lyrics -

put ur phone down let's talk for a second 
distant memories are hardest to reckon 
work so hard jus to fall to depression 
try my hardest just to find an expression

I'm so exhausted
sure the money coming fast 
but it's building up the pressure 

I wanna scream my heart out 

this life wasn't meant for me


my soul is aching 
now my hands are steady shaking 
Im jus hoping that'll I'll make it tonight

meant for me

meant for me (prod. pitfall)

allwhitefuneral

allwhitefuneral w/ chach (prod. heavn)

prod by @zaycros
lyrics : 
damn it looked so beautiful outside today
I watched the rain fall into my grave 
I hold my glocky and look into her eyes
she tell the truth to me when bullets get to flyin

you don't know my name 
I keep my secrets to my self cuz u don't know my pain 
thru the speakers they can tell I went thru hell and stayed 
I beat the fuck out of the devil for crossing my lane

so I write in my death note
get rid of everyone that wants to see me let go
of this fuckin cliff I've had enough of all of this 
I'm too smart to put up with the shit 
am I a pyschopath or lunatic 
I hate regretting losing it 
my mind is fucked From cluelessness 
and I think I'll never feel ok X2 
so i write in my death note x1000000000000000000000

my death note

instagram :)

my death note (zaycros)

prod by @tgwog
dis song mean so much to me 

lyrics :) -

honestly I dont know what the future has in store for me 
I keep my head down low, countin moneys jus a sport to me 
I could never trust someone again put that on more than me 
I ain't got the family and honestly that's fine with me 

how you can expect me to grow I'm barely even alive
you take everything from me inside
no i can tell the rage won't subside 
you all just left me to die 

at the end of the day I'll get thru it 
if it weren't my girl id be ruined 
if not dead 
so I'll keep these lil secrets and the shit that u did.... till the death of me

death of me

insta <3

death of me (tgwog)

@f43isd34d
@tgwog
i jus wanted to feel good for a minute...

lyrics: 
ahay - 
i get distracted by the littlest shit
i just wanted to feel good for a minute
i cant get over all my damn indecision
i dont wanna think at all the room is already spinning :c

i tell myself to slow down, to calm down, i cant see it thru
every where i turn i feel the past heavily bleeding thru

its rip to my brotha im steady missing seeing you 
rip to my brotha im steady missing seeing you

F43 -
all these demons building up in me can't make a decision 
and my brain spills away from the littlest shit
only have one half heart, down 2, need a potion
had to turn me out now it's too hard to keep emotion
2 times too many that shits funny how u are
2 times too many that shits funny how u are
that shits funny how u are

distracted w/ F43 (tgwog)

manifestin :) 👍🏻
1st part w/ @1sloan prod @tgwog
2nd part prod @koro4

lyrics !

part 1 - resent me 

1sloan - 
   your so down bad, know I know I know
and yea I wanna make it but I'll never sell my soul 
your so down bad fo sho fo sho fo sho 
been digging in for so long I finally found some gold 

ahay - 
   I found some gold and now they acting like they miss me 
pockets got swole I had nobody that was with me 
did it on my own I felt the world against me 
these pills were fun but now they're starting to resent me 

1sloan - 
   I said I'm sorry I don't feel so bad 
I could smoke ur fuckin pack 
I could say that shit right back 
bitch ur nothing to me 
run that back pretty please
I'm done with feeling this way
I'll do this verse for ahay

ahay - 
    I found some gold and now they acting like they miss me 
pockets got swole I had nobody that was with me 
did it on my own I felt the world against me 
these pills were fun but now they're starting to resent me 

part 2 - disappointed 

ahay - 
    it's so hard for me to take care of myself
like is there anyone that care bout my health 
don't let me think, I'm overwhelming myself 
I'm disappointed ya I did that shit again 

where do I hide 
I've been losing track of time 
can't keep my mind
off this shit bruh I'm deprived
mentally I've declined 
bad
bad
bad

