Akam Mixes

Care About You ✦✦✦✦✦✦

UP - UP (feat. Lil Villain) ✦✦✦✦✦

My first lil mixtape! 
All made in 5 days! ☆

s/o to my cat Bobby, that dude rocks

OK - OK (feat. Lil Villain) ✦✦✦

Resting ✦✦

you never trust a bitch born on her birthday.

A Word Of Advice ✦

prod akam + rat!!!!!!

My very first single 💕 💕

Running Off

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The 2nd single!
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Featuring @nathaniel-phillips-6
Produced by @rat_baby

Detrimental (feat. Zen the Alien)

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The 3rd single to my mixtape!
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MV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sS4JaXA6HkA

Featuring @juulimakessongs
Produced by me & @emrl-d
Artwork by me

thx to Nav for doing some backing vocals xoxo

Die N Cry (feat. julian. & Emrld)

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The 4th single!
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Produced by @emrl-d
Artwork by me

a lil different from the other singles but i hope ya enjoy xx

In My Grave

prod akam
mix & master akam

Go to sleep
We wake up fine
What's the point of it
When in due time 
They always say
I'm sorry, I was away
I'm sorry, I was away

I cry to sleep
Count some sheep
And I hope that I 
Will wake up fine
At the end of it
It's all me
Myself, and I

I dream my dreams
But they hurt me 
It's unavoidable
And I feel like 
I might as well, just die
When I can't have control of life
What's the point of it
I'm sorry I was away

Cry to sleep
Cry to the grave
I might as well just die
Crash my car today
Drive it off a bridge and cry
What's the point of it
I crashed my car three times

And I won't see 
My sister's life
My mother will
Never survive
If the bridge holds me
They might not cry
If the shoulder takes me in
I might just be fine

I don't think I wanna try anymore
I just want to cry myself 
to the end of time and go
far, far away
over again, so

I've been waiting 
For a little while, to see
If this feeling will stay
With me

I really hate myself
I really hate every single thing that I am

I've failed so many times
And I've never been held tight enough
See I even failed at trying to die
Even the noose wasn't tight enough

I guess everything is different now
See nowadays, I can see the sun
I guess it's been there all along
I guess I've seen it way before
Back then no rush yet, still a child
When the sunshine could pierce my eyes
The grass was warm yeah it's been time
Maybe things could just be alright
See all this time I tried to die
I didn't see the point of life
But when my friend left earth
I couldn't see his face anymore
I thought that I could learn
Self-love through all the hurt

I will die
I will die one day
I will

I will die one day
All by myself
Yeah, no one beside me
I really didn't realise, till
I went away to the army

That's where I was isolated
In the trees, the forest came to me
Spoke to me
And he said

Akam
How long has it been
Since you talked to him
Since you loved him
Since you were the one to hug him

I'm sorry
I'm sorry my love, I was away

I pass the torch to my child
I tell him, everything's alright

I guess I could love me a little more
I guess I could hug me a little more

I'm sorry if it wasn't tight enough
I'm sorry it wasn't tight enough

We'll be just fine
You'll be just fine
I'll be just fine
I'll be just

Change the meaning flip the switch
Place the grieving in a ditch
Now the feeling is so rich
Why were they calling me a

Like, good witch or bad witch
Why are you asking
I'm a cute bad witch
A good witch is average

I come with a baggage
I come with hurt, pain, that's a lotta damage
Grew out the anguish
Bad feelings vanish
Good in the transit
Attack, was a panic
Fixed by a bandage
I'd look for the sadness
Felt like an addict
Nowadays everything better top of bracket

I was just thirteen, I moved to a country
They wouldn't understand me, cus I was foreign
I used to be sorry, the monobrow haunt me
Now I'm a proud man - sorry I'm not sorry

Like, speak in my language
They don't understand me
It doesn't matter
How can I hate me if I'm the whole package

I love myself
Nobody else, yeah
I feeling amazing

Got a little wiser I'm grand master oogway
Friendship ended with the suicide, this a new face
Found my own peace through therapy and loose change
Got up from my knees with the power of a self-hug 
If you feeling grief yeah make sure you get self-love
It's ok to need help, it's ok to feel rough
I do my own yoga yeah I stretch it out sober
Find what make you calm, yeah breathe a little slower

