I don't wanna be nobody's second
I want it all
I just took a look at my reflection
I don't know who I saw
I flew out of the city I had my brothers there with me I ended up at the right place at the Wrong time
And now my pockets are empty I had to fight all these envious thoughts of those all Around me who stole what's not mine

I know I am trying way too hard
I see these bitches cutting lines with daddy's credit card
And I really feel like I'm behind I gotta get it goin
Let it go, let it go

Great
Now you got a broken heart
I'm sorry but I can't help you
Not my fault your plans all fell through
This a shoutout man
Fuck them A&R's that been countin' me out
Fuck a cosign I ain't worried about it
Fuck who's blowing up off of following clout
Anything could be here and now I don't doubt it

I want to change yea
If I'm gonn feel this way then I don't wanna stay the same yea
In the mirror I can't even look me in the face yea
I wanted to put me in a grave yea
Don't know what I'm sayin yea
I be on my dolo when I sing yea
I ain't seen like no one in some days
I don't remember my dreams yea
Honestly I think my mind is blank yea
At this point I don't know what to think

I know I am trying way too hard
I see these bitches cutting lines with daddy's credit card
And I really feel like I'm behind I gotta get it goin
Let it go, let it go

Great
Now you got a broken heart
I'm sorry but I can't help you
Not my fault your plans all fell through
This a shoutout man
Fuck them A&R's that been countin' me out
Fuck a cosign I ain't worried about it
Fuck who's blowing up off of following clout
Anything could be here and now I don't doubt it

So I'll burn it all
Feed into the fire
'Til my skin melts off
Claim that you can help me

But I've heard it all
Don't take this personal
I'll call you when these drugs wear off
Washed it down with alcohol
So watch me fall

It hurts me so
It hurts us all
I'll be merciful
I don't know what you're
I'm searching for
Do something
Irreversible

Great
Now you got a broken heart
I'm sorry but I can't help you
Not my fault your plans all fell through

envy

so that's it, i give, i give
i won't fight it no more i'm in
so that's it, i give, i give
i won't fight it no more i'm in

i only work if i'm paid right
and honestly i plan on blowin up at the same time
don't tell me that i'm running out of time bitch i make time
just know that it takes time, i pick up my facetime, who's callin me?
i'm not pullin up unless you got more than a pound on you
claim that they your homies but watch how they turn around on you
fuck all the distractions man i build it from the ground and you
worried bout friends man it's sad don't see they clownin you

i kno that you gonn only hear what you want
i know that i could make a hit if i want
i know you're only gonna hold me back

so waste away
see if i care
take away
everything that i shared
pave the way
what's it like there
now that you have left me stranded?
so waste away
but that's not fair
take away
everything that i shared
i paved the way
under my care
never left you empty handed

so that's it? i give, i give, i give
i won't fight it no more i'm in
so that's it, i give, i give
i won't fight it no more i'm in

i give! demo

that's why i told you get back
it's not your business if i got it like that, but
know i need my bread in advance
came up off writing down my panic attacks, yea
only got a couple friends
and if i told em that i gottem then i gottem
do you wanna go to the ends?
i know you wanna go to the ends

it's you or me and fuck it i choose me
ya'll move tutu's, i shoot 23
you a fan, boohoo, man you wish you knew me
i stay ten by the tips of my feet

so why the fuck you always pocket watching
always ask me where my money at
claim you not the feds but you talkin like it
you moving pussy like a copy cat

that's why i told you get back
it's not your business if i got it like that, yea
now i'm locking in this advance
came up off recording my panic attacks, i
only got a couple of friends
and if i told em that i gottem then i gottem
do you wanna go to the ends?
don't you wanna go the ends?
i know you wanna go to the ends

the ends demo

umm hi i’m abbot
i know that u wanted glaive but i cant help it
found this on my for you page and couldn’t stop rapping
i hope u don’t mind that im giving this a shot