resent me w/ 1sloan (tgwog)  /  disappointed (koro)

from 2020 
@ericdoa
:) link to all plats -> https://song.link/nauseous
prod by @skress & @mochila777

lyrics : 

ahay - 

you so controlling you make me feel nauseous 
rip my heart open and make me your target 
thought you were hopeless I guess that's just far-fetched
gave me your potion to make you seem harmless 

tell me you hate me 
try to erase me 
you'd never betray me
or so you say

never wanna grow up 
these pills cause me to throw up 
I hate feeling this way
i think I need a change 

ericdoa -

yuh -------
everything is closing in
my thoughts are getting clearer 
don't deserve to die 
open up my mind 
sickly don't know why
hope it all goes right 
demons steal my sight 
----------
tell me what you find 
fear inside ur eye
mask to my best disguise 
call out to the sky 
know what they don't like 
have me hypnotized

nauseous w/ ericdoa (skress & mochila)

its like time moves... n i always stay behind
@LXCCA


Lyrics -

ahay -

it's like time moves and I always stay behind 
drownin in my cup now im feeling alright
masked up I never leave without my 9 
these voices telling me I'm out my mf mind
"why do u always say that?"

I don't believe a word they saying 
can't even trust myself wth was I thinkin
these feelings fk my health everyday feels wasted
I do my best to keep a face but I don't wanna feel a thing 
I don't want this shit no more 
leave my body wit these sores
u can hate me idgaf I'm broken to the core
ashing on my true religies gotta wipe that to the floor
gotta wipe that to the-

LXCCA - 

How'd I hit rock bottom in a
years time
Used abused and left to rot
Off these drugs can't See right
Say she love me loves me not
So Close to blowin my head off
When did I become so weak
And If this is my Send off
Please Don't remember me

F43 - 

haven’t felt this way in a minute 
feeling like a fucking burden, i can’t start when i’m finished
yes i love 2 see the flashing lights believe i won’t give in
i don’t even gotta face u 2 walk away living

sick of living on my own
ofc i had 2 pave the road
sick of living on my own
you’s a bitch go catch a bone
sick of living on my own 
ofc i had 2 pave the road
sick of living on my own

instagram <3

stay behind w/ LXCCA & F43 (tgwog & jeunekash)

mixed n mastered by me

lyrics - 
ahay - 

 I keep putting all this shit inside my lungs 
you don't understand the shit that  I am from
how can I feel good about myself when I feel torn inside ?
how can I put trust in someone else without my 45 ?

I never do it, n I hate half of the shit I write.. 
it's so consuming, tryna fix up all this twisted life 
been going through this, been going through that 
feel like I've never got a break from feeling useless

ghoso - 

I’m awake
It’s what I got
I been going thru it
You could tie my lungs up into knots

Don’t you even feel bad
I don’t wanna feel that
That’s All I know 
Know it takes time just to let it all out

I’m aware of the demons lurking 
Up inside my head
Is it okay
Okay how I’m sippin thru this shit

When you tore me down
I clasp my teeth 
I’m falling out
Relapse on me

lungs

Instagram <3

lungs w/ ghoso ghost (tgwog & jeunekash)

02/2023, a vent :D
prod by @tgwog & @litothedon
lyrics: 
ahay: 

I don't wanna have to end my life yaa
but if I do it I'ma do it the right way
 I guess it's what you wanted anyway why u so anxious
I try but never make it 
my mind's just never made sense to me 
really nothing's ever made sense to me 
the way u treat ur fkn family...
never made sense to mee
sense to me 
my whole life, ive felt so empty 
never made sense to me 
made sense to me 

[Ghoso]

