(intro)

i know it’s hard
when your life just falls apart
i know it’s hard
when your body’s covered in scars

(chorus)

i know it’s hard
when your life just falls apart
i know it’s hard
when your body’s covered in scars

and theres nothing you can do except stare at the ceiling 
and wonder if your life has lost any meaning 
nothing but a disgrace from the very start
but would you be surprised if i was hanging in the dark

(bridge)

it has been centuries since i gazed into your eyes
you were perfection and i miss you in my life

(verse)

there should be nothing to hide
but you still keep feeding me lies
into my head
do you want me to end up dead?
every night i’m staring at the lead 
at the end of my bed
one bullet is all it should take
to put me inside my grave

(chorus)

i know it’s hard
when your life just falls apart
i know it’s hard
when your body’s covered in scars

and theres nothing you can do except stare at the ceiling 
and wonder if your life has lost any meaning

(outro)

i know it’s hard

(it has been centuries since i gazed into your eyes)
(you were perfection and i miss you in my life)

one shot from the grave (sorrow bringer)

follow roxa: @prod-roxa
follow jolst: @jolst

lyrics:
u were in the back of my mind were u waiting there??
can u leave for once im getting sick of it
and its not like u rly care
u could never do that x2
so i put my phone on silent
cause i just wanna close my eyelids
i can see where i wanna be and im behind it
u could knock me down but i wont stop fighting

took my heart and u locked it up
i dont wanna fuck this up
yh u tore my brain apart
but maybe well be ok!?
and i just wanna feel something better
cant keep being under the weather
maybe sometime ill feel the same way that i used to
but until then ill still fucking miss u

u were in the back of my mind were u waiting there??
can u leave for once im getting sick of it
and its not like u rly care
u could never do that x2
so i put my phone on silent
cause i just wanna close my eyelids
i can see where i wanna be and im behind it
u could knock me down but i wont stop fighting 
x2

sick of it (prod roxa + jolst)

l y r i c s
s ɔ ᴉ ɹ ʎ l

Don't Don't Don't 

Don't worry about the things that I said to you 
Run up the check so I soften the blues
Light up the spliff and I pass it to you

Baby girl
Why don't you know that I still love you
Come to my house stay the night in my room
Just wait a moment for me to pay all my dues

Ay ay ayy 

I cherish everything well get to say
Whenever I see you it makes my whole day
I know I can live my whole life this way

Hey hey hey

I get emotional when I see your face
The sun shines in the sky as we pass ways
Then we leave and the daytime fades

Would you take a look at the clock 
Time is moving slowly, ain't it very funny
That we know how the feeling goes
Take a step back and watch the night fall
Honestly I never thought that this will happen
Way too used to being lonely
I cannot feel so sorry for myself
In this way anymore

s o c i a l s
s l ɐ ᴉ ɔ o s

i n s t a g r a m
ɯ ɐ ɹ ƃ ɐ ʇ s u ᴉ

https://www.instagram.com/l_y_p_i_a_r_c_h_i_v_e_/

y o u t u b e
ǝ q n ʇ n o ʎ

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBRhaBYCJgTSWchUzYeNhOA

d i s c o r d
p ɹ o ɔ s ᴉ p

l y p i#9009

f o l l o w m e t o v i c t o r y
ʎ ɹ o ʇ ɔ ᴉ ʌ o ʇ ǝ ɯ ʍ o l l o ɟ

s ǝ n p (metlast)

the second single off my upcoming album 'dearly departing' coming out on 9/9
featuring @betweentheveinsandi
produced by @jolst
art by @/ashleydhe on instagram
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin 

or when its half mast
think about what i’ve passed
will i be forgiven?

or when im undone
will i run
or is this a new beginning?

i think i saw your star sign
projected in the night sky
i look out to the ocean
and then im back to your eyes

veins:
I don't give a fuck anymore
I would let her drown me in a low tide
these decisions assault my eyes
I brace for the waves that drag me back into the deep tide

yuh,
it gives a deep high
I guess it feel right
underwater with no sunshine
I heave a deep sigh
I'm filled with sea brine
all of my bones will rest in deep lime

but it's been nice
I hope u feel right
I hope he never leaves ur fucking side
I pray u both live long and happy lives
most of all, importantly, I hope u feel alive

its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin

dearly departing

low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

spotify & apple music!