so hi aldrich or oldrick or um wait
how do you say it?
i think im finna jugg dis beat nah man i’m just playin
yellow bangs all on me like im half a super saiyan

i met a girl, not astrid
i don’t know what happened
honestly i think she’ll put my feelings in a casket
afraid she’ll hurt my feelings like the last did
i think i’ll take a chance because i really like her accent

we listen to songs from the radio
not from now but more seven years ago
it honestly reminds me of times when we were really young
and never gave a fuck but somehow life took it from us

hi im abbot (prod. aldrch)demo

intro:

i’m worthless
a closet full of bones
but you?
you’re perfect
i can’t leave you alone

chorus:

so approach with caution baby
you don’t know what i’ve been through
i belong in a coffin baby
afraid i’ll hurt u too

verse 1:

but when you
call out my name
ask bout my day
pick at my brain
too scared to say
i’m not okay
i haven’t been
since i was thirteen

i cant help but lie
when i see you carve my
name into your thigh
cuz i never had some-
one be only mine
but i’ll tell you not to
hurt yourself for me

chorus:

approach with caution baby
you don’t know what i’ve been through
i belong in a coffin baby
afraid i’ll hurt u too

verse 2:

now there’s 
too many scars and i can’t erase them
wish i could be honest without getting wasted
i talk to no one else on the daily
run from my problems why can’t i face them?

intro reprise:

you’re perfect
i can’t leave you alone

verse 3:

wait
in my opinion
maybe you’d be better without me 
but i can’t help it i got
plans
and in my vision i see
you and me on top of one another
i can’t help the way i
am
but you don’t mind it
you always pick up whenever i hit your phone yea
so when i pick you up
with white roses
not magnolias
just like you told me

bridge:

told me x10

i might have thrown my life away had i not been with you,

chorus:

approach with caution baby
you don’t know what i’ve been through
i belong in a coffin baby
afraid i’ll hurt u too

white roses (prod. aldrch & sawce)

guitar by @SAWCEofficial
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thru&thru demo

fym (run it up!) demo

mastered by @patchymate

so you made it out
like you meant to
now you're scared that they'll all forget you
-'d take it back
if only they'd let you

before it all changes
i ask you one last wish
remember me for me
but i wanna change, so i'm gonna change

thinkin back to fucking 10th grade i was so good at math
didn't say a word in the back of the class
friends was hoopin, shootin shots that i would just pass
suicidal thoughts back then was kickin my ass
thinkin how the fuck im gonna deal wit all this trauma
they would call me 'dirt' cuz i'm a foreigner
said i couldn't rap but ima do it if i wanna
and now i'm center stage as the performer

before it all changes
i ask you one last wish
remember me for me
but i wanna change, so i'm gonna change

told you i give up
then you called my bluff
and you hit me up
said "you in or what"
so i packed my bag and i hit the road that night
been 4 years since i last been home and i
never thought
i'd feel so alive
can't recall the last time i cried
like i did the end of july
i know all my fans must be losing

faith
i need space
at this rate
i'll keep falling on my face
just how long
will i take?
does october sound okay?
been so long
like a year
i just hope it's not too late
wrote this song
for you my dear

before it all changes

cover of evanie by bearface / team by brockhampton i made like a year ago

Evanie
Did you lie to him since you were seventeen?
How's he holding up?
Evanie
Do you cling to him like you would onto me?
Bet he needs you more than I
Evanie
Did you hide your neck to save him from his sleep?
I know how that feels
Evanie
Every chance you take you make me want to flee
Can't you see?
You should move on
I swear you'll be fine
Whenever you want
I'll be your ride
And when you're alone, and his love is gone
Maybe you'll see that your company was the worst
Thing for him, your sin

team cover

(pay attention to what’s right in front of you, it’s the only thing that’s real)  

Watch me struggle with success
I got everything I wanted
And I’m still not happy yet
Younger me would ask what’s wrong
Now you treat me like a god or something
Fuck like I ain’t flawed or nothing
Speak like I’m a fraud just bluffing
Live for the applause so when you

