“𝒟𝑜𝓃’𝓉 𝐿𝑒𝓉 𝒢𝑜 𝒪𝓀?”

Stream: https://open.spotify.com/album/2gGupu1nkhOTZp8eLm5VUn?si=uw5b_w7XQ3GVxAeLM9T68A

For a Sad Autumn LP

<3

Stream:

https://open.spotify.com/album/5bosGSvWBZxfMbG5Wbqmrd?si=3T7c4umiSf-KbpWMtydSmg

Just in Time

Casualty

Purple hearts placed to pages just to be sure.

13 Stars High // Purple Hearts

Lyrics: 

My bro’s hit my phone 

It’s been a few weeks

Still feel alone, sometimes think that I’m weak

Stare at the stars cause I couldn’t sleep

Sometimes its job to fucking be me

Cruise through the streets & I’m feeling depressed

Do I need a friend or do I need sex

How in the fuck do I de-compress

& make sense out of all I have left 

Sometimes this outlet it isn’t enough

Ages ago I think I felt love

Coasting on fumes & the shit kinda sucks

Smoked my last J now I’m sadder than fuck

Visions of women with really big titties & it’s kinda shitty but lifting me up

I sit alone as I talk to the moon, wherever I go I’m looking for you

It’s not a what, it’s not a who, chasing a feeling I couldn’t confuse

Yeah I’m a loner & I should know of told her, running away is a thing that I do

Facing my self & the shit that I fear is a new thing that I’m trying to do

Emotionally open, yeah I’m fucking broken but somehow this passion it has me consumed

I daydream about you to cope sometimes idk

(Lyrics:) 

*Disclaimer, I support women & believe in paying sex workers*


If I had some money I would cop the only fans

If I wasn’t such I burden then I might just take a chance

I would change my life if I truly gave a damn

Given too much effort just to end up in a jam

But I think for her I would save the last dance

Two lovers intertwined that just might have missed their chance

While I’m on the record fuck I really miss my friends

Some days I think I fine but I really need to heal 

Simulated life so nothing really real

Yo Earlie he been buggin man I wonder what’s his deal

We only get results of the fruit in which we yield 

Lost a lot women that I really loved forreal 

Knowing it’s my fault cause I was just a broken kid

Seeking out a love of my language just feel

Every time we’d touch & we fucked I couldn’t deal

Forever only wishing you and I to stay right here, in orbit of each other cause I truly held you dear 

Breaking down like it’s a sport & haven’t been myself in years

Seems like only now the truths become clear, reality a bitch but I think I like it here.


(Link to Save The Last Dance Visual)

https://youtu.be/ps1B7f-xw8M

Save the last Dance (Visual in description)

Lyrics:

You don’t wanna get lost like me

Stray off, fall apart off screen, I’ll be



Woke up from a dream so hectic

Check my phone, took a piss, ate breakfast 

Not stressing too much

Know when I think of her I see heaven

& to my own hell I’m in debted, my fear put to bed 

A broken hearts just a blemish

Cant heal your scar but I’d kiss it

& I’d never forget 

Take a break & I shed my sadness

Cant always pretend I’m happy🥲

But a friend that I am



You don’t wanna get lost like me

Stray off, fall apart off screen, I’ll be

Anything & everything I ever dreamed

🌸 Don’t forget about the last time we had a good day 🌸

Can’t deal with my feelings need time to process

Not Sitting around spending time so upset

Bout people or problems & shit I can’t stress

Ask for the answer but no one knows best

Down on myself but I got enough rest

If I could play god then I’d stop all this shit

Dream about people then quick to forget

Recollecting the last time that I had a friend

Shave off my depression not serving me yet

In the city found colour outside of this hell

Tossed away my first wish it went down our old well

But home is the place where my spirit still dwells

Home is the place is the where my spirit still dwells, I’d keep your secrets & I’d never tell

Tossed away my first wish it went down our old well, still the same kid like when I was 12

What time are we going back to the moon

Lyrics:


Waking up the sky is grey

If I could fly, I’d glide away

A different time or other state

I’ve grown so tired of this place


Nothing feels the same anymore

I look for you everywhere I go

Spent all day inside but my soul glows

Moving forward but too slow


I’d save your pictures on my phone

When I’m with you I feel at home

I just need a chance to know 

That in this life I’m not so alone


(I just needed a chance to know…)


I wanna lay in bed & talk

Hear everything you have to say

All your thoughts about your days

These moments precious they escape


So easily we let them fade

Become so blinded day to day

Feel it inside when the sun fades

To rise again a different way 


I wanna love you every way

Taste your skin & feel your shape

Tell you you’re perfect in every way

Love is timeless as beauty fades 


(Every way, I wanna love you every way)

Don’t let go ok?