The way I’m feeling empty
Doesn’t make sense to me
I’m falling right back
It’s a penalty
I-
Lost a couple friends
I’m okay with it
I been in my bag 
Money in the trench
I just think crazy how it all ends
And it doesn’t make sense
How you living in my head
Nah you ain’t understanding me
Baby you the death of me
How I feel the fray and the ware 
It’s distressing me

ahay:

nothing makes sense to me 
smoke this shit like Im breathing air 
nothing makes sense to me
bout my problems I will never share 
nothing makes sense to me 
get this money only way I'll fair
nothing makes sense to me 
nothing makes sense to me

never made sense

insta :D

never made sense w/ ghoso ghost (tgwog & litothedon)

mixed n mastered by me :)
prod by @tgwog & @dteen 
Lyrics - 
I've been losing every bit of my soul
I've been doing all I can to cope
I don't know what's left for me, I got no home 
out of time , barely alive , and I've lost all hope 
I never really had it in the first place 
just wanted to stop all of the hurting 
smoking all day its my curtain
I'm gone and I'm for certain

stained lungs feeling dumb I'm abusing it 
same song still play along I've been choosing it 
but I never chose this shit 
no I never wanted this 
ahh but I still gotta pick up the pieces 
ive done all the searching the seeking
I just wanna start over

no way I could've made it to today without her in my life 
no way I could've found the fuckin courage jus to fuckin fight
I was stupid and alone n never honest with myself 
I was forced to pop them pills ik they traumatized my health

what hope do i have left?

what hope do i have left? (tgwog & dteen)

shoutout bro @tgwog and prod @222pmb
mixed n mastered by me.

read these ↓↓↓↓↓  :D
lyrics -

I just wanted to say that I hate it here 
I run thru blunts but still I jus can't take it here
my body full of meds writing like Shakespeare
know im in over my head never feel safe here 
n that follows me everywhere like a faint cheer


talking to myself I keep my pistol on the shelf
and keep my bowls constantly loaded 
fucking up my health my whole damn fam can go to hell 
did what I did , said what I wanted

talking to myself cuz I got no room for friends 
rip my lil brotha I'm still hurt can't pretend (even if I tried to)
I've been running from my past that's prolly why I depend 
I feel so numb 
I feel so trash

hate it here

hate it here (tgwog & 222pmb)

mixed n mastered by me 
feat. my bro @ghosoghost
prod by @okayno & @tgwog 
lyrics: 
ahay-
I go to sleep just to wake up on the wrong side of the bed 
everydays just a new day, I'll probably just forget 
all this terror in my way, I wanna fix it but I can't 
I put this pain all in my Pocket, I can't let it get to land

I gotta keep pushing forward
I always think it's over 
till that shit comes back again, I can't deal with being sober 
I can stand up to the lil shit but it keeps getting older 

I'm the problem and I cant solve it 
I'm the problem and I cant solve it
I'm the problem and I cant solve it 
I'm the problem I hope I solve it

I let it fester for too damn long 
did my best just to prove them wrong

GHOSO-
Take a walk in my shoes
I’m bent by the press

Throw me down and torch me out
Dig out the crest

It’s an honest mistake
it’s still 11:11

Pull me out my grave
Its purgatory not heaven

You switch the story
I’m guessin
Roll around in my guess pant

It’s a creature in the night
I roll around but I’m hesitant

I don’t wanna be low
Settle down now
Turn me to a toon
Offa shrooms
You got clowned out

It’s 11:11 and you still haven’t made a wish
How you saying you don’t love me 
When you kissing on my dick
Got the club going up on a Wednesday
Cause she got me sick

Yeah it’s a downhill battle in the mortar

Got me in her pink
Smoking stink
Ghoso explorer 

Got me in a battle for the northern
I ain’t seen sleep in 3 weeks at the border
I ain’t seen sleep in 3 weeks yeah it’s torture

problem

instagram<3

problem w/ ghoso ghost (iji & tgwog)

feat. @ghosoghost 
prod by @okayno & @tgwog
lyrics:
I don't wanna be here I wanna be where u ran off to 
sometimes I wish it was me that day 
I wish I could be freed from staying
I wish I could hear what ur saying 
I'm far away, it's clear , I'm suffocating 