Think you’re on to something
Neck deep in frozen water
Is it worth confronting?
‘Cause now my name defines my worth
And it’s so disgusting
The weight of guilt I taught her
So how could you love me?
I’ve only made you cry in return

You’re heaven to touch
I’ve never been one to contradict myself
But I like you too much
They say the devil’s the prettiest in hell
That’s just my luck
You say I’m trapped by my own perspective
This isn’t love
I came from poison and immer—

Sending out an S.O.S. though I doubt anybody gives a shit about what I’m singing for
Walking like a drunken mess through the house there’s nobody else around knock the table over
If I weren’t meant to take acid why the hell would it give me all the answers I was looking for?
Everything I know is made of plastic so watch as I melt through the floor

Think you’re on to something
Neck deep in frozen water
Is it worth confronting?
‘Cause now my name defines my worth
And it’s so disgusting
The weight of guilt I taught her
So how could you love me?
I’ve only made you cry in return

No se por que estas gritando
No creo que me ames
Dices “no me entiendes y me duele”
No se por que estas gritando
No creo que me ames
Dices “no me entiendes”

(watch me)

Stumble out of bed
I missed therapy today
Did you mean it when you said
That you found me way too late?
I’m entangled in your poison ivy
Roses cling to me
By my neck but I can take it try me
Kiss me where I bleed

 Neck deep in frozen water
‘Cause now my name defines my worth
And it’s so disgusting
The weight of guilt I taught her
So how could you love me?
I’ve only made you cry in return

immerensis

happier than ever cover

icarus

puke
mix & mastered by ty lorenzo
cover art by Clara Kulmurzina and I


Now I’m puking in the bathroom
I asked “where’d I leave my flask?”
You called me an asshole
I said when the fuck did I ask?

Put me in a K-hole
Anything to leave my skin
Tell you you’re an angel
And you never deserved my shit

We all live in cycles
But what do I know?
When you get off your high horse
Maybe I’ll find you

I’m sorry but you have nothing to do with it
No, you have nothing-
I’m sorry, but you have nothing to do with it
No, you have nothing to do with it
You have nothing to with it
No, you have nothing to do with it
You have nothing to do with it

I can’t deal with this
You can’t deal with me
Lost our innocence
With drugs at seventeen
I don’t understand
Why you’re still with me, here with me
I can’t take it back
You have nothing to do with it

You told me when I cried you got nervous
I lived my whole damn life behind curtains
I want to see the light and I’m certain
I’m right there
I won’t be nothing like my dad
I made a promise, can’t turn back
He taught me how to be a man
But I’ll do better

We all live in cycles
But what do I know?
When you get off your high horse
Maybe I’ll find you

In the bathroom trying to calm me
Wait, get it off me
I hate the feel of my body
Puking half of my weight
How many times I gotta say god damn it-

I’m sorry but you have nothing to do with it
No, you have nothing-
I’m sorry, but you have nothing to do with it
No, you have nothing to do with it
You have nothing to with it
No, you have nothing to do with it
You have nothing to do with it

I can’t deal with this
You can’t deal with me
Lost our innocence
With drugs at seventeen
I don’t understand
Why you’re still with me, here with me
I can’t take it back
You have nothing to do with it

puke

puke - hidden contact remix

hell of a run

nothing changes (unless you do)

i'll fly towards the sun if i have to

the perks of killing a wallflower

right before performing i get really really nervous but when i'm on stage everything just makes sense for a moment

i think it's funny when they ask to see my hair down (single version)

Heartbreak

third and final single for upcoming album "HD"

Hear your voice, you’re
Whispering awfulness

How could you let go?
Sinking down below
Skin turns blue so cold
Drowning, I’m drowning
Can’t calm down
I have no oxygen
Make no sound
I’ll never talk again

Oh shit
Dragging me down in your ocean
I used to feel like I’m floating
Wake up and notice that
Now we’re goin down and down and down
Puedo no crees que te amo
Amo cuando estas bailando
Yo quiero mas tiempo contigo
I love to see you spinning round and round

