Been a good minute again, came to stop by and see how you've been doing, your doing great on these songs man🙌

produced by hiraeth


Call me
Bitch u never wanna call me
I don’t wanna die tn but im hoping
Crying in ur arms and I deserve all this
Cut me with the knife I forged and please don’t miss

Cut me with the knife I forged and please don’t miss
Hang me out to dry 
Drip blood from the ceiling
Im losing my mind so tell me if u mean it
Try not to cry while u rip me to pieces

Try not to cry just tell me if u mean it
Stop looking down its the blood from the ceiling
Its never my fault how tf do you miss him
Apart of me is gone that’s a part of me missing

forged

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

ft @ripkais :)
prod hiraeth + sinxi
ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

prod. me

you're all the best fr <3

lyrics:
I gotta get fucking grip
i let everything slip thru my fingers
im walkin on glass I might trip 
let it cut me just cut me to pieces 

on dry ice frostbite from your lips sent a shiver down my spine thru the vine to my hips 
there ain a lotta love for me, not to give. 
I been tryna figure how the fuck im gonna live like
this.

im wasted, complacent.
u name it
im lame man, 

cut my lips, cant speak to you 
i blew the shield can't read into 
the cold ass stare i get, you use 
permission to light the fuse 

im just a figment 
walkin thru your vision
catch me upset, its just something you're dismissin 
solice is only possible when were in two 
love so still, its all because i skipped the route
unmissable 

i am 
cant relate to me relate to you
i try 
some days i wonder why i cant cry 
my eyes 
been frosted since i last quit my lies 
so why 
is my chest still caving in

i feel my worth in my skin
but i can't seem to let it grow
i feel the grief in my soul
leave slowly

frostbite

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produced by autrioly 

completely non profit

lyrics

he keeps their heads in a box
under a key and a lock
her face is dripping with snot
the butcher rips us apart
he throws my bones in a pot
soups now smelling of pot
u make me laugh while I rot
choking on smell like a cock

he keeps their heads in a box
under a key and a lock
her face is dripping with snot
the butcher tears us apart
he throws my bones in a pot
soups now smelling of pot
u make me laugh while I rot
choking on smell like a cock

lately I just wanna sleep more
I been smoking weed more
I been getting blisters up on top of my hands and feet more
I just need to record
airing out these deep flaws
I just felt like moving on and I ran out of deep words

maybe I forgot that I was born for this
couldn't sell a soul that wasn't mine to give
sport a flowrs hoodie that doesn't fit
2 years I'm in UK bro we can link n shit

shoulda figured out that I'ma pessimist
I got uber eats bags stacked pyramid 
shirt n tie, uniform, yeah apron fit
even with artist block bro I cannot miss

everyone gather round yeah look at this
veins broke down again blew this bitch
bone broke plaster knuckles split
murder it yucky like I took a shit

I just saw the future I decided I don't like it
throw away the map if there's a way then I can find it
I just need somebody who can show me where the light is
I just got these images burnt inside of my eyelids

he keeps their heads in a box 
under a key and a lock
her face is dripping with snot
the butcher rips us apart
he throws my bones in a pot
the soups now smelling of pot
u make me laugh while I rot
chocking on smell like a cock



secretsauceshh (autrioly)

fuck me 
fuck that 
i’m tortured now 
baby don’t hate me i’ll fall back down 
i’m saying don’t save me go find yourself 
one day i’ll lose it and drop myself 

rain drops falling too fast now i’m drowning in the snow 
flashback to the nightmare now i’m down bad and i’m cold 
breakdown in the bathroom, it’s shitty i know 
right back to zoloft and prozac oh no 

baby don’t save me i’m going to hell 
there’s no fucking need to worry i don’t need your help 
like what the fuck is the point if i’m losing it all 
life’s going on, pray i make it to fall

trapped in my head again how will i make it out
i can’t feel my heart, so please just show me how
i don’t believe in god but fuck i’ll pray right now 
but through war and death, i’ll always lose myself 

fuck my life, maybe i know too much. 
laid to rest, god i’m finding new cuts. 
adderall xr just to get my mood up. 
why the fuck do i have the worlds worst luck

baby don’t save me i’m going to hell 
there’s no fucking need to worry i don’t need your help 
like what the fuck is the point if i’m losing it all 
life’s going on, pray i make it to fall

