Name: Grateful (jkjmetasco) by ajinrx4 in Diary 101
Duration: 2 min 38 s
Description: #RRG

Diary 101

the word sorry wasn’t enough

SSupporting That (prod. Bkwds)

My life hasn't been the best I know that bc I'm just not like the rest. I'm feeling blue inside cuz I'm so depressed, I dunno how else I'm being so upset. Gotta put a smile on my face I don't want no one to know, I know that I'll die one day but I just wonder how I'll go. Will I kill my self, or will I die unexpected? Yeah she broke my heart, that was sum expected, what did i do wrong? Bitch u left me for dead. I just hate her guts, now I know where we stand.

I can't eat no more, cuz I feel sick. Anxiety it took over my body now bruh I feel sick. I relate so much to Travis cuz these girls are all the same. they don't care about me, yeah they're all the same. I was high on the streets and it was 3 AM, was high asf on the streets and they were worried man. 

I could've died that night, it was just one of those damn nights. But I always get back to my demons, I'm positive that my shadow is my mfing demon. Bleeding cuts and stitches, dying's on my wishlist. Bro I don't like college, it feels like prison. I don't want a future job no I just wanna make that music, that's all I wanna do I really wanna make music. 

No im not satisfied (x2) I just wanna escape, I  wanna escape this life. I'm in my bedroom I don't got no friends bro. I'm in my bedroom I don't got no friends no, I'm in my bedroom I got no friends no. In my bedroom I gotta record yuh. Huh.

my shadow is a demon

SPOTIFY

my shadow is a demon (prod dimpleb + backxster)

Dunno where to go, I've been in this place before. Picked blades up bro at 13 I wasn't enough, just like my scars bro I'm so fucking lost. Serb I miss u so much yea I just wanna talk, I got scars on my body don't remind me I fucked up. Suicidal thoughts rip robin Williams, no matter what I gotta push thru that shit is resilience. 

She doesn't care about me she she doesn't care bout my feelings. Life's bout learning lessons bro and life's bout all that healing. Guess I got no friends left that shit happens when you're winning.

I make mistakes mistakes mistakes sometimes I fuck up okay, I'm just human don't u understand. I'm just like Gia no one understands, my wrist is bleeding yea it's burning man. These niggas hate me, but I’m not Caring man. She just talked to me but that girl's full of lust, been thru so much pain bitch all I want is love.

Bitch i want is love (x)

awakenings

awakenings (prod dimpleb)

At this point I'm scared to open up and fall in love, cuz I don't wanna be in broken fucking pieces. My blood it hit the floor as I was praying to Jesus, like please help me like can you tell me... I can't even eat today nah and i puked too, nigga as a child I had a dream and it was YouTube. Yea I still got dreams yuh, yeah i gotta chase them. 

I wanna go up w my friends I gotta rest up, wait wait wait I don't even got that many friends. I don't got that many friends, cuz I'll die a lonely man. I'd rather be lonely than to hang with all these fake guys, shoutout to my dad cuz that man taught me much about like. Gotta be a hustler gotta be a hustler gotta be a hustler I can't give up I'm a hustler. 

My dad went to the Netherlands from Ghana and didn't die, yea that nigga saw so much but he's still standing tall. Yea lil boy I got many cuts, but I'm still alive now. They're wanting me to fail yea they're wanting me to fall. I don't owe nobody shit get out ion gaf. Ion owe nobody shit no I don't give a fuck

can't eat (prod 77mending)

I’m surrounded by these people but I'm still feeling isolated, all these niggas wanna sleep on me they all know that I'm underrated. Why'd she kiss me on the lips she knows that she's not gonna see me later. Why'd she do this shit to me she's playing guess bro I’ll be crying later. I don't wanna go to  college I wanna do what I love, I thought that she was the one but I guess that girl she gave up. 

These girls ain't shit they're all the same they're all the same, cuts on my wrist I went thru pain I went thru pain. You tried to kiss on my bro you're nothing but a hoe. Blood it dripped on the floor oh no, oh no-oo-oo.  

I'm tryna make it cuz I wanna give back to my parents, I wanna make it cuz I wanna live life like it's my last day. The only reason I'm still breathing's cuz of my nephew. Whenever I see that lil kid I tell him I love you. I want nothing but happiness for you. 

[osei... 'hello osei'] <3

I hope that you're not gonna go thru what I went through, if u wanna talk ill be there bro I gotchu. niggas is all talk yea they're lame I gotta block u  

Mm-mm-a aa I'm alone

caged

why i'm still breathing (prod backxster)

[I'm dying you know that? I'm dying here.]

I just dunno who to talk to, you lied to my face when you said Osei I love you. Ion think love exists I think that shit is fake, hoes they stay on tinder they can't get away. Am I good enough? Idk. Bitch why'd you leave me? Those times were a lie, yeah I know, the times that you kissed me.

Stop looking at my body and please look at my heart, I'm not made for lust I got pain and I got scars. Whenever I love, I just be loving too hard. And that shit hurts me all the damn time I should do better. I stopped cutting on myself I’m doing better, it's almost been a year yeah I hope I don't relapse. Loneliness follows me everywhere, used to cut my wrist yeah my blood it was everywhere. 

I know that there's something wrong with me, I should try to sign up for that therapy. But last time it felt like no one was helping me, there's no hope, oh. I don't think I wanna go. I got no one left like oh.

Grateful (jkjmetasco)

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