Lyrics: 

Never thought I’d be 27

Manic episodes & depression

Pretty sounds my obsession 

Ebt with no credit

Use to call me a legend

Nowadays don’t feel shit

Just wishing that I felt better

Don’t wanna talk about real feels

How about that there weather

Take the pain & suppress it

Tighten up the limiter then fuck around & compress it

Feels like I searched forever 

For everything that’s within

skate into the sunset

New day, same clothes again

Thought I knew a lot,

but really I don’t know shit

Wonder why I’m so sad 

& why I just lose focus 

Sometimes I think I’m hopeless

With my shitty ways of coping

Need win rar extractor

To pull out all I hold in 

Mental illness isn’t fun

Denial isn’t either

Guess they say that pain

sometimes is our best teacher 

Yeah I really loved her 

That’s why I had to leave her

I’m sorry.

If ever we get lost, please don’t forget me 💔

“Try to shed tears but my pride won’t let me cry…”

Visual Out Now:

https://youtu.be/JOL8CP5k0do?si=vDbnHPXcPoFNaTsB

Spotify

Wake up Seven, we love you ( Visual in Description)

Beadoobee type melody ❤️ from a song I wrote that’s in progress of never being released!

If I joined Beabadoobee

Lyrics:

You look like you smoke cigarettes,
Was it a shitty week
On one too many dates, no one you wanna see
Don’t wanna interject, don’t wanna intervene
Simply passing like the waves out in the sea
You were in my thoughts, it’s been a weird few weeks
I don’t know your name or who you wanna be
I just work my job, make music, smoke my weed
Staring at the stars, wondering would you think of me
Young and full of life but yet still draining me, of all my innocence and my good energy
I often wonder would you ever have loved me, or been blinded by who I use to be
This conversation can stay between you and me, sometimes I think were better versions of ourselves that we won’t meet
Where we find solace, love, and harmony 
Were just passing, honestly…

A conversation with a stranger

king of flan <3

"Honestly, it’s all still unwritten"

Lyrics: 

I’m so tired of how I been living 
Get it tatted and say I’m forgiven
Get it tatted and say I’m forgiven
Know I wrote and know that I meant it
Can’t forget it the way that I’m smitten
Can’t forget it the way that I’m spittin
Can’t forget it sometimes it ain’t hitting
Sometimes it ain’t hitting
Being honest don’t think that’s it’s right
Being honest I think about life 
All the times that you told me lies
All the times that I wasted so high
All the times that I just wanna cry
All the times I think bout suicide
I know it’s not right, I know it’s not right
I sit here at night and think about life
I try just to smile, I’ll give it awhile
I switched up my style, l’ll give it awhile
I look at the vile, which potion i’m picking 
Which feelings I’m kicking, honestly it’s all still unwritten 
Confused I feel like the villain, I feel like the villain
I feel like the villain
Which vile are we picking, which potion we picking
The left or the right, tonight is the night, 
Tonight is the night, let’s hold onto life

Tonight is the night

Lyrics:

Another distant lover 
Another winter
Wish I’d been a swimmer
Dove deep and I uncovered 
All these hidden feelings
Well
Wish you had been my lover
Say that you will see me 
Maybe in the summer ?
All the feelings that I cherished 
All that I held close
They added up to this 
And I don’t wanna feel alone
Another missing feeling 
Another passing moment 
Wish you had been my lover

Take me back to the beginning 
Wish you had been my lover
Been my everything 
Been my everything 
Another distant lover 
Another feeling 
Wish you had been my lover
Wish I had been a swimmer
Dove deep and I uncovered 
Everything you kept from me
Alright 
Okay

Another Distant Lover

No Strawberry Acai

Lil n.n.

Lyrics:

Another year
Another season 
Still ain’t found the reason 
Looking round I’m oh so lonely
Heaven won’t go missing long
Stopped crying the same song
Through pain and every flaw
the love it won’t let me fall

Fall into nothing, do it for passion
I know they don’t love me
When it gets so ugly I still find the beauty
Pointless in effort the hatred petruding
One minute they hate you the next they’ll go using
Bleeding me dry for the light that’s within me
Stare in the distance reflecting too often 
Pouring my heart still say there’s no meaning 
Results I still wonder just what people seeking
Aim for expression despite the perception
Still falling in love haven’t learned my lesson  
It’s all that I’ve known there’s no second guessing 
The chance that I’m taking I know it might break me
But for the better I know it could change me
Open my eyes just to see something true 
Close to the sun I felt closer to you

