The Lost Tapes

exuvium [OBLIVIØN Pt. II]

ANTAGONÏZER - OMNIVIOLENCE

Buy/stream 'widow [OBLIVIØN Pt. I]': https://ffm.to/widow

This album is my dive into my unconscious self. A narrow-beamed flashlight illuminating creatures on the sea floor... a strange mixture of dread and familiarity. 

I shed a fair share of blood, sweat, and tears over the two years it took to make this thing... and I also shed parts of myself. To be honest, I barely recognize the fragmented figure that widow represents. The first half of the OBLIVIØN series is the only relic I have to remember him by. Mangled, but poignant. A sort of exuvium; left behind to remind me where I came from, and provide a blueprint for what lays ahead. 

I sincerely believe it is my most honest work yet. 

I’m not trying to be pretty. 
I want you to see me. 
I want you to understand. 

-j
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widow [OBLIVIØN Pt. I]

Canopy Ft. Lexi Norton [Lost Demo]

Spiros [Lost Demo]

Effervescent [Lost Demo]

Cathedral [Lost Demo]

Fervor [Lost Demo]

This song is my invocation of the muse. My tribute to the terrible, bloody, beautiful experience of being an artist, of dissecting yourself, screaming and suffering, for the enjoyment of others. Of showing the masses your darkest pain and hoping it somehow makes the whole fucking mess inside of you finally mean something.

This is controlled psychosis. 
You’re seeing my viscera. 
Does it give you a thrill? 
Does it make you uncomfortable? 
Do you still love me, filthy and bleeding?

Watch the official lyric video: https://crywolf.komi.io

OBLIVIØN Pt. II :: THIS FALL

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LYRICS:

I wanna show you something
Rainfall in my head
I’m lost again 
I’m lost again
I’m lost again

Thunder and souls and sobbing 
She’s getting in my DNA
I swear you lost me
I swear you lost me 
I swear you’ve lost it

ø
ø

Under my skin you’re unwrapping all that I am, I swear
I wanted to keep
I wanted to stay
Deep in your head forever 

I wanna show you something
Melting through my brain
Every time you’re around you’re assaulting me
I swear you lost
I swear you lost me
Floating away forever oh

I wanna show you something
Rainfall in my brain
I’m lost again
I’m lost again
I’m lost again
Again

Thunder and souls and sobbing
She’s getting faster
DNA

I swear you lost me
I swear you lost me
I swear you lost me

ø
ø

I wanna show you something
Rainfall in my brain
I’m lost again 
I’m lost again
I’m lost again

Thunder and souls and sobbing 
She’s getting in my DNA 
I swear you lost me
I swear you lost me
I swear you’ve lost it

ø
ø

Ego nihilitas non quaesivit 
Scinditur mihi apertis 
Ardebatur omnia
Apocalypsis animae 
(x4)

(To touch her is to become a child, to love her is to be buried)

Ab meum oris effund, O Anime Apocalypsis!
Ab meum oris effund, O Deluvium Ruina! 
(X8)

I wanna show you something 
(Floating away forever, oh)
Thunder and souls and sobbing
(I’m lost again, I’m lost again, I’m lost again)

D D D N N N A A A [the most fun a boy can have without ripping his skin off]

https://stem.ffm.to/smokeandwaterthechthonicmother

OBLIVION II exuvium

SMOKE AND WATER [the chthonic mother]

AMARANTHINE [better an apocalypse]

ABBADON

ABBADON [love lets you know you are safe, but violence lets you know you are pure]

[skototropism]

[i see the birth and death of the universe swimming around in your eyes]

DREAMING OF ME // IN COLORS OF WHITE

[the veil, eternal]

THE LAZARUS OF WESTLAKE

New single from Angels EP, out everywhere April 29th on Always Never Records!

