SadBoiDenTings

'Bitter Blue '
coming soon...

Prod:
@93feetofsmoke

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

I took you back to my room ,you stood in front of me, 
and I didn't know what to do..

Ft @lilxlotus

I Lost My Virginity In A Psychiatric Hospital Ft.LIL LOTUS  (prod. Lonnell Suave)

the worthless

uncertain

the water

is rising



im choking

help me

i dont know how much more i can take



oh what a beautiful night it is

the wind is howling at my skin

inching me closer to the window

and im not scared at all



a walking corpse

cleanse my soul

rid me of all my impurities



or let me rot

6 feet deep

either ways fine with me





i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares



and i always think about how fucked up it is that we live our whole lives trying to please others



but we can never please ourselves 



day after day

night after night

its just never enough and it will never be enough



now everyday i just sit in this bed and feel sorry for myself and the cycle repeats like clockwork



years to months to days to hours to minutes to seconds



and i swear the only way out of this prison i put myself in is a bullet to my fucking head or a bottle of spilt pills



i need to learn

to just to give in

theres no point in fighting it anymore

i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares

no samples

[lyrics]
is it I think too much
or are we chasing after
a ghost of what once was

I can't tell the difference

is it you care too much
or am I holding our past
like a knife against my tongue

I can't tell the difference

would it be enough
if we were loaded and fucked up
house out in the hills

I wouldn't bet on it

we could be more lost
car roofs, wet shoes
cashed out in an friend's garage

but one time's enough

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

Will it ever be enough
I hate fucking being numb
sorry that I love these drugs
do you think my head is fucked

i hate fucking being numb

spotify

scraped my knee on the drywall w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE

I cant feel my face
I just snort it away, I snort it away
And I dont hate this place
I just hate myself

And I dont hate you
I just hate myself
Am I another dusty memory on your shelf?
Will youre still brand new to me,
so tell me how it's suppose to fucking be.

So lonely,
now I see,
the colors,
so clearly,
and I wonder,
does she miss me?
Do you miss me?

I could never be picture perfect.
I could never be fucking worth it.

I know youre better off, without me...

Spotify

fucking worthless. [prod RODGER ★☆]

@prodreaper @93feetofsmoke

i can't trust anyone 
tell your friends pretty stories 
i just wanted a peace of mind 
and all the years wasted time 

every bridge is burned 
i don't wanna know 
stabbed me in the heart then you took my  soul 
never get it back i can't get it back 
no, no, no 

like be honest?  do you want it?
i know your eyes when you're lying 
and i'm trying, and i'm dying to hold it together in my hands 

no trust 

(93FEETOFSMOKE)
I dont understand
Where the Fuck I am 
Blood on my back
Blisters on my hands

Do you even know
Who the Fuck i am lately 
I can feel the stress
Gripping round my neck
Save me 

Do you understand 
Time is getting thin
Lately
Trailing a fine line 
Between fine and kill me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust I got no love
Left in me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust 
I got no love
Left in me 

I tried my best 
Is it working
My brain is 
Such a fucking a bully

Do you understand 
Time is getting thin
Lately
Trailing a fine line 
Between fine and kill me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust I got no love
Left in me

no trust w/93FEETOFSMOKE (prod. reaper)

ya i'm livin in a fucked up life 
nobody comin thru tonight
and i'm tryna see whats goin on 
with you and the guy from billabong
it's true we got a lot of issues
hit me one time bby imma miss you
she said i'm out of my mind and i couldn't deny 
well bby imma die inside tonight
sick of feelin like a reject 
sick of feelin like theres no one to see how i'm in the basement
keepin it cool now ya
while I'm burnin up like my tool now

she said steady why you carry a knife?
i said bby cause you know that i'm down to die rn
three years and still no call back
i'm on the floor so frozen
don't let me go I'm drowning
too sad to feel I'm scowling 
loose ends of all these fights again
im sorry for everything i did
a chemical of emptiness, callousness, and tenderness 
i'm tired of the obvious 
so break it down and let me give in 
bby ya let me give in to the solitude 
you know I wanna stay here on top of you
but i stormed out thru the back door
with those silhouettes on back porch

ya i'm livin in a fucked up life 
nobody comin thru tonight
and i'm tryna see whats goin on 
with you and the guy from billabong
it's true we got a lot of issues
hit me one time bby imma miss you
she said i'm out of my mind and i couldn't deny 
well bby imma die inside tonight
sick of feelin like a reject 
sick of feelin like theres no one to see how i'm in the basement
keepin it cool now ya
while I'm burnin up like my tool now

f*cked up life (prod. CRCL)

