https://open.spotify.com/track/4rcP80z4arjKlS9Ip312Wl?si=82c1e8250d184014

prod me ft @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

@requiem-for-you
baby hit my phone
can u come home?
ur out in the snow
i know its gettin cold
not like the other girls
i swear ur the one
the way u spin n twirl
yea i think i rlly won
x2

i know that u wanna say it
all these years that ive been waitin
i dont know why ur so late to it
take my hand only u can do it
call u on the phone
when im feeling so dam fucking alone

@i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later
oh baby dont u know
i always wait for u to call my phone
girl dont leave me girl dont leave me lone
loved u from the very start
pls dont tear my heart apart
pls dont tear my heart apart
x2

and i know that its complicated
and ur frustrated
with how i sometimes act
but i cant stop my heart from
racing, i just hate being attached
wish u would take my hand
and show me what went right
and what went wrong
im still waiting for u
guess ill just go write another song

@requiem-for-you
baby hit my phone
can u come home?
ur out in the snow
i know its gettin cold
not like the other girls
i swear ur the one
the way u spin n twirl
yea i think i rlly won
x2

not like the other girls w/ jacko

Prod. Ruined5191 aka the goat

[Intro]
I wasted my time on a girl like you
You're all I want, but nothing like I remember you
You made me feel so good

[Bridge]
Dear god, Dear god, won't you save me
I don't wanna do what I'm about to do
I think I'll sin again, It's all gonna be her fault
I feel like you should die, but it all feels so wrong
I dont wanna let you go, let me choke you

[Verse]
Woke up feeling like you should-
I woke up feeling like this again
I wonder will it ever stop? does it ever stop?
Uh, uh, I'm like a monster, I'm a lustful, creepy fuck
I wanna kill you (just kidding, yeah)
I wanna make your life feel like mine
Let me make your life miserable
Yeah, yeah, I'm what you've been looking for
It's me, It's me, It's always been me
I'm what you need, I'm what you need

[Outro}
I can't shine the way they do, so what's the point!
Do you ever hear my songs?
Have you ever listened to me? I really wanna know
I'm like a monster, I'm a lustful, creepy fuck
I wanna kill you, yeah, just kidding

I Wanna Make Your Life Miserable

cliffside

curse on my soul

Point Of View

Point Of View (feat. heybinji)

moonflower

repetitive (feel my hurt pt 1)

reupload (originally was 2 songs [repetitive, feel my hurt[)
all plats next week

leave me all alone
i'm done can you go
you took it all away
i can't just let you stay
feel it in your heart
i know, i know i know
took it all apart you didn't have to go
see change in your ways i can't explain

see change in your ways
(see change in your ways)

said i can't feel
the rain still pours
i can't unclose those doors
leave me out
i don't want you to let go

take it out my head
i'm lost in what you said
take it out my head
i'm feeling lost and sad

feel my hurt, i'm lost in my head again
talk to me, what do you really want?
feel my hurt, i'm sorry you're not her
can't you take the hint? i'm sorry you're not her
why can't you feel my hurt?

can't you take the hint? i'm sorry this is it
can't you take the hint? i'm sorry this is it

feel my hurt

"The Grand Consummation" - The ritual reaches its climax. Crowe’s human side is nearly extinguished; the entity has almost full control. This is a long, brutal, and chaotic track — shifting between moments of eerie stillness (human hesitation, Mary Jane’s fear, flickers of Crowe’s sorrow) and explosions of violence (entity-driven ritual mutilation). The veil between worlds tears open. The horror is not just physical but cosmic — flesh, blood, and London itself become the altar.

[Intro]
Her song drifts softly through the glass,
A fragile flame the night will pass.
I knock, I breathe, I dare to pray—
But shadow takes my hands away.

[Verse 1]
She smiles with trust, her door unlocked,
The fog recedes, all time has stopped.
Her voice recalls the life I lost—
But hunger drowns at any cost.
The chamber dims, the air turns still,
The knife is steady, not my will.
I beg in silence, my eyes plead—
But steel obeys the ancient creed.

[Pre-Chorus]
These hands—betray!
This flesh—enslaved!
Each breath—a vow!
Each cut—a grave!

[Chorus]
The grand consummation written in flame,
The veil breaks open, it calls her name.
The grand consummation, blood is the key,
The door swings wide, it devours me.

[Post-Chorus]
One life—
One hymn—
One gate—
Opened by sin.

[Verse 2]
The walls bear witness to my script,
A scripture written, crimson-dipped.
Her cries are lost in ritual tones,
Her bed becomes an altar stone.
Her body torn, a map of stars,
Each wound aligned to breach the scar.
The veil recoils, the sky bends low,
The night explodes—reality folds.

[Pre-Chorus]
These hands—unbound!
This voice—not mine!
Each mark—divine!
Each rite—aligns!

[Chorus]
The grand consummation through flesh and flame,
The hymns of silence cry out her name.
The grand consummation born of despair,
The shadow walks, it claims the air.

[Bridge]
I fight—(You cannot win!)
I beg—(The rite begins!)
I weep—(Her blood will sing!)
I break—(The darkness reigns!)

[Breakdown]
Unseal! The stars ignite!
Unseal! The void takes flight!
Unseal! Her voice is gone!
Unseal! The world undone!

[Final Chorus]
The grand consummation—my soul undone,
The veil lies broken, the gate is spun.
The grand consummation—her breath my crime,
The ancient god consumes through time.

[Extended Outro]
I hear her song—
But not her breath.
I see her eyes—
But only death.
The night is torn, the fog consumes,
The portal opens—
London is doomed.

Ahhh—ahhh—ahhhhhh...
Vae aeternum... — ETERNAL WOE! 
Lux mortis... — LIGHT OF DEATH! (light of death)
Domine Umbra... 
LORD OF SHADOW!!!

I hear her song—
But not her breath.
I see her eyes—
But only death.
The night is torn, the fog consumes,
The portal opens—
London is doomed.

Ahhh—ahhh—ahhhhhh...
Vae aeternum... (eternal woe)
Lux mortis... (light of death)
Domine Umbra... (lord of shadow)

LORD OF SHADOW!!!

The Grand Consummation

Refactored from the ground up: a hard/industrial alt-rock concept record where each track channels a programming language—clarity over clout, craft over noise.

Event Loop (JavaScript)

Endless Cycle

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feel my hurt

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