Nineties alternative grunge rock inspired love song

Pulse - Single

Pulse

I got popped in the mouth
I said a bad word
Momma would be looking for soap if she had overheard
I wear the night like a cloak of disillusionment
Screwtape was here, I don't know where he went.

I got popped in the mouth
you see, I oughta know
One should never allow your lines or cracks or heartbreak show
I wear my pain as a joke paralleled youthfulness
Screwtape returned
I'm assured I was missed.

I got popped in the mouth
I said a bad word
I got popped in the mouth
I've been a bad girl

Settle down now, Jezebel.
Save yourself now.
Some folks are just destined for hell.
Settle down now, Jezebel
You are gonna go to hell.
Every man for himself. This whole place is gonna blow.

I got popped in the mouth
I said a bad thing
Nothing like the wake of a binge to make your lips sting.
I lift my face to the sky
finish the Bordeaux
Bet I'll regret this tomorrow.

Settle down now, Jezebel.
Save yourself now.
Some folks are just destined for hell.
Settle down now, Jezebel
You are gonna go to hell.
Every man for himself. This whole place is gonna blow.

Settle down, Jezebel.
Save yourself if you can
Jezebel...

RESEDA

Jezebel

Pose and preen just like a beauty queen
Polishing your lines since you were seventeen
Yeah, you're gonna make it, gonna make it, gonna make it
Yeah, you're gonna take it, gonna take it, gonna take it.
Chiseled chin, you're in it for the win
And mommy didn't love you so you can't love them.
Yeah, you're gonna make it, gonna make it, gonna make it
Yeah, you're gonna take it, gonna take it, gonna take it.

My momma didn't raise a bad girl
But you paint that side to me
Keep talking, baby make my head swirl
Just like this coke and whiskey.

Oh, this ain't your first time, is it, son?
Won't stop til it's done.
Predator
Oh, this ain't your last time, is it, son?
Wham, bam - then he's gone.
Predator

Exploit and lie, the same old alibis
Jobs, addresses, promises you've falsified
Yeah you're gonna make it, gonna make it, gonna make it
Yeah, you're gonna fake it, gonna fake it, gonna fake it
When you yearn you take with no concern
and daddy has the money so you'll never learn.
Yeah you're gonna make it, gonna make it, gonna make it
Yeah, you're gonna fake it, gonna fake it, gonna take it

My momma taught me 'bout these con men
and I ain't no ingenue.
I've been there, done that, learned my lesson
But that ain't stopping you.

Oh, this ain't your first time, is it, son?
Won't stop til it's done.
Predator
Oh, this ain't your last time, is it, son?
Wham, bam - then he's gone.
Predator

My momma didn't raise a bad girl
and I think that's thrilling you
It's twenty minutes for a lifetime
But that ain't stopping you...

Oh, this ain't your first time, is it, son?
Won't stop til it's done.
Predator
Oh, this ain't your last time, is it, son?
Wham, bam - then he's gone.
Predator

Predator

Bored hypocrisy
and a sordid history
It's nothing new
It's how it goes
Everyone knows the feeling.
Still I take the leap
Even though the risk is steep.
Eye on the prize
Just fantasize
Just fantasize

Throw something my way
I'll take what I can get
Aim at your target
I hope its me you hit.
I feel there's more you have to say...
So, fire away!

I have laid awake
cringing at choices made
It's nothing new
It's how it goes
The body knows the feeling.
So the challenge now
is to break the pattern down
I'd like to win a round or two...

Throw something my way
I'll take what I can get
Aim at your target
I hope its me you hit.
I feel there's more you have to say...
So, fire away!

It aint over til it's over.
It's an ending. It is final. It is closure
I'm inclined to use my time
enjoy the ride
and leave something good behind...

Throw something my way
I'll take what I can get
Aim at your target
I hope its me you hit.
I feel there's more you have to say...
So, fire away!

Ellipsis

Somewhere this is just like the movies
Somewhere we painted this perfect but lost the brush
I know these arms fit with someone.
You know this hopeless romantic is gonna get me killed.

I'm a little bit worse for the wear now
but I don't complain.
I'm a little bit better aware now
which is such a pain.
Somewhere is this just like the movies.
Someday this hopeless romantic is gonna get me killed. 

