all guitar & vox by me
this was made in a rly short time lol

lyrics:

look at that, blood leaking down my arms again
can’t eat, all these words are fucking with my head
i feel sick, not doing better
to your hands, heartstrings are tethered 
tired of the rainy weather, can’t get out my fucking message 

useless, can’t fix it
i’m fucking pathetic
don’t ask me to do shit,
i’ll tell you ‘forget it,’
i’m tired of breathing,
the toxic waste inside the air
i cannot be me, 
i’m breaking down & no one cares

words on the walls, they still speak to me softly
wrap around my feet, then they wrap around my body
letting go of everything i’ve ever known, ever known
wanna leave the world, i’ve got nowhere to go

It's fine, whatever

(disc. i do not own any songs used and none of these songs r mine, all credit goes to fern road)
i used a lil reverb and bitcrush to hide the true sound of some of these deleted songs... also all have been shortened and slowed
(in order)

fall apart
nails
ill be there (deleted)
try something (deleted)
nice cats
not so easy (deleted)
my friend
whatever (deleted)
u decided (deleted)
for jd (deleted)

fern road mixx // december blues

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later x @six-days-after-christmas

four leaf clover

lowkey wish you never left
too much stress is on my end
i’m fucking up my head again
fuck it tho regret is dead

lowk wish u nvr lef
lowk wish u nvr lef
lowk wish u nvr lef
im fuckin up my head again

@ifeelsoawful
i try my best 4 u
and i hope u do for me
and im not what u want me to be
ima kms this week

lowkey wish you never left
too much stress is on my end
i’m fucking up my head again
fuck it tho regret is dead

regret is dead w/ awful

october instrumental @octoberlies

since december
i can't change u
we're falling different
guess we had to
i remember
when i saw u
didn't know now
we would argue

do u hate me ?
ya i hate u ...
i don't wanna act out
i can't help but lash out
when u look at me
try to hide my feelings
but u always figure them out
i'm always left with how

i can't change you...

WET4U (pipebomb)

https://soundcloud.com/keshibeats/bandaids not prod me

made this cuz im sad

u shouldve told me...
idk what to say
why are u sorry ?
how did things get this way ?
my heart is broken
down to the core
this is not what i wanted...
idk what i want anymore

im afraid the bandaids
are no good
for heartache

not okay...
so tell me
when ur world comes crashing down

why are you sorry?

ft & prod @ifeelsoawful
:p
fuckin on yo ho
im not leaving after sex
i dont wanna wait for pussy
bitch just gimme fuckin neck
i be stuntin in this bitch
i just spent a fuckin check
imma pass on that lil groupie ho
i think its for the best



fuck his bitch n then i’m right on to the next
I won’t eva let a hoe play me again
that’s on god
tryna put on for my brothers and the 
the whole squad
she say kuv u just wanna fuck 
damn this bitch is not wrong

for the best w/ awful

oh why cant i love myself
hate is spilling from my mental shelf
its lower than my health
pls dont help me i wait for my death
i turned so obnoxious out
not even my "friends" wants me around
i hate myself so much
yeah i hate myself so fucking much
i swear i put a gun to my head
pull the trigger and fill everything with lad
dont expect me to text you back
cuz i swear soon i be fucking dead
i been waiting for the time that i do better
but i go downhill everything gets so worser
i been talking i been talking
but nothing is changing

my death is like a sacrifice for everyones happiness

i am taking everything out my heart
i been scared and looking around for the safe place all apart
i cant understand why you dont hold me close to your chest
im on a date with the devil and it makes so stressed
im so desperate 
for the attention
why you mention
that im mental
im so desperate 
for the attention
why you mention
that im desperate

im so desperate that i wanna erase myself out of everyones life

😝😝

Idc about my seconds u can keep em
bih only come thru if ya feet done
Wha?wha?
I ain’t playin come thru when u get done
Imma beat the drums
Drums
Imma beat herr drummm
Imma beat them drums up
Imma beat the drum
I been on the drugs
Xans make me numb
Imma take em til I’m dumbbb
Dumb

regret is dead w/ awful

wounded

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