How could you let go?
Sinking down below
Skin turns blue so cold
Drowning, I’m drowning
Can’t calm down
I have no oxygen
Make no sound
I’ll never talk again

So call me when you wanna talk
Or call me when everything's not my fault
You know that it fucked me up,
And I'm bleeding 'cause I can't control my thoughts
And I'm drinking wine
Dreaming 'bout your eyes
But I just can't lie again
I don't even think I wanna be friends

Yea
Save me from myself
I wish I hadn't needed you I wish I called for help
Take a breath, save yourself, share the wealth
You can see when I bleed from my knee which I knelt
That my oxygen is finite
And my love for you is twilight
If my blood's a brighter red
that means my needs have not been met

How could you let go?
Sinking down below
Skin turns blue so cold
Drowning, I’m drowning
Can’t calm down
I have no oxygen
Make no sound
I’ll never talk again

Whispering awfulness

oxygen

oxygen (ft. Gordon Snyder & patchymate)

everybody hurts

undermyskin w/ Gordon Snyder

you're an angel (ft. Ryan Leahan & Colliding With Mars)

remixed @ryanleahan 's song BANG MY HEAD AGAINST THE WALL

i had a cold lol

say my name,
but i won’t beg you,
i know that you’d hurt me if i let you, cuz you
stayed the same,
despite of everything,
i put philly over you like you were maryland,

how is it my fault,
i aint the one that had u sippin on dat nyquil,
don’t try to lie to me i seen it with my eyeballs,
i just hope u kno that every single fucking high falls,
head right thru the drywall,

i spent the last,
year and a half,
hatin on these middle class homes,
feel it in my back bone now,
tryna get attention from fuckers who cut corners,
i don’t really wanna do that,

i don’t wanna be here,
i don’t feel welcome in the streets here,
i don’t look forward to nothing unless i leave here,
momma said to focus on me and just do my best,
fuck it i’m moving out west,

i think my friends are leaving soon,
i think i’m going too

BANG MY HEAD FREESTYLE

just a vent song don't ask me if i'm okay i won't respond

lyrics:

i’m so useless
i get so worked up over the small shit
everybody worried about me like ima lose it
im bout 5 shots in i’m feeling nauseous 

approach with caution baby
you don’t know what i’ve been through
i belong in a coffin baby
afraid i’ll hurt u too

i dont want nobody to feel like they’re responsible for my happiness,
i made a whole damn fucking album about an answer but i haven’t fount it yet,

too many scars and i can’t erase them
wish i could be honest without getting wasted
i talk to no one else on the daily
run from my feelings why can’t i face them?

you had a life before me
would you be better off?
if you left me and ignored me
should i not get involved?

and you ask
you ask
you ask
you ask if im okay

im in my head
my head
my head
my head but i won’t say

and you ask
you ask
you ask
you ask if im okay

im in my head
my head
my head
my head but i won’t say

i made a whole album about an answer but i haven't found it yet

cover of dijon's song drunk

Oh baby
I'm lonely, and I'm fucked up by myself
Could you come here?
Well, I'm wasted and I'm anxious
I'm fading from myself
Could you come here?
And say you'll stay the night

'Cause it's been a while
Since I've seen you smilin' (Here, here)
And yeah, you know it's been a while (Here)
Since I've seen you, since I've seen you smilin' (Smilin', smilin')

Well, oh baby, could you come down?
I think I'm freaking out and I'm drunk
And I don't think I can beat it
I'm paralyzed, I'm terrified of bein' alone
When you said...

'Cause it's been a while
Since I thought about the good things
All the bright light things
All the good times that we had
Oh it's been a while being (Here)
Since I've made you, since I've made you smile
And I'm chained to myself
Tell me why I can't help myself
I hurt myself, I lost myself
I'm lost

[Non-Lyrical Vocals]

I can't help myself
I hurt myself
I lost myself
I'm lost

abbot

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