take what u want from me, I ain't got much left anyways 
wish I lived comfortably, how tf could I self sustain 
lived my life underneath, ive kept way too long in the shade 
think I got over me, and I hope that I can keep it that way 

can't hold these demons forever 
one wrong move and I'll sever 
I don't wanna start all over but I wanna start all over

clear

clear w/ ghoso ghost (iji & tgwog)

prod @tgwog <3
lyrics:
trapped in my bubble and I can't escape it 
I watched it crumble I tried to erase it 
rip my brother no I can't explain it 
run thru the trouble act like I finally made it 
I built this up for me n u but I lost in the end 
there's alot for me to lose, that I can't comprehend
focus on my health, then back to you, I try to extend 

no I can't fix these scars 
my empty breaths 
confusion where I press 
been contemplating 
how I can get some new flesh 
questioning my reflection
everything starts compressing

stuck in a state of perplexion
fighting my self I can't afford the perfection
too worried bout everyone else's perception
stick to myself just like I caught an infection

flesh

insta :3

flesh (tgwog)

shout-out bros @tgwog @ghosoghost
lyrics : 
say it- say- say it say whatever that's on your mind
my daily basis races against time 
constantly pacing inside of the hive, haha
can't take the damage this lil heart of mine
I keep on hanging to the other side 
I picture frame it like another sign 
heavy sedation I still don't feel fine


and I still got a job to do 
know wut I ought to do 
never what I sought to do 
but I always fought it thru 
where the sun shines I'll bloom 
and I run cuz I have to 
conjure funds when I have to 
pick up crumbs like a vacuum

ghoso - 
It’s just another number on my list
It’s getting hard to say I’m over it
Shawty call my phone
Upset you know
She was just another hoe
One night
Lil boat
She ain’t Stacy 
You got Stephanie’s behind my head
How I sunk through the floor just throw me in 
I always pick up the pieces 
Mess on floor
And it’s nothing to get upset about
I deserve it all

She wanna send me on my ass
I heard she said she coming back
But I can’t believe a word they said
So what’d you say

other side

other side w/ ghoso ghost (tgwog)

feat. @kiryoo <3
prod by @tgwog & @litothedon
outro by my bro @glasssibyl
mixed & mastered by me

lyrics :
ahay -
hanging by a thread like a marionette 
I've been so dead 
I've been feeling so fed up 
like I already died 
empty all inside 
(I'm so tired)
take me apart and just tweak what you'd like 
Im so tired of thinking all fuckin night 
(I'm so tired)
but it's passing the time 
feel like I'll never, I'll never arrive 

I'm so tired, I'm so tired
I'm so, I'm so, tired
I'm so tired
I've been so dead, so dead uh
I'm so tired, I'm so tired
I'm so, I'm so, tired
I'm so tired
I've been so dead, so empty x2


kiryo -
so sorry baby i cant break your heart 
driving all alone all up in my car 
taking bars lookin at the stars 
bloody tears falling out my eyes  
yeah okay im so traumatized  
hide my face everytime i cry 
you cant take my place bitch i up this glock shoot it like its hot bitch really im pulling up 
bitch im faded runnin with ur paycheck heard u  is a fan? u got my shit on playback 
okay knew ur ass since way back
but i wont let u come back 
press u like a thumb tack put u on the wall 
had me feeling so high but now im fuckin falling down low 
its so cold 
break me to pieces 
put me in your bed 
my hearts still open

ahay - 
I been so busy pulling strings to get you back 
worried bout this how can I even mention that 
I got this shit on me rn might let it blast 
I might compact 
stuck in the past 
I still remember all the days that we would laugh
smoke in the whip can't see for shit we could've crashed 
we lived thru shit but I jus want my brother back 
I really might compact 
all my life, alkatraz

uhhhh 
uhhhh
im tired
i miss my brotha miss my brotha miss my brotha
hanging on by a thread x6

marionette

marionette w/ kiryo! (tgwog + litothedon + glass sibyl)

