featuring @mental + @1giib

tysm to the prods who put in so much work and effort into this for me <3 this song would not be what it is without them. pls go follow them and show them infinite amount of luv 
@angelonmyshoulder
@m2monroe

                                               ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───
𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚕:
don't know why i feel like this
don't know why i feel like shit
i just need a kiss
why's it gotta be like this
i think now it feels like bliss
i'm glad that you exist
even though i feel like that
you will never be like that
now i feel so sad 
everything it makes me crack
you can never take it back
take it back
take it back, everything you said to me
i don't care i need bliss and ecstasy
i need help but nobody rescue me
i need help but nobody care for me
i don't think that you ever cared for me
everything we had, you were playing me
but i can't tell on my way to see
you're pretending, it's just make believe

                                               ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───
𝚐𝚒𝚒𝚋:
i don't know why you made me feel like this
you said you love me last night
i put up with your lies
didn't know you're playing tricks
why do you keep on doing this to me
why don't you just go set me free
i know you don't want to be 
my love
why can't you just talking to me 
cause i cant take it honestly
when you keep making me put in
my all (my all)

                                               ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───
𝚊𝚔𝚊𝚜𝚞𝚔𝚒:
if you keep making me put in my all 
i might drown into a pitfall
i don't think i'll recover from you
you took everything i had too 
it's all we had just you and me
i tried so hard but you weren't listening 
i'm free but i still feel locked inside
with your arms around me there's no place to hide 
don't know why i feel like this 
don't know why i feel like shit 
i might jump off a bridge
thinking about you
and all the crazy things you put me through
it's the time of my life 
that i wish i could change 
and i don't know what is left of me 
writhing in pain
                                               ─── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ───

recover

♡ 𝘴𝘱𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘺

recover w/mental + giib [attachxd x monroe]

bai bai :3
featuring @karaoki
@angelonmyshoulder x @6hanoi

𝔞𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔲𝔨𝔦: 
bye bye ik ur not mine 
even tho i think abt u at night 
always in the back of mind
hold on i think i'm still in love
be mine

𝔨𝔞𝔯𝔞𝔬𝔨𝔦: 
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye girl
at night im alive we go psycho
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye girl
at night im alive we go psycho
we go psycho tell me what do i know?
with my eyes close i see my own soul
my mind is crazy 
oh my bad im lazy
come on and taste me 
come on just dont take me

𝔞𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔲𝔨𝔦: 
bye bye girl 
i dont wanna be seen 
bye bye girl 
i dont wanna be me
but u leave me no choice 
i'm stuck in this void 
and no one will help me 
i'm hopeless
i'm coping 
with everything 
that was meant to be 
when will it happen to me

𝔞𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔲𝔨𝔦 𝔵 𝔨𝔞𝔯𝔞𝔬𝔨𝔦: 
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye girl
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye girl
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye girl
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye girl


𝔨𝔞𝔯𝔞𝔬𝔨𝔦: 
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye girl
at night im alive we go psycho
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye girl
at night im alive we go psycho
we go psycho tell me what do i know?
with my eyes close i see my own soul
my mind is crazy 
oh my bad im lazy
come on and taste me 
come on just dont take me

bye bye girl

bye bye girl w/karaoki [attachxd x hanoi]

amv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AjtBRFbhI2A
@xternalz 
@luvorion

✰ 𝚊𝚔𝚊𝚜𝚞𝚔𝚒
i know u dont see me the same 
and that will tear me away
yeah i might just decay
i know i know i know 
u dont u dont u dont
see me anymore
i knew u would get bored
bored of me 
how could that be 
why couldnt i see 
that ur not into me
that we're not meant to be  
but im going to stay delusional 
and talk to u like things are normal 
even tho things will never be the same 
i wish we never changed