Okay okay okay
Like, put yourself first

I'm the king, I'm the leo
Everything is ego
Balling like I'm Lionel, I'm balling like a g
Balling with the 7 d'Ors like im Messi
Feeling myself like the G-O-A-T

Top of hill now, I'm so surreal
Affirmations like a damn bike wheel, like

I am worth this 
I am worth that
I just got my confidence back

I love myself on life
Cus Akam is my type
For myself I would die
I am my own prize

No one satisfy me
Akam why you lying
I feel great I'm fine-uhh

Kaksi

I Hate Myself

prod akam + dkane
mix & master akam + aninex

Boom, boom, boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom

Walk in room, all they see is boom
I just stopped by, I swear I zoom
Bunny hop out of here just like phoon
Sandman hairy man, woah sand dune
Terrorist, but they like my tune
Run my shit with my platoon
I'm immune to your typhoons
I'm in tune with myself, you lose

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck 
Fuck you
You, you, you, you 
You, you, you, you 

Half moon Ramadan, and he fasting
States smoking up the gas man, so fantastic
5 a day praying like he fuckin grafting
In a different way we all same, why you acting?

He aint vicious, why you saying that he lacking?
Stop nagging, if you gonna cry, get a napkin
Ukip acting
Fuck, fuck your taxes, 
Fuck, fuck your mansion
Fuck, fuck your shit up
Fuck, fuck you asking?
Watch your mirror
You the fucking killer 
You need a babysitter

I am from the Middle East
So you think I got missiles, please?
What you think my country is?
Why you like the food, but you not like me?
Why you walk rich, yet you smell like cheese?
Rich minion, Aliexpress yeat
Don't talk loud to me don't talk mean

Boom, boom, boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom

Walk in room, all they see is boom
I just stopped by, I swear I zoom
Bunny hop outta here just like phoon
Sandman hairy man, woah sand dune
Terrorist, but they like my tune
Run my shit with my platoon
I'm immune to your typhoons
I'm in tune with myself, you lose

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck
Fuck you
You, you, you, you 
You, you, you, you 

Get out of here with all your silence
I could never ever ever ever be a pilot
Uhh too violent
Nah, I don't buy it 
(SHH)
Roundhead bitch looking like Caillou
You don't spice your food bitch yeah, I do 
Tiny bit of salt won't make me like u

I'm a nice boy from a different place
Dress like you but just from a different race
I don't choose what people really wanna say
I don't choose what I eat on the daily
Can't you see how the system really fucking failed me
Rich stay high, yet my cousins in jail-uh
If you wanna win then you gotta be paler

Don't talk shit bout my mommy or my daddy
Shit that make so so aggy
Only thing that really make me happy
White boy looking like fucking shaggy
Shits uncanny
Get your work done
Wouldn't it be handy
I stay up on beats like Kenny 

Don't overthink shit
Just keep my distance
From you bitches
You got billions
Paint me the villain
Skin brown 
Doesn't mean that I'm killing

Rich clown 
Bring crown
I'm a king now

Boom, boom, boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom
Boom, boom, boom, boom

Boom, like boom
Boom, like boom

Boom Boom

prod outset
mix & master akam

No one satisfy me
Akam, why you lying?
I feel great I'm fine-uhh 
I just glorify me

I just glorify me
I just glorify me

King

prod akam + io flagrant
mix & master akam

If I have just one wish
I wish to be someone else
I can't resist, this feeling 
That's deep in - within my shell

Will it hurt till I'm hollow?
Or will it get better tomorrow?
To be honest, I lost my confidence
If I'm real with you it was all an accident
Not my fault, just a consequecne
Every time I talked nobody listened in

I wish I could be
Anybody, but me

Yaaah!

Rip my heart from my chest
You make me so stressed
All the stuff in my brain onto your own plate
Lost in my mind, can't make it out my cave

T- T- T- T- Test me
Lie to me and mess with me 
Think I feel fake, my soul is my own enemy

R- R- Resting
I am never resting
Oh how it ache, when she is just not next to me

Wha- wha- whyyy-yy?
Do you have to liee-ee?
Tell me that I'm good enough
I can't see it in your eyes

I wish to be someone else
Anybody, but myself

Ah, ah
I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish
I wish to be, I wish to be
I wish to be, I wish to be
I wish to be, I wish to be
I wish to be, I wish to be
I wish to be, I wish to be
I wish I could-  anybody
I wish to be
Someone else
Anybody, but myself

