Lyrics:

“Thought I'd be stronger by now...”

I lit a match in an empty space
Turned around without regret
Hands marked by flames and hidden shame
Still unsure what I'm trying to forget
“Can't shake this feeling…”

Don’t ask if I’m okay
I don't think you'd like the truth
(It echoes quietly)
Silence never felt this way
But maybe silence likes me too

I breathe in what I've done
(Can’t escape it)
Choking on who I've become
(Who I've become)
There's nowhere else to run
Just ashes filling up my lungs
Burning deep inside

The mirror tried to fool my eyes
But every crack revealed the pain
Laughing until I couldn't hide
Sinking beneath the shame
Last night the ceiling whispered low
Said innocence won't survive
Searching darkness, finding no
Answers in the sleepless nights
“Am I losing it?”

Healing feels like lying
Static drowns the quiet sound
(Static all around)
If I smile, trust I’m trying
But trying brings me further down

I breathe in what I've done
(Can’t erase this)
Choking on who I've become
(I'm suffocating)
There's nowhere else to run
Just ashes filling up my lungs

Maybe fire's not my foe
(Maybe it's me)
Maybe it's part of who I am
(I can't let go)
Maybe burning's all I know
Striking matches in my hand
Still struggling to understand
“And it never ends…"

I breathe in what I've done
(Still breathing)
My scars trace where I’m from
(Where I’ve been)
I scream until I'm numb
But ashes never leave my lungs

[Chorus – Powerful, Layered]
I breathe in what I've done
(Can’t escape it)
Choking on who I've become
(Who I've become)
There's nowhere else to run
Just ashes filling up my lungs
(still breathing)

Ashes in my Lungs

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[lyrics]
is it I think too much
or are we chasing after
a ghost of what once was

I can't tell the difference

is it you care too much
or am I holding our past
like a knife against my tongue

I can't tell the difference

would it be enough
if we were loaded and fucked up
house out in the hills

I wouldn't bet on it

we could be more lost
car roofs, wet shoes
cashed out in an friend's garage

but one time's enough

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

i hate fucking being numb

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//私はあなたなしで悲惨です//

thank you guys for all the love and support, especially lately. i've been going through a lot this past week & to know you guys are here for me really means a lot. we'll get through it together. we always do. i love you.

also, follow my boy 9TAILS
@i_x_t_a_i_l_s
and my boy tothegood
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guardin x 9TAILS - nothing (prod. by tothegood)

video - https://youtu.be/yq3D0OisawU

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prod/mix/master @93feetofsmoke
ft. @youngburial

ϟ Fats'e ϟ

I barely know you
how could I trust you?
how can you trust me
have you seen what I've seen?
x2

Have you ever had a gun against your head
Have you started counting down til your last breath
x2

ϟ 93 ϟ

stop fucking preaching 
don't talk to me
shut the fuck up 
get away from me
x2

stfugafm ft. fats'e

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im good at being lonely cant u tell

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prod mix master @93feetofsmoke

video: https://youtu.be/La0kW8IDOa8

lyrics:

nowadays
headache
cold shoulder
getting colder
guess I'm growing older

imma loner
lie and say 
i love her
u dont come over
when your sober

x2

i don't wanna tell you
what I think I about
drugs are longer now
i never leave the house
don't look at me for help
i hate to watch u drown
still tried my best no doubt
like fuck u talking bout??

lie & say i love her

miss u haven't met u tho

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

vocals in order of appearance
93feetofsmoke
fats'e
cøzybøy

produced by jay vee
coproduced by fats'e & 93

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@cozyboycries

bleed for no reason w/ 93feetofsmoke, fats'e, & cøzybøy

prod/mix/ft @anxietyattackss

lyrics:

93:
Never feel the same
Never feel okay
Hit me up to take 
Always fade away
I’ve been hittin dabs
Til the panic takes
You can’t have my heart
But we can share the pain 

You can’t have my word
But we can still exchange 
Left her in the past
With my bad jacket
Hex across my neck
Like she’s black magic 
I fell out of love
With bags of plastic 

So what’s it take 
Yeah I’m begging you
To leave me alone
Im better alone anyways 

Where will it break
Yeah I’m finding out
I’m bending to grow 
The stress is my home anyways 

So what’s it take 
Yeah I’m begging you
To leave me alone
Im better alone anyways 

Where will it break
Yeah I’m finding out
I’m bending to grow 
The stress is my home anyways 

AA:
Spend another night alone up in my hometown 
just let me leave there’s nothing left for me to hold down
Spend another night alone up in my hometown 
just let me get away there’s nothing left to hold down 
On the back roads smoking on a backwood
Playin sad songs, sitting in a parking lot 
We live in shadows, don't matter if it’s dark or not
But it gets dark a lot, ya ya 
It’s bad enough, i know the pressures adding up 
And if you feel like giving up
Just know the story never ends, it’s all a dream

So what’s it take 
Yeah I’m begging you
To leave me alone
Im better alone anyways 

Where will it break
Yeah I’m finding out
I’m bending to grow 
The stress is my home anyways

stfugafm ft. fats'e

93FEETOFSMOKE

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