Please don’t hurt me I’m moving on it could be amazing
You made mistakes but I see it in you that you are changing
If you care like you say that you do you wouldn’t fake it
I’m not aware of intentions I’m getting sick of waiting
I been alone for a minute I don’t know where you been
Or with who you accompany hope it wasn’t him
I don’t wanna look stupid if I forgive again
I feel our souls are connected too bad the thread is thin
And if I let you into my heart would you take it just to break it
You did it once but I believe you when you say we’ll make it
I love you will never hurt you that’s the words you had stated
You need to show me what that means because I’m done with chasing
Working every day
I keep my mind busy, I’m dizzy
You can make mistakes but baby why with me, I didn’t
Understand the reason getting closure never happened
Yeah relationships are shit so maybe I’ll just stick to rapping

What a surprise you did it again I saw it coming
You tried to hide it but I saw your eyes knew you were bluffing
You said you changed and that you would offer me all your loving
But instead you took my everything and gave me nothing
I'm okay I’ll make it through I’m stronger than you think I am
I've got some people on my side and really all I need is them
Even though you’re gone it threw me off I’ve still got future plans
Never will I let you come between me and my happiness
Grateful that I know the person that you are and you’ve become
The way that people see me cause of what you said I’ll overcome
You need attention now I wonder what you’ll do when you don’t get it
I’ll be playing on a stage and in your playlist where I’m headed
Now that I know myself I know that you just held me back
I got potential I’ll fulfill and then I’ll make it stack
I know the truth you seemed to fool everyone
But it’s okay cause for now I’ll just stick to writing raps

i guess once wasn't enough (prod. 4lexf)

love, joshua w/ vedh

OUT NOW ON ALL PLATFORMS

threw out my plan b
everything is clear to me
won’t ever reach my dreams worrying about contingencies
i got verses on verses but i got lack of sleep
cause i would rather live it than see other people on a screen
i eat beats like i saw em as sweet treats
i’m deep deep in some of the best weed from bc
i straight feast until i am held in esteem
the best team is anyone else but plus me
i’ve had enough of all the self-deprecation
lemme talk my shit i’m fly for a caucasian
i’m usually not too cocky my discography can back me up
i’m mad as fuck if spending my time isn’t accompanied by payment
i’m a man of my word
if i said i would do it then often i’m finished first
if i said it’s for free then i would gift you verse
but i expect a percentage whenever my voice is heard
cause i’m a man of my word
but shit this talk is not cheap
set of flooded diamonds fit the apparel for my teeth
i feel like a bakery it’s bread it’s never beef
everything i spit is covered meaning hidden underneath
and if time is money
then you understand the compensation that i’m looking for
i pour up a glass and then i smoke and then i smoke some more
i look up eric godlow just to check if he has posted more
and then i beat it up the way your girl said she been hoping for

yeah
how she been hopin for
has she been home before?
cause she been stayin with me for like a month or four
ask me for the twitter told her "don't forget the underscore"
cause i ain't famous yet but imma get the (inaudible) @ for sure
on that verification
at a peril i'm patient
she gon give me sensation
on an everyday basis
oh she don't give it to you? 
that's kinda sad if it's true
so here's a couple grand go and buy some candy lil dude
im fuckin off of it
i reciprocate but you the opposite
my composition commas, collard greens and water moccasins
i'm poppin shit
only really tags and never glocks and shit
but if i gotta shoot
i'm boutta shoot you where your problem is
keep you mouth shut and stay walking
i hear a peep you gettin cut don't try to play possum
daylight you in the street you better pray to god quick
that my homie don't run you over on some autobahn
shit
130 your girly just got flirty
her skirty is off surely
she serving me top perfect
i'm hittin the spot cervix
i jack in the box worth it
she flashin me aw
she ride it good when she not nervous 
uh wait
you should stick with me in the burbs
i wanna take you out the place where they get killed on the curb
or maybe i could buy a plane and we could sample the earth
i'll show you everything you want girl i'm a man of my word

man of my word w/ akumuh (prod. eric godlow)

i’m looking for a reason to say good night
communication hasn’t happened for a long time
countless times i replay when you said goodbye
moment that it happened burned into my eyes and mind
i’m fine
i’ll say i’ll try
if you look into my eyes you know i’m lying
you’re the one that really knows the reasons i cry
you’re the one that had to see it with your own eyes
i swear this life is a joke
fill up my time with my music and hope
that it will work out it’s the only way i cope
in the journey of life it’s the one and only road for me
i don’t know what you done to me
every time i think about you i can’t fucking breathe
then my thoughts are overtaken by my ocd
and i rot away my mental as i fall asleep