✰ 𝚡𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚣
i dont want this
(i dont want this)
i hate to reminisce
(its too much now)
when i look and see your eyes
i know that you wouldnt care if i cried

falling backwards
calling when i lack worth
i can never tell whats on your mind
can never seem to make it right

i should have known
this would never last
now we're on our own
ive been stuck in the past
and our feelings contrast
i just dont know why i asked to be with you

was it all worth the time and pain
(no matter what i do)
you just stay in my brain
(in my brain)
now my mind is always stained
i just wish we never changed

i wish we never changed w/xternalz [luvorion] | amv in desc

prod @angelonmyshoulder x @1-shrine
featuring @wolfyysfine

★ 𝘢𝘬𝘢𝘴𝘶𝘬𝘪:
im done 
im through 
yeah i wont fall in love with u 
yeah u wont catch me texting u 
(yeah u wont catch me texting u)
i'm done 
i'm through 
you won't catch me in love with u 
i've fallen for it too many times 
i've fallen for too many lies

catch a glimpse of u 
and my heart skips a beat 
yeah it starts racing 
thinking about us 
even tho there was no us

tell me another lie 
let's see how this ends up 
(yeah im giving up)
i've fallen for it too many times 
(i've fallen for it too many times)
i'm done 
i'm through 
you won't catch me in love with u 
ive fallen for it too many times 
i've fallen for too many lies

★ 𝘸𝘰𝘭𝘧𝘺𝘺:
she fell for it too many times
cant do nothin but just sit here and cry 
now shes tryna find things to past the time 
nothin feels the same when im without u
what can i even do
im supposed to be here with u
thats what i never knew 
can never runaway in the end it always seems i lose
n thats the truth 
ive been tryna find my feelings inside
ive been losing my mind
nowadays i been wishin i was in ur head more than mine
i thought i needed u
but that was never true 
i kinda lied to u
u kinda lied to me too
and i still think about u
and what i never knew 
i rather be without u
dont care bout what u do
cant stay away from u

★ 𝘢𝘬𝘢𝘴𝘶𝘬𝘪:
tell me another lie 
let's see how this ends up 
(yeah im giving up)
i've fallen for it too many times 
(i've fallen for it too many times)
i'm done 
i'm through 
you won't catch me in love with u 
ive fallen for it too many times 
i've fallen for too many lies

fallen w/wolfyy [attachxd x shrine]

prod @prodse7en x @prodjoshbae

< hey ik u dont wanna talk rn
but i rlly miss u 
do u think u can like... 
come over or smth?
if not it's no big deal i just wanted to know or wtvr >

love me, love me, uh
hit me up at night like uh
i promise myself i wouldn't 
return ur calls but i couldn't 
resist the urge 
i need u here it hurts
i'm sorry for being a jerk 
and i'm sorry for being worse
worse than u deserved
i'll never get over the fact that i hurt u 

i know i know i know i know
u don't u don't u don't u don't 
love me the same but it's okay
i'll stay at home and deal with the pain 
love me like how u used to
and i promise i'll change just for u 
i cant hold on a single day 
without u here next to me

i wish u loved me the same [se7en x joshbae]

featuring @angelicxmei x @muieternal
prod. @angelonmyshoulder x @m2monroe

𝔞𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔲𝔨𝔦:
if u ever felt bad abt things in the past
mayb it was me i moved on too fast
if u ever loved me u would take it all back
was it rlly built to laaaast

was this all pretend?
is this our end?
were u just fake?
was this all a mistake? 
now my days are ending in heartbreak </3
it's a never ending headacheeee

𝔪𝔢𝔦:
and u left me, my hearts broke
my hearts so cold over the snow
tell me i could never realize
hold on, hold on
u were telling lies
u should pay the price
well i don't know what youve done
it doesnt matter to us
ur always enough no matter what u done 
i think i'll never forgive ya
never forgive ya
never forgive yaaaa
tell me what went wrong !
why am i so weak when i thought i was so strong
got me thinking deep that i wasnt enough
wasnt enough 
tell me was it enough

𝔪𝔲𝔦:
yeaaah
can you even tell if im hurting?
silence burns into very different wording
im so worthless
break the promise
nothing works, when ur twisted and your broken

i dont wanna feel like this
so stuck, can u intercept?
im stuck in my own web
black petals, i been surrounded

my heart wont make a stand
the way you look right past
all the reasons when we laughed
now it's all been left unsaid

i know, i blame myself
the drugs wont work, they wont helpppp ://
twisted words, turn arouuuund
im carrying this weight to the grouuund