Listen 2 Me (feat. Helän)

prod akam
mix & master akam

Move move next move
Now move move next move
Now move move next move
Now move move next move

Now move move next move, now move move next move
Now move move next move, now move move next move
Now move move next move, now move move next move
Now move move next move, now move move next move

First I make friends then I move
This a magic trick I leave like poof
Vanish to the next room
Banish me from my school
That's why I lose

I was- I was- I was- I was-

I was feeling low moods
I was feeling no news
I was stuck in a loop
I was seeking the noose
Then I turned to the shrooms
Then I turned to my booze
Now I got loose screws
Ain't nobody wanna choose a-	

New house, new car, new job, new ounce
So far, no thoughts, oh lord, I fall 

Fall right back to the same differences
I'm not, I'm not, I'm not missing this
All my feelings reeling in, might just go and seal it in
I'm never me again, I wish I was happy man
I wish I was killing it, but I gotta move again
But I gotta move again, but I gotta move again

I don't need new friends, I just need a home
As soon as I leave, I feel alone
I don't think you notice, cus I'm unknown
Just gotta focus, on my own

I just make friends then I dash
All of my friends in the past 
Move move move then I pack
You don't really understand
All to my own I'm last
That's why I head to the ramps
That's why I spend all my cash
That's why I put an advance
To my own plans, till I just crash

Till I just move 
Till I just move 
Till I just move 
Till I just move
Till I just move
Till I just what
Till I just woah
Till I just what
Till I just what
Till I just what

Okay what okay what
Nah moooove
Okay what okay what
Nah mooove

Move move next move, like move move next move
Now move move next move, like move move next move
Like move move next move, like move move next move 
Now move move next move, like move move next move

Okayyy,
Okay what okay
Okay what?

Okay what okay what
Nah moooove
Okay what okay what
Nah mooove

Now move move next move, now move move next move
Now move move next move, now move move next move
Now move move next move, now move move next move
Now move move next move, now move move next move
Now-

Move Move Next Move

prod akam + ItzKP
mix & master akam

I've been away for a while
Put myself in a deep hole for a while
Everybody thought I would turn out fine, they lied
I was just made in their head all the time

Thought they would leave me alone
But they still call my phone
Lone wolf, I'm on my own
No one notice if I'm gone

I don't think I can take it anymore
I don't think I can take it anymore
I don't think I can take it anymore
I don't think I can take it anymore

I don't, I don't, I don't
I don't think I can take it anymore

Fall, fall, fall, fall, fall, fall, fall, fall
Fall, fall, fall, fall, fall, fall, fall, woah

Shit I fell, deep down in a cell
Now I'm back, I'll attack 
Bitch get out my way

I was broke, now I'm not
Cus I'm feeling like a buck
They said that my music suck 
I don't give a flying fuck

Fast like a knight, take your L in a chess
Sharp like a knife, put that shit in yo chest

I feel like a king like a god like the shit
I think that you're scared cus you're hiding from your sins
I can't fucking hear you cus you talking like a sim
What the fuck you say, please stop mumbling

That's it 
I don't give a shit 
Who yo daddy is 
I don't- No I don't give a shit

That's it 
I don't give a shit 
Who yo daddy is (hala)
No, I don't give a shit

WOAH

okay, okay, okay

Up up down down left right, cheat code
They just run their mouths now, can't even compete no
Left right one, two, strike, you get beat bro
He gon see stars, how it gon hurt his ego

Up up down down left right, cheat code
They just run their mouths now, can't even compete no
Left right one, two, strike, you get beat bro
He gon see stars, how it gon hurt his ego

Woah, woah, woah, woah
Woah, woah, woah, woah
Woah, woah, yuh, yuh
yuh, yuh, it gon' hurt his ego

prod akam + polygum
mix & master akam + JCR

I don't need to walk on water
Misfit guy yeah, always got his guard up
Outfit fly and his songs hit hard uhh
You is never hot, not even in a sauna

Any beat he make, he slaughter
Thick skin boy hard like an iguana
Thick D3's Osiris, no Prada
He a real king and he steal your daughter

Yeah defuse this
In my brain I choose to
Beat myself like who knew
I think it was voodoo

Yeah defuse this
In my brain I choose to
Beat myself like who knew
I think it was voodoo

