she stood there smiling like she was at a loss... or maybe feeling a little sad. and I asked myself: "how could anyone be as pretty as her?"

ambulance - version 01.12.18, 02.00

short teaser

music may mean different things to you. to me it has always been a reflection of delicate mental states we sometimes don't consciously notice in our daily lives.

slow down, introspect, express.
sometimes all it takes is 30 sec

Hypomania - 03.12.18, 18.24

If you died... would I cry?
If your world got sucked into a black hole, would mine become twisted an warped?
Memories buried in a velvet of black hold me tight as I sleep and take me way back.

Love?, fatalistic - 18.08.19, 23.31

the longing to dissolve in a dark ocean of sensual wonders
glitters 
if all things were mirrors
-imminent sea-

Imminent Sea

The Way I See Things - (cover Lil Peep)

From the way your lips look
I'm gonna lose you again

Remember when those lips talked
About love till the end?

I don't remember at all...

So I keep your old stuff in a box newly made
When I look inside
Do you remember my name?

Lips (original acoustic)

Lyrics by Lil Peep:

Ain't nobody ever told you how I love you
Nobody ever told you how I feel about you
Okay, I admit I wanna fuck you
But it doesn't change the way I feel about you
I been by myself for a long time
I just wish that I could know if I was on your mind
Runnin' out of time
I just wish that I could know if you were by my side
On the day I die, would you even cry?
If I end my life, would you hold me tight then?

About U (acoustic cover)

My heart is a clear marble
Guarded by a ring of steel 
You got past it when you smiled at me
Smile at me I know you will
Ooooh you almost killed 
A ghost from the past that
Hovering above me like a summer cloud
Was feeding upon my summer stills
Payed my bills to my memories
Now I can keep them
I don’t fear insanity
Were finally free to 
Live like newborn gods
Do yourself a favor and smile at me 

I'm sitting here thinking
gazing at the clouds passing
reflections on my chrome watch
silence hear the flies buzzing
counting the minutes 
till I lay my eyes on you
every move of a hand 
points to a hell I’d be going through 
I lay my hand open
Babe I’m terrified
there's a drug in my heart the
next blow comes from inside
But I got no insight
into your strategies
I feel small and naked
like a child in pornography

I’m diagnosed with love
it’s a deadly disease
just to be sure
please check my anatomy
and give me your love
I need a high dosing
my blood flow is restricted
I got arteriosclerosis
the heart is skipping a beat 
but the cupid carries a gun
open chest CPR
bursting through my pericardium
Burst the bubble, hit man
cold blades from my lips man
almost lost their smoothness
people, where’s my lip balm?


Rising from the ashes, feverishly perfected
and I’m driving you babe to the gates of perception
Levitate angel like over grey detritus 
Reincarnated better than ever from a path of battle scars
Far behind me lay the scraps of the ones who were too weak
From the ashes like a phoenix look at what we could be
Feel how it unwraps the pride that once was mine
I don’t bargain I don’t sell it my pride’s a keeper, still got time
Swimming through the golden light 
Lonely king of a cold night 
Silk gloves, rain coat, sharp edged soul, purified 
Claws of the past caught up to me again
Shadows warmer than smiles, I feel safe with them
Accept and embrace, don’t even try to get away
Fluorescent skin flash, anticipating sun rays
Intoxication from my heart flows off with the spring rain
Maybe I feel lonely but I’m myself again...

Intoxicated (prod. Mental)

Mental- synths + keys
Abiosyntheart- guitars +vocal

Im sure if we met in a different season 
I opened my heart and not listened to reason
The instant our eyes met I would have brought up the
courage to tell you just how much I need you now

But now that you‘re gone and my world has lost color
I lay on my bedsheets with scent you left on them
But it‘s in my mind
It‘s just in my mind

My fingers coldly graze the leaves that I walk through 
Flustered by chances we’ve missed and now you lay in other sheets
You lay in other sheets
Will it be ok?

If we met in a different timeline.. (with Mental)

ambient soundscapes and sound experiments
pleasantly tragic

Abiosyntheart

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