a lil cover to cover for my lack of consistency
still can’t believe it’s been 6 years since x died
rip always

what are you so afraid of (xxxtentacion cover)

sample: 私​が​必​要​と​し​て​い​る​何​か by 目的地
https://geometriclullaby.bandcamp.com/album/p-l-e-a-s-e-s-t-a-n-d-b-y

some shit i came up with

not completely true, sorry for lying :<

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i cannot sleep
i have bags under my eyes
dark circles
getting darker and darker every night

too many sleepless nights
idk how im even alive
i haven’t dreamt in so long
i keep adding on to my flaws
rotting in my bed all day
but i never slept once
feeling myself flee away
i’ll get some sleep (redacted)

sleep my head away
oh one day, one day

i can't sleep (prod. holylitanies)

she has me locked in a daze
she makes me treat her like a goddess
she makes me stare at her gaze
she has me trapped so flawlessly
i'm trapped in his ecstasy
i'm trapped in his magic spell
i'm trapped in his aura surrounding me
he says: "show, don't tell"

ecstasy (demo)

february (instrumental demo)

was supposed to sample/interpolate 屋​烏​の​愛 by DSFWAN but it didn't work as well as i wanted it but this'll have to do for now

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i wanna feel your skin on mine

skin (demo snippet)

I'm pretty much always in my own little world, with no rhyme or reason

daydreamer (1st version)

interpolates ア​ン​ド​ロ​メ​ダ by t e l e p a t h テレパシー能力者

samples Oltanis Orbit from the Ratchet & Clank 2002 OST

space

rework of an old song about old feelings that i don't really feel as much anymore (tho 15-16 yr old me would've loved the quality i have as of rn)

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i stare off...
to nothing...
waiting for...
anything...

i don't feel like doing this, i don't really want to
(i don't want to, i don't want to, i don't-)
life's been kicking me down and i'm overwhelmed by everything around
(i've been stressed out, stressed out, stressed out, stre-)
try to do multiple things at once but i can't
(i just can't, i can't, i can't, i- just-just-)
i don't have drive to fix me nor do i feel like doing so
(not just yet, not yet, not yet, just-)
i hide away in my own little shell and escape my personal hell
(i hide away, i hide away, i hide a-)
i try to get away with loud music and they all think that i'm just stupid

i'm too tired (i can't rest, no i can't rest, no i can't-)
i'm upset (all i want for you to do is)
just leave me alone (just leave me be, please leave)

i don't wanna talk...
or think about it…
i just feel...
so empty...

empty

i know i don't need it right now
but goddammit i would love to hold someone
i know it's not important right now
but goddammit it sounds like fun

i know it may not ever happen, but i can keep on dreaming
i know it may not ever happen, but i can keep on dreaming
i know it may not ever happen, but i can keep on dreaming
i know it may not ever happen, but i can keep on dreaming

i know that i don't need it right now
but i would love to have someone i can stand by
i know that it's not important right now
but i think it'd be cool if we could spend the night

lost in endless static
lost in an empty feeling
wish i could have someone stop my crazy antics
and make sure my hearts still beating
lost in endless static
lost in an empty feeling
my life's incomplete, i just can't stand it
but having someone fill that void would be so pleasing

i know it may not ever happen, but i can keep on dreaming
i know it may not ever happen, but i can keep on dreaming
i know it may not ever happen, but i can keep on dreaming
i know it may not ever happen, but i can keep on dreaming
i know it may not ever happen, but i can keep on dreaming
i know it may not ever happen, but i can keep on dreaming

desperate (prod. taymxru)

a little redo of my attempt at sample-free slushwave, using fl instead of bandlab (thank god 😭🙏) and also using plugins/VSTs and shit

daydreamer

happy birthday to me :3

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eighteen, damn, this really somethin
got my mind out the gutters, now i stop at nothin
big difference months ago, you could tell i was bluffin
now shit’s getting real, this really somethin
freedom in the palm of my hands
though not completely, i don't mind, i'll just do what i can
and go through the motions, i know who i am
a teenage adult, and oxymoron is my stance
no, i ain't gotta make sense, i ain't thinking too hard
these struggles and troubles don't stay too long
in my thoughts, knew my faults, did em raw
i can say that i can tell you i never cared at all
but since past words, i assure you i’m fine
the next day will come, it don’t matter, i’ll be alright

i really do put work in behind the scenes
obvi, i can't show it, y'all can't see
these rhymes are like my children, i plant them seeds
i gotta learn and grow, i'm still only eighteen
i gotta say though, i know that imma make it out
at the time of writing this, i'm still in this damn house
i'm still broke as hell, and i still don't have a path forward
all i want is to hurry and figure this shit out
shoutout my mom tho, that woman stays in my heart
i never not loved you, and i don't plan to stop at all
i'm glad i could somehow fit you into my art
i know you'd be proud of me by how i'm doing so far
and so far, i'd say i've been doing just great
i'm even proud of myself by the shit i've been made
and i hope i stay up, i don't wanna fall off
i might not believe it but i'll always stay cautious

can't believe I made this far
knowing how I am, I'm glad I didn't drift off
can't believe I made this far
but everything is fine, I got it off my chest now

eighteen (prod. sunnymac)

"demo" in the sense that this is just a sneak peek/snippet for the full song
stay tuned ;)

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to be honest, i don't think i can keep on going
i can't continue on, i'm constantly aching
(dear god, let me break free from this curse i hold)
to be honest, i don't know if this shit is worth it
i want to quit right now, i want to forfeit
(i swear i'll leave, just let me do what i told)
to be honest, i don't think i can pretend much longer
i feel myself rotting, i can't hold on much longer
(i've grown so cold, i can't feel my skin)
to be honest, i don't know why i write at all
nobody cares to listen, i might as well fall
(i've been freezing for so long, i can't feel my skin)

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samples 蕭條 (depression) by b e g o t t e n 自杀

tbh idk (demo)

i got some guitar and drum loops and recorded sax over it, gonna use this for something special, stay tuned ;3

a lil jazzy piece

solo project by an 18 year old // i make what i want to hear and see

AC!D

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