IV. low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

prod. 2001

shoutout the homie skrwd <3

woah
in the silence i will drown
tonight 

i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

in the silence i’ll drown tonight 
no one can save my life (save my life)
all i needed was a friend 
to come and pull me out of the quicksand 

SKRWD:

its been a while and i still feel abandoned
it comes to mind all the time, i cant stand it
every night i lie awake to reminders of the sound
maybe i wont feel a thing on the way down 
i dont get it
you never meant it
so whyd you wanna be the one who said it?
i dont get it
i dont get it
why say it if you never meant it?


i wish i knew it all before
how much it would’ve hurt when i hit the floor
but knowing me i would’ve just ignored 
everything the signs were pointing towards
i search around but i’m abandoned
everyone is gone and i don’t understand it 
i wasn’t needed around 
guess i’ll shut myself out
in the silence i’ll drown

(in the silence i’ll drown tonight no one can save my life)

in the silence i’ll drown w/ skrwd (2001)

Mixed/Mastered By Me 
-
Produced By https://soundcloud.com/prodneverforever
-
(Lyrics)
And I just need to think 
And I just need to breathe 
Letting go of everything 
Is always hard 
You just need time 
I’ll give you that time 
I’m too persistent 
And I’m so sorry 
And I just wish that 
Things went back to normal 

And I just need to think
And I just need to breathe 
Letting go of everything 
Is so fucking hard 

In the basement I drink I’m too wasted 
I try to show you love but you resist it 
And I’ll give you time 
Baby girl I don’t wanna resign 

Waking up it just hurts too much 
I just miss you come back my love 
It’s been a month but I fell in love with you x2

And I just need to think
And I just need to breathe 
Letting go of everything 
Is so fucking hard x2

When I saw your green blue eyes 
I fell in love so instantly 
If you have little love for me 
Let’s give that one more chance 
I just know it can work out 
We still love each other you know 

Just one more chance x3

i'll give you the time (neverforever)

this song is entirely non profit and purely for venting purposes.
white shinobi: @white-shinobi
gin$eng: @ginsengxx

they're not playing the same game that we are
they're getting really far by having friends and dickriding
i dont think thats fair, at all
i dont think thats fair, at all
i think our scene would be alot better without them
do you think we need them?
i dont think we need them?
cause we have nick and we have miles
you know exactly who the fuck im talking about.
they're clones 
and they barely try cause 
they get cosigned and 
they already have fans before they start
maybe i shouldnt talk about it at all
but im just being honest
im just being honest
you cant look me in the face and tell me that it looks fine to you
cause we work our ass off and we get nowhere
i think we all secretly know this is not very fun
cause itd be alot funner if people gave a fuck.
or if we could live off of this, but right now we could die from this
im not tryna be a pessimist, but you know music's more than this
i dont think i wanna stick around to see how it goes,
cause how fucking far can you make it in here?
they're not playing the same game that we are
they're getting really far by having friends and dickriding
i dont think thats fair, at all
i dont think thats fair, at all
i tried to tell you once but you didnt listen
"we're nothing special, we're just a follower."
im not tryna make you sad at all
please dont give up
i just want you to know
they're not what you thought they were.

bonessss/clonessss (white shinobi x gin$eng)