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Buy Angels EP here: http://bit.ly/1jIenCw


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You were the answer to my dreams
Your scent in me so deep
I wanna tell you something
Dressed in a stunning red
Your head upon my chest
The pain inside means nothing

Take off your shirt and lay down
Right next to the pile of things we loved when we were younger
Eyes half closed
You were the answer that I had 
But you weren't all I wanted 
You weren't all I needed

So 
Take a spot in front of me and 
Listen now I'm coming clean
There're so many things I think you should know
Take apart all the melodies and 
Deconstruct what's inside of me
You're all I want to see before I go

You were the answer to my dreams
Your scent in me so deep
I wanna tell you something
Betrayed by the words I said 
My head upon your chest
The pain inside meant nothing

Let's get the fuck out of this town
And pass around a bottle in remembrance of our hearts, dear
Eyes half closed
I am the one you're searching for 
But I'm not all you wanted
I'm not all you needed, oh

Angels EP

Eyes Half Closed

Buy On iTunes

STATIC is the first ANTAGONĪZER single, the collaborative project of AWAY & Crywolf.

@obeyantagonizer

STATIC

LISTEN / BUY

BOW DOWN

Song 1 of 6 from OMNIVIOLENCE. 
ANTAGONÏZER is AWAY + Crywolf.
Released on HypnoVizion.

Lyrics:
Bless the blood, O my soul.
Let it runneth from my hands.
O fury, fill my cup.
O wrath, I am thee. 

EXURO OMNIA
EXURO OMNIA

OMNIVIOLENCE

WRATH, I AM THEE

Song 4 of 6 from OMNIVIOLENCE. 
ANTAGONÏZER is AWAY + Crywolf.
Released on HypnoVizion.

Lyrics:

Climb the cross
Steal the eyes of God
My saliva’s dripping
Let me hunt
Give me discord
F**k your love
Give me bloodsport

Hear you bark
Like a drooling mutt
My saliva drips
Open your mouth
Taste the discord
Take off your leash
Give me bloodsport 

And as you bare your fangs
You save me
Save me
All the primal gods inside your savage body
Save me 
Save me

I am the knife in the dark
The fear that grips your supple heart 
The sun that ravages the earth
The storm that tears your world apart 

I am the knife in the dark
The fear that grips your supple heart 

I am the knife
I am the knife
I am the knife

BLOODSPORT

Song 5 of 6 from OMNIVIOLENCE. 
ANTAGONÏZER is AWAY + Crywolf.
Released on HypnoVizion.

Lyrics:
You were born in terror,
Like an angel exorcising itself from the clay.
And like every angel, in the end, you fall,
Screaming like a wounded animal, vicious in its grief. 

As you land, your nameless fingers root into the earth and become gods,
Erupting like the most beautiful flower I’ve ever seen. 

You used to long for death
My love,
My devourer,
My ashen one,
Can’t you see?

Death was always here.
Death is you.

TERMINUS EST

tenebrescence

tenebrescence [hushed]

Dysphoria

Neverland (feat. Charity Lane)

let me be your womb

a thousand stars, falling to the earth

deep stab, breach of clay sweetburst, soft silicate underlayer, reverberation

weightless, a butterfly, you put me on your shoulder

mother of the blueness, angel of the storm, remember me in my opaqueness

ichor

too small to see, too soft to hear

gold

as deep as time allows

i see my soul in her now

you; biochromatic light

You'd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling.

Download at http://www.patreon.com/runcrywolf

Good Luck, Babe! (Live 12/25/24)

Cat"a*clasm\ N. A breaking asunder; a violent disruption.

Buy on iTunes: bit.ly/CataclasmiTunes
Watch the mini documentary: bit.ly/MakingOfCataclasm
Photography by Dustin Hollywood

Cataclasm

The Hunger in Your Haunt

Buy on iTunes

The Hunger In Your Haunt

Cat"a*clasm\ N. A breaking asunder; a violent disruption.

