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AXAXC – DEREALIZATION (FULL ALBUM)
🧠 A sonic descent into addiction, masculinity, mental collapse, and identity death.
🕳 Trapcore • Deathcore • Nu Metal • Screamo • Ambient Sludgecore

“This cell doesn’t have four walls. It has my face.”

DEREALIZATION isn’t just an album — it’s a mental event. A full-body confrontation with trauma, weed addiction, spiritual despair, fractured masculinity, and the mask of perfection.
It’s about waking up in your own life… and realizing you don’t recognize yourself.

This record is the culmination of every psychological arc from previous AXAXC albums.
Legacy tracks like “Perfect”, “Tongues of Sin”, and the remastered “End of the Line” find new meaning here — not as isolated songs, but as symptoms in a larger mental breakdown.

🧠 THEMATIC ARC:
Tracks 1–5: The high. The mask. The beginning of collapse.

Tracks 6–9: Duality of identity. Cracks in the mirror. Begging to be seen.

Tracks 10–13: Shame, sin, and spiritual erosion.

Tracks 14–17: Total breakdown → false salvation → reluctant acceptance → final breath.

🔁 LEGACY TRACKS [Derealization Cuts]:
- The Nail in the Coffin
- Perfect
- Tongues of Sin
- TABOO [Remastered – Derealization Cut]
- God is a Woman (And She's Ashamed of Me)
- The Devil Said I'm Okay
- End of The Line [Remastered – Derealization Cut]

These were written long ago, but they always belonged here.
This is where their meaning finally lands.

🩸 HIGHLIGHT TRACKS:
I Am Already Dead [Alpha v.1 & Beta v.1]: The breaking point of addiction and the fracturing of self.

- Walking Dead (P1 & P2): A weed high as synthetic salvation — until the crash. 
- Prison: A scream for release from a self-built cage.
- The Mirror Lies: Rage against the curated persona you’ve become.
- God is a Woman(And She's Ashamed Of Me): The shame of spiritual failure and feminine rejection.

💀 AUTHOR’S NOTE:
“I don't want to be here anymore — but I built this version of me for you.
The man made perfect.
The man made empty.”

This is a neurodivergent death spiral in audio form.
If you’ve ever felt broken trying to be strong…
If you’ve ever loved the high more than yourself…
If you’ve ever built a mask so strong you forgot your real face underneath…
This album is your mirror.

🔥 RECOMMENDED IF YOU LIKE:
#Slipknot • #Korn • #SleepToken • #Nothing,Nowhere. • #BreakingBenjamin • #SlaughtertoPrevail • #Loathe • #FallinginReverse

DISTORT. DISTRUST. DESTROY.
#AXAXC
#Derealization #MentalHealth #Neurodivergent #WeedAddiction #MalePressure
#Deathcore #Trapcore #NuMetal #Screamo #SoundCloudMetal
#NewMusic #EmotionalBreakdown #DarkMusic #Recovery #Trauma

Prison

Hollow Reign

Flesh and Lies is a brutal metalcore anthem of betrayal and survival. As a father fights to keep his family together after a zombie outbreak, his children vanish into the night, and his wife seeks comfort in other men. With crushing breakdowns and haunting melodies, the song captures the agony of love decaying in a world already consumed by death.

Flesh and Lies

i should've stayed

Lyrics:

We drift through the air with
All our perception stripped away
Watching all the colors turn to Grey
Where life once stood death will stand
They've built an hourglass and we've become the sand 

I feel it when I'm sleeping
And it haunts me when im awake

I been feeling empty lately
Its like the misery made me weak
Complete, like its what I'd been missing
But I can feel it coming back with every failure
Barely breathing, saying all of my prayers through a crash cart
No control, lost everything I thought I'd known
All alone
We could make this house a home

And i can feel it when im sleeping 
And it haunts me when im awake 
I dont wanna wait til im in the ground
To say everything I should've said when you were around 
So if you're there, if you can hear, if you can hear me now
I will find you through the sound

I swear that you'll be found
I swear that you'll be found 

Dont go without me
Let me see the light with my own two eyes
One last time


Where Life Once Stood

[Intro:]
Saw it in your eyes—before the blade came down.
The lies you stitched still bleed, still drown.
I’ve met the Devil...
He’s kinder than you.