when it’s just me myself and i
i don’t feel alive
i don’t wanna die
but i can feel the vibe
x4

when it’s just me myself and i
i don’t feel alive
i don’t wanna die
but i can feel the vibe
losing track of time
my eyes are on fire
i been up all night
you are on my mind
x2

i’m restless and reckless
a mess 
why is death in life always endless
always in the midst my emotions are deafened
i dissociate until i’m lacking all my essence
if i leave again then i won’t come back
i feel like i’m under attack
where the sun don’t reach
and my eyes don’t see
and my lungs don’t breathe but you won’t understand
there’s a face underneath each mask that i see
i can be what i need in my dreams
i don’t sleep
i just worry 
never eat
but the beast won’t rest til it’s free
and then feast on my heart til doesn’t have a beat
i swear
it's a sad sad world that we inhabit
keeping goodbyes so dramatic
stay away from people it’s a habit
isolate myself go live on another planet

sweet dreams, my little insomniac ft. ivri (prod. capsctrl)

in spite w/ no.cape (prod. nvr,frvr.)

i’m either numb or i feel way too much
i’ve come to terms who i am and how it’s just my luck
i always hated change i hate it worse involving breaking up
when i can feel i gotta front
i’m always acting tough
i’m missing all the days with not a worry in the world
cause now i’m in a daze just tryna make some sense of it
as soon as i climb out i fall into a deeper pit of darkness 
leaving me to wonder if i never found my way out
would i be missed

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

why do i feel like this
anxiety has got a hold on me it’s got a tight grip
my fist striking the concrete while on night shift
so many people but i still don’t know where i fit
i don’t wanna work a normal job 
i got dreams i could reach if i carry on
i have days when i feel like i could be on top
but then most of the other days i hate every single song

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

why do good people have to go through bad things
why do people like you more when you have a little fame
why do people have advice for you when they are not the same
why can i not explain the reason that i have this pain
i don’t know if it’s cause and effect
i don’t know if it’s something that i’m bound with to my death
all i know is that half the time i feel like i am dead
and the other half anticipate for when it comes again

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

i'm either numb or i feel way too much (prod. cloud cadet)

end up the same w/ ✰RSQ✰ (prod. oc)

deja vu w/ mynameisrjay (prod. con)

go follow @rxseboy :)

yeah, listen close to my words, yeah
i'm a ghost, but it hurts, yeah
i got thrown to the curb, uh
all alone it's a curse, yeah
put my soul in a verse, whoa
they don't know how it works, yeah
i've been searching for a new life
see the stepping stones in the dirt? Yeah
i want everyone to love me
i want everyone to trust me
not gonna happen
i think about this every day
and dream about it every night
what am I lacking?
conversations in the mirror
no one there up in the rear view
driving alone
got no music playing when I'm steering
hope you like it when you hear it, yeah

why don’t you let me leave
i need some peace got a weight that’s on top of me
am i numb or depressed
as my feelings suggest 
eel like nobody wanted me
i can’t eat but i’m hungry
my body is numbing
don’t know what keeps stopping me
i’m finished i tried fixing a problem
i’m sticking to running anxiety coursing right through me
this shit don’t happen like shit in the movies
i should’ve expected to keep me protected
i had faith in an ending that’s happy
starting to notice that often don’t happen
i’m tired of fighting the feelings i have in my body
then saying im good when im asked
the truth is im upping my dosage
i smoke every day to feel okay and put on a mask
i wanted a love but it came with a tag
i wanted to smile but i’m breaking my back
put energy in just to get nothing back
i’m not falling asleep like an insomniac
i’m losing my patience
i stare at the ceiling my life being wasted
but i’m never changing
hope when you hear it gets harder to face it

yeah, listen close to my words, yeah
i'm a ghost, but it hurts, yeah
i got thrown to the curb, uh
all alone it's a curse, yeah
put my soul in a verse, whoa
they don't know how it works, yeah
i've been searching for a new life
see the stepping stones in the dirt? Yeah
i want everyone to love me
i want everyone to trust me
not gonna happen
i think about this every day
and dream about it every night
what am I lacking?
conversations in the mirror
no one there up in the rear view
driving alone
got no music playing when I'm steering
hope you like it when you hear it, yeah