It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

all i've got
produced by @imcaves
art by me
hope you enjoy <3

lyrics:

its hard to focus on life as of late
i’m simple and losing my name
what good does it do to be brave
when i’m always right back to this place?
i wanted to think there was more to life
i hoard advice from all my peers
you know that it hurts when the words are right
i’m sure that i could dry your tears
i knew how it felt to be empty
but without you i’m barely alive
the rain on my window is melting my wishes
of things being different this time
i really hope you’ve got it figured out
i know it hurts to see me now

sunsets & unrest & moonlight
rewrite the past for the last time
i’m stuck again at a red light
eyes close tonight as you pass me by
i never thought i would feel like this
say the word and i’m yours again
i know i shouldn’t just give in
but in the end, you’re the one that i’ve always wanted

im sorry for being the worst
& kicking my thoughts to the curb
i know that the truth isnt easy but 
i could get over myself & the hurt
i’m speaking my mind for the first time
i’m trying to put up a fight
you know how its been for me lately
i wish u were here tonight

learning to lose

good light pt. 2 [caves]

spotify & apple music

mixed/mastered by me
prod raspo
art 4gettr

Lyrics:

i lost my sight when i tried to stare
but we were closer than a bonded pair i swear
open heart surgeons, the pressure's great
but i swear that you can create diamonds from all the stress of this hate

and now i feel the universe stacking cards against me
i prayed for decay, but all i got was your pity
love can't save you, and i know that im right
i just sharpened my fangs, while i wait for the cut from the knife
as i stand here tall, oh i pray that i don't break down
warriors plead all throughout their life, for not a wasteful death and a way to be alright
(but it wont ever be alright)
time's been unraveled, i fear the brakes are failing
as hard as i've tried, things won't ever be the same oh i
i cant take another day of this, please oh maker take me away from it

"death isn't kind
it's dark and black
and as far as you can see you're all alone, thers no one else
it's no different when you're alive is it?
no matter how many relationships we seem to have, we're all alone"

snap my spine, i'll tell you that im fine
straighten out my life its been more than a crooked line
ohhh and i cant say
if i gotta break it apart, i'll wait til the end of the day
yeaa heartfelt promises with the tears of a sinner
spillin the bad news over the course of our dinner
lies and regression, it fans the depression
its hard to find a thing that don't
oh hearts break twice and then they never mend
oh and i'll confide, i'll admit that i lied
and i'm promised to you if you agree that it won't end
oh a salary can't heal this, a lottery won't fix it
i been stuck in a way, mere mortals can't escape from
baby that void was so dark, oh i'm sure it's the place you came from
humans (devils) can't be saved, it's a condition we've been cursed with
but if i had a choice, i swear to god you'd always be my first wish

and_the_void_stared_back_ (raspo)

produced by: malith
everything else by: me 

lyrics:

one touch, ill never be the same
moving way too fast yeah we need to pump the brakes
one love, thats all that it takes,
everytime we fight you always put me in my place 

poison, my little rattlesnake
I dont wanna risk but she's raisin all the stakes
she's gonna be the death of me yea
she's gonna be the death of me

now when u textin my phone I jus break it 
even when ur alone yea u won't face it 
I hit my friends up 2 gram blunt ill face it
shoutout my dogs on them roads they dont fake it
hoppin out the whip
baby das me! 
I be rocking all black w/ a white tee
yeah I dont give a fuck if you dont like me 
pussy u an old boy, u a spike lee

n I been feeling down for the last few days
and I kinda like this mask shit I can hide my face 
think my hearts about to cave in I cant take this weight
and the smoking kills me baby let me rest in peace

(sendflowrs, jmtly, decks & cherryrizla)
I been feeling down for the last few days
and I kinda like this mask shit I can hide my face 
think my hearts about to cave in I cant take this weight
and the smoking kills me baby let me rest in peace

one touch, ill never be the same
moving way too fast yeah we need to pump the brakes
one love, thats all that it takes,
everytime we fight you always put me in my place 

poison, my little rattlesnake
I dont wanna risk but she's raisin all the stakes
she's gonna be the death of me yea
she's gonna be the death of me

smokingkills (prod. malith)

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