𝔞𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔲𝔨𝔦:
im carrying this weight to the ground 
will i ever be enough? 
should i hang around? 
and i, no, i didn't realize 
that u could nvr be mine 
was this all pretend?
is this our end?
were u just fake?
was this all a mistake? 
now my days are ending in heartbreak 
it's a never ending headache

i still love uuu 
i dont knowww what to dooo </3

never realized

never realized w/angelicxmei + mui [attachxd x monroe]

prod. @luvorion

happy valentines day 

♡ ♡ ♡ 

i fall in love when i think of u 
i just want u in my room 
dont tell me this is all we have
i cant be left broken 

i love u so dearly
i'll hold u close if u let me 
i only have u on my mind 
this is the perfect life
i'll never complain again 
if this is how my life ends
and i love u so dearly 
i'll be here as long as u let me 

i love u so dearly 
i love u more than anything 
be mine for centuries 
i want u more than anything 

i love u so dearly 
i want u for centuries
i just want u here with me 
so u can hold me so closely
i fall in love when i think of u 
i just want u in my room 
i only have u on my mind 
this is the perfect life

i love u [luvorion]

featuring @muieternal
prod. @angelonmyshoulder x @hartfxlt

𝔞𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔲𝔨𝔦:
the memories of our love, now washed away ]=
and it reminds me when it rains ⛈ 
cuzzz it was ur favorite 
i cant get over it   
how many times do i have to get hurt ?
how many times do i have to get kicked in the dirt ?
before i find the one 
before i find some love 

idk if i can go on
this has gone on too long 
u were playing along 
and u think i was in the wrong 
in the wrong :((

𝔪𝔲𝔦:
yaaaaaaaa~
you'll carryyy on...
cuz im not the oneee
that's broken :((
i feel it
im wasteeed 
i told you, im not perfect!!

im losinggg
who i wanna be anddd...
yeaa x3

i dont wanna feel like thiss..
i know, it sucks, im stressedd
i was spendin all my bands, wat u wanted
i jus wish that we could end wat we started 
ay 

ive had enough 
i been missin your face
never wanted loveee
yea, im never enough 

so now things tough
ah
your tender touch 
na
wont take your love
my heart 
ache around,
my heart 
ache around </3

𝔞𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔲𝔨𝔦:
how many times do i have to get hurt ?
how many times do i have to get kicked in the dirt ?
before i find the one 
before i find some love 

idk if i can go on
this has gone on too long 
u were playing along 
and u think i was in the wrong 
in the wrong :((

i'm not perfect w/mui [attachxd x hartfxlt]

featuring @remiliaxd 
prod. @angelonmyshoulder x @m2monroe

𝔞𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔲𝔨𝔦:
love's a game it’s all digital 
and i can’t feel a thing at all 
and you know i’d sell my soul 
just to even see you at all 

crying in my pillow at night 
thinking about you and i 
and i don’t want us to fight 
id rather have you lie 

and idk how to act around u 
can u pls tell me what you’re thinking 
does it have any meaning ...?
do you still love me too </3

and i don’t wanna get too attached
and idk if you think of me like that 
i might just have a heart attack 
if u don’t text me back 

and i really don’t wanna fuck things up !!!
but that would be just my luck :(
to ruin everything ...
now it all means nothing

and idk how to act around uuu
yeah you need to tell me what you’re thinking !
i dont know what ur hinting
what if u love me too :/