sequel to "cover it up"
prod @tgwog & @litothedon
lyrics: 

finally, i took a break from smoking 
life been trying me , it caught up now im choking
that side of me, I never wanted opened
and I ain't have a say in that, what were u hoping? ahhh 
I played the game but now I forfeit ahh
them boys r lame I can't endorse it ahh
and I'd still put it on me bruh

fk that 9-5 trash I'm tryna put in the past 
turn a couple thou into a house and then I might just spaz 
how tf could I laugh 
how tf could I sustain 
whole system corrupt, I don't wanna talk, pls don't explain
can't feel safe anyway, ofc I complain, ofc im insane 
say what you want, but don't insult what I think, your stupidity it better stay contained 

go head n tighten that leash, u don't want to me bite back 
do whatever I pls, and I don't even like that 
stuck in my shell jus like a tortoise 
stuck longing for sum type of importantance


24 today, but I feel fuckin hollow 
same day today, as it would be tmro
every day I wake up to face new sorrows
say what I say, do what I do, u couldn't follow 
shouldn't have let ur bum ass drive my fuckin car 
shouldn't let my friends get too damn far 
wish I had a better understanding from the start 
if I could run it back I'd definitely see it from afar

opened

opened (tgwog & litothedon)

mixed n mastered by me
prod by @tgwog & @sshinju
lyrics:
ahay- 

all my friends are fuckin dead I stuff em right into my pocket too
I'd stay all in my bed if I ain't had shit that I had to got to do 
living thru the day jus tryna get comfy with all the trauma 
get my life back, 
my thoughts back,
atleast for what I got through 
 
I think I don't Fw no one yall make me feel uncomfortable
"you gotta go ur own way" ... been doing that I feel unstoppable
doing what I did, it felt impossible
hell.. every day I wake's another fuckin obstacle

I can't change the way that you see me 
keep my strains stacked like CDs
make promises I fail delivery on
u shouldn't wanna be me 
I'm trained to go but I'm sleepy 
speak my mind as freely as I want 

get out my bucket here we go 
can't trust a thing you show 
pistol on the stove , who's at the door, can't trust a soul
murder what she wrote , burdens I'll never disclose

LXCCA-

When you livin fast then you know the crash is imminent 
Say they’re open ears but there’s really no one listening
Try to Keep my head Keep my head up Through the Dissonance 
I might Pop myself pop myself just like a Ritalin  
World spinning will you be there when the day it stops 
I could make the whole show stop just like a clot 
All this pain and I only know one way to stop it 
And I try but can’t forget

pocket

pocket w/ LXCCA (shinju & tgwog)

mixed n mastered by me
prod @tgwog & @prod-roxa
lyrics: 
what's the point of working together 
feelings change just like the weather 
whats the point of a December 
what's the point of a pretender 
what's the point to all this shit 
how'd this life accumulate
I can't wrap my head around the sitch 
I probably shouldn't smoke 
cuz i knew it never was a fix 
I talk alot I joke 

I knew I shouldn't move my jaw but I still did 
speak when I shouldn't , fuck the law again jus like a convict 
seek when I couldn't, smoke a lot again at least I'm honest 
but u can't say the same, nah
you stuck on that cowardice 
are u done with the gains? nah 
I'm still getting mileage 

wake me up
when its all over 
what's the fucking point?

what's the point?

what's the point? (tgwog & roxa)

mixed n mastered by me. 
prod @blxty & @tgwog
Lyrics: 
ahay- 
I know everything exists within my pain 
can't keep running, but I never change my pace 
Medusa, there's some shit I'll never face 
there ain't no way I could be rich, my feelings changed 

I don't sleep right 
I don't think right 
I don't act right 
Yeaa
I don't feel right 
on the brink like 
is this sink too high? 
bluhh
Im in that zone again 
everything is closing in
nothing seems fine 
but ima be alright 

just another day 
I disassociate 

at least I changed.. 
you wanna talk about me? 
at least I changed.. 
you always talk about me... 

