Let us travel back in time. To a simpler year. The year of two thousand and ten. Three bold gentleman by the names of Adam, Rudy and Rylan entered a recording studio with the BOLD intentions of recording a full length CD with World Famous and World Renowned Producer/Musician Mike Maxwell (If he's not world renowned, he damn well should be) They spent hours and hours pouring over what they hoped would be their beautiful love child of 90's Alternative Rock and 90's Alternative Rock to form a band reminiscent of 90's Alternative Rock. After DAYS and WEEKS and maybe even a MONTH or two of HARD grueling work...they ran out of money, and never finished recording it...Actually I'm pretty sure we still owe you something like $150, Mike....sorry!

Anyways, here's two songs that we DID manage to finish however, so ENJOY! Or don't...you could hate them too. That's also a totally formidable option.

The Great Fall

Self Absorbed Narcissist

Here I am, exactly where I never wanted to be

I'm the same person I always said I'd hate, yet so much worse

And here I deal with it

I get back up just to fall back on my face 

See it all come crashing down

(Again)

 

Kinda saw it coming from the start but never really thought it would get this far

Even though I tried so damn hard, if only I had given it a bit more heart 

It wouldn't have come crashing down

(But it did)

 

Who am I?

This isn't who I want to be

Or have I already become?

I'm a slave

But I chose this life

So far gone I do this to myself

But it doesn't matter anyways 

 

In this place emotion takes on a physical state

I'm filled with hate, I'm drained, I shake, I'm bruised, about to break

Yet I'm strong enough

My minds just filled with so much damn decay

So again it crashes down

(Enoughs enough) 

 

Kinda wish I could leave this place but every single scar shows on my face

In my heart, so much despair but when I reach the end who even fucking cares?

Who even fucking cares?!

On my throne of dirt

This is my curse

 

And now I see, what's left of me

My walls crash down, I turn around and scream

Till I can't breathe, my morals seethe

I've gotta beat it out and bleed it out to see

What's inside of me

What do I see?

I see nothing

There is nothing inside of me



~~~~~~~

I finally got around to recording a song. Thanks to my sister helping me produce pretty much the ENTIRE song and letting me use her computer and her programs. I wish I had drums, and a cello, and a piano, and at least some amount of production value since this cost me absolutely zero dollars make, but I can't really complain, because it turned out alright!

Hollow

Ciprolex

Found this while going through my computer and cleaning stuff out. Completely forgot I had it. A seven minute epic cause, why not? (Actually it's because I suck at writing decent length songs.)

Lyrics:

Verse~~
Another year has come and gone and I'm still stuck here in the dark
All my dishonesty is haunting my, your lies have left their mark
Even though I thought I tried, I think I always really knew
Though I spoke all those words, in my heart I knew they were never really true

Here I'm fumbling with this cigarette and I don't even smoke
Getting sick off all the fumes, reflecting on how my life's been a joke
See I'm only holding onto anything, some kind of semblance of a high
Another day here in paradise tryin' not to live a lie

Chorus~~
Now I look out all around me as I'm feeling kinda lazy
I think of how my past betrayed me even though it's all so hazy
Though I sought it all I never had it all, now I sit here alone

Verse~~
Bringing down all those around me is finally starting to take it's toll
Always taking, never leaving, now I'm left to patch this hole
On my heart it will rest, next to these feelings that I detest
Try to ensnare, try to repair it, have it working at its best

Now I stop and look behind to take in everything I've built
Only to find I've left behind piles of rubble dust and silt
To my dismay, these wasted days have left me with only shame and regret
So many lies behind these eyes, they've left me as such a mess and a wreck

 *page turn*

Chorus~~
Think of all the friends I've helped, I'm wonderin' if they'll ever save me
I tell myself to drop it cause those thoughts are making me go crazy
Had to have it all so I could lose it all
Have I learned a thing?

Outro~~
Up for days with strangers, it's already been a week
Is it really any wonder why I cannot seem to get to sleep
Trying to remember what I promised I would do
When I'm really only thinking of the next time that I'll get to use
Here I go again doin' exactly what I said I wouldn't
Gettin' so excited, even though I know I really shouldn't
How can I expect to stop this sitting here alone?
When my favourite spot to do it is the place that I call home
Here's another ruse to get me back at the beginning
Just to keep me in this hole, always sinking always spinning
Tried so fucking hard to act like not one thing was wrong
All that's left me with is regrets, and this useless fucking song

Thanatos

Hello! My name is Adam Vogt and I love listening to music, playing music, and writing music. I've been in a few bands over the years, but I currently enjoy playing on my own, writing songs acoustically in the high hopes that one day I can afford to bring my visions into a full electric studio. Playing and writing music is my passion. Knowing my music can affect people in a positive way is the best payment I could ever hope to achieve from my craft. Guitar is my main instrument, but I can also sing, play Bass, Drums, and Piano. I'm currently entirely self taught on all instruments and hope someday to save up enough money to take lessons and musical theory. It would also be my dream to some day learn to play the Cello!

Hope you enjoy the music! Feel free to comment and critique! Any and all opinions are welcome!

Cheers, Adam

PS: Illusions of Sound is what I call any and all of my own personally written solo material. So....Copyright/Trademark 2013 and all that. Don't steal my name!

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