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i get no sleep
i'm chasing dreams while i'm in agony
my face is numb 
my head is bruised for something sensory
lay down defences 
fall fatigued only a moment away
all i need is for you to stay

agony w/ lyrah & splashgvng

⚬ RAZEGOD ✝︎ wdym? (Prod. Minimum Wade X Solsa)
prod. @minimumwade
https://www.instagram.com/minimum.wade/
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC_jcu_DchtP2AOqibs5NAhg
prod. @sol-filshie
https://www.instagram.com/solsa.cum/
lyrics:
I never know how to say what I really mean…

I never know how to say what I really mean
What I really mean, I can never say
I never know how to say what I really mean
What I really mean, I can never say, I can never say
I can never say…

It really never hit me until the point I had to lock down
Shadows casting dread
Side-step them to the point I trip myself
Stand up!
Joints all up in my digits help me feel myself
Thoughts dance in my head
Even saying that’s incorrect
I can’t analyse my stupid riddle ass God complex
Yeah I’m a schizo that’s okay…

I wish I could see the light and I still do
(if you say so - don’t say so - i say so)
Darling I don’t feel the same and I don’t know why…

Remember I can’t forget
Still living on in my head
Remember I can’t forget
Still living on in my head
We said we’d never lose our love
But was it ever really our love?
I really had to eat my ignorance
Don’t ru-u-u-u-un away from me

I never know how to say what I really mean
I never know how to say what I really mean
What I really mean, I can never say
What I really mean, I can never say
What I really mean, I can never say
What I really mean, I can never say
I can never say…

xxx

wdym? (Prod. Minimum Wade X Solsa)

vocals by shiloh dynasty (sampled)
cover by @bryaby

heavyheart (shiloh)

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lyrics
guitar played by acey (  :

my hands are shaking my body's aching
my brain is tired, think ur amazing
don't seem to have control over my heart you know
i find it rlly hard just to not let you know
that i be doing better if you never left me bro

is it 2 late to ask how you doing there
we can can stay in the grass while you kiss my hair
we can stare at the sky till my stomach bare
bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share
bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share
bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share

i fidget im nervous i don't know what to say
i love you i told you that i needed you to stay
ur smile is perfect idc about what they say
if im wasting my time id rather do it bout ur face
the first time that you kissed me rlly put me in a state
i knew it wouldent be for long so i just gotta say
i really really loved you dear pls dont forget my face
couldn't you tell i was being sincere when i said that id change
embraced all the things you said so youd could feel okay
remember when i called you and you said it wouldn't be the same

bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share
bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share
bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share
bro your beautiful atleast we had some time to share

atleast we had some time to share

shoutout @juzo for the cover art :) give him a follow pls

lyrics:

AUTUMN

(rest my arms)
(where they cannot ever be harmed)
(cold to the touch)

there's certain days where i haven't been better!
but when the sun goes down
i know tomorrow will be bitter
i've lost my head; when the clock struck ten
the blade came crashing down & now i'm back where i had started
could give a fuck if i'm dramatic,
the reward could be prestine
if i take the pills they offer me
my dreams could be serene
but i never wanted that; figmentated lies
to put on a public act, for their brainwashed minds

EPITOME

every day i wake up just to do the same shit over and over again
it gets hard to even stand up when i don’t know who i am
i thought you were a friend
but where were you in the end
i see it’s all just pretend
now my wounds they won’t even mend
th-th-th-they won’t mend
nothing feels real 
am i fucking ghost
cant take time to heal
so i’ll put the knife up to my throat
just to see if i’m alive
and if i’m not than what am i?

spotify :)

my wounds won’t mend w/ autumndropsdead (itamii)

wya?(jabarionthebeat)

ERROR 4
prod. eric godlow
nv4L
https://linktr.ee/swainesworld

de_tides (prod. eric godlow)

i could never trust

produced by @splashgvng & @1yeezo
featuring @skrxwd & @splashgvng
engineered by @marcdoesmusic

LYRICS
(You're not sad again, are you, splashgvng?)

Been a couple months, you've been gone
I've been moving on, you been doing wrong
Got drunk with your friends and a tat that you regret
And you fucked up hooking up with homie at the CVS
Now you're hitting up my phone
Telling me that you were wrong
Pulling up in my driveway
And saying it's my way
And maybe inside, I've
Been hoping you'd come by
And lie to your friends while they give me the side eye

I still need you like you need me
Woke up still drunk and I'm hazy
You're gone but you still suffocate me
You can use me, you can, you can use me
I still need you like you need me
Woke up still drunk and I'm hazy
You're gone but you still suffocate me
You can use me, you can, you can use me

Here we go again, everything feels the same now
Take another shot, won’t stop 'til I pass out
She’s the only one to make me wanna act out
All new fit, bitch, I’m blacked out
Made a mess, in my head,
Put me up on a shelf
And every time I hear your name
I feel like I'm in a cell
You can blame it on timing
You know where to find me,
Stuck somewhere between nicotine and caffeine
The thought of you is always hiding in the shadows
Everyone around me says I'm acting like an asshole
Consumed by my thoughts, watch the time go
And I can’t feel a thing, spent a rack though
Really wish that you didn’t have to go home
Another night of loving you before you let go
Why you gotta fuck with my head for?
Like, for real

