lyrics ~

my grief has finally learned that it's easier
to seize a bruised heart all at once
the claws are closing in, i am falling
no blood and flesh but squelching mud

the shooting star you swallowed is the centre 
of the world i come from
girl, you devoured a sun, will you devour me too?
if i tell you the truth: i want you, it’s true
because my heart is in ur hands, it’s squishy and putrid
but all of it, sugar and blood, it all belongs to you

the darkness of the hunger deep 
within me
would it ruin you?

my grief has finally learned that it's easier
to seize a bruised heart all at once
the claws are closing in and i am falling
no blood and flesh but squelching mud

TO SEIZE A BRUISED HEART

lyrics ~

u still remember
my phone’s always out of charge
but u were quick to answer
when he asked if we were in love

maybe all i gave u wasn't enough

and like u said in english class
i loved u for love’s sake
i thought that was what u asked
but maybe it was too much 

and here i was, worrying, i wasn’t enough

but if u need less serious love
the colour of ur hair in the sun
will always be enough for me

i still pray this is a trick
because it worked too well
i pretend that ur in reach
because i want to be held 

cos thats what i want, i want u
i want u
i want u
i want u
i want u
my finger in ur mouth
ur tongue, ur skin 

and i’m heartbroken, in the eyes of a romantic
or i am mourning, in the eyes of a dramatic
and in the words of a poet, i am just lonely
but in the shouts of a cynic, i am free

why aren’t i free
and why don’t u love me

i’m definitely not a cynic

girls can fuck each other (up) too

lyrics ~

it’s late at night and still i can’t sleep
my eyes are blurry with tomorrow
but when i stare into the sky
the stars are a hazy double vision

then the nightmare returns to me in a hot flash
knocking the air from my lungs
the aching memories of your naked body 
writhe just out of my grasp
like a dream i can’t quite remember 
but i remember this one

but it's okay, and as i stare into the sky
the stars are a hazy double vision 

look into the purple sky
the bruises, can’t you see them?
you choke me till i’m purple, why
are they not real then?
the bruises, can’t you see them?
the bruises, can’t you see them?
my bruises, can’t you feel them?
if i’m not bruised, i’m not real then

the stars are a hazy double vision
a writhing mass of black stretched thin 
and caught alight, the fragments taking flight
like the stars your caught alight, we’re caught alight
together let’s take flight all night long 
all night long

try to find my bruises all night long

hazy double vision

lyrics ~

you have three pairs of wings
and a thousand more eyes
so love, won’t you tell me
what it's like for you to cry?

my love, give me your hand
i’ll press my lips to your flesh
don’t slip away like sand
oh please don’t slip away again

i learnt it's not so terrible
to fall in love with life
my love, it's not so horrible
to finally feel alive

i know your heart beats unevenly
but let me listen to your breath
i could hold you steadily
till you feel alive again

i learnt it's not so terrible
to fall in love with life
my love, it's not so horrible
to finally feel alive

there is a place, my love
where we will be safe
for if we only sing hymns
we’ll never feel alive again

holy holy
holy holy holy
holy holy
holy holy holy

i learnt it's not so terrible
to fall in love with life
my love, it's not so horrible
to finally feel alive

i finally feel alive
i finally feel alive
you make me feel alive
alive alive alive

i finally feel alive
i finally feel alive
you make me feel alive
alive alive alive

HOLY HOLY HOLY

lyrics ~

your stuck in my fractured mind
your rotting me from the inside 
your haunting all my fevered dreams
now i don’t even know what's real
and you are all that’s left
because in my dreams, in my head
in my dreams, in my head

you not even a person anymore
but were you ever a person at all?

and i wanted a part of you that i made up in my head
i’m not too young to want things
but my love was young and now it’s dead
i’m not too young to want things
but am i too young to want you this way?

but the worst part is i don’t care
if i die, if you die i wouldn’t even be scared
so i ask you, i ask you

what’s god got that i can’t find in your arms
and what’s god got that your can’t find in me
i have everything if your dig deep enough
so dig a little deeper into me

but i’m broken and bruised, so be careful baby
be careful not to once again break me
as you dig deep into me

your rotting me from the inside 
your haunting all my fevered dreams
now i don’t even know what's real
and you are all that’s left
because in my dreams, in my head
in my dreams, in my head

ARCHEOLOGIST BABY

hello, my name is aisling!!!! my pronouns are xe/xem/xyr and i like writing poetry and songs. i hope u enjoy my music :)

aisling thámhais

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