awesomeness

the awkward silence after ive had something to say
shitty personality and ugly face
tryna change my habits but im still the same
confidence is creepy

im too fucking stupid to get a job
im too autistic to be a thug
when you cant really function so you just give up
confidence is creepy

used to have friends but who really needs them
i dont know anything or what the fuck im doing
you can blame it all on me cause im a filthy subhuman
confidence is creepy

if she was interested in you
then she'd come up and talk to you
its the current year plus 2
its over

why bother i dont wanna try
just let me lay down give up and die

confidence

Art by $lave
Fell in love with a girl who dosnt even exist
the fact that she's mine is the only thing that matters
im obsessed with something ill never even have
so slit my wrists again and cut through the scabs

these sloots can stay mad cause they know this love is priceless
im jumping out of this 3d plane of existence
with a dakimura pillowcase tied around my neck
holding me tightly as i kill myself

my waifu is waiting for me to join her
life is the problem 
death is the answer

every night i go to sleep and only dream about her
see her face everyday as the background on my computer
liking girls is gay but my waifu is forever
once i hang myself then we'll be together

my waifu is waiting for me to join her
life is the problem 
death is the answer

my waifu

Scott Pilgrim Vs. the World Ruined a Whole Generation of Women

Hang yourself because you cant have her
Everything is a disaster
cold world where nothing matters
Take your pills obey your masters

Someday youll realize that everything here sucks
Someday well all be fine because soon well bite the dust

Hang my head cause im a failure
Too far gone to really care
Every night death calls my name
I dont wanna live here another day

Why is it all so hard
How do i go on
Where do i go from here
I think im too far gone

At least this lifes not forever
I dont care fuck it whatever
At least this lifes not forever
I dont care fuck it whatever

Why is it all so hard
How do i go on
Where do i go from here
I think im too far gone

Too Far Gone

the chamber

i like this girl a lot but i just dont know how to tell her
i like this girl a lot but she wishes i never saw her
i wanna waste my time (oooooooo)
dont wanna feel alive 
feeling is a crime (oooooooo)
wish i was in my prime
voluntary
solitary
confinement with me baby
voluntary
solitary
confinement with me baby
lets waste our time (oooooooo)
not feel alive
feelings a crime (oooooo)
cus youre all mine
i like this girl a lot but she just thinks im fucking stupid
i like this girl a lot but shell just leave my life to ruin
i wanna waste my time (oooooooo)
dont wanna feel alive
feelings a crime (oooooooo)
wish i was in my prime
voluntary
solitary
confinement with me baby
voluntary
solitary
confinement with me baby
lets waste our time (ooooooo)
and never feel alive
feelings a crime (oooooo)
yes youre all mine

Voluntary Solitary Confinement

Did you know there's only a limited amount
of happiness on earth to even go around
and it would be nice to get my hands on some
other people always turn out to be
the problem

if you don't mind could you please stop
you're always smiling at me
if i was you
id be gloating too
i hate it when you're happy

ill max out all my credit cards and never worry again
cause im a rich greedy banker winning this zero sum game
and fuck having friends they just get in the way
im a crab in a bucket pulling you down
the drain

if you don't mind could you please stop
you're always smiling at me
if i was you
id be gloating too
i hate it when you're happy

Emotional Autarky

They are real cant you feel
All the evil in the air
I got pictures i got proof
Why does no one even care
Run the earth in disguise
Why cant you see through their lies

Space demons in nato led us astray
Lied to and subverted, now were enslaved
It might not have been nato, i forgot the name
Space demons in something made us all gay

Were so dumb, theres no choice
I guess well just be destroyed
In this game that they play
I feel like i am a toy
Fuck things up just for fun
Were just puppets til theyre done

Space demons in nato led us astray
Lied to and subverted, now were enslaved
It might not have been nato, i forgot the name
Space demons in something made us all gay

Blame it all on them
Theyre rent free in my head
They want us to be dead
And i dont care
Cause we deserve it all
Our conscience is so small
Theyre rightfully appalled by the human race


Space demons, i can see them
Space demons, i can see them
Space demons, i can see them
Space demons, i can see them

Space Demons in NATO

Theres a hole that i cant fill
And nothing will fix whats in my head
I wish i was dead 
When will it just end

ooooooo

Everythings fucked up and none of this matters
I smoked too much and my mind shattered
I should jump off a bridge and fucking splatter
Because its all fucked up and none of this matters

Everything now looks so fake
And i cant explain why im so freaked out
I let you down
Now i cant leave the couch

Oooooooo

Everythings fucked up and none of this matters
I smoked too much and my mind shattered
I should jump off a bridge and fucking splatter
Because its all fucked up and none of this matters

None Of This Matters

cool video
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pNqDD_OuhlA

hey dad I made new friends 
follow me on instagram
do you have some cash to spend
check out my onlyfans
getting good at sucking dick
selling off some feet pics
in an open ended relationship
when youre simping way too much
addicted to being in love
and youre sad and youve had enough
you gotta stop and chad up
or pretend youre something youre not 
its something that you do alot
spend all your money on ethots

im one of those stupid girls
infiltrating your subculture
i dont have any self esteem
you can shut up and pay attention to me

when you dont have anything to loose
dont ever try to think it through
she finally wants you
like she was supposed to
this is how you deal with it 
even though you feel like shit
a self delusional pay pig