Visual Out Now:

https://youtu.be/hAjfENOCwuo?si=HtFIoe8vdFgGjV_C

Outro (Visual in Description)

Lyrics:

Every night I dream of you it got me going round and round
Dancing move through all these thoughts 
You’re the only one I want
Sad that I’m just so alone, dreaming bout you here in my bed, my bed
Every night I dream of you it got me going round and round
Dancing move through all these thoughts 
You’re the only one I want
Sad that I’m just so alone, dreaming bout you here in my bed, my bed


You’re the one that I want & know it’s true
Not too many thoughts that aren’t involving you
Been seen that life ain’t much fun feel what you’re going through
As I travel through life hope this gets back to you 
It’s quite a tragedy the way that I was never loved 
Hope there’s a you and I just like the heavens so above
As for the pedestal i think I’ll keep off of it, there’s no need when I feel certain and so confident
But when you hear my voice or say my name won’t sound the same
It’s just the way that I love no one could replicate
I’d write 1000 songs and never even glance your way
It’s just another time 
I aimed to take your breath away

Every night I dream of you it got me going round and round
Dancing move through all these thoughts 
You’re the only one I want
Sad that I’m just so alone, dreaming bout you here in my bed, my bed
Every night I dream of you it got me going round and round
Dancing move through all these thoughts 
You’re the only one I want
Sad that I’m just so alone, dreaming bout you here in my bed, my bed

I'll Be Dreaming Here In Bed Every Night

Lyrics:

Okay, okay, yeah

Time I don’t believe it lets us go
But in the end we’ll wait to know 
I think we’ll have to see
Time I don’t believe it lets us go
But in the end we’ll wait to know 
In the galaxy

One things for certain that’s time & actualities
And there’s this magic within our present galaxy
Memories they keep us hanging on 
The minutes passing make wonder if we change at all
& If you’re willing right here we could try to wait and see
Just take my hand & know I’m every place you’ll ever be
& if in spirit know my friendship it will never leave 

In the end & in this moment we are everything, everything
We are everything 
Let’s just wait & see, we are everything, we are everything, let’s just wait & see
Time is forever keeping a tight hold on me

Time I don’t believe it lets us go
But in the end we’ll wait to know 
I think we’ll have to see
Time I don’t believe it lets us go
But in the end we’ll wait to know 
In the galaxy

The End Is Not Always The End (life Is Strange)

Lyrics:

SevenOceansDeep:
I got a message for my brother over on the other side
For I fear it’s been a minute, keeping too much here inside 
All the time that tends to pass we get lost from time to time 
As the world it has it’s way and it often sells us lies
Felt like dreams ain’t manifest how I imagined in my mind 
The first day you called me up I was in fucked place, 
But you stuck right by side as I grinded everyday
Still progressing through the passion as I know it’s still the way
the days I thought it would be over never knew quite what to say
I keep drifting through these patterns ritually I move through time 
Some days feel like it’s just me & the world ain’t on my side 
All the ridicule and sickness that I’ve lived with in my way, 
Never let it stop your beauty
Or your drive just to create 
As I’m writing this all down, 
It’s kinda got me feeling strange 
As haven’t hit a point or what I really meant to say
It’s two different kinds of worlds that divide us all the same 
All the versions of myself that came and gone all the same, 
I never knew quite how to say I had always been so broken
Use my ego to deter like no one had ever noticed, 
All the songs we use to make, 
Sessions just like memories, 
In the moment they were tense, now I keep em dear to me 
Wonder when they play a song are they even hearing me
Tell me am I coming clear, I’m tryna open up a lane
I just needed a few minutes, run it back like a relay 
I got a message for my brother over on the other side
It’s been too long yet I fear, since I spoke what’s on my mind
No the game don’t feel the same & I know they selling lies
I been dying just to live, gotta make it right this time 

Alalu:
I’ve been dying every day
Got to make it right away
Always floating through these passions it seemed the only way
Things move
Shit changes
You’re the only one outside my range
Can’t see the impact whilst we’re living 
Another day smoking standing in the rain
Got you standing right besides me, oh the things I’d pay to show you what they’re hiding
Guard me from the lightning now it seems that karma knows I have lost
 what’s the cost to reveal all I feel
Tossed aside, but the best is yet to come
I swear
These idle minds might define divinity
Split my soul into three, my lives outlast infinity
Your embrace in disease, and these last few years have proved 
All the thoughts I had as a man since the youth
Lost but never moved from the position I am in
Watch these times pass us by as we descend into sin
I’m not preaching to anyone, the truth is all within
One day the phone will never ring, and the texts never seen
God’s within us all, so don’t go missing me
Got a message to my brother over on the other side
Whether or not it’s still the same, it doesn’t change nor define
The value from the past
Timeless memories
It ain’t over till the black