fucking stab me in the back and then you’ll tell me that you love me baby
so when you pull me out the wreck, then you don’t even have to blame yourself

prozac

@lilskeleskrrt
@prodjpjp

// geist
don’t look at me and tell me no hard feelings
blood was lost, it’s dripping through the ceiling
i saw this coming from a mile away
the knife was left in my chest for a reason
but i wish you the best forever, you win
i don’t want to fall in love with hate

i just wanted to dance
when your hand’s in my hand i feel my heart is racing
lost in a trance
but now i’m alone and i rot in this basement
there’s blood on my hands
and i paint the walls red when given a chance
oh don’t give me that glance
your eyes tell me secrets my heart cannot stand

oh
the knife was left for a reason :/
oh
wish you the best forever you win...

// skele
cut me right thru
baby you don’t need a panic
watch it pour out
darling isn’t it romantic
it’s like paradise
fading out
only you and i
somebody call the surgeon
tell him that it’s urgent
on the table stained red
i told you
i think that it was worth it
this is perfect
if you hold me as i go
i’ll wait up there for certain

and you
are
the reason
that i lay awake
staying up
i’ve been stuck here for days
hold my heart
in ur hand till breaks

don’t keep telling me to let go
screaming out
i stop to listen to the echo
not enough
fucking tearing up my throat
i’ll keep going
till the blood
makes me choke
what you know
baby tell me where you go at night
empty out this bed
i’m still not feeling right
staring at my meds
i’m on the borderline
walk along the edge
i don’t feel alive

paradise w/ skele [jpjp]

guitar by magicDz

love y'all a ton.
thank you for listening
thank you for being here, truly
hope you enjoy

ep postponed, but i got a lot else i've been working on
yea



take me apart
reassemble and recharge what you erased
no regards
zip my lip, i cannot communicate

above every scent they embellish
it's rotten, yet fresh, so i cannot repel it

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

(i don't) i don't wanna feel this bitter
but i don't wanna rock that mask, no
redacting myself from the present when i wanna end it
pelt dust at my mental
cavities build in my dental
skipping toothpaste for the mentos
everything felt so common
i hurt so often; bent like a stencil

caffeination, isolation, what a cycle, what a day
couple people that i talk to; very seldom light the way
i do it myself it seems
shot down like it's belomancy

sat recluse in my room every noon, glued to youtube
if i had somebody special, it'd be them too
won't you settle down and tell me what you're going through
call me up for once, 'cause honestly you never do
so when the clock strikes, i feel the curse so tight
staying up 'till it's twilight
green flash in my eyesight
black cat in the moonlight
waving bye when i'm boutta cry
i hit you up 'cause i had to cry
spirit guide lurkin' hindsight

drill in my head, got a shovel in my chest
but i leave it like that, let it grow like grass
i'm a fucked up kid, can't live in the past
and the moment don't last, break shit when i laugh
no meds and i'm gassed, but deflate real fast
real friends hit back, understand where i'm at?
why you treat 'em like ass though?
do you got a moat for the castle?
been down every ounce, now i'm fragile
she had meant so much, what a hassle
days into weeks, now months
stolen my crutch
fuck it i'll hunch
punching my gut 'till the air flows
cornering stare with an echo
licking the tip of the arrow
wove in a rope like a pharaoh
sooner than late i won't care, no

like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

they ain't know me like that
do my homies got my back?
rigor mortis 'till i crack
brought me back in, yet we're never patching
glass, all up in this brittle back
always lacking what i have, like a magnet
opposites attracting

bombay

watch the leaves fall on my legs 
as i wait and let the time pass
seasons go my life's still a mess
why did i put my life in both ur hands?

fading away disappearing fast
all of ur love for me like a crash
why did this happen is this a test?
i hate u for making me hate myself