@rxseboy- i'm a ghost but it hurts cover/remix (prod. ocean)

lxst boy
[hook]
i said that im fine but i promised that i lied yeah
tryna make it right but it gets harder in the night yeah
stuck here writing songs in my room its rainy weather
my shadows my only friend now we're miserable together x2

[verse]
we're 2 different people i get that
but why didnt you tell me to step back
i was staying up waiting for a text back
and instead i got sad and i relapsed
yeah i tried and i tried, i fall down then i cry
pick myself up trip and fall then i die
you said its fine but really its not
you act clueless and watch as i rot
i check the time, its 4 or 5
then check my phone, cant see the light
i check my pulse, im half-alive
you picked my rose and watched it die
these castle walls aint fortified
i hear the lies and theyre not mine
cant feel nothing, my nerves are fried
spending every waking moment feeling dry

cavasoul
[verse]
i feel faint
lacking iron or protein
or maybe dying
been abandoned by my guide
cause i never see the signs
its over gimme one more time
you move on i fall behind
i always fake it don’t admit the fact
that i’m never feeling fine
i’m a mess most of the time
give my best i’m never right
i struggle with anxiety that makes me wanna die
no one listens
no one cares
really need to wash my hair
but i hardly leave my bed i’m miserable and losing air
suppressing my light make it snow in the summer
i wasted my time even thought that i loved her
i feel like i’m fading i’m losing my colour
i was losing my mind she was under another
another one that i can add to the list
i try to forget all the things that you did
when i think about him it be making me sick
you were wanting a high that i just couldn’t give
the time that you took from me never returned
when you give up your trust and it breaks then it burns
i’m tired i wish that the tables would turn
one day i’ll see you get what you deserve
i thought i could i save you but i was mistaken
concerned with the path you taking
you lied to my face now you can’t even face it
you leaving me here while i’m broken and shaking

miserable together w/ lxst boy (prod. boyfifty)

i get no sleep
i'm chasing dreams while i'm in agony
my face is numb 
my head is bruised for something sensory
lay down defences 
fall fatigued only a moment away
all i need is for you to stay

agony w/ lyrah & splashgvng

dlm
don't leave me
i need you more than ever and it's strange
haven't felt this way in forever
straight pain
knowing that i'm not the best
and i can't handle change
don't know why you're interested
i'm nothing but a name
maybe i just fucking love the pain
it's what i been attracting
every waking day
hire an assassin
to cut out my brain
i'm tired of acting 
like i am okay
for a minute gotta hold it in
then i run to the back
cause the pain in my chest
i don't want you to see when i blow it big
and every single minute man i feel so distressed
i just need a fucking rest and control within
but it feels i never get it 
now this pain has been embedded
and this living i been dreading
dead emotions never settle
who am i?
cause i don't know
and i never did

baby don't leave me i need you to stay
i'm craving attention today
and you look so beautiful wiping all of my tears away
baby don't leave me i need you to stay
i'm craving attention today
and you look so beautiful wiping all of my tears away

hold me close
i need more
got no hoes
on my phone
i'm alone
all the time
even when there's people close
look at me
love your eyes
make me feel like i'm alright
so please don't leave
not on some pressure shit
you just be so precious
shit
i don't need no extra shit
just wish my hands were on your hips
run em up and down your tits
addicted to your fucking lips
the taste of em
i'm wasted on em 
taking breaks
exchanging gazes
you just look amazing on me
x2

baby don't leave me i need you to stay
i'm craving attention today
and you look so beautiful wiping all of my tears away
baby don't leave me i need you to stay
i'm craving attention today
and you look so beautiful wiping all of my tears away
x2

i would tell you not to leave but i don’t want you to feel pressured to love me (prod. 4lexf)

half of my life been apologies
whether it’s earned or not
i know the people that stay in my life are the only ones that i want
man i’m so sick of apologies
the feeling of letting you down
the feeling that i’ll never rest even the day that i lay in the ground
i’m sorry
i’m sorry
i’m starting to lose composure
i’m trying to write
but the tears in my eyes
make it harder to see what i’m holding
i’m never sober
not that i wanna be
i never drink i just smoke marijuana tree
i just kill my emotion 

