel
I tried to keep it civil
She's out of her mind
Her words sounded superficial

// bridge
always had a problem
wont go for another day
cos i have you in my mind
and not by my side
now i think about us every time
that i go to sleep at night

// chorus
i been feeling rubbish
havent ate in 3 days
life is such a bitch
and what u up to now
can i tell you how much
i love you from the bottom of my heart
or is that not okay
oh i miss ur touch
now my world is grey
and i only wanted u 2 stay
laying on the floor
leave my feelings out the door
and you were the only one
that i ever adored

wanted u 2 stay

Spotify

wanted u 2 stay w/ zaideck (melik)

TRACK #2 FROM "DAYS AFTER DYING".

ARTWORK BY KYLE J THOMPSON.

COMPOSED, ARRANGED, WRITTEN, PERFORMED, RECORDED, PRODUCED, ENGINEERED, MIXED, MASTERED & RELEASED BY KILLSTATION.

EVASION (PROD. KILLSTATION)

I hope you all enjoy this song, and I hope you had a great week as well!! Thanks so much to ERXN for the awesome feature, this song has been sitting in the vault for a while <3

prod. vuksai
featuring @erxn_music
cover by @qswoaosefg0b (https://vk.com/eraeraryo)

lyrics

hook: me
Make me realise you just used me in the first place
Cos I tried to make amends I tried to make it work
But I think my efforts were dismissed, I feel so hurt
Now I'm laying in the worst place, oh I hate this all
I'm feeling so alone

verse: erxn
and when she tell me that im self centered
I stay centered
Keep myself alone and stuck cuz im fed up 
these feelings set the tone they cut they keep pressing 
I fall into this tomb of love and depression 
My body wasn't made to break I keep stressin 
think I might of done too much to feel better 
but I know all these feelings stuck so im dead or alive

hook 2x: me
Make me realise you just used me in the first place
Cos I tried to make amends I tried to make it work
But I think my efforts were dismissed, I feel so hurt
Now I'm laying in the worst place, oh I hate this all
I'm feeling so alone

(I need somebody by my side)

verse: me
Please don't let it slide
I need you by my side
For you I'd do anything
Maybe something everlasting
So let's reignite the flame
And bring love to life again
I don't wanna die anymore
Iv tried cos my life's at war
Nothing else is on my mind
You're the one I always find
Stay with me, don't ever go
You're the one I truly want

hook 2x: me
Make me realise you just used me in the first place
Cos I tried to make amends I tried to make it work
But I think my efforts were dismissed, I feel so hurt
Now I'm laying in the worst place, oh I hate this all
I'm feeling so alone

verse: me
I remember when you called my name
And now I won't ever feel the same
I'm stuck inside your game
Wish I could just erase all the memories
Cos what are we now?
We're enemies, won't stop thinking bout you for centuries---

i think i need you

i think i need you w/ ERXN

I hope you all enjoy this song, I tried a bit more different style to give a little more variety and to improve my mixing skills! I also hope everyone has been doing well lately <3

cover by @br444ins
prod. dera x gaxillic
----------------------
lyrics:
(intro)
Oh, I hate falling in love
Oh, I hate I’m self destructive
My feelings never matter 
it’s always them, not me

(chorus)
it doesn’t make sense
iv messed up so many times
i can’t make up my mind
what do I really need?
it hurts so much knowing 
i’m not gonna be alive
why do people treat me different
i’m an angel in disguise
i hate everything I do
i don’t love who I’ve become
when I had you, you gave me the world
then left me numb

(verse)
I cannot trust anybody anymore
I don’t like my life
So how could you either?
I don’t even know myself
But I know my friends don’t care, they’re not truly there
Would it hurt them if I died today or just be out of touch?
Does anybody even listen to the words that I say?
It’s a shame I live this way
I thought I could be happy someday

(bridge)
But you pushed me way below
Oh-
Oh, I hate I’m self destructive
My feelings never matter 
it’s always them, not me

(chorus)
it doesn’t make sense
iv messed up so many times
i can’t make up my mind
what do I really need?
it hurts so much knowing 
i’m not gonna be alive
why do people treat me different
i’m an angel in disguise
i hate everything I do
i don’t love who I’ve become
when I had you, you gave me the world
then left me numb

(outro)
Oh I hate you, oh

self destructive

self destructive (dera x gaxillic)

☆ Heartbreak over and over </3 ☆

I hope you enjoy this song, I will make a bit more songs in this typical style as I really like it and I hope so do you, I hope everyone of you has a really good day, ilysm!!!!

prod. vuksai
cover edited by @fallenengel (dinho)
Spotify - https://open.spotify.com/track/0R2XD5G9rzM2DB1I6LFXax?si=3e1da35d8be840b6
YouTube (+ lyrics) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=taCUdS8QBf8

lyrics:
(chorus)
Yeah, you pushed me down, cos you're upset
How can you leave now that I'm dread
Painting the walls red, you wouldn’t address
„Send me a text and tell me the truth“,
That's what I said in the past

You pushed me down cos you were mad
How can you leave me feeling so bad
Painting the walls red, you wouldn’t address
„Send me a text and tell me the truth“,
That's what I said in the past

(verse)
Now you said to me that you're in love with somebody who I'm not
Now I'm writeing my own story in this book, nobody saw
Getting high off my drugs, it makes me feel a way,
away from everything, twilights on the way
Stuck inside this psychosis, its way too late
Now you left me for somebody else
And I hate how my life rules above me now

(bridge)
Painting my own photo ina certain hue,
black & white, that's my heart, 
Heartbreak over and over...
Is it way too much to ask for something nice? 

(chorus)
Yeah, you pushed me down, cos you're upset
How can you leave now that I'm dread
Painting the walls red, you wouldn’t address
„Send me a text and tell me the truth“,
That's what I said in the past

You pushed me down cos you were mad
How can you leave me feeling so bad
Painting the walls red, you wouldn’t address
„Send me a text and tell me the truth“,
That's what I said in the past

(verse/outro)
Was it really him you wanted to pursue?
Cos fuck Ive been waiting here for too long
Realising everything you did was wrong
In the end it was just toxic lies
Cos you're still here and you probably hear
The words I been spewing out just for you
And you make me feel so blue
I feel like a doom, make me doom
Now I'm all alone in my room

push me down (vuksai)

@bladeecity
@7evaa
*Rain Check *I Get The Rain Check* *I Dont Want Your Love Its Tainted* I Wont Make it * Im Just Waiting 4 A Payment * Draingang C€0 Im on the Low Close 2 The Pavement*

the end

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