𝔯𝔢𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔦𝔞:
i can't look back again
u we're the missing part of me
play pretend, and it really does break my soul
heart hurts </3
and i'm sorry but idk
but i can't change the fact the past is set in stone

i let it go, i let it go, i let it go !!!
heart hurts and it's cold like the snow >.<
it's not u
but i don't think that it's working now
promise that i tried, but i don't think that it's working out

i tried, but it never ever works
"stay alive," but i know it's gonna hurt, i know 
heart froze
i'd never do you like that, keep that stuff in the past 
moving on like oh

but it never ever works 
moving on, but our love is like a curse, i know
i know, lost feelings, let it go
yeah i was fine, but now i'm better on my own :(

said i was gone
said i was done but i'd do it all over
you were the one
you were the one who told me to get closer to u
i know
i know that we both are gonna go make it through
it's not u
but i'm so sorry to say that it's over for u

i let it go, i let it go, i let it go
but our love is like a curse, i know

𝔞𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔲𝔨𝔦:
and idk how to act around u 
can u pls tell me what you’re thinking 
does it have any meaning ...?
do you still love me too </3

and i don’t wanna get too attached !
and idk if you think of me like that >_<
i might just have a heart attack 
if u don’t text me back....

you and i

you and i w/remilia [attachxd x monroe]

featuring @haunted_sad
prod. @6hanoi x @akasukii

𝔞𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔲𝔨𝔦:
i still miss u 
and i wish u missed me too 
even tho u treated me like a chore
ig i'll just ignore...
everything u have ever said to me 
and i'll pretend it meant nothing 
even tho it changed how i saw myself 
is it even worth living in hell? 

i know, i know, you don't care
i know i'm living in despair
for no reason at all 
i wish i didnt fall...
sohard4u 
and that's the truth !
if i could take it all back i would </3
i havent ate in 4 days, i know i should...
but i cant bring myself to get up these days 
i'm tired of living in this pain

𝔥𝔞𝔲𝔫𝔱𝔢𝔡_𝔰𝔞𝔡:
destined 2 be this way 
im looking 2 myself i rlly wanna change-
looking 2 myselff i jus wanna diee
ur the one thats been only on my mind
i want death death 2 fucking take me 
my heart here isnt even beating
yeah and everyday im sinkin lower
yeah ive been sinking 2 the fkn botton
n all this happiness that i am fakin
i cant hide forevr so im sleepingg..
ya baby plz give me a reason
i cant get get used 2 this feeling
im living life on my own as of lately-
iwantdeath2fuckingtakeme

tired w/haunted_sad [hanoi x akasuki]

prod. @angelonmyshoulder x @loveismisery

and i try
to make everything right 
with u 
u don't have a clue 
all the things i would do 
just for u 
and i cant believe u said we're through 
but i knew 
that our love wouldnt last
but ig thats me for my past
i couldnt get over it 
now i feel like shit 
for hurting u over it 

and im sorry for everything 
u didnt deserve me 
i tried to put in my all 
but i didnt expect u to fall...

...so hard
u put ur guard, down
u thought u would be safe and sound

but thats my fault, yeah thats my fault
for leading u on 
for letting u fall 
u rlly put in your all 
now u feel so small

and i tried
to make everything right 
with u, with u, with u
with uuuuuuu~

i knew that our love wouldnt last
but ig thats me for my past
i couldnt get over it
and im sorry for everything 
u didnt deserve me 
i tried to put in my all 
but i didnt expect u to fall 
and i tried
to make everything right 
with u 
u don't have a clue 
all the things i would do 
just for u

my fault [attachxd x kyoa]

featuring @xternalz
prod. @loveismisery x @pw4prez x @makemeapromise

𝔞𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔲𝔨𝔦:
i dont want this 
i cant handle it 
its not the way its meant to be 
and i dont wanna be hurt
tell me why i cant be her

falling apart
i just wanna be in your arms 
i didnt know this would be so hard
i didnt think you'd feel so far
i long for the comfort of your heart

wish i could turn back time
to when everything felt just fine
back when you believed in you and i
when i felt happy u were mine

and i dont wanna be hurt
tell me why i cant be her
this isnt fair for me 
why are u so petty
i dont want this 
i cant handle it 
its not the way its meant to be 
so why did u hurt me 
and left me so empty

𝔵𝔱𝔢𝔯𝔫𝔞𝔩𝔷:
even if you didnt ask i would come after you
i know that we didnt last
but im not ready for something new
you’re someone i put everything into

nowwww
i dont want to waste more time
i cant handle it when you cry
our last moments together were a crime
it was a crime

i can see our memories theyre fading into dust
looking past all the fights and all the mistrust
all this makes me want to die i feel so crushed
i know that this wasnt fair for us

