Song: "Lovesick"
Collection: "From A to Z, and Everything In Between"

Written, Recorded, and Produced by Allen Casillas
Choir Arrangement by Daniel Escobar

Additional vocals by Dalila Morales, Eli Vargas, and Daniel Escobar.
Intro ft. Liz Lovechild

Photo: Girlsoffyf 
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Lovesick

Depression. Dreaming. Dreaming. Dreaming.

My mind see everything. The movements. I notice.

333 Pt.2: Body

My cover of Frank Ocean's "Thinking About You". Made the beat from scratch in about an hour, vocals took a little longer haha. Enjoy! I love this song.

"Thinking About You" Frank Ocean Cover

I either got wisdom shining in, or this pen just want to expend. Who am I to stop the flow? You gotta go when you gotta go

Cover: Devin Simbol
Twitter: @glxss23

Mental (By The Ego; Prod. by Ahh-Ceh)

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas

Thinking ‘Bout You (Ahh-Ceh Remix)”

You flip some tarot cards and decide flipping one of your favorite songs is the way to flip your anxious energy. Apprehensive to share this, but fuck it. Let’s be raw for a second.

Lyrics:
A tornado flew around my room before you came
Excuse the mess it made, it usually doesn't rain in
Southern California, much like Arizona
My eyes don't shed tears, but, girl, they bawl
When I'm thinkin' 'bout you (ooh, no, no, no)
I've been thinkin' 'bout you (you know, know, know)
And I've been thinkin' 'bout you
Do you think about me still? Do ya?
Or do you not think so far ahead? 
'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (ooh, ooh)
Or do you not think so far ahead?
'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever (ooh, ooh)
No I don’t like you, we was just fucking every night I’d see you
Ain’t no rubber, I’d just bust one inside you
Since you think I don’t love you
I’m real horny
the truth; That’s why I miss you
I got this fighter jet, I don’t get to fly it though
I’m LYING…
...down
Thinking ‘bout you
I've been thinkin' 'bout you (you know, know, know) 
and I've been thinkin' 'bout you
Do you think about me still?
Do ya?
Or do you not think so far ahead? 
'Cause I been thinkin' 'bout forever 
I’m sorry
I didn’t mean to think this far ahead
Lately I’ve been thinking forever oooo
Yes, of course
I remember, how could I forget
Our old deal?
It’s just that ever since our first time 
I learned what it’s like to heal 
You’re like the opposite of cold
You warm my soul and
You keep my spirit alive
Our time apart feels slowed
Without your amber aura
Plus, I miss your light
Again, I’m sorry
Didn’t mean to think this far ahead
Cuz I’ve been thinking ‘bout forever
I didn’t mean to think this far ahead
I’m willing to move on however you intend

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Thinking About You (Ahh-Ceh Remix)

Amber Series, Part 2: This rewrite is told from the perspective of someone who feels his depression and anxiety let love slip away.

Original Artist: Movements
Guitar: Joshua Unitt


“Daylily (Ahh-Ceh Remix)”

Outside for the first time in a longtime
Lose myself, sink into the sunlight
It's been a while since I felt right
But the warm nights are coming soon, and I'll be just fine
I’ll be just fine
I’ll be just fine
Outside for the first time in a longtime
Told you I can't remember what it's like 
to feel no cold on the inside
Hope the sunrise will come again and I'll be just fine
I hope it’s in time

I think it's time I had a pink cloud summer
'Cause I've gone too long without a smile
I hope next time I give a number
of reasons you’d stay for a while
You should stay for a while

I sit and trace steps of your light on the green side
Lose myself sink into your sunlight
Breath in the breeze like a sweet sigh keep me tongue tied
Had this last forever I’d be just fine, oh I’d be just fine
You had every reason to leave
My trees had nothing but rotten leaves
You saw the divine 
Shine inside me,  Shine inside me
And I didn’t see it in me

I think it's time I had a pink cloud summer
'Cause I've gone too long without a smile
I hope next time I give a number
Of reasons you’d stay for a while

