featuring @h3artch3rades
circa — October 2021

But it feels like every time I try
You end up falling for another guy
It feels like you don't want me in your life
It's like you would rather just fucking die
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

Two steps ahead, that's how I'm feeling
Thinking about me all night got you dreaming
And I believe everything happens for a reason
I want to feel like your air is what I'm breathing
I know it's hard for you
Just believe in yourself, we can make it through
You know I will always try for you
If you believe in me, let's make an attempt to push through

But it feels like every time I try
You end up falling for another guy
It feels like you don't want me in your life
It's like you would rather just fucking die
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

It's so weird when you're innocent, but your heart hurts
You're trying to say what you're not worth
Not meant to spite you
But instead to inspire you
To step outside of your comfort zone
We've been on the phone
Going back and forth it seems
Arguing the same things
But it's never getting anywhere
And I don't wanna see you disappear
Even if I wasn't your first choice
I'm happy being at least one of your considerations
But I can't help but feeling the way that I feel
It's okay, it's just rain, I'll dry up
One day you'll make your mind up
I hate to say I told you so
I hate to say I told you so

But it feels like every time I try
You end up falling for another guy
It feels like you don't want me in your life
It's like you would rather just fucking die
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

You're the only one that makes me feel alright
I said you're the only one that makes me feel alright
And I hate to be that guy
But I don't really wanna waste your time
And I don't really wanna be too shy
But it feels like you're the only one that makes me feel alright

Attempt (feat. h3artch3rades)

@fluffykitten420 @kingfelix

didn't mean to take myself home
my mind leaves my head
the second i get left alone
i'll do what i'm told (x2) to
it's better than the temperature
when her shoulder cold
so i'd rather not be bold

huh, yea
decided i would show my face in vain
you thought (x2) i was being too real,
that shit was tame
you're the one to blame
i don't mean to point fingers
but you're driving me insane

didn't mean to take myself home
my mind leaves my head
the second i get left alone
i'll do what i'm told (x2) to
it's better than the temperature
when her shoulder cold
so i'd rather not be bold

huh, yea
asking myself if there's even a difference
is there something wrong?
bitch make an inference
what made you so tepid, sick, and twisted?

wish i could resist it
there's always a problem
haven't solved them
had to tell the truth
cuz i'm a fucking whore for drama

do you believe in karma?
i highly doubt you do
if you did, i wouldn't have been used

didn't mean to take myself home
my mind leaves my head
the second i get left alone
i'll do what i'm told (x2) to
it's better than the temperature
when her shoulder cold
so i'd rather not be bold

[ sorry for the filler; i got weekly drops lined up now >.< ]

NOT the 1U need @heartsodull @kingfelix

prod. me & @qlein

isn't that right?
i took another
you want nothing but to act right
n i wonder if u see your stupid act right
u want some more after starting a couple cold fights
surely that's wrong
do you excuse it by taking credit for my songs?

isn't that right?
i took another
you want nothing but to act right
n i wonder if you'd see your- see-
wonder if you'd see yourself
see your- see-
see (x4)

you, huh, couldn't ever bet on us
damn, huh, couldn't ever call your bluff
couldn't ever bet on us
couldn't ever bet- bet-
never saw it
couldn't ever bet- bet- bet-
huh, ugh

you're reaching your limit of luck
if you wanna die go do it, ahh
see (x8)

is it true that i'm all that you need and wanted?
sent a text saying i'll slide, i'm on it
know that i'm not wrong
yeah, it's true that i'm stupid, empty-minded, and useless
but, if you knew that, why would you use it?
no, i'm not wrong
wrong (x3)

isn't that right?
i took another
you want nothing but to act right
n i wonder if u see your stupid act right
u want some more after starting a couple cold fights
surely that's wrong
do you excuse it by taking credit for my songs?

isn't that right?
isn't that right?

[i recorded this song out of spite after qlein insisted his drums were dogshit. ironically, i thought the same of my vox at first, but after finishing the song for fun i realized it was a lot better than i thought. See u next week <3]

isn't THAT right @qlein

back to the regular
i smoke the gas pack
pussy it ain't regular
if your name isn't god
then i am not afraid of you
got whips that look like ufos
that's hovering in your area
here to embarrass you
your folks ain't beat your ass enough
so here i am to parent you
this flow is scary to these weak ass pussy rappers 
that ain't even got their barrings yet

you blew the bet
losing against me will have you right in debt
writing checks
out to me and my name know i pocket that
like thank you kindly please
i take that right away and put it right where i need
i pull off right away and drop the top so i start feeling a breeze
our worlds ain't wide away so why you hating on me
it's because you hate the fact you know you'll never be me
i push up stun away in a way that could only be me
i'm screeching rubber burning asphalt
shoes on your couch disrespect i'm an asshole
ain't leaving 'til i'm getting what i asked about
you wanna be me you could be my mascot
you want the worst of me
i'm riding this high 'til i die
giddy up pony
you think you'd last a round
i would recommend giving up on it
pushing away the dead weight
building muscle from it
four walls in here tell you lies
continuing to build off whatever i sacrifice
point to be made you know you cannot fucking symbolize
whatever you made out to be the fucking selling point
of what you wanted to be
you feel like burning what you wanted in the third degree
and now you're trying to sign off on it
pushing it off the bridge and trying to suck the air from it
but i can't let you know

get me back to the regular
i'm smoking gas pack 
pussy it's irregular
if your name isn't god
then i am not afraid of you
got whips that look like ufos
that's hovering in your area
here to embarrass you
your folks ain't beat your ass enough
so here i am to parent you

back to the regular (prod.elxnce & sydney runner)

tysmm to everyone who helped me bring this project into life(⁠つ⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)⁠つ #1HOPETEAM #BLURR+++
sorry for the delay, hope u enjoy - rx
__

produced by me, qweshkka, rxtrx, cwta, sennai, eve, over, sana, dylan

features from h3artch3rades, praisetai

mastered wit sana

h3artch3rades - health and fortitude (1rxmi over rxtrx eve)

@qlein @tillamookbay @popilization @faintthearted
@100signs

@zzoos
(it cant be what it was)
it wont be what it was
yea im sippin purple i got stuck in the mud
im rollin thrax ya u smokin on dust
im w signs 
we cld rlly slide down
i ws trippin off the drugs bitch im fine now
he talkin shit we gon put that boy in timeout
sparking up the bud i got dry mouth
ya i need that bag i cant get it enough
i just spent a salary ill make it back in a month
ya im 2 gone i cant feel ur touch
ya im throwin 100s  they still countin 1s
heads turn its me n @sinefelt in the building
gone off the pill i got no feeling
ya im fuckin wasted im starin @ the ceiling
i need a sign
how do i know that its the real thing 

@qlein
bitches wanna talk on my shit wanna rock with my clique
pulled up at the function look at @dishonors he in the corner lookin odd as a bitch
100signs pulled up
a recital
my brothers in cut, in the van we smoking up 
me and @m4xyne in this bitch you know we throw up
aint no denying we all going up
100signs bitch u know that its us

real thing w/ qlein prod michimani, heartsodull & pop

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prod me

im losing all patience
every single thing is after me my heart is racing
i cant erase my thoughts until i face them
its like everyone that i have ever known had to replace them
im losing all patience
she said that i never talk to her i cannot take it
she its the- its the little things that always make it
if i fumble now ill fucking break it

i know that its hard to speak to me
and honestly i dont see what you see
if i had a life id probably end it truthfully
and i dont know why you just wanted me

and honestly this feeling gets to me
why does everything i love just flee
and honestly this feeling gets to me
i dont want nobody to compete

start

alchos

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