A Message To My Brother W/ Alalu

Lyrics:

Hey, okay, alright, okay
Okay, hey

Ion wanna sell drugs no more 
Feeling sad like I lost all hope
Feeling like I’m so alone
Yeah my heart it just turned so cold
Feeling like I don’t got no one
Been awhile since they hit my phone
Been awhile since they hit my phone 
Feel sad like I lost my soul
I don’t wanna sell drugs no more
I don’t wanna cop a O for the low
Feel like I ain’t got no one
Yeah my life so sad heart broke 
Ion wanna sell drugs no more
I don’t wanna cop a O for the low
Feeling sad like I lost all hope 
Feeling bad I ain’t got no one 

Feels like it’s been so long 
I ain’t got no drugs that I sold 
I ain’t got no friends no more 
No car I lost my soul
With this music I ain’t got no hope
With this music I ain’t got no hope
Yeah I’m feeling so sad and alone 
Like they don’t see me no more
Ion wanna sell drugs no more
I just wanna be alone
Please don’t hit my phone
Please don’t hit my phone
I ain’t even got no one 
I ain’t even got no one
Goddamn this shit ain’t fun
Look at my life what it’s done
Look at all my pain 
Look at the path I took
Look at the shit I’ve done
Goddamn how could it be good
I ain’t even got no one
I don’t even have no fun
I ain’t got nowhere to run
Feeling like I’m sad and alone
I put that gun to my head
Almost said I was done
I ain’t got nowhere to run
Should of pulled the trigger and wrapped it up
Yeah I lost all my hope
I lost all my friends
I lost my fucking soul
Do you really think this shit is a joke

Ion wanna sell drugs no more
Feeling sad like I lost all hope 
Feeling like I’m so alone
Yeah my heart it just turned so cold 
Feeling I don’t got no one
Been awhile since they hit my phone
Been awhile since they hit my phone 
Feel sad like I lost my soul
I don’t wanna sell drugs no more
I don’t wanna cop a O for the low
Feel like I ain’t got no one 
Yeah my life so sad heart broke
Ion wanna sell drugs no more
Ion wanna cop a O for the low
Feeling sad like I lost all hope 
Feeling bad I ain’t got no one

It’snot2013anymorestopasking

Lyrics:

Always changing colors
Did I dream we were lovers in another life
Like the leaves we uncover
What is under
What fucks you up inside
I’m always changing colors
Did I dream we were lovers in another life
Like the leaves we uncover
Our true colors
What keeps you up at night

Sometimes dream of a lover
Sometimes think of my brothers
Sometimes think of my friends
& the life I once knew
James what changed you
I ask myself way too often
Look in the mirror i’m talking
I know if I’m calling
You’re not calling back

Different year the same problem
Every autumn
Feeling lonely too often
Different year the same problem
The same problem
It’s my sadness
Think about it too often
Think about it too often
Different year the same problem

Always changing colors

For A Sad Autumn W/ Splashgvng

Don't Let Go Ok? (Reprise)

Don't Go

Lyrics:

Close my eyes then I dream of you
Now you’re wanted in the worst way
Maybe some day I’ll see you 
Like on a random Thursday 
Am I crazy for the way I think 
Or the silly ways that I feel for you
At night sometimes I fall out touch
Fall in align now I’m with the moon
If you’re in my view, I’ll take the time
Take note of how I feel for you
Never hurts to write it down
Feel like I was made for you
Now I feel so far away 
Lately I don’t feel the same
Two souls so intertwined
Re-invented in different way
If the things I said and done ever leave In spirit you’re my everything
They don’t have to mean a thing 
Most everything that I ever was
Has only been a memory 
Everyone I love they only leave 
I’ll try to find the time tonight 
Do my best to get some sleep 
It’s only here late at night
I find the space and time to dream
About things I find hard to deal and things I wish that could only be
Things I wish that could only be 
I’ll try to find the time tonight
Do my best to get some sleep like

Visual Out Now:

https://youtu.be/RqsdHqBIMe8?si=_Zs5dk6Jl6QgzhQP

Fall Out Of Touch When It's Late (Visual in Description)

However I Love You Dearly (RJ Pasin Guitar)

Lyrics:

Grey, hey, aye
The pink to my grey, hey, hey
What could I say, hey
The pink to my grey, hey , hey
The pink my grey, when waking up feels like a mistake what could I say
Glad I’m alive, what could I say 
In this time, I feel so amazed 
I feel so estranged how I’m alive, what could I say
The pink to my grey, hey, hey

Intro (pink To Grey) (Visual in Description)

“And the window tells a story of a good day, so I said.”