It's like, literally, all the fucking time,
You just hit me up, and you're like,
"Oh wow I miss you" and like, "you're so important to me"
But then, you're on the side, fucking talking to other dudes
And fucking like, hollering at people

I still need you like you need me
Woke up still drunk and I'm hazy
You're gone but you still suffocate me
You can use me, you can, you can use me
I still need you like you need me
Woke up still drunk and I'm hazy
You're gone but you still suffocate me
You can use me, you can, you can use me

use me (feat. Skrwd & splashgvng)

spotify

two thousand songs (p. mileage + atis)

sentiment (prod. lovematt x splashgvng)

KissingTheGround(DEMO)

Stars Align - NVR/MND x Vict Molina x Skinny Atlas

follow goat @memoryroseishere

i go back and forth just running laps
and the heat really got to me just fell flat on my back
the distance just too much try my best not to think into it
whats so hard bout speaking on the shit that i take issue with
i feel better but so much worse when im by myself
tried it, this n that, so much proof that nothin helps
dont know myself i always struggle with identity
lately i take pleasure in distorting my reality

people want my poison just squeeze every drop right out of me
im not gonna lie, think im the only one whos doubting me
what can i do i really dont wanna make connections
ive been robbed of friendships just from constant second guessing
face it, i jus ran out of patience
and weighing
this pressure on my chest
the constant hatred, i hate it
i'll say it
i wish i was dead every fuckin day
i dont wanna talk about it 
i dont know what to say

now im walkin through the ice 
know that you're watchin
hold my life over the lake, try not to toss it in
and i fall in
dodging rocks like dodging coffins
everything comes in at arms length through the darkness
yeah im breathing
i dont expect you to dip your feet in
the waters cold this time of year 
i dont want you to feel it
yeah im seething
all this anger man, i feel it
i want to feel happy but this life wont give a reason

poison (memoryrose)

i keep getting texts from people i don't want them from (prod wavvy)

Lyrics:
im so sick of all the hiding, im so sick of all the lies
im so sick of always smiling, when im dying deep inside
i just wish that you could see all of the feelings that i hide
but i never wanna talk, just get the fuck up out my mind

always just ignore, all the beating of my heart
baby im a walking corpse, any day ill fall apart
you could pick up all my limbs, take me right back to the start
you could sew me up real good but then ill get hit by a car

in december i cut like real bad
saw my veins and the void in the black
life is strange when all you do is slack
its just more time for these panic attacks

keep your head up, i know its the worst
when no one listens, its part of the curse
of being silent, not using my words
im only human, i dont know the cure

i dont know the cure

December

hummer truck w/ Baby Basile

class clown

prod. @kill_vein

[Hook]
Break hearts
Love scars
Make up
Cover up
I won’t run
Such fun
Your love
My lust

Where are you tonight?
Where are you tonight?
Where are you tonight?
Where are you tonight?
X2

[Verse]
I need a fix of your elixir
But every sip is getting bitter
And I don’t got no plan of leaving
‘Cause I’m still fighting for the feeling

Don’t say I never wanted love
Don’t leave, if you really love it let it rot
Is this the ending that you want?
Well we both knew how the story goes.

[Bridge]
Where were you last February?
I bled out but death escaped
Drinking in the cemetery
Waking up at heaven’s gate

[Hook]
Break hearts
Love scars
Make up
Cover up
I won’t run
Such fun
Your love
My lust

Where are you tonight?
Where are you tonight?
Where are you tonight?
Where are you tonight?
X2

BREAKHEARTS (prod. killvein)

SOCIALS:
https://www.instagram.com/ilovepseudo/
https://open.spotify.com/artist/1wFUw...
https://soundcloud.app.goo.gl/J91rEa9...

Prod: grayskies
https://instagram.com/prodgrayskies?i...

Mixed/mastered: @ghxst 
https://instagram.com/ghxstghxst?igsh...

Lyrics:
I was chasing the headlights 
Waiting for hell I have never won 
This drink doesn’t taste right 
Sink the late night I’m coming undone
When you came over I was never sober you knew that
Mistletoe in a holster 
This Rollercoaster Is driving me right into the pavement 
You saved me just to say it
If you open your eyes
See that I’m not fine
I’ve been wastin my time
Searching for the 
Leeches on my windpipe 
She holds all my insides 
Thanks to you I feel alive 
Thanks to you I feel alive (x2)
Thanks to you I don’t wanna die 
I don’t need anymore than a couple of reasons to know that I’m not coming home
I’ve been running round with a couple of heathens finding god in their phones
I swear to god I found love 
That fixed most of my problems 
Stay inside 
Hold you tongue 
Baby I never thought I’d get this close to the sun 
I’m burning up slowly And that’s just how I like it
Don’t tell me it’s unholy
To find god in a pretty face If you open your eyes 
See that I'm not fine
I’ve been wastin my time
Searching for the Leeches on my windpipe
She holds all my insides 
Thanks to you I feel alive

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