LXCCA-
Gave me a lil hope and then ya snatched it 
Havent seen right ever since like broken glasses
She was the cause of my decline and it was rapid 
Remember back the words would rhyme I  wasn’t rapping 
It hurt so bad said said how it was I wasn’t cappin 
She wasn’t at fault but was a factor 
I wasn’t at fault but was a factor 
Now I got motion shoutout Kappuh 
Help my dawg out in the field just like a tractor 
Ya I smiled in some faces then adapted 
Ya I smiled in some faces started laughing

I might’ve changed but I evolved 
You stay the same bump on a log 
I always work like a revolver 
Been in the game not far along

medusa

insta<3

medusa / changed w/ LXCCA (blxty & tgwog)

mixed n mastered by me
prod @tgwog & @prodjayysoul 
lyrics:
my brain is 
decor

my brain is decorative 
post op I need my sedatives 
never liked my relatives 
I never liked competitiveness
I did what I did just to try n fit in 
the life I've  lived, I'd never want it relived
it was always never again 
know that's some shit, I can't pretend
it fucked me up, all these years my mouth was shut
all these lies kept adding up, I'm in tears my mouth was shut 


my bodys ever growing, my progress needs a motive 
I've been losing track of everything that I open
I've never felt so broken but I've  never felt so woven all in one
hey what I've become is something more than once was 
there ain't no other one for me 
the love I feel for u makes me everything I could be 
u showed me what love could really mean 
I'll strive to be everything that you need

decor

decor (tgwog & jayysoul)

prod by @blxty @47e @tgwog
lyrics:
me-
let me be real 
i dont know where my heads at, whats the deal
need to process not choke, but i cant feel 

i dont wanna face it anymore
will anybody ever listen to me?

7gs a day i don't wanna fuckin feel a thing anymore ay
get my keys and skate, I just wanna feel the way I used to before ay 
i dont wanna explore a
different kind of escape plan
made it this far i cant wait man 
no more no more
rip my lil brother wish i got ur feet out that door 
now everyday feels accompanied by the past I can't ignore it

medicate (idk) till I suffocate and boy am I all for it x2

LXCCA-
Seeing things, can’t feel a thing 
Tried all the meds there ain’t no healing me 
Know all my friends don’t wanna hear from me
 All the people I wish were here to see
 I don’t wanna face it wanna wake up but I can’t 
I don’t wanna chase her but she got me in a trance
 Don’t care to be famous but still rock designer brands
 Get to the paper to the paper like a stamp
 Hang my coat on my way out
 I won’t need it where I’m going 
The way that things are going now
 Tryna fix it I’m not proud 
And my feelings always showing
 Painted to look just like a clown

idontwannafaceit

idontwannafaceit w/ LXCCA (blxty + exo + tgwog)

mixed n mastered by me
prod @tgwog & @prodjayysoul
Lyrics:

I just wanna feel safe 
I just wanna fail-safe

flashback 2008, how TF are these my guardians
all they do is take, 
all the lessons learned were obvious 
 howd my life become so bottomless 
my younger version's what the problem is 
I'm never getting over it 
i smoke a little too copious 
look at the mess u roped me in 
 I'll never view it soberly 
take every bit of hope for it 
I'll talk about it openly 
entrust my ignorant relative 
hope there's a different trope for me 

I just want y'all to leave me the fuck alone 
it's been too damn long now you care about me huh? 
got off the pills but I still pop edibles 
I'd rather die then talk to the Federals 
there ain't a way for me to move through it all 
I'm afraid I'll never feel safe at all

safe

fail-safe (jayysoul & tgwog)

mixed and mastered by me :)
prod by @prodjayysoul + @luckeyknows + @tgwog
lyrics :
they could never get the picture 
I keep running from the frame
stay tf out of my mentions 
don't wanna hear u say my name 

