We stretched our frames
But never learned to navigate
Our grief took what was left

We break our molds
Beings new and metaphysical
Our grief took what was left

I cant remember how to let you in

Ill never give you life that you want
Old Lover
Its not worth our years to work it out
You used up what was left in my heart
Old Lover
I can't love you like I did before
Our ship's sailing away from shore

My doubt took shape
As I watched you break everything
There's too much to take back

My heart has closed
Beyond this I am letting go
There's too much to take back

I cant remember how to let you in

Ships

Since we began you got the very best of me
Became the man I questioned I could ever be
So you know what you have, I'll retain transparency

I thought that I, was sure I've seen, it all before
Our love became, the kind that few, will ever know
So you know what you have, I'll retain transparency

With my ear to the ground, 
I've been waiting for that sound
I begin, I remain
Steady hands to guide your way
You will know, by the end
I would do it all again
Some things I can see from miles away
Ill give you my all so you might stay

The gentle tug of strings that are invisible
Will make me reach for what I know, I want the most
So you know what you have, I'll retain transparency

This second chance is almost not a chance at all
So I pray that God could be alittle merciful
So you know what you have, I'll retain transparency

With my ear to the ground, 
I've been waiting for that sound
I begin, I remain
Steady hands to guide your way
You will know, by the end
I would do it all again
Some things I can see from miles away
Ill give you my all so you might stay
Oh Pennsylvania you should know
This one is my Love my Heart my Home
Oh Pennsylvania you should know
This one is my Love my Heart my Home

Transparency

Roar Of The Ocean

I am in, I am out
I've been clouding up
And shutting down
All the choices I've made
I'm so far from the man I want to be
Like wearing someone else's clothes

I cant adjust, cause I
Don't know how its supposed to go

Im transfixed upon a thing thats out of reach
And I don't know when it got up there
How come every plan still falls apart?

I've been tangled up and miserable
Drowning in a sea of variables
I've forgotten what I'm really looking for

Every time, I draw breath
From beneath collapsing firmaments
I observe, never ends
I wait to cross between the stop and starts

I've stretched myself to make it here
But time is running out
And I don't have the strength to disappear

I Am In, I Am Out

I've been holding my breath for the last 90 days
And I don't wanna talk
But I still want an answer
'Cause it's hard to respect 
That you have forgotten
I never braced for anything
Striking me suddenly (… I) 
                                              
(… I) lost it all, 
I burned it down
So hard to say, 
Its over cause I used up all we had
Now I've got the time 
To take
It all
Apart

I never been so damn forgiving or patient
Is this enough departed lover?
The man that I was
Just won't let you forget
I never braced for anything
Striking me suddenly (… I)

The Last 90 Days

He cant keep up,
He'll never have the depth it takes to truly grasp your heart 
You're in denial, 
You think that if you give it time he'll be something he's not
It just gets worse, 
The pins & needles multiply the longer that you stretch 
You're not yourself, 
So tell me how it will unfold, when you're somebody else

You're almost right to think that you can help him
Understand his life the way we do
He's a child that has been spoiled rotten
All that you give, he'll never earn

No vaguely brilliant moments will ever cross his mind
You strain to make him equal, you settle for a lie

He shifts his eyes
The hesitation takes your breath with motives so askew 
You're burning out
Still worried that he'll break your heart, a sign for something new
So I will wait
And keep myself an open book, so you can read my heart
And as I fall
Ill let my life do all the talking, please start listening

You're almost right to think that you can help him
Understand his life the way we do
He's a child that has been spoiled rotten
All that you give, he'll never earn

No vaguely brilliant moments will ever cross his mind
You strain to make him equal, you settle for a lie
-- I've soaked up all you give me, When we connect our lives
-- We so many colors, He's only black and white

We Are So Many Colors

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