Buy on iTunes: bit.ly/CataclasmiTunes
Watch the mini documentary: bit.ly/MakingOfCataclasm
Photography by Dustin Hollywood

ECHOS:
www.facebook.com/EchosOfficial
www.twitter.com/EchosOfficial
www.soundcloud.com/EchosOfficial

Epithelial

Epithelial [w/ Echos]

Cat"a*clasm\ N. A breaking asunder; a violent disruption.

Buy on iTunes: bit.ly/CataclasmiTunes
Watch the mini documentary: bit.ly/MakingOfCataclasm

Photography by Dustin Hollywood

Act Three: Looming

Slaves

Cat"a*clasm\ N. A breaking asunder; a violent disruption.

Buy on iTunes: bit.ly/CataclasmiTunes
Watch the mini documentary: bit.ly/MakingOfCataclasm

Photography by Dustin Hollywood

Performance of heyr himna smiður by Psalm 100 www.uncpsalm100.com

Act Two: A Shattering in F# Minor

Act Two: A Shattering In F# Minor

Act One: The Queen of Fiji

Act One: The Queen Of Fiji

My alarm sound makes me nauseous when I hear it, so I decided to turn it into something way nicer to wake up to. I documented it with snaps, and everyone was asking me to release it, so here ya go <3 

Watch it here: https://www.facebook.com/RunCryWolf/videos/1069075679840997/

Downloads enabled!

Follow my insta stories (I do this sort of thing all the time): RunCrywolf

Morning Song (free download)

It’s a slow sort of death, I think.
I’m trying to hold your particles, but my clumsy hands are too big.
Watching you erode, but not in peace. 

A slow burn, a steady breath, escaping your parted lips. You look into my eyes longingly. Frantically. Panicked. 
In a moment, I realize you never learned how to let the air back in.

It’s a slow sort of death, I think… but we are all dying, aren’t we? Couldn't we just figure out a way to do it together?

Maybe someday, in the far future, they’ll dig us up and find our bones intertwined.

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Art by Dustin Hollywood

Skeletons

Quantum Immortality

"Weight"

When I truly fall for someone, I can't get them out of my heart for a decade. Sometimes I can almost physically feel the weight of every love I've known, pressing down on my shoulders. I wake up with them, I go to sleep with them. A few extra minutes to get out of bed, a bit more drag on my shoes as I walk. Sometimes I feel they are too much to bear.

I love you. I am terrified of you. 

x,
J

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Lyrics:

Life somewhere far away, no mistaking,
it could be you
I think it every day, if we were the same
if that could be true...

We could be on the floor
On our backs, screaming "more!"

I know you want me
But I've come close enough for now
Oh god, you haunt me
I'm scared you'll leave me in the ground

Bless me with just one kiss 
before you leave me here with my heart
Tell me you want me home on the phone
Tear me apart

Could we be something more? 
All that I'm hoping for?

I know you want me
But I've come close enough for now
Oh god, you haunt me
I'm scared you'll leave me in the ground
I'm scared you'll leave me in the ground
I'm scared you'll leave me in the ground
I'm scared you'll leave me in the ground
I'm scared you'll leave me in the ground
I'm scared you'll leave me in the ground

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Art by Dustin Hollywood
Tracking and additional production by Andrew Heringer

Weight

The first time I saw a real human skeleton I felt a very peculiar sadness and shock inside of myself. It wasn't a reaction to the bones themselves, but to what had once covered them; the strength, beauty, and complexity they had once supported. An entire world had once rested in that skull. How much love, pain, happiness and grief had that frame supported?

As an artist sometimes you write about presence, and other times, absence. You use lyrics and music to run your finger around the shape left by something lost. This EP is negative space. It's the frame supporting something that should be there, but simply isn't. A harsh reminder of what once was; of an unchangeable breach in the order of things. Biting, but necessary. 