𝔞𝔨𝔞𝔰𝔲𝔨𝔦:
and i dont wanna be hurt
tell me why i cant be her
this isnt fair for me 
why are u so petty
i dont want this 
i cant handle it 
its not the way its meant to be 
so why did u hurt me 
and left me so empty

desire w/xternalz [kyoa x sochi x surgeon]

prod. @user-670723281
\\\
i woke up today thought it was just the same
but something was different couldnt find ur name
on my phone on my feed on every single screen
u vanished like a shadow like a ghost in a dream

i keep searching for the reason trying to understand
how our love turned into silence slipping through my hands
no warning no goodbye just a cold empty space
how could u leave me without a trace

u blocked me out shut me down
left me spinning in this lonely town
no closure no words just a wall so high
i wish i could know why

u blocked me out shut me down
left me stranded as the night comes around
in the void of your absence i cry
how could u block me without a goodbye?
ur silence cuts deeper than any knife
how can i move on with this empty life

memories keep replaying, replaying like a broken song
trying to piece together where it all went wrong
i gave u my heart u held it in your hands
now its shattered like broken glass
how can i move on with that 
u left me alone2besad

alone2besad

alone2besad [diedinoctober]

featuring @karaoki + @ilyporo 
prod. @wintress13 

@akasukii 
i thought this was our end 
but i guess its bye bye girl again 
u left me heartbroken 
bye bye, bye bye, bye girl again

i thought we had it all just u and me
but now i see that it was never meant to be
falling apart till the end
bye bye, bye bye, bye girl again

@karaoki
bye bye girl again, baby am i toxic
better off as friends told u im so love sick
ig this is the end so i wanna end it quick
said that i dont need u 
and i know that i dont need it 
too cold had a fever 
and they running back i dont need her 
bye bye girl on a tee shirt 
and i write the bitch in green paper
things i cannot hold back
bbg yk that
and ik its so sad 
bye bye girl again girl again

@akasukii
(bye bye girl again 
bye bye girl again)

[all 3 of us ^~^] 
bye bye, bye bye, bye girl again 
bye bye, bye bye, bye girl again
bye bye, bye bye, bye girl again 
bye bye, bye bye, bye girl again 

@akasukii 
i thought this was our end 
but i guess its bye bye girl again 
u left me heartbroken 
bye bye, bye bye, bye girl again

i thought we had it all just u and me
but now i see that it was never meant to be
falling apart till the end
bye bye, bye bye, bye girl again

@ilyporo 
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye girl
at night im alive we go psycho
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye girl
at night im alive we go psycho
i hope u didnt suffer
or wasted ur time with me
so i have to say goodbye
i hope we both could be free

bye bye girl again w/karaoki + ilyporo  [wintress]

featuring @kyxtsnxwy x @1kidsora x @muieternal
prod. @tores x @jichuuu

@akasukii
i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna play pretend
that im okay without u
that this isnt the end
i dont wanna face the night
with no one to hold me tight
i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna be on my own
tell me where did we go wrong?
how did we fall apart?
was it something i did something i said?
or was it written from the start?
i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna play pretend
that im okay without you
that this isnt the end
i dont wanna face the night
with no one to hold me tight
i dont wanna be alone
i dont wanna be on my own

@kyxtsnxwy
i dont wanna be on my own
left me in the snow, its freezing and its cold
i know
please hold me tight closely
im right here by my lonely
it feels like u disowned me
im right here at the start again

lets please start again
all that im feeling is the feeling of dread
bullet be straight to my head
feeling like nothing im better off dead
all of the things that u said
hurting my soul, baby, im falling apart
take out my heart
baby its nothing its just all scars

@1kidsora
all i ever needed was presence
all i ever needed was essence
i know im learning lessons
but, im still overthinking blessings
im trynna geek & i'm posted with Jayy
all that she care about is what i make
so- imma just pray
i dont know how much more i'll take
of this- of this
she bid me farewell
with a silent kiss
of this- of this-
u all know i cant miss-