5 years since my brother died
I still can't figure out the process
I'm constantly replaying every night 
lose out on sleep, but at least there's progress

should've been me, you had aspirations now apart of me 
plenty of dreams, put my concentration into charting themes 
I change the scene, had to contemplate, can't speak on what I've seen 
what could that mean
I remember when we went to make that play 
that fuckboy tried to rob us, you didn't care about no blade
laid the paws down, while i sat back and watched in a daze 
everything I did, it comes with shame 
I wash my soul but still I'm left with a stain 
I wanna fold can't deal with all this disdain 
I process everything like I'm in a play 
the people watching never hear what you say

picture

picture (jayysoul + luckey + tgwog)

mixed n mastered by me
prod by @tgwog & @byedias

brain fog n nothingness 
I stay rotting my consciousness 
my problems come from within 
gotta find my place gotta stop these stims 
gonna lie my face off just to fit in 
I line my pockets, only way I could live 
I'll never forget 
I'll never submit 
testing up my patience ever since a lil kid 
problems aside 
I put in work just to quit 
problems arise 
what do u do when ur sick 
causes denied
my familys never meant shit 
my family's never been shit

close to my grave just let me dig 
been running for so long I freeze my thoughts like a fridge 
Im never clean like a dish 
slipped through the seams like some piss 
lost at the bottom abyss 
k I have trouble just making friends 
still figuring out making amends 
 too focused on opulence 
no room for playin pretend 
I'm far from being content  
I light up just to spin
turn the light on n let u in 
my whole life, a detriment

stims

stims (tgwog & dias)

for jerm. 🖤 miss u lil bro
mixed n mastered by me
prod by @tgwog @blxty @popilization
Lyrics:
 everything gets taken 
no use in faking 
Im constantly smoked out, hope it ain't laced in 
my cards they never made sense
they test my patience 
I never made it 
back to civilization

shoutout to tg
I swear I speak freely
if it weren't for all these beats I wouldn't be me
my body's weakly 
put together weepings 
just so u could see me 
passing through the seepings 

I never meant nothing to no relative 
every time I close my eyes I start to forget 
but then I open them 
I know I can't relive
that shit can't come again 
ima be the parliament 

I'll never fit in with the usual
I stick out like a Boner 
lash out like I don't know her 
been packed in like a folder 
I'll never listen like a cuticle 
I keep growing despite me 
there's no use in us fighting
wish I could stop the lightning 

I'll never be a bug 
ok there's times I was a scrub 
and maybe just a fuckin bum 
its always been just what it was 
another one with different flaws 
never wanted my life in Gauze 

dreaming bout counting 0s n 1s I must be computing 
Im probably just confusing 
I know I come off moody 
I know just where It's from 
I know I'm kinda loopy 
but I'll find just what you want 

I put the smoke down I got sick 
I broke down counting up sticks 
put my old thoughts back to the front 
time to face shit no more running 
miss my brother always think about the kid 
everything I do is betterment 
processes never been spent 
you was real ever since a jit 
I've been through it all but I ain't spent 
5 years has been the longest 
all the tears finally make sense 
relatives stay tryna reach me 
I've been doing just peachy 
latchin on used to be bleak 
now I'm steady patchin up leaks 
finally found what I was seeking

civilization

civilization (tgwog  + blxty +  pop)

mixed n mastered by me
prod @tgwog
lyrics: 

it's another damn year, hard to feel grateful for wut its been
it's close to hateful, all I've dispensed
hard to see straight through, my own pretendin 
bring to the table all of my fears 
it's such a fable, all these tears 
I've rocked n cradled, but I got seared 
I took the labels, turn them to spears 
let the ice melt, 22-10, fuck the pigs, fuck ya health 
I'd  never trust a president, I'd rather see u in a cell 
wake up feel the pain that I've always been dealt 
wake up another day I'm 25 in this realm 
I don't feel fine, that's what I always sell 
in my mind, I deal with hell 
never figured out my past, I'm still here caught up in the shell 