Belong <3

Lyrics:

Sitting butt naked
I’m right here in my room
I’m here in my towel
Was having some thoughts of you
Am I wasting my time
I will not try to be new

Sitting butt naked
I’m right here in my room
I’m wet in my towel
I’m thinking of you
Am I wasting my time
I’m so out of shit to do
I’m
Just wasting my time
I’m not tryna be new
I’m just tryna feel normal
Nothing else left to do
Am I wasting my time
When im having thoughts of you
I’m here in my towel
Just sitting here in my room
Ooo

Here in my towel feeling human and such

Lyrics:

Use to not be proud, my ego I hold onto
Say that I’m not shit, well guess what I still want you
People talking shit, well I’m not bothered now
Back in my own world couldn’t settle as a clown
I just want some money, that’s how I fight my sad
Do it for the art bet I’ll never peel back
Like an empty clip I’m nothing to hold onto
I gotta be honest cause I don’t wanna hurt you 
Show me something different cause lately I’m not feeling
Oh I can’t have your heart? 
Then baby lemme steal it, that pussy ima feel it I wanna take you deep
I wanna fall in love in your arms and go to sleep
Might see me as weak but that’s the way I play it
Couldn’t tell no lies so the truth I just relay it
Everybody faking even though they see me hurting 
But I just keep it honest staying focused and just working

Visual Out Now:

https://youtu.be/MBwGCWunvRw?si=23DOQTNZozg1Rj10

Personified Romanticism (Visual in Description)

Lyrics:

Hey, aye 
Guess I’m lost on you
I told her don’t panic
I find ways to manage 
I find ways to manage
It’s just this thing I do

Guess I’m still just lost on you
I told her don’t panic
I told her don’t panic
I brought my Parachute 

Go grab your favorite pair of shoes
We could go like anywhere 
Anything you wanna do i’m 
Still so lost on you
Hey

Don't worry I brought my parachute

Lyrics:

Feelings go ghost, been looking round like where’d they go
I done looked up, looked down, looked down, looked around almost everywhere I go
Sometimes I think I’m close, to a miracle
I been looking round for my feelings somehow I don’t know where they go

I hope where they reside, that part of me feels free
Even when I’m not so happy and unsure if I’m still me
Sometimes I’m in a crisis, so I try to keep it quiet
Try to love myself but I’ll never learn to like it
Naturally was free and that’s all I ever known
I wasn’t gonna write but, now I feel alone
That part of me’s a ghost, I hope it’s happy with its host
I’ll be shedding tears in some years while I’m standing at the coast

Feelings go ghost, been looking round like where’d they go
I done looked up, looked down, looked down, looked around almost everywhere I go
Sometimes I think I’m close, to a miracle
I been looking round for my feelings somehow I don’t know where they go

I looked everywhere then found you

Lyrics:

Meet up on a Thursday were always linking up, we do this everywhere weekend suddenly we’re losing touch
Say you’ll see me next weekend I think that you’re the one but life just isn’t any fun
Meet up on a Thursday were always linking up, we do this everywhere weekend suddenly we’re losing touch
Say you’ll see me next weekend I think that you’re the one but life just isn’t any fun

Meet up on a Thursday now I’m missing you, it’s just another day that I’m tryna make it through, wish that we were linking up wish I was close to you, cause you’re the only one and honestly it’s out of view 

Any other option cause I’m always so alone and if you’re thinking bout me you should probably lemme know

We can find our groove or try to find our flow to conclude a lack of feeling promise that I’ll let you go 

But we meet up on a Thursday, we’re always linking up, we do this every weekend suddenly we’re losing touch 
Say you’ll see me next weekend, I think that you’re the one, I think that you’re one but life just isn’t any fun
Meet up on a Thursday, we’re always linking up, we do this every weekend suddenly we’re losing touch 
Say you’ll see me next weekend, I think that you’re the one, I think that you’re one but life just isn’t any fun

Another Thursday W/ RJ Pasin

Lyrics:

I could tell you what I know but I 
I’m not sure where it came from I said ooh
I could tell you what I know 
I’m not sure where it came from I said

I could show you who I am
And I could tell you what I know 
But I can’t tell you who to be
Would it even help you grow
Because sometimes I wanna know
I’m tryna skip straight to the point
Because I need a better reason
For why my life it disappoints
I’m mostly hearing myself through music
Fighting to feel any joy
I’m tryna find a better reason
Cause right now I just don’t know 
I’m mostly hearing myself through music 
Fighting to feel any joy 
Tell me am I coming clear
Tell me have I made my point

I could tell you but would it change a thing?