what am i hoping for
maybe an open door
a sign
an answer or something
i’m always fine and then i’m not
i never know when it’s coming
i’m out of touch with my senses
i got mistakes that replay in my mind
filled with anxiety built around time it don’t matter the tenses
it don’t matter the tenses
whether it’s past present or future i see it ending
i feel stupid
talk to my therapist you never cared n shit
i was the one that was there n shit
i never thought i could talk because pointing out flaws always felt like a heresy

half of my life been apologies
whether it’s earned or not
i know the people that stay in my life are the only ones that i want
man i’m so sick of apologies
the feeling of letting you down
the feeling that i’ll never rest even the day that i lay in the ground
i’m sorry
i’m sorry
i’m starting to lose composure
i’m trying to write
but the tears in my eyes
make it harder to see what i’m holding
i’m never sober
not that i wanna be
i never drink i just smoke marijuana tree
i just kill my emotion 

when i blow up
when this shit done
imma be myself
not for anyone
but that old me
that you knew way back
well he not the same
now he bout this cash
imma bring it back
only for my fam
if you used to know me
then you just a fan
i don’t give a fuck
this ain’t no luck
i put in the work to get out the mud
i don’t give a fuck what you think
i can’t put my mind to it if i ain’t making bands with it
not too long fore i look at my wrist and diamonds dance with it
i been way too modest now i’m just being honest
pay attention to the profit
and now my new girl a goddess

my new girl a goddess
i feel like i'm dying
i feel like i'm dying

half of my life been apologies
whether it’s earned or not
i know the people that stay in my life are the only ones that i want
man i’m so sick of apologies
the feeling of letting you down
the feeling that i’ll never rest even the day that i lay in the ground
i’m sorry
i’m sorry
i’m starting to lose composure
i’m trying to write
but the tears in my eyes
make it harder to see what i’m holding
i’m never sober
not that i wanna be
i never drink i just smoke marijuana tree
i just kill my emotion

apologies (prod. jabarionthebeat x shah x jelly x alek)

i ripped out the pages that reminded me of her
i know that i hate myself don’t need to see the words
i remember i had blamed myself for every time she hurt herself
it happened with the first but with the second it was worse
the deeper cut 
my feet are stuck and sink into the earth
i’ll never be good enough that’s something i have learned
crazy how the coldest person left me with these burns
and then in my time to heal it’s like there’s people taking turns
just to slow down my progress
i convinced myself that everybody is dishonest
i am no exception 
broken hearts and broken promises
follow me
traumatic memories are always haunting me
don’t pick up the blame to pour it onto me
like i always do
i’m not mad at you
because i been moving on and showing gratitude
i been smoking tryna fix my shitty attitude
numbing any feeling in my body through and through
and my memories are lacking any detail so i know that it’s working
i got a woman that i love and treats me better for certain
but the anticipation of finding what’s under the surface
it fucking kills me
but more because she doesn’t deserve it

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

oh the irony
oh the irony
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave
oh the irony i wanna live with you
but will you die with me
(will you die with me)
i spend this time with you and if it’s wasted
then that’s fine with me
(that's fine with me)
i wanna cherish it
i wanted you to know that you can cry to me
and i hope you stay for a little while take your time to leave

so love me
tell me that i’m pretty know i’m needy but i need it cause i feel so god damn ugly
i hate the attention
then as soon as it is gone i feel like not a single person cares about me
i fucking hate the way that i ruin everything
cause i can’t control my anxiety
i’m selfish but i’d do anything that you need me to oh the irony

please love me, i’m trying my hardest (prod. 4lexf)

where da hoes at? lmk w/ aiden hilton✰ (samashi)

at least i know you'll move on (eric godlow)

every dollar (yunnygoldz)

think you love me 
but i think that it’s a phase tho
oh you a angel? 
i don’t see no fuckin halo
i’m always high off of that good dope
cant stay low
nowadays i’m bout my play and my pesos

i could make it happen if i say so
all my homies always know i got that dank rolled
i got a weapon on me right now so lay low

lay low

she looking at me like she want me to come and comfort her
all on your mind can’t get enough yeah i’m your wonderwall
i’m dressing gothic yeah she call me the 
king of the underworld
2 shots yeah
one for me and one for her
one for me and one for her
i got a weapon on me right now
i got one for me and one for her
hide it in her cleavage 
know i got it on me in the club
this blunt is running out
hollup lemme light another one

lay low

how do you gut someone?

you take a knife,
and you slit em from groin to sternum

and i don’t wanna be alone
that’s why you’re here by my side
you take it off as we go
my hand gripped around your thigh

i felt when you saw me
your eyes pierce right through
i wonder what you want
you said that you knew
you said that you understand
the things i went through
if i said i felt something
would you feel it too?