I can't keep hanging my head like this
Are we just hanging ourselves with this?
I cant keep hanging my head like this.
We both must somehow be masochists. 

Somewhere this is just like a love song
in a major key
I do believe in a sunset that I haven't seen.
I know these arms fit with someone.
You know this hopeless romantic is gonna get me killed.

I can't keep hanging my head like this
Are we just hanging ourselves with this?
I cant keep hanging my head like this.
We must all somehow be masochists.

This

I lifted my head off the floor.
My body is aching and sore and I cried.
I cried out, 'no more'.
Just like I've done ten times before.

I'm not so quick on the uptake.
I can't seem to break these mistakes or my pride.
Though god knows I've tried.

But I haven't failed
I just found ten thousand ways that wont work.
And my heart is fine
It's just hurt every damn way it could hurt.

I wasted another good year
held back by all that I fear
But I can't seem to get that voice out of my ear
The truth  most times is harder to hear.

But I haven't failed
I just found ten thousand ways that wont work.
And my heart is fine
It's just hurt every damn way it could hurt.
I'm not giving up now
I refuse to allow all my scars to go seen for nothing
Please be for something.

Found

It seems strange to think that everyone is dying.
It's just a question of when.
Collect the thoughts, the deeds, the words that left you crying...
Placed in two jars marked 'good' and 'sin'.
There's something to say for those who practice presence. 
There's something to say for those who look behind.

Tell me, how will I know where I'm supposed to go
if I have no one to guide me home?
Tell me, have I been good? Will I go where I should?
Or will I be judged?

It seems strange to think that no can go backwards.
Every man meets the same fate.
Collect the fear, the hope, the actions done for others...
Placed in two jars marked 'love' and 'hate'. 
There's something to say for those who seek creation.
There's something to say for those who can't connect. 

Tell me, how will I know where I'm supposed to go
if I have no one to guide me home?
Tell me, have I been good? Will I go where I should?
Or will I be judged?

It seems strange to think that death is so demanding.
Do you think some have come back?
Is there no way to know if I am in good standing?
And who's in charge of keeping track?
There's something to say for those who look outside man.
There's something to say for those who don't believe.

Tell me, how will I know where I'm supposed to go
if I have no one to guide me home?
Tell me, have I been good? Will I go where I should?
Or will I be judged?

Judged

You looked at me today with admiration in your eyes
and I've never felt like such a liar.
You'll never know how much I give away and compromise
Cuz I'm broken down and sad and just too tired.

You looked at me today with understanding in your eyes
and I've never felt so resentful.
I run around, back breaking, always hustling for the prize.
Like you ever did anything eventful.

Still caught between a lovers dream and what is mine.
I float downstream to one extreme and bide my time.
Bide my time.

So I wait and I watch and I twiddle my thumbs
What the hell do you want from me?
I played. And I lost. And you won my bet.
What the hell do you want from me?
And I'm not shocked.
I heard it coming like a jet plane.
It ain't worth the cost.
Abandon Ship!
What the hell do you want from me?

You looked at me today with expectation in your eyes
and I've never felt so depleted. 
I don't know how much more that I can give and I can try
before my soul gives up and out defeated.
(Before I leave and go alone)

Still caught between a lovers dream and what it mine.
I float downstream to one extreme and bide my time.
Bide my time.

So I wait and I watch and I twiddle my thumbs
What the hell do you want from me?
I played. And I lost. And you won my bet.
What the hell do you want from me?
And I'm not shocked.
I felt it coming like a steam train.
It ain't worth the cost.
Abandon Ship!
What the hell do you want from me?

Oh babe, we gotta jump ship now.
Gotta jump ship now.
I said we gotta jump ship now
cut this baby's going down.
If we don't get out now I swear that we're going to drown.

So I wait and I watch and I twiddle my thumbs
What the hell do you want from me?
I played. And I lost. And you won my bet.
What the hell do you want from me?
And I'm not shocked.
We all saw this coming from a mile away.
It ain't worth the cost.
Abandon Ship!
What the hell do you want from me?

Abandon Ship

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