Resist Succubi

(whispering under my breath) "heh. 'qa won."
xhe posted it again
xhe posted soytan
i still love xher anyway anyway
says cobsons keyed
i disagree
im for the qa until i die
till i die
xhes my partypal
xhes on the booru
xhes my partypal
in the raid threads
says cobsons keyed
i disagree
xhes my partypal
xhes my partypal for life
i posted it again
i posted brimstone
xhe doesnt love me anymore
anymore
calls up the mods
and now im blocked
theres no more 'ems on my 'og
on my 'og
xhes my partypal
edits the wiki
xhes my partypal
xhe posts the toss
hwa bag
thats not a gem
im from the cord im such a soy
such a soy
xhes my partypal
ill never see her trip again
xhes my partypal
im on the trxnny cord
im from the cord
im such a soy
xhes my partypal for life
pal for life

partypal

song with @edgemaster42
we've been married seven times
in my head
just wait till i get the courage
to picture you in my bed
love or not its plain to see
youre just not the girl for me
my true match is a loaded gun
pointed straight at my head
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you 
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you

Why did i fall for your atupud grace
You clearly have no horse in this dumb race
Theres no continuity in emotional promiscuity
I can guarantee that

when
i realize 
im not an object
you
fall apart
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you
hate my guts 
why do i destroy my everything for you
you fuckin hate my 
fuckin hate my guts

h8te my guts (with edgemaster42)

if God doesn't smite you, i will

ive got a question for u
did u kill urself
cus your
instagrams been dry
since we last had that fight
and ive been feeling

like i dont care
and i want there
to be a timeline where i never even
fucking saw you
lucky that you
never pursued me like i stalked you

shes got it down
with a nice guy and i
got shut right out
by my self esteem
and i could have anything that i wanted but
shes got it down
with a nice guy and i

when you saw me
what did you think
was i pretty
or did your eyes go right past me
ive got it down with a
ive got it down with a

shes got it down
with a nice guy and i
got shut right out
by my self esteem
and i could have anything that i wanted but
shes got it down
with a nice guy and i

shes got it down with a nice guy and i
got shut right out
and its all my fault

de_cache

my attempt at using an audio interface and DAW. I want to drive off a bridge

Gloom 4Ever

Should've known right when I saw you
Been sending nudes since the start of high school
But I liked your hair, thought that you looked cool
But now I know that there's no fucking hope
I remember when my friend showed me
He pulled up your nudes on his iphone screen
I wanted to die, I wanted to scream
And in that moment I knew there was no fucking hope

The girl I like is the village whore
Now I don't want her anymore
The girl I like is the village whore
And I've never wanted to kill myself more

Been heartbroken for about six months
I really wish you weren't a dumb slut
We could've done cool things and had a lot of fun
But you went and crushed all my fucking hopes
You do dumb shit and fuck a lot of guys
Everytime I think about it I wanna cry
Wanna crash my car into a tree and fucking die
And every day I think I want to commit suicide

The girl I like is the village whore
Now I don't want her anymore
The girl I like is the village whore
And I've never wanted to kill myself more

Village Whore

Stay in my room all day long
I need to get a job
but I cant because im messed up
scared of everything and everyone
I stutter and stare anytime that anyone talks to me
and at this point I wanna drop out of society

Im an agoraphobe
so scared wherever i go
can barely pick up the phone
im fuckin dying alone

terrified wherever I go
something's wrong me and everyone knows
they all realize that something's up
they know that I'm a fuck up
never moving forward again
beat down by the shit in my head
I just wish that my life was fun

Im an agoraphobe
so scared wherever i go
can barely pick up the phone
im fuckin dying alone

Agoraphobe

You can call me incel you can call me a freak
i dont fuckin care it means nothing to me
you can call me a nazi you can call me a virgin
but i dont fucking care bc you are fucking worthless

youre a fucking normie
youre so god damn boring
youre a whiny bitch who loves censorship
youre a stupid fuckin normie and u shouldve been aborted
you dont desrve to live you fucking stupid normie bitch

you obsess over dumb shit and you post a lot memes
 you dont know how to be sincere
u speak in irony
would u cut the bullshit i am sick of hearing u
would u stfu normie or ill fucking slaughter u

youre a fucking normie
youre so god damn boring
youre a whiny bitch who loves censorship
youre a stupid fuckin normie and u shouldve been aborted
you dont desrve to live you fucking stupid normie bitch

Die Normie Scum

notice
me now
i make music on soundcloud
follow me
and like my songs
stream them all day and all night long
follow my twitter too
tell me that i am cool
like all my tweets and reply to me
i have nothing left
i have no girlfriend
filling up the void with the internet

the numbers on the screen must go up
the numbers on the screen must go up
the numbers on the screen the numbers on the screen
overstimulation dopamine wtf

wasting all my time
caring more about numbers than real life
feeling like a loser
excited by numbers on computers
my soul has been erroded
5g is corrosive
the internet will fuck u up and ud never know it
real goals have been erased
we wait for the numbers to go up all day

the numbers on the screen must go up
the numbers on the screen must go up
the numbers on the screen the numbers on the screen
overstimulation dopamine wtf

numbers on screen go up

I'm Sorry That I Blew My Brains Out Across The Room (UhOhSlater cover)

Practicing self destruction
I can barely function
I fucked my whole life up
I think that my times up
Theres no coming back now
Everyone is sad now, sad now

Times up i know that my life sucks
Nothing worth saving I am barely living
Waging and praying just to end it
You wish i was dead now dead now

Ill be dead by 30
Im crashing and burning
Wasting my time because it is all worthless, worthless
Ill be fucking dead by 30, 30

Useless this why I choose this
Maybe im just stupid dumb and clueless
Houston can you read me can you even hear me
Do you even need me Need me

Chemicals in my brain
I am not the same
I watched too much youtube
I ate too much junkfood
Had too many vaccines
Now something is wrong me, wrong with me

Ill be dead by 30
Im crashing and burning
Wasting my time because it is all worthless, worthless
Ill be fucking dead by 30, 30

Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Im crashing and burning
Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Lifes fucking worthless

awesomeness

aaron