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day
im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

don't even bother callin my phone
i changed my number and im goin ghost
i hate the life and the way it goes
im well today but tomorrow nobody knows
different drinks, cigs and a bloody nose
that's the way the sad ones roll
losing track, of how many tracks, 
i pulled of doing song after song
song after song
tens in a row 
and im losing control
losing compusure 
destroying my soul
im just hopin that in peace i will go 
cuz~

im cutting my wrists breaking my bones
stuck in my head, stuck in my home
laying awake all night long
lookin at u thru my phone
lonely everyday i do the same
sit on my chair and i rot away
while i keep dreamin bout u 
and the way u were dressed that day

cutting my wrists, breaking my bones (young taylor)

prod me

sick & haven't been able to record much of anything for some time now, but i wanted to get something out both for myself, and possibly you;
been sitting on this one for a while
hope you enjoy.
take care

hey, i'll trade you for your sorrows
i've grown used to feeling that
and if we're talking 'bout tomorrows
i've grown used to losing them too

the voices i read with my ears, tend to bleed
choking up every piece of the letters i speak
wasn't always afraid of the pictures i paint
guess the brush needs a wash, mutilate, then repeat

hate when i reach out again
people speculate my head
you're not me, you're not my friend
frequently, wish i was..

thoughts reflected through my brain
too bad they can't do the same
shattered past and future pains
guide me home through rough terrain

i'm ugly with words
keep it blunt, little passive
hoping that i'll make it up with some actions
feel so trash, bounce back like elastic
i'm doing that for the sake of my casket
hurting myself in a hope i'll be gone
suck how the ones that we trust do you wrong
playing along
it's not even fair i can bare all the tears that i've once undergone

this life makes me sick; can't trade it
i've been pushing through the lame shit
stay averted; bad relations
let my room for hate stay vacant
pour it all on my own psyche
ain't no one 'round here feel like me
it's not a nice thing
never sight-see inside my mind
i'm mostly agonizing

i told them it'd be okay
it sure as hell don't feel that way
your limitations never stay
you're pulling pins to thought grenades

it's all the same
cast a wave and send me to a sunken grave
only then i'll know my place

woke up in a sweat so cold
in a room pale white, and a heart full of woe
passed out 'round noon, now i'm ten on my toes
from the sun's red hue, passed through what imposed
any chafe on my brain by the stains from the mulch
what kind of weight doesn't make you implode?
phasing a gate into heaven's abode
but that ain't a place i ain't think imma know

i haven't changed my sheets in like a week or two
(get outta bed)
summer's passed, and suddenly, our meanings too
(it's all that i have)

my eyes stayed tied into my mind
to undermine it's barbed wires

i'm trying to be what i need
choosing escape over delicacies
they weren't a choice i would seek
nothing was ever created for me

(4x)
i'm trying to be what i need

mulch

Close your eyes ,sit back and re-wind the clocks...

Stories Told By Songwriter Edwin H. Balder

(Intro)
Camped beneath ancient trees,
Where whispers of time intertwine,
We found solace in shadows,
And our hearts danced to a secret rhyme.

(Verse 1)
In shadow forests, we wandered,
Hand in hand, like lost souls seeking home,
Leaves crunched underfoot,
the earth whispered you're not alone
.
(chorus) Camped beneath ancient trees
forage forests in a hello breeze
Stars above our canopy of light
painting dreams in the quiet night
Laughter echoed in morning mist
Every moment a memory kissed
Young with hearts so bold
In those days of stories told

(Verse 2:)
Stars above our canopy of light,
Each a promise etched in a cosmic star
We traced constellations with our fingertips,
Mapping dreams wondering who we are

(chorus)
Camped beneath ancient trees
forage forests in a hello breeze
Stars above our canopy of light
painting dreams in the quiet night
Laughter echoed in morning mist
Every moment a memory kissed
Young with hearts so bold
In those days of stories told

(Verse 3:)
Laughter echoed in morning mist,
As dawn tiptoed through dew-kissed grass,
Our breaths mingled with the cool air,
as time stood still, reluctant to pass.

(Chorus) Camped beneath ancient trees
forage forests in a hello breeze
Stars above our canopy of light
painting dreams in the quiet night
Laughter echoed in morning mist
Every moment a memory kissed
Young with hearts so bold
In those days of stories told

(Outro)
Young with hearts so bold,
We etched our story into tree bark,
Inscribed love letters on mossy stones,
Our days of stories told,  now forever marked.

Link to more of my Folk & Americana hits you can cover into fame https://soundcloud.com/edwin-balder/sets/best-new-folk-americana?si=04e0155163644977b37cf8c0a04f3c53&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

All Rights Reserved Edwin H. Balder
Thanks so much to my band: Hot Cookie
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