“Through It All” (dance anthem version)

It’s tender, ethereal, and comforting — like a whispered embrace in the dark.

In the Spotlight

"A Smile That Lies" is more than just a song – it’s a glimpse into what depression feels like. Behind the smile there’s a weight, an emptiness that words often fail to capture. This track was written to raise awareness and to give a voice to those silent struggles, blending raw emotion with haunting melodies.
If you know someone who suffers... be there for them. Aks for professional help.
If you find yourself in this song? Please consider asking family or friends for help. Or even professionals. There are hotlines in almost every country.

And please consider donating to institutions that help people with depressions in your country!
One of many examples in Germany is:
https://www.deutsche-depressionshilfe.de/unterstuetzen-sie-uns/spenden
THANK YOU!

Lyrics, concept & creativity by me – music produced with AI (Suno).


[Intro]

[Verse 1]  
I run in circles, trapped inside my head,  
rewind the same regrets until I’m spent.  
The clock moves on but I stay in my bed,  
every second feels like punishment.  

[Pre-Chorus]  
I want to rise, I want to change,  
but I’m paralyzed, locked in this cage.  
The days collapse, they slip away,  
while I just fade in slow decay.  

[Chorus]  
I’m a flawless actor, with a smile that lies,  
laughing for the crowd while my spirit dies.  
You see the colors painted on my face,  
but inside it’s empty—only endless space.  

[Verse 2]  
Thoughts like spirals, spinning without end,  
a thousand miles and never one real step.  
It’s heavier than any race I’ve ran,  
just breathing leaves me out of breath.  

[Pre-Chorus]  
I want to move, I want to care,  
but my hands hang useless in the air.  
The hours bleed, they disappear,  
I vanish quietly year by year.  

[Chorus]  
I’m a flawless actor, with a smile that lies,  
laughing for the crowd while my spirit dies.  
You see the sunlight shining in my eyes,  
but inside it’s darkness, where the silence cries.  

[Bridge]  
Can you see the mask I wear?  
Can you hear the hollow stare?  
I play the part, the world believes…  
but behind the curtain, I can’t breathe.  

[Final Chorus]  
I’m a flawless actor, with a smile that lies,  
laughing for the crowd while my spirit dies.  
You see the laughter, but it’s just disguise—  
inside I’m drowning, nothing left alive.  

[Outro]

A Smile That Lies

Shadows of Regret

Verse 1
You thought the silence kept you safe
But secrets always find their way
The mirror shows what lies can’t hide
The weight you carry deep inside

Pre-Chorus
Now the moment’s catching up with you
Nothing left but what is true

Chorus  
You can’t escape the price you choose
Every step’s a debt you’ll lose
The past returns, the mask removed
There’s no escape from shadows of regret

Verse 2
The words you whispered fade to dust
But promises decay with rust
No comfort in the games you play
The truth is all that stays

Pre-Chorus
Now the moment’s catching up with you
Nothing left but what is true

Chorus
You can’t escape the price you choose
Every step’s a debt you’ll lose
The past returns, the mask removed
There’s no escape from shadows of regret
 
Bridge
All the doors you tried to close
Open wide, the story shows
Time won’t heal what’s been betrayed
Only truth remains

Final Chorus
You can’t escape the price you choose
Every step’s a debt you’ll lose
The past returns, the mask removed
There’s no escape from shadows of regret

Flow

Shadows of Regret (Synthwave Mix)

Say farewell

You didn’t ask / I didn’t speak
like we  were always just gonna meet
The air went still / the world fell quiet
And I knew the truth / without trying to write it…
We were just talking, nothing planned
Your hand brushed mine, not quite a stand
The light was low, the room was wide
But all I saw was what you tried
No lines rehearsed, no script to read
Just silence blooming like a seed
You leaned in close, I didn’t move
And something shifted in the groove
You said it all without saying
You touched the part I kept delaying
You found the note I couldn’t play
And held it there, then walked away
You said it all without saying
You turned the night into relaying
A thousand things I couldn’t name
But still I felt them just the same
I felt the warmth before the flame
The hush before you spoke my name
You didn’t speak, but I heard loud
The way you looked beneath the cloud
No need for words, no need for sound
Just breath and space and hearts unbound
You didn’t ask, I didn’t cry
But something real had passed us by
It wasn’t lips, it wasn’t skin
It was the fire that burns within
It was the pause, the held-back sigh
The way you didn’t even try
It was the echo in the air
The way you didn’t have to dare
It was the truth we didn’t speak
But still it made my knees go weak
You said it all without saying
You touched the part I kept delaying
You found the note I couldn’t play
And held it there, then walked away
You said it all without saying
You turned the night into relaying
A thousand things I couldn’t name
But still I felt them just the same
You said it all without saying
You turned the night into relaying
A thousand things I couldn’t name
But still I felt them just the same
You said it all… without saying…
You said it all…
You said it all… without...... saying….you said it ...all....