[Verse 1:]
Brace for the blow—it’s closing fast.
Truth cuts deeper than your past.
I carve the names in scars you left—
Your throne’s a tomb, built out of theft.
Your mask is cracked, truth bleeding through.
You buried guilt like it wouldn’t bloom.
You're the frost in every vein.
Now the silence screams your name.

[Pre-Chorus:]
Your fire’s out—just smoke and shame.
I won’t bleed for you again.
Break

[Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR WORDS ALL TWIST!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—MY LIFE’S A FIST!
DEVIL’S AT YOUR DOOR—CHOKE ON WHAT YOU WROTE!

[Post-Chorus:]
Choke on it—swallow the flame!
Drown in truth—you forged the blame!
Storm is rising—your crown won’t last!
Truth is metal—and breaks like glass!

[Verse 2:]
You spit your venom, circle lies—
I wear my wounds like armor ties.
You cut deep, but I never dropped—
You cut deep, and I rose up.
I’m what you fear—unbowed, unbent.
Gold turns black—your testament.
Truth’s a blade and I’m its edge.
Say my name... and taste regret.

[Pre-Chorus:]
You said I’d break—but here I stand.
This rage was forged in your own hands.
Break

[Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR LIES ALL BURN!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—I’VE EARNED MY TURN!
DEVIL’S GOT YOU NOW—CHOKE IN ENDLESS NIGHT!

[Post-Chorus:]
Burn in pride—your throne’s a shell!
Drown in rust—you built this hell!
False king falls—no one kneels!
Truth don’t beg, it breaks and heals!

[Bridge:]
You swore I’d fail—you watched me bleed.
Now I’m thunder—cracking teeth.
You laughed me down—now hear me rise.
I’m the storm behind your lies.
RISE!

[Final Chorus:]
I SEE THROUGH YOU—YOUR LIES STILL TWIST!
MORE EVIL THAN GOOD—MY FURY PERSISTS!
DEVIL’S GOT YOUR THROAT—YOUR CROWN’S CORRUPT!
CHOKE ON FLAME—WHILE I RISE FROM DUST!
NEVER FORGIVE! NEVER!

[Post-Chorus:]
Choke on pride—truth won't die.
Rage you gave—I wear like light.
Watch me rise—fear me now.
I am the reckoning—you allowed.

[Outro:]
I’ve seen your worst.
I’m still here.
That’s what scares you most.

Ashes and Thrones

I'm Broken

Blind

Ashes and Armour

The hardest, rawest track on the album. Riff-heavy, aggressive, and defiant. A warning: your grip is your downfall.

The Cost of Control

“ALIVE Again” is a high-energy, emotionally charged track that blends electronic pop and dance music with uplifting vocals and dynamic production. The song opens with an atmospheric intro that quickly builds into a pulsing rhythm, setting an anthemic tone. A driving beat and layered synths create a sense of urgency and momentum, while the lyrics center around themes of rebirth, resilience, and rediscovery of self.

The vocalist delivers a passionate performance, with a tone that shifts from introspective to empowered as the song progresses. The chorus is a standout, with a soaring melody that feels both liberating and cathartic—like breaking through emotional barriers to reclaim vitality.

Musically, the track leans on rich textures, tight percussive elements, and a powerful drop that makes it club- and festival-ready. Its emotional intensity and celebratory vibe make it ideal for moments of personal victory or reawakening.

ALIVE Again

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I See Her Hanging

RISE LIKE THUNDER

Hands That Hold the World is a raw, emotional post-hardcore journey through the human experience of sacrifice, faith, and resilience. From the quiet pain of loss to the roaring defiance of the heart, each track tells a story of individuals facing unimaginable trials—mothers giving everything for their children, elders forgotten yet honored, young lives confronting violence, and souls finding redemption through faith in Christ.

The album confronts grief, injustice, and societal pressures head-on, while ultimately celebrating the strength of the human spirit and the power of love, selflessness, and unwavering faith. With soaring choruses, blistering breakdowns, and hauntingly intimate moments, Hands That Hold the World is both a tribute and a call to honor those who give themselves fully to others, holding the world steady with their courage and compassion.

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These Stains

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