@ihateshinigami

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

hands shaky like my life
its fucking hard just to type
none of my friends are alright
just hiding tears in our eyes

trust me i wish i could stop caring
i swear to god i'm fucking trying
my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

my heads just fucked up from the lying
honest i wish you never met me

it never rains anymore
i've been laying on the floor
so disgusted with myself
cant fucking take this anymore

i'm the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

i have this this hole in my chest
it hurts so bad i can't rest
waking up from all this stress
i'm fucking trying my best
to live a life on my own
i always stare at my phone
waiting for you to hit me back
because i always feel alone

im the thorn in the roses
body decomposing
leave me in the past
I bet no one will even notice

leave me in the past
i bet no one will even notice

shinigami x 93feetofsmoke - it never rains anymore

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

scraped my knee pt 2 w/ 93FEETOFSMOKE

ft. @steadysuffer & @violeteyezmusic

prod. @mothfries

lyrics:

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me one time
collapsing to the floor and it isn't even lunch time
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

banging my head against the wall
I just don't wanna feel anything at all
I'm getting ready for the fall 
spiking my own drinks with the methyl alcohol
always burdened by my actions
can't stop dwelling on all my past awkward social interactions
convince myself they never happened
memories I try to just pretend that I imagined
this throbbing vein in my temple is making me tremble
it's painful and stressful
I'm up late trying to wrestle with voices
my shoulders have an angel and devil
he's so good at persuasion
but my angel's trying to save me from this hyperventilation 
she gave me a paper bag for respiration
he handed me a plastic one that I could suffocate in

steadysuffer:

ya you told me i was nothing like they said
you told me I was better off dead
now i gotta pull up to the function all red
pull the trigger now i'm dead
(ya ah)

she don't wanna talk no more
pedal to the metal & the suicide doors
got a coper on my ass so i kick it in sport
no breaks just gas cause life is short

i'm sippin lean all day
and my sprite bottle lookin like a goddamn grape
get the fuck up out my way 
don't tell me we're the same
i'm in another state with my shawty on facetime

ya I ain't been on a date in a long time
if I fuck up i'll accuse her
you must think i'm a loser 
if i can't keep a conversation 
i'm sorry

violeteyez:

Where are you? And I'm so sorry
I was too depressed to go to your grad party
And now I watch your new boyfriend 
pick you up on the back of his brand new Harley
Well, Barbie girl, do you miss me?
He's got a chopper and I got a 6 speed
So what is it this week? Who are you kissing?
Am I insane, or could this time be different?

And I know you'll cover it up like you do
You left your morals with your clothes: in my bedroom
And I promise that I didn't take all this-
lightly, though you tried to slip it by me
I just need some time, so sit tight, please
emotions give me anxiety

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me two times
I'm in the ER and it's only half past noontime
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

Stream on Spotify

panic attack ft. steadysuffer & violeteyez (prod. mothfries)

theres no sympathy for the dead (escape the fate cover)

vocals in order of appearance
93feetofsmoke
fats'e
cøzybøy

produced by jay vee
coproduced by fats'e & 93

@youngburial
@93feetofsmoke
@cozyboycries

bleed for no reason w/ 93feetofsmoke, fats'e, & cøzybøy

love you guys <3
HIT 200 ON THE DASHBOARD: prod. https://soundcloud.com/93feetofsmoke x Anxiety Attacks!

IG: www.instagram.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS/
Twitter: twitter.com/ANXIETYxATTACKS

LYRICS:

93:
Hit 200 on the dashboard
Oh no
Dummy lines like imma crash course 
Fosho 
They been scheming on my net worth
Of course
Keep my cards under the table 
Fuck off 
X2

AA!:
when there's nothing left
I'll save my breath
my one regret
is thinkin that I never needed anyone
all my problems they've been weighing on my brain now
wouldn't trade a million dollars for the pain, no
I been waiting for somebody I could talk to
but never found an open door that they could walk thru 

93:
I’ve been up 24 seven 
Gettin bands up
Why u actin so damn friendly
U should back up 
Ya they know the dome 
In scope they don’t act tough
Goofies out here showing teeth
Rely on backup 

Spend 600 on some diamonds
Like an asshole
Hope they use my chains 
To hang me like a damn rope 
I’ve been out here planting seeds
And watching roots grow
I’ve been living in the past
Watching the trees blow