Like a wave that's crashing
This a new wave, come quick put yo bag in
Wait too long and your dreams are sagging
Money on my name, all eggs in a basket

Funny how it change, I rearrange 
The future for my fame, got too much range
One song strange, and the next song rage
Can't put me in a cage, I'm a damn sage

Wait wait
Burberry shoes with the bape, bape
They don't really know it's all fake, fake
Ctrl+S and I save, save 

Cast on myself, by my hands
I think I got, too much planned
I think I might choose this chance
Switch my stance, yeah go again

Yeah defuse this
In my brain I choose to
Beat myself like who knew
I think it was voodoo

Yeah defuse this
In my brain I choose to
Beat myself like who knew
I think it was voodoo

Like a wave that's crashing
This a new wave, come quick put yo bag in
Wait too long and your dreams are sagging
Money on my name, all eggs in a basket

Funny how it change, I rearrange 
The future for my fame, got too much range
One song strange, and the next song rage
Can't put me in a cage, I'm a damn sage

I don't need to walk on water
Misfit guy yeah, always got his guard up
Outfit fly and his songs hit hard uhh
You is never hot, not even in a sauna

Any beat he make, he slaughter
Thick skin boy hard like an iguana
Thick D3's Osiris, no Prada
He a real king and he steal your daughter

Yeah defuse this
In my brain I choose to
Beat myself like who knew
I think it was voodoo

Yeah defuse this
In my brain I choose to
Beat myself like who knew
I think it was voodoo

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Voodoo
It was Voodoo
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Voodoo
It was Voodoo
It was Voodoo
Who knew
Like who knew?
Okay, no way

Voodoo

prod akam
mix & master akam

WOAH

Child labour since six
Violent since then
Sister is a princess
Works as a housewife
Husband is a dickhead
Tell me how thats right
Still got no life, no time, no wife

WOAH

No dreams, no friends
No money, just a benz 
On finance?
Yeah on finance!

40 million no nation, nation
40 million people all faceless faces
I don't think you know that you race is racist
White asshole priveleged to your bones
Give a piece of mind to my home and my bros
I don't think you feel how my cousin feel alone

WOAH

Finance

prod. akam + aninex + outset + rat!!!!!!
mix & master akam

I love myself
I love myself, yeah
I don't need help
I don't need help, yeah

I love myself
I love myself, yeah
I don't need help
I don't need help, yeah

I don't need no help I'm good by me, only need myself
If you love yourself, then I can tell you broke your shell

Spirit cleaning
Soul is cleansing
Demons leaving
Am I dreaming?

I don't need you, save myself
I don't need help, love myself

You never changed me, I feel painless
I'm stuck in space, changing stations
I built the bridge, just to reach my kid
Just to feel like this, had to clear my sins

Am I dreaming?

I'm still searching, for the feeling 
The one that feels like I'm in heaven
The warmth comes in, the excitement 
I feel when, I hug myself, I love myself

I love myself
I love myself, yeah
I don't need help
I don't need help, yeah

I love myself
I love myself, yeah
I don't need help
I don't need help, yeah

I thought that I loved myself, but I hate myself
and I need some help
I thought that I found myself, but I lost myself
and I need your help

I feel guilty, only love me when I'm with you
I feel guilty, can't love me when I feel so blue
I feel guilty, I don't love me when I'm all alone
I feel guilty, wouldn't even love my own clone

I think you make me high
you make me feel alive

I think you make me high
you make me feel alive
stay with me through the night
I need you one last time

I think you make me high
you make me feel alive
stay with me through the night
I need you one last time

I Love Myself

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Music Sphere w/ Macca & Akam - Subtle Radio - 27/11/2024

MV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vIN5BpSPfEk

Super ★ Music

Written & Performed by: @akamwave
Produced & Engineered by: @rat_baby

I see my phone, the people on the screen
They look so good, they look nothing like me
I take a moment, a moment just to see
Look inside my heart, and find the key

I feel so lost sometimes
Can't get enough sometimes
I lose the love sometimes (sometimes, sometimes)
But on somedays I look at me, look around and scream (woah)

I love my friends, I love myself
I love my job, I love my health
I love the skin, my tone is in
I love this feeling, this feeling is so me