🌹Thanks to the players from H.C. and Del's studio

All Rights held by songwriter Edwin H. Balder.

Be sure to visit Tina's playlist here:
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And Tina's new music video here:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=6TZvNm4nfdQ

Without Saying by 🌹Tina Talone🌹

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Chasing the Flame (Synth-Vibrate Bass)

Chasing the Flame-Stranger Things ED (Synth-Vibrate Bass)

Ein Takt aus Stille, ein Schlag aus Mut,
Die Zeit schreibt Noten in unser Blut.
Jede Sekunde ein leiser Ton,
Flüstern im Wind, ein Herz aus Beton.
Die Tage tanzen
Wie ein Schatten, der uns niemals bleibt.
Tief in uns, da brennt ein Lied,
Das uns über die Grenzen zieht.

Hörst du die Melodie der Zeit,
Wie sie uns formt und uns befreit?
Jeder Moment, ein kleiner Ton.
Ein Echo in mir, ein Chor aus Gefühlen geschrieben auf Papier.

Vergang‘ne Strophen,
Die Zukunft, ein Song, den wir nicht ganz versteh‘n.
Doch in den Pausen liegt ein Geheimnis verborgen,
Ein Rhythmus für heute, ein Klang für morgen.
Die Zeit ist eine Tänzerin, wild und frei,
Sie dreht sich mit uns, sie bleibt nie stehen.

Hörst du die Melodie der Zeit,
Wie sie uns formt und uns befreit?
Jeder Moment, ein kleiner Ton.
Ein Echo in mir, ein Chor aus Gefühlen geschrieben auf Papier.

Und wenn die Dunkelheit uns findet,
Wenn der letzte Ton langsam verklingt.
Bleibt ein Akkord, der uns verbindet,
Ein leises Lied, das weiter klingt.

Schenk mir Töne....
Einen Akkord, nur für mich...

Hörst du die Melodie der Zeit,
Wie sie uns formt und uns befreit?
Jeder Moment, ein Stück von dir,
Ein Echo in mir, ein Chor aus Gefühlen geschrieben auf Papier.

Hörst du die Melodie der Zeit?
Sie singt für uns, sie bleibt.

Melodie der Zeit (Alternative Version)

Pestilent - alternate pop

Waiting For The Sun

SPOTIFY LINK
https://open.spotify.com/track/0PJejBQxzaJg7w8wTsJtsi?si=76386760192d4c9c

LYRICS
[Verse 1]
I’m staring at the mirror,
trying to find a face I recognize.
But it’s all been changing,
like I’m someone I don’t know yet.

[Pre-Chorus]
And everyone says, “You’ll figure it out,”
but what if I don’t?

[Chorus]
I don’t know who I am
or what I’m supposed to want.
I’m just trying to make it through the day
without losing myself completely.

[Verse 2]
Friends move on, plans fall apart,
and I’m still standing in the same spot.
Trying to act like I’m okay,
but inside it’s a mess I can’t clean up.

[Pre-Chorus]
And everyone says, “You’ll figure it out,”
but what if I don’t?

[Chorus]
I don’t know who I am
or what I’m supposed to want.
I’m just trying to make it through the day
without losing myself completely.

[Bridge]
Maybe there’s no answer,
just walking in the dark.
Maybe it’s okay
to be a little lost for a while.

[Final Chorus]
I don’t know who I am
and I’m scared I never will.
But maybe that’s the point
to keep trying anyway.

Losing Myself

AiMee Pickman isn't my real name. I've been producing music for a few years as a form of creative therapy just for myself as part of an ongoing healing process, so I never put any of it online until recently. 
I'll be adding tracks every few days, starting with the older material first... it's a schizo mixture of apocalyptic, cosmic horror and introspective real life themed material across a variety of music genres and styles and also instrumental pieces. We produce versions of the songs in various styles to keep things interesting for ourselves (myself and my invaluable production guy) and to allow us to explore the different contexts and perceptions a few subtle changes can often create.
I'm not looking for fame and fortune or popularity. My music isn't for everyone but if any of it resonates please feel free to come along with me on this journey.

Pestilent - alternate pop

AiMee Pickman

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