This is my sackcloth and ashes. This is my 7 stages all wrapped up into one. I didn't want to put most of these songs out. They all feel excruciatingly vulnerable. However, I decided I'd rather end my life pinned down, splayed out on a dissecting table than be stored away in formaldehyde, buried with my secrets.

So here I am. Here's the knife. Be gentle with me, please.

Follow with the artwork: http://bit.ly/SkeletonsDigi

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Additional vocals by Emalyn

Additional writing by Alex Phillips

Guitars by Death & Rebirth 

Flute by Josh True

Mastering by Matt Simmers

Photography by Dustin Hollywood

Lemniscate (The Place Between Sleeping and Awake)

Lemniscate [The Place Between Sleeping And Awake]

The first time I saw a real human skeleton I felt a very peculiar sadness and shock inside of myself. It wasn't a reaction to the bones themselves, but to what had once covered them; the strength, beauty, and complexity they had once supported. An entire world had once rested in that skull. How much love, pain, happiness and grief had that frame supported?

As an artist sometimes you write about presence, and other times, absence. You use lyrics and music to run your finger around the shape left by something lost. This EP is negative space. It's the frame supporting something that should be there, but simply isn't. A harsh reminder of what once was; of an unchangeable breach in the order of things. Biting, but necessary. 

This is my sackcloth and ashes. This is my 7 stages all wrapped up into one. I didn't want to put most of these songs out. They all feel excruciatingly vulnerable. However, I decided I'd rather end my life pinned down, splayed out on a dissecting table than be stored away in formaldehyde, buried with my secrets.

So here I am. Here's the knife. Be gentle with me, please.

Follow with the artwork: http://bit.ly/SkeletonsDigi

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Additional vocals by Mothica

Guitars by Adam Kuatt 

Additional vocal tracking by Evan Blair 

Additional production by Zachary Nikita 

Photography by Dustin Hollywood

Silk

Silk [W/ Mothica]

Last year, while shacked up in the Patagonian Rainforest working on my new album, I was robbed by a chilean street gang. They stole my computer, my recording equipment, my backup hard drives. Everything. All the music and writing from the last 3 years of my life was gone. To say I was devastated would be a tragic understatement... I felt like a hollow shell of a person.

Back in the rainforest, in my wooden cabin, on a Windows XP desktop computer borrowed from a local chilean musician, with a trial copy of Ableton and $100 bluetooth speakers, I created this piece. It was the first thing I made upon returning, late at night in the height of my feverish state. I don't know where it came from. I didn't recognize it. It was all blurs and sparks and chaos and strange teeth. 

I look at it as a monument to one of my most important principals: the idea of embracing a sort of unwavering recklessness when it comes to art. A crazed tenacity. Wildly pursuing ideals in the face of seemingly contrary logic. 

Q  U  I  X  Ø  T  E

http://smarturl.it/quixote

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Artwork by Dustin Alexander Thornton
Mixed by Crywolf, James Ruehlmann, and Evan Blair
Additional guitars by Adam Kuatt

Q U I X Ø T E [i am alone, and they are everyone]

d o n t  l e t  m e  c a t c h  y o u  s l e e p i n g . . .

Buy/listen now: smarturl.it/FALLOUTantagonizer

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Monotone me nicely
It’s a case of the revenant
I’ll be going towards the light, don’t wake me

Paramore, I’m frightening
All my love is feral, and 
I’ll be roaming through your house 
Don’t let me catch you sleeping 

I’m living on the sea floor
I’m living in your pollen 
Emerging from the ether 
I’m laying in the barren lands

I love it when you’re tongue tied
Spilling through your secrets
A love that could caress my demon

Fallout
Darling in my heart I’m
Tearing you apart
I’ll stand corrected

High and
On the edge I’m violent
Staining my hands red
The lion and the lamb

Don’t let me catch you sleeping 
Don’t let me catch you sleeping 
Don’t let me catch you sleeping 
Don’t let me catch you sleeping

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