Oh no
Dummy lines like imma crash course 
Fosho 
They been scheming on my net worth
Of course
Keep my cards under the table 
Fuck off 
X2

Spend 600 on some diamonds
Like an asshole
Hope they use my chains 
To hang me like a damn rope 
I’ve been out here planting seeds
And watching roots grow
I’ve been living in the past
Watching the trees blow

stream on Spotify <3

HIT 200 ON THE DASHBOARD - Anxiety Attacks! x 93feetofsmoke

ft. @ihateshinigami & @youngburial
guitars: @93feetofsmoke & @youngburial
prod & mix @93feetofsmoke
master @youngburial

- shini - 
Jollyranchers in my mouth
now she fell in love with me
give me sugar baby
you're so sweet 
i want you here with me
kiss me on the cheek
so I know you're coming home with me
blunts in the cadillac, imma get that money back
feel like FM fuck everybody run it back
wait wait wait wait run it back
casting magic on the track
you don't understand 
you don't get it
you not with the shits
smoke a backwood then i dip
datasquad we run this shit

- fats'e - 
would you like that?
arrow through my heart and I won't come back
tell me what you want you know I got that
tryina get this work you got me sidetracked
you got me sidetracked 

would you like that?
arrow through my heart and I won't come back
tell me what you want you know I got that
tryina get this work you got me sidetracked
you got me sidetracked 

- 93 -
I been taking so much acid
I don’t fit in 
Hit my juul so much
I never really feel it
Every pods
Another labyrinth
I’ve been locked in 
Soul in gauntlet 
Imma run this every season 

Nevermind 
I’m way too high 
To even link up 
Fuck my life
Air Force muddy
Needa clean them 
Watch your mouth 
Tell my teeth 
Before I brush them 
From the south
But I’m burned out
On the lean ya 

I see fiends 
Nah
I don’t fuck with your team
Bruh 
FUKK IM CLEAN ur a stain
And blood is bleach 
Yup
Marble counters
I’ve been working 
OCD
Huh
cut off quick
So it’s less painful to bleed out 

I got digiracks encrypted in my 6s
wonder why I’m so stressed
Giving skin and gaining pavement
Losing patience 
3am I’m faded
guess I’m chasing 
Sunlight from the basement 

- fats'e - 
would you like that?
arrow through my heart and I won't come back
tell me what you want you know I got that
tryina get this work you got me sidetracked
you got me sidetracked 

would you like that?
arrow through my heart and I won't come back
tell me what you want you know I got that
tryina get this work you got me sidetracked
you got me sidetracked

Buy on iTunes

never come back ft. Shinigami & fats'e

official video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BbsOizVRjWA

ft. @ihateshinigami & @93feetofsmoke
prod. @ghostrage & @jakkyboi
mix/master @youngburial

old me w/ shinigami & 93FEETOFSMOKE (prod ghostrage & jakkyboí)

stella // @edacityy

7.  over you
feat. lil lotus
mix by brody 
prod splashgvng & brody

[Lil Lotus]
Fuck your new tattoos
And your sweater in my room
It still smells like you
And there's nothing I can do

I was just waiting for something more
And I guess that you were too
So I'm getting over you
I'm getting over you again

[Edacity]

I'll be a fly on the wall watching all of your pitfalls
Every time im comin down i think about you
If anybody ever calls askin what the fuck im on
You better not tell ‘em all the things i do

The ways i move
The words i choose
When im beside you
When i try to be alone

Mirror mirror on the wall
Whos the fakest of them all
Took a moments time to paint a picture like you
If anybody ever calls Askin what the fuck im on
You better not tell them All the things i dooo

What do i do?
Ill remind you
Im beside you
When i try to Be alone

Come on out here why you doin this 
We be on that good shit like 
yeah yeah we doin this 
Come and throw it down like you done do this 
Got my shit together i got iced wrists  

But this glass heart it stays broke
Hell its endless 
Youre heartless i'm choking
How dare you come around 
when you just know that 
Life will end this 
And we're so damn hopeless 

I want to breath life into misery 
I’ve spent enough nights alone at peace 
Never knowing where i’ll be
Not coming to terms is on me

I'll bury all these bones from our history (it's an artifact)
It took 3 years to feel complete
Never knowing where i'll be
Not coming to terms is on me

over you (ft. lil lotus) [prod. splashgvng & brody]

LAST RANDOM SINGLE BEFORE ALBUM 

prod/guitar/mix/master - @youngburial

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