would you feel it too? (tiresss)

instagram: @cavasoul
artwork instagram: @organict3a

lyrics:

i don’t wanna go to sleep and waste my time to be awake/ only time i feel of use is when i’m with you in the day/ cherish every single moment before you ever go away/ i know you gotta go but i just wish that you could stay/ yeah you’re all i ever think about even when you’re with me/ you have made my dreams come true like the place called disney/ we could get away i don’t think anyone would miss me/ live in isolation on an island tell me you’ll come with me/ from blue moods to blue skies you change up the weather/ i’ve never ever heard someone tell me to do better/ you just look so good when you’re drowning in my sweater/ all the fun we have is lighthearted like a feather/ every single day i look back on it smiling/ you could call us hoarders all these memories we piling/ watch romantic comedies both of us are bawling/ it’s like i can’t stay on my feet cause i just keep on falling/



last night i had a nightmare/ where i woke up and you weren’t there/ feel like i’m going crazy/ i just need to see you baby/



yeah last night i had a nightmare/ you said you had to go/ you left me in the dust/ except i’m laying on my floor/ i asked myself what i did to make you wanna leave/ i got a text from you saying that you didn’t love me/ anymore/ heartbroken and i don’t know what to do/ all the time and effort that i put into you/ is all wasted and the skies are no longer blue/ i feel anxious i can’t be here i think i need to move/ so i pack up all my things and i put them in the trunk/ trying to forget that i recently got dumped/ now i’m speeding on the highway and the rain is pouring down/ i was feeling scared cause i had to leave my town/ it just felt so real and i just hoped it wouldn’t last/ i’m bracing for impact and the car was coming fast/ life flashed before my eyes you were the last thing i’d see/ but then i woke up and you were there right beside me/

last night i had a nightmare (prod. slowet)

OUT NOW ON @CAVASOUL SPOTIFY AND APPLE MUSIC

i wanna go home (prod. zeeky)

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/cavasoul/
Cover Artist: https://www.instagram.com/organict3a/

Tidal Wave (Prod. Wavekid)

Ginseng Strip 2002 Remix (ft. Powfu)

out now on all platforms. 
art by: https://www.instagram.com/organict3a/

i wrote this at 2am while u slept beside me (prod. tundra beats)

my sleeves are soaking through but it's okay cause i'm with you (prod. eric godlow)

nauseous (prod. capsctrl)

OUT NOW ON SPOTIFY AND APPLE MUSIC
</3 cover taken by @deslynnkardal on instagram

i hope we stay together even when we fall apart
when you tell me that you hate me its like a knife right through my heart
i dont know where i should start
maybe with apologies and pretty please dont leave
i see your back so much more commonly
im missing all our memories 
like road trips and conversations bout our future family
we could have lived so happily
but now im all alone
lost my purpose to survive
staring at the ceiling i dont even feel alive
anymore
i knew it would be hard but never did i want to lose you
i knew we had our stuggles but i never meant to use you
i understand im reckless, im selfish, and im sorry
i implanted in your heart a seed of pain and babe im sorry
never can i get the point across enough im sorry
as you move on with your life i pray to god you know im sorry

i told you i would change and baby girl i tried
but it never was enough to stop the darkness thats inside
i just wanted to be loved
and thats exactly what i got
when i had to give it back was like im running in one spot
tired of the yelling we are breaking i cant take it
i thought that i was good enough i guess i was mistaken
i wish you all the best because
thats what you deserve
ill learn from my mistakes, ill sit back and ill observe
now that youre not in my life i feel worthless
im hurting but you dont, no you dont deserve this
im all alone in my bed i feel worthless
im hurting and i do, yeah i do deserve this

i dont know if i can survive but
i know i dont want to die yeah
im all alone when i cry yeah
now that
youre not
in my
life

im sorry (feat. prodmac) (prod. slowet)

be back soon<3

you all are beautiful.  you all are amazing. i love u.

trying to figure out why im like this (prod. eric godlow)

the sun is setting faster than my eyes can adjust to the brightness (prod. eric godlow)

there she goes again (prod. 4lexf)

got taken down. re-uploading without monetization. this song is important so it needs to be out.

conversations with myself (prod. sleepless boy)

my main ig has been hacked. new ig @imstillawakeidiot

cavasoul

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