dusk

i'm sorry that i can't get out of bed 
i'm sorry that my heads always a mess 
i'm sorry that i missed your call 
for the third time in a row
i promise that i care much more than i show

music video

i'm sorry, i'm trying.

you are the death of me (prod. Flamingo Bill)

lyrics:

numb when he stole
another piece of the heart that made me whole
through the trees he can see just where his home at
through his eyes u can see just where his heart at

cracks in the mold
of the face he had once called home
in the lips in the sunken cheek bones
always sucks when u gotta let go

stuck leaving space
all these voices but i dont know what to say
imma go insane
if i focus on the pain
inside of my head
id rather block it with a change of pace
out my head
id rather block it with computer games

out my window toronto has seen some brighter days
i kinda like it when its raining and the skies are grey
kinda like it when the feelings start to wash away
through my skin into the water of the shower drain

shower drain (prod. deademane)

lyrics:

i havent slept in weeks
havent been home to sleep
i havent touched my street
since back about three weeks

i been on road and you know that
dont check my phone you know that
dont check my phone if its your snap
hope that you know where my heads at

grab my phone and go
i wanna be alone
all these blurry nights
that shit got to go

please dont hit my phone
im on airplane get the tone
just leave me alone
imma smoke and then ill go

this pain more than i can afford
popping tags
blowing stacks
ballin till im bored

any weather
i stay trapped
up inside my room
skipping sleep and making tracks
with the window leaking fumes

all i go is all out
songs out
sorry i couldnt come out

real talk
miss you
but got to much on my mind now

its a blur now
light jumps all around the room
i need to calm down
time moves 
too fast for me to call out

call me up i dont want you to hear me when im like this
digest
all of my surroundings
fight this
honestly
i dont know why im like this
i feel the night hit
toxic fumes pouring out my eyelids
help me
save me
from ever feeling like this

i would use all
of the time i had 
to prove to you ur
what i lack

i havent slept in weeks
havent been home to sleep
i havent touched my street
since back about three weeks

i been on road and you know that
dont check my phone you know that
dont check my phone if its your snap
hope that you know where my heads at

grab my phone and go
i wanna be alone
all these blurry nights
that shit got to go

please dont hit my phone
im on airplane get the tone
just leave me alone
imma smoke and then ill go

timelapse (prod. nadiak)

lyrics:

dirt in my nails
lets head back
vacant and pale
i got no head
numbing my mind
the words bite back
there were no signs 
when i collapsed

now my brain split
i been throwing objects
now my head
got me talking all this nonsense
all these artists tend to do it for the profit
woah can you stop it all your shit is garbage

to be honest ive been feeling toxic
id really like if you would fucking leave me when im like this
i need silence all i need is silence
gimme silence let me close my eyelids

you said i like it when your sad
how could i say that i like that
how can you lie and not feel bad
cause i already know im trash

i couldnt win so i forfiet
fill up my brain with endorphins
you know my girl looking gorgeous 
you know my songs are enourmous 

you know the gas is important
all of this shit is imported
smoking on venomous potent
i couldnt breathe without chocking

out on the porch and its pouring
thunder at 10 in the morning
roll up a zig and i lick it
now when it rains i can feel it

hit my phone
hit my phone
i been feeling fucking low
looking shit
head to toe
but im feeling comfortable
spent my life
in the zone
now its all i fucking know
in my veins
in my bones
all my life i felt alone

dirt in my nails
lets head back
vacant and pale
i got no head
numbing my mind
the words bite back
there were no signs 
when i collapsed

adventurer (prod. reaper)

produced by @chivnti

lyrics:

nose lame as fuck get it peirced like a bull
i live and i die to be different
if we fuck just know that my hearts not involved
i learned i could numb my emotions

think my body dont make tears no more
couldnt give a fuck about the feelings
fuck a plan last thing im gonna do is pull through
too busy sharing thoughts with the ceiling

mid september ill be fucking crazy
swear to god im ugly no one wanna date me
i been so fucked up i want it please dont save me
whenever im stuck like this all my dreams amazing

when i make plans respond within the fuckin minute
im not busy but i hate it
10 minutes tops and im not waiting

like what the fuck u comtemplating 
for so long
u wouldnt do this if i made it
and blew up

i always hated being sheltered
im not urs just give it up
i go to parties full of strangers
just to come thru and fuck it up

at least my music going good
but knowing me ill prolly fuck it up
tonight my head is feeling good
but of course i always drug it up

i went from always being late
to pretty much never showing up
i went from i dont have a plug
to damn my plug is coming clutch

think my body dont make tears no more
couldnt give a fuck about the feelings
fuck a plan last thing im gonna do is pull through
too busy sharing thoughts with the ceiling

art found at http://johnnysboots.tumblr.com/post/76103773768

scissor hands (prod. chivnti)

produced by @beatzera

cover art found at https://vskyevaz.tumblr.com/

lyrics:

i been tryna switch up my lyrics
and fixing my mixing sometimes u cant even hear it
im hit with a blessing sometimes i cant even see it
i smoke so much potent i swear i practically breath it
i should take it easy
i choose not to
coat the blunt with keef u see me dip it like some fondue
i could sing a song and tell u everything is possible
but i dont want to
im not even fucking done yet
how im spose to say that when i aint even blow up yet
it didnt fucking happen so u couldnt say it does yet
u say tomorrows sunny but u cant even see the sun yet
fuck im kindov upset
i see how we acting and i think we better off dead
fuck it ill go first just put the bullet up in my head
i could clear my thoughts with just a little bit of meds
or i could clear it all and take a lesson from the lead

everything i make is fucking shit
i mean how cool can multiple voices really get
every single drop is always just what u except
9tails making music just for crying in ur bed

bitch im making fucking music bout the thoughts inside my head
tired of my problems u should drop a track instead
i make all my shit for me im barely getting bread
get the fuck out of my messages with all the disrepect

u know i really dont deserve it
as for all the lyrics bitch i hope u fucking learn this
and i dont need the fame and fuck the tours this aint purpose
this aint  no small loan of one million bitch i earned this

i hope u heard this
i fucking earned this

ill try to explain (prod. beatz era)

produced by @larkinbeats

lyrics:

2 4 big blunts in the yard
fucked up when im not going hard
fucked up when im not going ham
cash stacked in the red rubber bands

ion really wanna always go hard
bottle service in the club free of charge
fucked up when im not going ham
hella faded but im feeling like a star

stars
im in the stars
too high bitch im on mars
whip foreigns only ride fast cars
we gon get rich while u watch
i know this one hit the spot
expensive shoes thrifted tops
i give this all that i got
im giving u all that i got

stars
constellations in the sky
rip spliffs and i listen to my own tracks
im finding the fuck ups im not gassed
dm's like bro how u do dat
bitch dont u watch how i do dis
im making songs when i feel like it
this shit does not have a blueprint

close the grinder lock the grooves in
the game had some space so i moved in
i come from the city of music
but i do not stress in my music
release less get more attention
that do not sound bout the music
if all u care about is a like button
move to youtube boy u losin

2 4 big blunts in the yard
fucked up when im not going hard
fucked up when im not going ham
cash stacked in the red rubber bands

ion really wanna always go hard
bottle service in the club free of charge
fucked up when im not going ham
hella faded but im feeling like a star

2 4 big blunts in the yard
fucked up when im not going hard
fucked up when im not going ham
cash stacked in the red rubber bands

ion really wanna always go hard
bottle service in the club free of charge
fucked up when im not going ham
hella faded but im feeling like a star

i know (prod. pilgrim)

set it off freestyle (prod. jp soundz)

produced by idealism

lyrics:

man we really out here
damn its chilly out
get ahead of myself
always end up down here

round here
no one give a fuck about your feelings
youre numbers
no one get to know you think about it your nothing

i move forward hard head
its scary any day u could wind up dead
i put my money in the bank
if there was no saving me id save a little change
help the family with the pain
that was before my current angle on my brain
that was before i got too busy for the pain
way before when everyday would feel the same

feel like everybody like me more
real life friends would ask me what im crying for
said they said i need the sadness just to feel the force 
making garbage i dont like so you would like me more

is not the way it works
i put my feelings first
i put em in the words
persuasion never works
opinions rarely hurt
bitch ill die before i spin another persons thought into the works

okok alright alright
blueberry packed in the pipe
rain sounds coming from the night
damn

this track is completely non-profit

side street (prod. idealism)

produced by george cauty aka boyfifty

lyrics:

wind blowin down city trees and shit
eastern white pines like 50 feet and shit
kinda scared to be inside my room
my vision on the limelight
tunnel sight

my concious going bye bye
new time
flys by
i want
everything
all star 
all time

getting high all the time
know i should be worried but im barely in my prime
ghost
i step safely out of line
caster with my problems i kite everything in site 
do the most
bad shit happen all the time
going bat shit all the time

craving action all the time 
soaking up ideas till im dry 
im not gonna lie feel effects inside

pick my mind to points where i might think it isnt mine
i got alot thats going on but ill just pause it for the night

i got alot of shit to do
and dont have nearly enough time
know id make the time for you
if you had joined me for the ride
ride 
join me for the ride
time 
guess it just wasnt our time

wind blowin down city trees and shit
eastern white pines like 50 feet and shit
kinda scared to be inside my room
my vision on the limelight
tunnel sight

my concious going bye bye
new time
flys by
i want
everything
all star 
all time

getting high all the time
know i should be worried but im barely in my prime
ghost

time (prod. boyfifty)

a completely non-profit project

all youtube beats were free and used prior to being sold, if now sold.