And I think it's time I gave myself a little color
The road’s paved black, but I would love amber for miles
I hope next time, I give a number of reasons to stay for a while
I think it's time I had a pink cloud summer
Feel I’ve gone too long without your smile
I hope next time I give a number of reasons you would stay for a while

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Daylily (Ahh-Ceh Remix)

Music is "Soulful" by L’indécis
Lyrics and vocal performance by Ahh-Ceh

“Life’s A Party”

I thought I was losing hope
I thought I should reach for rope
Thought I would reach for gun
Point at self, pull the trigger, and miss the real fun

You know: the clean up?
My boy beat me to it
Survivor's guilt; ain't see like Cena
Would say I'm alive cuz I'm warrior, like Xena
but too worried bout my chakram
mama says that I'm her vida
(I said chakram, like the circle)

Tried too hard to make time speed up
and my life was all regret leading up to quarantina
got homies saying God sending SOS in morse code
. . . _ _ _ . . .
3      3      3 -  you know it's coming
only chosen ones know

It's late at night
it's been like this everyday,
wake up the same damn time (3:33)
I write same damn rhymes
That I've been too depressed, I've had my fill of lifetime

Favorite number, 30 years old
Some say it's something like this party 
30 years to go
my dad was 30, 
something like um, 30 years ago
I've had anxiety bout it since I was six or so

Nothing to do with my obsession with the triple numbers
It's just these thoughts been ringing out like rolling thunder
and I never did any homework that my therapist gave me
truth is, I didn't think that more therapy could save me
So...
Should I admit that I've felt so much peace?
Simultaneously, people dying of disease?
Left and right
Fuck what you think 'bout politics tho
We over those, people overdosed on
Party patriotism, kinda red and blue gang schism 
person in prison deserve no voice
while the police patrol serve our VICE:
money, power
hunger to the poor 
or just bean bags or rice
can't have those nice things, get it?
Only democrats care about the people and don't you dare forget it
If you disagree, man, don't you dare admit it (shhhh)
Y NO SE TE OLVIDE VOTAR PARA EL
correct rapist in November
or it gonna be a really cold December
in the cages Obama built para mi gente

You feel me? Like, I'm all for voting out the current admin
but don't mistake Biden for some honest politician who is going to do right by our people. Make sure you give him the same energy you're giving Trump
Cuz while you were out there shouting "Black Lives Matter" and protesting police brutality: they gave you a cop for a vice president
and if you don't see what's wrong with that, you're part of the problem.

fuck you too 
and foos who wrote the rules
we on a HUMVEE for a cruise
in hunt of folk to shoot for Schumer
more nuanced sarcasm, we wore out the phrase "okay boomer"
Talking about the times we invade countries based off a rumor

Funny, life's a cartoon and I've no monsters in my pocket
they all stuffed up in my mind
Facade knows how-how to hide it
so when I suh-succumb to the double damage
you'd know the calculation if you is 'bout it ‘bout it : I AM 
(I got NO LIMITS)
I'm done hiding behind a band
I love my homies
but gnomies sprinkled my eyes with magic sand
and it showed me all about my music
the ticket to stranger land
map layout said follow my heart
and that god will use guiding hands

Good fortune says that it is out in transit
As long as all the shit I make keep coming out fantastic
and I ain't never make no plastic
it's bad enough that the pollution gathered up is really massive
No more passive, time for savage
Here Ahh-Ceh go
El Ahh-Ceh flow
hide your girl, cuz 
El Ahh-Ceh el amor
and he do more
on the kit, he bang
fuck 4 on the floor
Hail the Sun or VIS
all eyes on me 
when you come to shows
it's murder

Like, like the way I killed this instrumental
You know?
Like, like, the way that I do skins when I, when I, when I play with the drums
Like, like, like, the way people say that I kill it on stage whenever they see me
Like, like, wh-the waypeople say I kill it whenever I do ANYTHING
So why the fuck am I depressed?
Like…
WHY THE FUCK AM I DEPRESSED!?
… why the fuck am I obsessed?
the way I chase accomplishments ain't yet bring me success

Ahh-Ceh

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