I'm surrounded by gratitude
The love in music, let it take you
I look at me, I look at you
I see my heart, so beautiful
I let it go, throw my phone into the void ugh
I stand so tall, don't deal with avoidance
I sing it loud, I don't need that poison
I scream and shout, till you can hear my voice (Ahhhh)

I love my friends, I love myself
I love my job, I love my health
I love the skin, my tone is in
I love this feeling, this feeling is so me
I love my friends, I love myself
I love my job, I love my health
I love the skin, my tone is in
I love this feeling, this feeling is so me

I love my friends, I love myself
I love my job, I love my health
I love the skin, my tone is in
I love this feeling, this feeling is so me
I love my friends, I love myself (I love myself)
I love my job, I love my health (I love my health)
I love the skin, my tone is in
I love this feeling, this feeling is so me

I Love My Friends

Akam - CROP Radio - 13/03/25

MV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cQJQRoCmfO4

Super ★ Music

Written & Performed by: @akamwave
Produced by: @akamwave & @an0p
Engineered by: @rat_baby

I keep dreaming of things that you never say
Someone's got to say it
I'll stick around even if you never change
She'll never change, let's face it

I ask myself how much more of this I can take
I bite my tongue, I cross my heart, I hope you take it away
Just like my father, I smile and I fake it again
Just like my parents, we're fighting, please let me go

Let me go
(L-L-L-L-L) Let me go
Another episode
Please let me (go, go)
Please let me go
A- Another episode
Please let me gooooo

When the radios down, the lights are low
And the feeling's off, I dream of home
I saw you with someone else I know
I called you up on your telephone
The voicemail told me I'm alone
My head's a mess, I say, I say

Don't stop me if, I'm knocking at your door
Come tell me if, you loved me at all (come tell, come tell)
Don't cut me off, I'm screaming down the road (I'm screaming down the road)
You take, I give, another episode (you take, I give)

Don't stop me if, I'm knocking at your door (don't stop)
Come tell me if, you loved me at all (come tell)
Don't cut me off, I'm screaming down the road (screaming)
You take, I give, another episode

Don't stop me if, I'm knocking at your door (I'm knocking at your door)
Come tell me if, you loved me at all
Don't cut me off, I'm screaming down the road
You take, I give, another episode

Don't stop me if, I'm knocking at your door (another episode)
Come tell me if, you loved me at all (another episode)
Don't cut me off, I'm screaming down the road (another episode, another episode)
You take, I give, another episode

Another Episode

Lunar Lazer b2b Akamwave - CROP Radio - 13/05/25

Super ★ Music

Written, Performed & Produced by: @akamwave
Piano: @ethanlsn
Engineered by: @misticat

Smile, dance, repeat
I Smile, dance, repeat
I Smile, dance, repeat
I Smile, dance, repeat

Everyone changes
What's the point of love if
When I hug my friend, she don't hug me as tight as I did

I never had the closure 
That I truly needed
I felt the time was seething
I felt your love was bleeding

I miss my friend
More than I talk about it
She's everything 
I thought that I ever wanted

I miss my friend
More than I talk about it
She's everything 
I thought that I ever wanted

It's been 2 years
Since we talked together
I love you dear
Still want you forever

You live freely
While I get on my knees
It's so easy

I look at the sky
Wonder if you still think about me too, me too
I get in online
I check your IG, my friends still follow you, you

I'll get a new life
One where I do the things you do, do
I'll think of you from time to time
Maybe all the time, I just take a breath and

I just take a breath, I just take a breath and
I just take a breath, I just take a moment (Girl if I'm ever down)
I just take a breath, I just take a breath and
I just take a breath, I just take a moment (Superstara musaa)

Take a breath and, just take a breath
I just take a breath and
I just take a breath and
I just take a breath and

(This is Superstar Music)

I smileeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I danceeeeeeeeeeeeeee
I repeaaaaaaaaaaaaaat
I repeaaaaaaaaaaaaaat

I smile, dance 
I repeat (uh-uh), I repeat
I smile, dance
Repeat, repeat

(Ugh)
Smile, dance, repeat, repeat
Smile, dance, repeat, repeat
repeaaaaaaaaaaaaaat

I smile (Smile)
D- Dance (Dance)
Repeat (Repeat)
I repeat (I just take a breath and)

I smile (Smile)
Dance (Dance)
Repeat (Repeat)
Repeat

Smile Dance Repeat

Dollar signs, in my head
in your eyes, I saw death

Akam

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