Lyrics:

Blue roses on my coffin      
Think about it way too often
Dream that im falling
Like a small bird tryna take flight
I’m waiting at your front door
Bouquets by the handful
Blue roses on my coffin
Think about it way too often
Too often
Too often
Having dreams that im falling
Like a small bird tryna take flight
Blue roses on my coffin

I’m at your front door and im waiting
Bouquets by the handful
By the handful
Blue roses on my coffin

Think about it way too often
I’m at your front door with a handful 
Bouquets by the handful

Falling
Like a small bird tryna take flight
Think about it way too often
Having dreams that I’m falling

Visual Out Now:

https://youtu.be/SnhvPKTGW4o?si=2nMLzOMuSfgSMCYN

Blue Roses (2022) (Visual in Description)

Vengance

Lyrics:

One day I wanna wake up and hope it’s all a dream 
instead I feel like good distant figure or memory. 
I can’t see the light its hard sometimes to fight
It’s hard for me to sleep every single night Ain’t no solace to be found searching for me
Yeah you know that I was probably SevenOceansDeep 
That’s just the way that it seems 
Caught up in a dream 
I’ve been trying my damn hardest 
Feel like no one believes 
Give up my life 
Put up a fight 
For everything that I love 
And hope it’ll be all right 
Yeah it never is and that’s OK. 
I just write it off. 
Maybe just another day
Working hard 
But nothing really striking me
I’m feeling so alone, 
Distant from my family 
and the people who just say that they care about me 
Got a funny way of showing it 
or so it seems
I think it would just be easy if I was a ghost, I’ve been trying my damn hardest 
tryna make the most 
Of every moment that I have
But nothing never ever comes clear 
I shed another tear

Trying to find some peace of mind so I can front the pain loneliness that got the better part of my brain 
Ayo this time I can’t say that the drugs to blame
They just unmasking all the things that I held within
Guess I was a poet
Didn’t know it 
Got lost in the moment just flowing
And I’m just hoping and showing 
In all the things that I notice
It seems I can’t let it be 
Walking along Abbey Road
Tell me would you join me?

Goodnight, goodmorning. It's all the same to me

Lyrics:

Same day different night is a different time
I don’t know if I’ll ever think I’ll feel fine
Shit been tryna find my purpose. 
Been trying to find some words 
I’ve been looking past the surface like
Every night I be moving through the city streets 
I be staring at the clouds feeling like my life’s a dream 
Tell me when I dream when you fall asleep or are you thinking about me well 

Every night it just ends here in my bed like 
That’s the only thing I can ever think about I 
Been feeling so tired 
Feeling like luster feeling uninspired 
But somehow, I still try to find the fire  
I keep the truth cause I could never be a liar 
Well, the Earth’s still turning, and every day I start to think I’m really not important

Freestyle but my style ain’t free

Lyrics:

Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Ooo yeah
Should of been a baller
Yeah a real shot caller
Lonely now it got me sipping water
In love with someone’s daughter
A shame I never really knew my father 
Bet I’d never fold or ever falter
Goddamn, I should of been a baller
Yeah a real shot caller
Lonely now it got me sipping water
In love with someone’s daughter 
A shame I never really knew my father 
Bet I’d never fold or falter 

Top no halter real shot caller
Ain’t a walker, ain’t a talker
Bet I run it, ain’t gon walk it
Bet I do it ain’t gon stop it
Real shot caller, 
Goddamn wish I’d been a baller
Strong silent type no talker
Now I’m a loner
Now I’m a loner
If I loved her 
I’d have told her
No bullshit I would have sold her
The world ain’t getting warmer
I always been much colder
Yeah I should of been a baller
A real shot caller
Never fold or ever

Should of been a baller Part. 1

Lyrics:

Want all your love 
I want your grace
I Want your heart 
Don’t want no space 
Want your love
I want your grace 
I want your heart 
Don’t want no space 

Want all your heart 
I want your grace
don’t wanna be alone
I don’t want no space 

Want you right here
Tell me how it feels 
to really be in love
Haven’t felt that in so long

Space as a concept W/ Sorrow Bringer

Lyrics:

Yeah
Right
Yeah
Wait 
Uh huh
Yeah
Yeah

In my bedroom, all black smokin & just chillin
No text back, but it’s cool im still in different
Way too convoluted to explain just what i’m feeling
No nastasha, but our story’s still un-written
Just holding hands and kissing, for you im oh so smitten
I knew they didn’t like me cause I always did it different
Your pussy ima kiss it, don’t leave because i might miss it
Find it hard to re-write whats un-written
The shit that I been spittin honestly it’s been so senseless
And if I told the truth I swear to god I fucking meant it
It’s been about a minute run it back might have to spin it
Ain’t no dj but the way I play I feel it, you get it

Emo isn't a phase (freestyle)

Lyrics:

Waking up this morning, it was really hard to sleep
If you’re looking past the surface you could really fuck with me
I just wanna be certain that I’m the one you need
I’m not feeling so important I know everybody sees
Will I find those things
Those things that I seek 
Will I ever my purpose inside this crazy dream 
Waking up just yearning
Waking up just yearning
For some things just to be 
I just wanna feel certain you see
I dont feel that important am I the one you need
I just wanna feel wanted
Waking up this morning, it’s been really hard to sleep
Waking up early in the morning
This feeling weighing on me
I don’t feel so important I know everybody sees



If you’re looking past the surface
You could really fuck with me
I don’t feel so important 
Am I the one you need 
I just wanna feel wanted
Wanna feel wanted
If you’re looking past the surface You could really fuck with me

I just wanted to know I really meant what I felt to you

Lyrics:

I been day dreaming
Mentally I’m scheming
Mentally I’m fending for something I believe in
If seeing is believing then I’m just tryna know
Sick of all the settling and sad methods of coping
Just wishing and still hoping, tryna keep my focus
Tryna keep my ethic always keeping the work flowing
If they never notice, guess I’ll keep my purpose
My feelings took me swimming brought me right back to the surface
Speaking more explanatory, scriptures spoke in cursive
I would write the definition if you heard of hurting
Still i’m more deserving, I could take you surfin
Sought out more perfection, it’s too bad you never heard it


Am I coming clear or tell me is this all a dream
It’s just another day in the life of being me
I could take you swimming, I can’t tell you who to be
I feel the originator of the day dream, 
I could show you who you are 
But never tell you who to be
It’s just another day in the life of being me

Daydreamers (New York) W/ Alalu

Lyrics:

Todays feeling like a time I know I won’t forget well
& I’m so happy, so happy that I get the chance to live well
Just to be is so important even if I don’t feel so free
After all the truly bad shit I’m just glad to feel like me 
Today
Today


If the last times like the first time
Then tomorrow won’t be the worst time
Cause today, 
feeling like a feeling that I can’t forget well
And all the times we reminisce 
On every moment what they meant 
It’s a feeling that I can’t forget 

If the last times like the first time
Then tomorrow won’t be the worst time
Cause today, 
feeling like a feeling that I can’t forget well
And all the times we reminisce 
On every moment what they meant 
It’s a feeling that I can’t forget 

Every single day 
Clinging tight to the moments
Got me tuned in, this time taking notice
Every single day 
Clinging tight to the moments
Got me tuned in, this time taking notice

X Games (2002) W/ Yunny Goldz

Lyrics:


Aye, aye
Okay
Just me and the stars tonight yeah
Aye 
Okay
It’s just

Everyday life got me feeling so indifferent
I been feeling strange
I been feeling kind of mystic 
moving through the shadows 
Like I’m out there in the distance
I don’t really know looking round
Am I living 
Is this even life 
I’m so full of misery
I’m looking at the clouds 
Are they even seeing me
The way that I just been so high
I don’t think I’ll ever change 
Really always been myself 
Always been the same
I been feeling down 
missing you everyday
Thinking bout you pops 
I ain’t really been ok
I been going through some shit 
I don’t talk to nobody 
Honestly don’t know 
Might fuck around and leave my body
I might kiss the moon 
I might even touch the sky
Today it could be it
I might just think that I might I die
I don’t even really know
Do my best just to try
Fighting with these struggles
Battling with suicide 
Battling with all these thoughts
And these insecurities 
These things that weigh me down
That’s really bound to get to me

Really been fighting 
I been tryna do my best
It’s like my best friend 
Yeah these demons in my head
These demons down my back
Really tryna get to me
I’m staring in the distance 
I don’t think they’ll ever see
I don’t think they’ll ever see
I don’t think they’ll ever see
Well I hope you’re smiling down on me
You see
Aye they really tryna get to me
It’s just everyday life again
It’s just everyday life again
Yeah
They really tryna get to me 
It’s really tryna bring me down
It’s just everyday life again
It’s just everyday life again
Aye aye 
It’s just me and the stars tonight 
Something still don’t feel right 
Aye
But it’s just me and the stars tonight 

Life’s so sad.