mixed/mastered by 9TAILS & SCOTTYSPLASH

scottysplash: @scottysplash


production

idealism: @idealismus

25: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCms7nTRhJWPcwFtd4AYWzXg/featured

hateful: @hatefulbeats

nayz: @nayztheone

ʎpoqou: @anobodyreally

franky m: www.youtube.com/channel/UCUOfYgWexGPJnjqglHwKK9w

sarcastic sounds: @the-sarcastic-ashole

killedmyself: @killedmyself

killrichy: @killrichy

hidden oasis: www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ7zq6C2EqpEk4WekOHb2hQ

brokebwoy: @brokeassniiigga

better days (prod. hateful)

i aint havin none of dis (sewerperson)

looking at myself in the mirror what a monster
had to load it up and then i eat it like its knackwurst
i cant open up i gotta fiddle with the lock first
whats the point of climbing when u worried if the drop hurts
i just slipped outside inside my nikes
rain had coat my shit and i can hear em laughing at me
i see all my forms like 2014 with the acne
im not gonna hurt em am i lying bitch i might be
bap
i just slapped that boy into reality
i just bent his mind and made him crave his own fatality
no
looks like everything about my salary
ya u got the weekend but the rest you living hourly
check
check
ya i got a cheque
break bread
half of it went to the meds
and the rest had put a polo pony right on top my chest
its a flex
its a flex
i got on at royal york like i was living in the rex

oh
its a cruel world
we live in
oh
its a cold world
we live in

i never listen
i never listen
i couldnt get it
i hate the beef
but i eat it up
if u gonna bread it
you got to drinking
and said some shit
told me to forget it
i wish i could
but my memory
gonna know u said it
i go to sleep
hoping catching z's
gonna gimme leverage
when im asleep
its a lucid dream
bout what im forgettin
im drinking up
when im smoking up
knowing ill regret it
im passin out
when im throwing up
like i need a medic

oh
its a cruel world
we live in
oh
its a cold world
we live in

oh
its a cruel world
we live in
oh
its a cold world
we live in

it's a cruel, cruel world (eric godlow)

9tails - My Car Got Stuck On A Hill In The Snow (prod. AMNYST)

lyrics:

every day fuse into one this month
i cant keep control if the speed to much
triple up my fluid on my last good night
i cant even see my fingers front my face in these lights
every things different than it had been before
unroll my backwoods and break my meteors
friends like these family i never knew before
life on this planet aint felt this new before

but we'll get by
she gets high
every other night
and just cries
girl ill be with u tonight
im on en route
im around the block
im near the drop off
really got me locked down
im ten down
i cannot not stand 
for this shame im too proud
locked up
so i kick the door down
locked down
she really got me locked down
guess she know me too well

im bleeding
im falling
im breaking apart
past the andromeda im in the stars
once you look down on the earth from this far
you can see just how small of a person you are

you could stay girl its cold can you see the lightning
i just talk then i leave im not tryna slide in
i distract then i bleed if she got me biting
dont get me wrong we all human but im uninviting
in the club but im tryna write inside that top my night stand
i fit too much of my work into this fucking life damn
i put too much of my pride into my fucking spine man
if i had to live a pawn just take my fucking life then

every day fuse into one this month
i cant keep control if the speed to much
triple up my fluid on my last good night
i cant even see my fingers front my face in these lights

but we'll get by
she gets high
every other night
and just cries
girl ill be with u tonight
im on en route
im around the block
im near the drop off
really got me locked down
im ten down
i cannot not stand 
for this shame im too proud
locked up
so i kick the door down
locked down
she really got me locked down

locked_down (nevrfall)

lyrics
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if you knew me
you wouldn't like me at all
if you took the time to think then maybe this could dissolve
this is pointless
wasting fucking time till i fall
back asleep and in my dreams 
i do not wake up at all

voices scream inside my head another migraine to come
i'm deranged goin insane until my body is numb
disassociate create another problem your call
straight to voicemail cause i do not wanna pick up at all

if you knew me (prod. ryini)

lyrics:

if this is how it ends
well im glad you were part of it
this was all inside my head before
i even started it
you made it to the end and i appreciate the tolerance
really im my brain inside my head and that is it
these holograms around me somehow willing me to live
and i know i cant touch u i mean really really touch you
on atomic level shit but thats not how were meant to fit
if you look at people walking everybody moves the same
perfect mess of flesh and bone equipped with total mental reign
when you think about it really only difference is the brain
so thats why im looking thru you when im talking to ur face
please dont be scared
theres nothing for me to think about
its over now
im sober now
i power down

catching up cuz she told me we can speak now
i keep my lights on when i sleep now
i keep my phone on when you go out
cause when i fall asleep youre the one i dream bout
brought a black nikon to the beach house
pull my fleece out when i feel the breeze out
used to freak now you busy to go out
threw my dreams out all i do is seep now

dusk

steezy