Teen’s Suicide 
was obviously inspired by the band “Teen Suicide”
it’s a song about unattended teens taking the easy way out

Lyrics: 

no ones ever worried
don’t you lie to me

you say that you care 
but we both know that’s a lie

little attention
leads to teen’s suicides

Teen’s Suicide

track 1/13
PROD. lou_xp

Lyrics:

i am falling down
theres no point in getting up now
theres no more room left inside my head
for happy thoughts
they filled it with bad
now i’m just left here to rot
now i’m tired
i don’t deserve anything i’ve acquired
i want to die

but i cant stand, hearing another mother cry
so i’m still alive
i’m alive 

though i want to die
i’m left alive
i’m left alive
i’d hate to see you cry cause i died
that’s why i’m alive
but you’ll cry anyway
cause i’m the cause of your pain

Falling Down // I Wanna Die

track 6/13
prod. matt bartkus

Lyrics:

can you find
reasons to go?
i’ve been wanting you to go since long ago
all my life
i’ve hated myself
can’t take care of you cause i cant take care of myself

i am hard to love
i’m never enough
i say i’m tough
but don’t believe that stuff
you say not to worry about anything 
i know you still love me but i don’t fee the same

i admit i’m not a man
i hope that you can

find reasons to go
i’ve been wanting you to go since long ago

it takes me too long
to realize
that i have no idea what i’m doing at all times
sometimes i forget that we live 2 separate lives 
you’ll stay living yours 
while i’m still living mine
maybe what’s meant for us is there more then i can’t see
cause i’m oblivious to all signs and seeds
i plant one 
and it grows a rotten tree
theres no happily ever after here with me

so, can you find
reasons to go?
i’ve been wanting you to go since long ago
all my life
i’ve hated myself
can’t take care of you cause i cant take care of myself (x2)

Leave Me (ft. LucaCCB)

Track 7/13
prod. mistake.

Lyrics:

seems like you got it all figured out
don’t think i’m any use to you
and i’m sorry for getting in your way
making you more confused
i always ruin it all, all

baby would you find it in your heart to forget me?
it’s the best thing you can do
cause i’m only causing you more of a heartache
i’m a mistake

it seems like you got it all figured out
don’t think i’m any use to you
and i’m sorry for getting in your way
making you more confused
i always ruin it all, all

I Always Ruin It All

Track 13/13
prod. nobodysthereforme

Lyrics:

i know i’m not a good person at all
but not everything is my fault

but why’d you have to tell me
that you don’t wanna love me
you could’ve just left me

i hope you cant rest easy when you go to sleep
i hope it eats at you what you have said to me

i lay in bed and i grind my teeth
the way you hurt my heart, and you make it bleed
i never wanna go to sleep again
hopefully i wind up dead

Teeth Grinder

month old song was hesitant on posting cuz i wanted to post only when i have a new sound, still experimenting, still trying.

Baby

PRODUCED BY PERIL 
new song guys, new era, i’ve been away for a while, went through so much pain, but i’m trying to move on and keep pushing, this is a new era, new everything, i hope you stick with me, and if you’re new, welcome and i love you.

This Time Around?

the first track to my “hush” ep

lyrics:
hush
hush

i stayed up all night to try to fix us once again

hush

but it just never works out
so i stay quiet instead

hush
is all i should do
cause everything’s about you
everything’s about you
i should’ve just stayed mute
didn’t matter what i’d say
but u forgive you in the end anyway
(i love you)

hush (intro)

lyrics:
let me raise a glass 
to what we used to be
all that time has passed
i hope you loved me for me

it hurts to see you leave
i’m sorry for not being there 
when you would need me

i can’t forgive myself so i hope you forgive me
i’m sorry for the times where you would cry
and i would get angry

so let us raise a glass
to what we used to be

hm
you know
that i would give you the world
if you didn’t leave
why’d you have to leave?
why couldn’t you stay for
a little longer?

To What We Used To Be (Ft. murkii)

and right when i thought she was the one
gave all that i had and now it’s gone
and i’m not even one to complain
cause i was the problem anyway

yet i’m losing myself at the thought of you
tried killing myself to be something new
knowing that’s not what you’d want me to do
but i’d do anything to be cared by you

would you want me to be
with you for eternity?
or would you leave?
would you leave?
yes i want to be 
with you for eternity
but i don’t know
if you’re gonna go

i remember a time i wasnt dumb
they invented a word for how much i huffed
i drank all your valentino perfume
tryna attach myself to you
i remember a time you were the one
there never was a time you were the one
sometimes i think i’m not enough
you proved i was right all along

would you want me to be
with you for eternity?
or would you leave?
would you leave?
yes i want to be 
with you for eternity
but i don’t know
if you’re gonna go

(both accapella)
would you want me to be
with you for eternity?
or would you leave?
would you leave?

For Eternity (Ft. emowrld_)

lyrics:
my promises
to always love you
i meant all of them
they’re all true

and i’d still hold your hand even if no ones around
cause i love you
and i mean it
but it’s hard for you
to see it
i know i made mistakes
but that’s what you made me out to be
to be

oh i’d hold you
until the end of time
if only you were mine
if only you were mine
and now i’m on the road
with no place to call home
since you’re not here with me
since you’re not here with me
no i haven’t
gotten over you yet my dear
i don’t think i will
but i think you already have
and you’re still staying super mad
holding a grudge
holding a grudge

love notes with no more meaning
the love story ends with how i was just dreaming
of a picture perfect life
with you by my side
but i don’t really mind
since i’m doing just fine
the first couple days it was really hard
wrote a really long note to myself with some hearts
hoping that maybe one day that i could just send it to you
let you process all the things that i have said because they’re true
how i love you
and i mean it
but it’s hard for you 
to see it 
it isn’t that way anymore

i won’t hold you 
until the end of time
because you are not mine
and that is just fine!
and now i’m on the road
with a place to call home
since i’ve got friends with me
and some family
yes i have
gotten over you
my dear
i didn’t think i will
i’m glad that you already have
don’t care if you’re staying all mad
holding a grudge
holding a grudge

My Promises

lyrics:

sweet little boy
why don’t you tell me right now
what you think is gonna happen
in a couple years from now?
i’ll tell you right now
to keep your hopes down
cause theres lots of things that’ll happen 
that’ll make you not wanna stick around

don’t worry about that 
just go hug your dad
and if he asks if you can play with him
just say that you can

go kiss your mom
and strengthen your bond
i know you hear these a lot
but you should give it a thought

sweet little boy
go play with your toys
and keep that smile on your face
the one no one can erase
i know you wanna grow up
you wanna look tough
but boy i’ll tell you right now
that’ll come with some stuff that you don’t want

(aidan, aidan, hi, say hi, say hi aidan, aidan, aidan! say hi - say ‘ah’, beautiful eyes)

swee tlittle boy
don’t look for love
i know you want validation
that you’re not too ugly to love
just know you’re not good
at giving it out
you’ll say some stuff you never mean
overshadow your good deeds


at 15 you’ll die
you will cry
but we’re getting out of this one
don’t think that i’m done
i’ll keep on moving my legs
i’ll try to ace all my tests
the tests in life
the tests in school
i’ll do my best for you
all for you

sweet boy

after all the positive response on tiktok, i’m pleased to finally release this song, asni had gotten tired of it, i’m glad i can finally move onto different songs while also giving the people what they wanted ! enjoy guys, love yall better music on its way, trust me <3

LOVESICK!

a stupid teenager who makes music for outcasts like me
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