Everyday Life Freestyle W/ Kumo

Lyrics:

I don’t got a lot of money
Just some love to give
But if I had it all
I would give it to you girl
Hell yeah
Jay on the beat
Now I got her screaming yeah
She just let me in her head
Now she’s saying that she’s dead
Never felt this way before 
Never ever met a god
I don’t even make no claims
So I had to fucking stop
I don’t know
This life we live is so crazy
I’m so dazy
Looking up at the stars 
Thinking wow this is what made me
I don’t really know 
Where the fuck I’m gonna go
Sadly
But today I’m with you girl and we gonna Smoke on this bomb
That’s all that counts
Smoking on that strong
Woo
It got me in zone
And now I’m feeling you 
So we’re gonna get it on
Gonna get it on
Gonna get it on
We’re gonna get it on
So please don’t hit my phone
Please don’t hit my fucking phone

Airplane Mode W/ Jayyeah (2015)

The Hardest Part W/ Alalu

we can never be too sure

One Thing Is Certain W/ Alalu

someone ur not 

Someone ur not

Lyrics:

Falling in love is a concept I sing about 

Kissing your skin is something I day dream about 

But myself is all I really need for now

All I want is in reach, I can really feel it, wow.


Bad guy, never liked the label, seems to stick like the syrup on my kitchen table 

When I was a kid, man I miss normal, got too high up in the process of escaping 

Take it, I can’t fucking take it, some days thinking I won’t ever really make it

Ima work my ass off cause I’m fucking sick of waiting, girl I love that coochie hair you ain’t gotta shave it

Jaded, couple times been jaded, never really faded, you might wake up feeling different than the other day, shit now we’re all alone and our love is just wasted, wasted.


Ima prospect, baby you not an object. I know your whole life you been feeling like a conquest. They never took the time to know the real you, they only looking at your beauty but not the hurt in you

I keep it honest, something like gin and tonic, I could tell the truth but I don’t really think they want it  X2

Falling in love is a concept I sing about 

Kissing your skin is something I day dream about 

But myself is all I really need for now

All I want is in reach, I can really feel it, wow

A Concept (Lyrics in Description)

Can’t wait to leave this all behind, no longer a thought in my mind

X 3

When I do I’ll have the biggest smile again 

Runaway from the trouble that she felt at home

In the arms of a lover that she’d never known

To think It couldn’t rain forever as we trekked through snow 

Troubled past she couldn’t get past, so she let herself go

Down in her mind, where she settled low

Thinking maybe it’s my fault, but I can’t let it show

How forever sounded, forever ago, things get lost like the moments that we try hold 

Can’t wait to leave this all behind, no longer a thought in my mind

X 3

When I do I’ll have the biggest smile again

Cant Wait To Leave This All Behind

I saw her face in the stars

Flowers bloom & then grow apart 

From the end, right back to the start

Teenage emotions still live in my heart 



Guess I’ll never grow up

Can’t find the focus 

Hope in the hope plus

The negatives got me so slown up


Run from my problems

Can’t find no peace 

Alone with some sounds 

Ain’t slept right in weeks 


She’s like a dream, 

My fantasy 

Am I really worth it, far to believe 

Like shonen jump the signs backward to me



Hurts being lonely, don’t know how to stop it 

Heart is permanent scar that just bleeds

In online personas & even my dreams

Too anxious to sleep

beauty so deep


In love with this life

Not how it’s fucking me x2


I saw her face in the stars

Flowers bloom & then grow apart 

From the end, right back to the start

Teenage emotions still live in my heart 


yea,
i’m 25 and i still feel like a juvenile
it’s crazy how you can give an inch and then lose a mile
i miss the days when you didn’t care what you’d do tomorrow
when my warm solid eyes weren’t so cold & hollow
my younger self, who carries all of my happiness
current me’s a shell of that person just so inaccurate
nothing beats cereal, cartoon mornings on saturdays
a wide eyed child who’s just discovering anime
& pokémon emerald placed in its cartridge
hanging out on electrical boxes at my apartments
now i’m an old man who’s yelling at all you darn kids
in hopes that my words”ll bring a sort of catharsis
i,
have an obsession with nostalgia
wistful, teenage emotions that i’m not proud of
gratuitous amounts of effort in every stanza
dear younger self, i hope you’re happy with the outcome

Teenage Emotions W/ ProdbyIOF & JE_Remy

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