I still scratch I still kick I still fuck myself up 
there ain't a thing that I can't do anymore 
I took the pain put it in last I evolved 
I swear progression always been such a chore 
I swear depression always wanted much more 
I swear discussion always been my decor 
I swear percussion plays when I'm on the floor 
another year n I still struggle out the door

dispensed (tgwog)

mixed n mastered by me
prod by @tgwog always
lyrics: 
I feel so lost n
everyone seems toxic 
I feel so problematic 
and exhausted 
I can't keep softly acting
like I ain't nauseous 
I'm constantly cautious 
walking wit a mopstick 
stacking up my options 
what would I do without my girl 
I must have lost it 
if u ain't here this ain't my world 
I'd give every cost man
if my brotha quitting then I'ma quit it too
if u taking breaks then ima be there too 
if everyone snakes then ima beat em too 
Ive been feeling shitty missed ur 22 
life been feeling shitty n Im still missing u 
glad I left that clique I'd never follow through 
I've been doing shit that I'll be proud of soon 
I feel like a rat I'm in the monsoon 
fuck about this race like it's a cartoon

follow thru (tgwog)

i try my hardest baby :,(


ahay:
fill my cup with mud I'm sipping dirty 
paint the room with my blood at 11:30 
she be texting my phone baby im worried
pls just leave me alone I'm feeling blurry 
I try my hardest baby 
want me to give her my heart I tell her maybe 
I ain't been shooting for the stars lately 
I've been blue off the bars baby 
fill my cup with mud I'm sipping dirty 
paint the room with my blood at 11:30 
she be texting my phone baby im worried
pls just leave me alone I'm feeling blurry 

hawk hook:
she be calling my phone not knowin that I'm off the dirty 
screaming fuck u hoe knowing that she did me dirty 
I went to hell n back for you so I can become worthy 
but all u ever did for me is notherfuckin hurt me

11:30

11:30 w/ lil hawk boy (prod. ro$egold)

@sewerperson
chorus:
don't hold your blade to my neck 
hold me hostage instead 
I can't render the pain 
I think my life is a stain 
put the gun to my head 
leave me to die in my bed 
must be something I said 
why are u stuck in my head 

hook:
violence and crime im pretty sure I wanna die tonight 
privacy I try to give but I'm the one that's suffering 
I swear I've had enough of it


sewerperson:

alright
alright
alright ya
baby im faded where are u at i couldnt find ya
blood in my eyes when i cry 
i stepped out my window just to fly i couldnt believe my eyes
i wake up inside a sweat just right before i die
i could deal with phases but it happens every night
im so sick and tired of yelling i dont wanna fight
ill take my chances with these omens  just to make it right

chorus / hook repeat

suffering

suffering w/ sewerperson (prod. athan.kaz)

@funeral
@prodbytheswitch

Lyrics:

ahay intro:

get away from me I told u don't start 
all the ways u could've picked up my heart 
but u weren't there for me when times got hard
how dare u come back hollup wait 

playing dumb with me I promise it's gon catch u up 
gain some modesty or honestly they'll snatch u up 
how ur friends turn into fans when I start rackin up 
better yet
hahahaha 

hook:

but you don't get that 
Everytime you send a text watch me forget that 
watch myself fall to the pavement from the set back 
and I can't help but think to myself


funeral verse: 

and i watch it all fall apart
in her mind, it's like a work of art
i aint the one to play with broken hearts

wait, put it reverse
you the only who knows who knows it fucking hurts
when i call back, you don't get that
why don't you get that, i don't wanna get mad

bitch it aint a game to play around with my heart
playing scary games and walking round in the dark
everything you do i do not know where to start
playing with emotions while insane isnt smart

hook again:

but you don't get that 
Everytime you send a text watch me forget that 
watch myself fall to the pavement from the set back 
and I can't help but think to myself that

you dont get that

you dont get that w/ funeral (prod. switch)

[ay-hay]
long live jerm.
he/they

inquiries: ahayxo1@gmail.com

ahay

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