w/ @fleshgolem

first single off of the ep, 
happy bday fleshy

lyrics

[mæsk]
im worn, im worn
been wearing and my skin is all torn
but i feel alive, when in eye of a storm
i tip my hat off to those that can move on

she said lets go
well ur just going home
ima be drifting slow

she paddles out to sea to see i see her halo
i cant allow it, need to escape 
ill fuck u up, 
please just go back to where u came

depression i just battle it
im sinking on this battle ship 
steer till i cant battle shit
this is my own settlement
until im old, thats if im old

im holding on to rafts with no sign of a life boat
i know on this 1 i wont have time to grow

she sent a signal to me that i wasn’t alone
now urs to take 
all my flesh, yeah my skin and my bone

im outta time in this world im outta time 
and its just me by myself on this grind
and its time to let the pen down
write my final words coz im just out of time

[flesh]
so why is there still time to waste?
i'm still disoriented from the time the tidal wave came thru
cause i've been washed up, cleansed all the way thru
and i'll be damned if i'll be drowning cause of you
it's a process, that's what i tell myself 
inside my head its saw traps, i run with reason 
but i always tend to talk back, it's changing seasons
nearly autumn guess i'll fall apart in my room

i said let's go but i'm just going home
i wish that you'd come too, lay my fantasies out on the table
high seas, pulling me away
i went too far the tide is tryna steal my shame
i try to battle it, i swim but i'm just paddling
there's water in my lungs and i don't think i can handle it
i'll tip my boat, that i'll do
before i ever admit defeat to what i knew
before the life before me ever became true

signal w/ flesh golem (flesh x sunshowers)

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Lyrics
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Every single little thing seem to change (seem to change yeah)
Every time I look around these days
I thought all I'd ever know is pain, pain, pain
But I kinda turned out okay

And it won't ever be the same

I was so shy and quiet in high school
Now I'm only tryna make it on my way
But I keep losing track of all the days
Waking up late in the afternoon
And every time I'm saying it's a shame
When I hear a little bit of bad news

Oh where the

I don't know where the fuck I am anymore
I've been running in circles tryna stop this revolving door
Got a blunt up in my right hand and more by my core
Baby when I'm dying you need me no more
I've been

I've been focused on getting my shit together, I better
I plan my life in my head I'm off by a feather
'Cause lady luck keep me tethered
But baby why would I let her
As I lay in this bed like my head had been severed
September passed 'till December
I went on all of my benders
In city centers and tenners
Were spent on pints and my friends
Tryna stoke all those embers but it won't happen again
Half it I don't remember but I guess that's how it ends

Should I keep going, man I guess it depends
I'm so used to playing pretend
Barely hearing what you said
But when I reach my best
I bet you'll see me then

I don't know where the fuck I am anymore
I've been running in circles tryna stop this revolving door
Got a blunt up in my right hand and more by my core
Baby when I'm dying you need me no, need me no more
I don't know where the fuck I am anymore
I've been running in circles tryna stop this revolving door
Got a blunt up in my right hand and more by my, more by my
Baby when I'm dying you need me no more
I've been

I put somethin' inside my cup, now I'm tweakin'
They can tell that I've been tilted 'cause I'm leanin'
I split this dutch, like it's dutch with my team
I've been geekin' every single weekend

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mad mosh (prod. junoes)

ripcord

produced by @hottubjohny

i'm pacing back and forth, my things are all misplaced
unaccounted for, something's gone astray
double check, i inspect
i can't explain where it went
i found a missing piece
i almost went extinct,
i couldn't make it without you
long lost friend, you were forgotten,
but now that i've found you

i'll keep you safe and sound when i'm around you
my world is spinning 'round, now that i've found you
when i'm around you…
now that i've found you…

it was lying right where i had left it; the place that i least expected
search high and low, retrace every trace
heard an echo call my name
the puzzles complete, the picture's refined. 
a piece of your heart, a treasure to find
finally, i've found the key and now that you're here with me..

lost and found (hottub johny)

torture

Guess we all gotta learn somehow 
Time can stop, but it never slows down 
Oh, I need to learn to grow inside 

I learned as a naïve child 
the world is cruel, but it still grows flowers 
Oh, I needed to grow inside

And I know, I know, I know
I'm not there yet, I still have so much to learn 
and so much time left 

I'll fall and slip and lose my grip 
I'll break my heart to pieces 
it's hard for me to swallow 
I'm not who I wanted years ago 
I'm way ahead and still far behind 
I'm not where I want to be, but I'll get there soon
I promise you

I know if I hold on longer
everything might get much harder, but I need to know what it's like to be okay 
For more than a minute,
Not covered in mistakes,
Not drowning in silence,
Reliving all the pain,
Stop feeling so selfish,
For setting boundaries that I need 

I know, I know, I know, I'm not there yet 
I still have so much to learn and so much time left 

I know, I know, I'm not there yet

I'll fall and slip and lose my grip 
I'll break my heart to pieces 
It's hard for me to swallow 
I'm not who I wanted years ago 
I'm way ahead and still far behind 
I'm not where I want to be, but I'll get there soon
I promise you

Take a deep breath in
Close your eyes 
Dear younger me, you'll be alright
Dear older me, tell me if I'm right (Am I alright)

I'll fall and slip and lose my grip 
I'll break my heart to pieces 
It's hard for me to swallow 
I'm not who I wanted years ago 
I'm way ahead and still far behind 
I'm not where I want to be, but I'll get there soon
I promise you

I Promise You (Prod. Matthew May)

all produced, mixed, and mastered by me

lyrics

ill still run it back
i wish that i had never messed up
ended up in last
i dont think ill ever catch up
soul still tied
cant get back on track im far gone
i don't wanna die
still so confused on what i want

why am i this way
too anxious to speak
ruins my day
too tired to eat
ill be okay
breakin my teeth
for shit i won't say
ill never be me


Grolth

locked in the closet and now i'm just seething
what the fuck do you mean it's so easy ?
you've never lived if you can't hear me
i'm calling you out bitch yeah you're failing !

but you knew it all along right ?
every single crevice of my mind
psychological torture at night
why you actin' so surprised
and you can reword it however you want
i can see right through your facade
light bursting in, I see it, what I want
calm & quiet I’ll move when you’re gone

i'll never be me (ft. Grolth)

prod. mitsa

lyrics :

I've been sleepless
I don't need it
every word you said I hope you didn't mean it
cut me to pieces
you left me bleeding
all those messages I hope you didn't read them

love how you say it's fine
how could you sit there and lie
I should've seen the signs
I couldn't see through your eyes
I can't look at you
I thought I was over you

you just want me dead
all you see is red
don't know why you care
if you're not right here

ripcord

aether net

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