@muieternal
i think ive had enough
u said u'd have our love
the distance in ur touch
i'd never hate so much 

u promised on ur word
now i cant make this alone
ruminating this thought
leave this love in a knot

pretend w/kishi, kid sora + mui [tores x jichu]

prod. @hartfxlt x @yashio20k

i dont wanna be thrown away
im tired of all the heartbreak 

can u look me in my eyes
tell me everythings alright 
no i dont u to ever lie 
i dont wanna sit here and fight 
for a love thats already gone 
crying all night in a pillow im not strong

i dont wanna be weak, i dont wanna look back
thought i was strong but im under attack
every memory cuts me so deep 
guess some scars arent meant to keep

is it worth the pain 
to hold onto something that might fade away
i gave u my all but u left me to bleed
now im questioning if its love that i need
maybe i should be free
then i would be at peace

i dont wanna be weak, i dont wanna look back
thought i was strong but im under attack
every memory cuts me so deep 
guess some scars arent meant to keep

memory [hartfxlt x yashio]

prod. @ saintmike 

i need ur light i need ur touch 
cuz without u here this pains too much
i need ur light i need ur touch 
cuz without u here this pains too much

its getting late the shadows start to creep 
another night where i cant fall asleep
i hear ur voice it lingers in the room
but when i turn im staring at the moon

i dont want the stars they remind me of u
the way they shine but theyre just passing through

i need ur warmth i cant do this on my own
the darkness whispers "ur all alone"
i hear ur voice it lingers in the room
but when i turn im staring at the moon

i cant face the night its too dark without u
the silence echoes everything im scared to lose
i need u.
i dont even wanna live a life without u
i just wanna be with u 
i dont even wanna live a life without u
i cant face the night its too dark without u
i dont even wanna live a life without u
i just wanna be with u 
i dont even wanna live a life without u
its too dark without u

these empty sheets cant hold me tight
i fall apart when its just me and the night
i need ur light i need ur touch
cuz without u here this pains too much
the pains too much

listen to this when the night falls [saint mike]

featuring @clay0127
prod. @xternalz x @ihateukidu

@akasukii 
i dont wanna let go
i just want someone to hold
u dont say it but i know its true
that you're halfway gone, and im losing u
but if i fall i’d rather fall slow
cause i dont want to let go
i dont want to let go even if it hurts
even if i drown in the weight of ur words
i’d rather feel the pain than the emptiness below
cause baby i dont want to let go

@clay0127
let go
feel forever in my throat
cause i cant break the mold
all you needed was a moment
to be left on your own
and all i wanted was some closure
before i let you go

all your regret, its haunting me
when i remember all our endeavors
i cannot breathe

i dont wanna let go 
i just want u to hold
 
i cant lie baby i miss you
and everydays an issue
without you in my arms
im just wishing i could kiss you
but now its been official
that i cant be there with you
i know its beneficial
whats a poet without issues?
i cant lie, my heart
its bleeding babe and no amount of tissues
are ever gonna fix it
got no one i can vent to
instead im gonna scream it
and make you feel that shit too
you really dont deserve it
all these feelings that i misuse

@akasukii 
i cant lie my heart
its breaking falling apart
without u here my baby 
i need u here so badly 

u dont say it but i know its true
that you're halfway gone, and im losing u
but if i fall i’d rather fall slow
cause i dont want to let go
i dont want to let go even if it hurts
even if i drown in the weight of ur words
i’d rather feel the pain than the emptiness below
cause baby i dont want to let go

i dont want to let go w/clay [xternalz x kidu]

- ♡ -

prod. @luc3nt

she says i talk too much about you
about the fights we never fix
she asked what im holding on to
and why love feels like a risk
she says that loves not supposed to hurt
but im too scared to let it burn
i tell her i cant just walk away
but every time i stay it feels the same
my therapist thinks we should break up
says im holding on too tight calling it love
she says i deserve a little peace
but i dont know how to set us free
shes got the answers but ive got this heart
that doesnt know where to stop or where to start
yeah my therapist thinks we should break up
but i dont wanna face life without us
i tell her how you make me smile
then she asks me how long it lasts
we’re good for a little while
but then we’re stuck in the past
she says that loves not made of fear
but walking away feels so unclear
i tell her im not ready to let go
but deep down i already know
we should break up
im holding on too tight calling it love
i deserve a little peace
but i dont know how to set us free
shes got the answers but ive got this heart
that doesnt know where to stop or where to start
yeah my therapist thinks we should break up
but i dont wanna face a life without us
she says i need to love myself more
but im still standing at your door
my therapist thinks we should break up
but maybe im not strong enough

my therapist thinks we should break up [luc3nt]

featuring @victxrw
prod. @prodalagen

@akasukii

i tried to keep u 
but the harder i fought
the more i realized love cant be bought 
i tried to hold u 
but the world wouldnt let me have my way 
if only i could see u 
i would be much happier that way 

i cant breathe at all 
i just feel so small 
and i wish i could see underwater 
to understand whats pulling me farther 
i dont wanna live another day 

@victxrw
face away
taste the pain
give it all
to me
ill take it away
i know its obvious
how much i wanted this
sharp pains on frozen lips
waiting for the eclipse

the walls of flesh, engulfing me again
i cant seem to fall any further
so fuck me up again
make me bleed it all and even further

engulfed w/victxrw [alagen]

@prodalagen

i miss u 
i dont know where to take this 
im so confused
abt ur feelings im mistaken
do u notice me reaching out to u 
or is it too late 
we've already reached our fate

my hands are shaking im barely holding on
each breath a battle but u’re already gone
i scream ur name but u cant hear the sound
its like im drowning and u’re nowhere to be found

i miss u 
i dont know where to take this 
i am so confused
abt ur feelings im mistaken
do u notice me reaching out to u 
or is it too late 
we've already reached our fate
oh my gawdddd just fking love meee </333

ｊｕｓｔｆｋｉｎｇｌｏｖｅｍｅｅｅ<／３

- omg im 21 now ! -
prod. @xternalz x @rewind214

trying so hard to move on
but ur always there never gone
i wish heartbreak wasnt so long 
im tired of singing the same song 

oh i put my all into u i put my all into us
and tell me why its still never enough 
i just wanted trust 
i wanted to be loved
but u never chose us 
running away from our problems
we never solved them
pretending like we're fine but we've forgotten
the love we shared and now we're all falling 
falling out of love
why did we fall apart
we built this up but now its gone
i tried to hold on but u let go
now im stuck here all alone

i gave u my heart but u couldnt see
that we were breaking 
u and me 

now im left with all the things u didnt say 
and wondering why u couldnt make me stay
i tried so hard but u just turned away 
now im left alone again and again

running away from our problems
we never solved them
pretending like we're fine but we've forgotten
the love we shared and now we're all falling
falling out of love
why did we fall apart
we built this up but now its gone
i tried to hold on but u let go
now im stuck here all alone

forgotten [xternalz x rewind]

prod. injury
major creds to @victxrw

and now
i feel it all
the love withdrawals and the pain that comes with
i feel it all
the wall i hit when i cant stop running

and you never cared as much as i did
for just this once can you please be honest

no
everytime i get up i seem to slip
so leave me alone
im always falling for the same old tricks

so im face down again
am i at fault
im face down again
am i always wrong
im face down again
did you catch my fall
im face down again and again
and now
i feel it all
the love withdrawals and the pain that comes with
i feel it all
the wall i hit when i cant stop running

so i cant fix you now 
feel the blood drip down
i'll hold onto my crown
so make it worth my while
its not fair 
you dont care
im trying to make sense of it all
its not fair 
u dont care
it feels like im meant to fall
 
i feel so drained
why cant you change
it feels the same 
same old day
  
i cant break away
i feel so insane
it feels like the same old day

im face down again
am i at fault
im face down again
am i always wrong
im face down again
did you catch my fall
im face down again and again
and now
i feel it all
the love withdrawals and the pain that comes with
i feel it all
the wall i hit when i cant stop running

akasuki

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